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Monday, June 21, 2010
Takers versus Givers
We all play both side of the fence at times but I do believe that most people fall predominantly in one of those categories. And there are other traits like selfless and selfish, dominant and submissive, open and closed...etc. etc. Self serving is a good word I guess. A lot of them men I have on my list are self serving. Even Mr. Organized seems to fall in that category, even though he is a giver. Mr. Porsche is a mix leaning more towards him and well the rest--are totally self serving individuals.
I found this quote on someones site from Nicholas Spark and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
"You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. It's actions, not words, that matter."
So I decided to really try to look at someones actions. Not only their actions but was my needs/desires a consideration as well in their decision making.
Today I had a very nice surprise, I got to see Mr. Porsche. He was in the area and he decided to surprise me. unfortunately, my time was limited. Things have changed with us. Not horrific, I think it is more that I have changed. I don't want to be stuck in a motel room every time, I would like to meet for lunch once in awhile but our time has been so limited lately. Our sex is unusual, in that it is more on the deviant level. His purpose is to make me cum (I can't complain). He also loves to get me to the point of pain versus ecstasy. Right at that threshold is definitely mind boggling, like I have said before it is like a game of pinball and the machine goes to tilt!!
So the sex? Its always deviant. He gets this devil look in his eye and I truly see the devil...lol He loves to chew on my nipples and we have sex with my legs in the air and as he thrusts he will have anal beads in my ass and a vibrator on my clit. He made me cum three times today and I can't even begin to tell you the amount of toys he has on the bed that we use. A toy for all purposes. Oh and he even has a vibrating ring on his cock....we are buzzing!! lol
I enjoy our time. we had a good day but there were a few incidences that made me think. He complained about my perfume (I know, it was cream that had a perfume). He feels the need lately to mention how he has no plans to get divorced, he told me to stop talking like a woman and start blowing him. And as we were joking around...well he was putting anal beads in me and he put them in my mouth as a lube. Excuse me sir, but with you and your prostate massager I have to use a whole bottle of lube. When it was his turn for the massager, I said...oh let me do the same...then he said, I will punch you in the face. Oh I was taken back. He quickly added with my knee but it came with a sense of anger that tears came to my eyes.Oh he would never hit me but for the first time he said it like he would.
And then I was quiet and concentrating on blowing him and using the prostate massager and I was just thinking. Thinking about our future, thinking about if I wanted to be here as much as I used to want to be here. And it wasn't anger on what he said, I was really soul searching. Oh this is still what I want, I do enjoy our time together but for the first time it hit me that we are not going to go on like this forever. And Mr. Porsche shocked me out of my thoughts when he said "You have such an intense look on your face right now." I smiled, he knows me so well. He can sense when I am distant or pre-occupied. He can tell from a hello whether my day was good or bad. I just smiled and did my magic. Yes, for a man who didn't think he was going to cum, I always manage to get him there. Finding his prostate has been amazing. Such a feeling sends him reeling out of control. He says his cock isn't even fully erect but I am able to make him cum and get that amazing aura. Its wild for him. Men, you should try it if you haven't.
But the funniest part of the day was that I set my alarm because the clock wasn't working. I had to be back at home and I couldn't be late so when that alarm went off I knew I had to fly. I was lying in his arms and then I started to massage his back and the alarm went off...."Oh, your time is up...gotta go!" And I jumped up and began to quickly dress. He laughed but it bothered him. He called me later and said the same thing...oh times up! well, well, well....that feeling he feels..that's it! That's the feeling I feel 99% of the time when he's running around. It felt good to turn the tables.
The sex itself...its deviant. My nipples are aching, my butt has a bite mark (his newest thing,like he wants to brand me) and my pussy is sore. So needless to say, my day with Mr. Organized, I am not as excited as I was last week. Truth is, I was suppose to see Mr. Astronaut tonight and he didn't even call so seeing Mr. Porsche was even better so it worked out. But I know I need to walk away from Mr. Astronaut.
I have a new date tomorrow night..I will let ya know how it goes.
Someone commented on my blog about the quantity of men. Oh, I get it, that is my point, the quantity is there but the quality is not. I am in search of a quality man but I have to kiss a lot of frogs to find that perfect prince charming and I am not settling.
Well off to bed...I have to rest my pussy for tomorrow. I hope I am horny, Mr. Organized has this romantic morning planned at a hotel and I am not into it.
Oh, the new look. I just decided to make a little change....did you think you weren't here?!!? lol I would love to take the time to really make the changes to my blog as I always wanted but there is never enough time. Its my baby!!
I found this quote on someones site from Nicholas Spark and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
"You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. It's actions, not words, that matter."
So I decided to really try to look at someones actions. Not only their actions but was my needs/desires a consideration as well in their decision making.
Today I had a very nice surprise, I got to see Mr. Porsche. He was in the area and he decided to surprise me. unfortunately, my time was limited. Things have changed with us. Not horrific, I think it is more that I have changed. I don't want to be stuck in a motel room every time, I would like to meet for lunch once in awhile but our time has been so limited lately. Our sex is unusual, in that it is more on the deviant level. His purpose is to make me cum (I can't complain). He also loves to get me to the point of pain versus ecstasy. Right at that threshold is definitely mind boggling, like I have said before it is like a game of pinball and the machine goes to tilt!!
So the sex? Its always deviant. He gets this devil look in his eye and I truly see the devil...lol He loves to chew on my nipples and we have sex with my legs in the air and as he thrusts he will have anal beads in my ass and a vibrator on my clit. He made me cum three times today and I can't even begin to tell you the amount of toys he has on the bed that we use. A toy for all purposes. Oh and he even has a vibrating ring on his cock....we are buzzing!! lol
I enjoy our time. we had a good day but there were a few incidences that made me think. He complained about my perfume (I know, it was cream that had a perfume). He feels the need lately to mention how he has no plans to get divorced, he told me to stop talking like a woman and start blowing him. And as we were joking around...well he was putting anal beads in me and he put them in my mouth as a lube. Excuse me sir, but with you and your prostate massager I have to use a whole bottle of lube. When it was his turn for the massager, I said...oh let me do the same...then he said, I will punch you in the face. Oh I was taken back. He quickly added with my knee but it came with a sense of anger that tears came to my eyes.Oh he would never hit me but for the first time he said it like he would.
And then I was quiet and concentrating on blowing him and using the prostate massager and I was just thinking. Thinking about our future, thinking about if I wanted to be here as much as I used to want to be here. And it wasn't anger on what he said, I was really soul searching. Oh this is still what I want, I do enjoy our time together but for the first time it hit me that we are not going to go on like this forever. And Mr. Porsche shocked me out of my thoughts when he said "You have such an intense look on your face right now." I smiled, he knows me so well. He can sense when I am distant or pre-occupied. He can tell from a hello whether my day was good or bad. I just smiled and did my magic. Yes, for a man who didn't think he was going to cum, I always manage to get him there. Finding his prostate has been amazing. Such a feeling sends him reeling out of control. He says his cock isn't even fully erect but I am able to make him cum and get that amazing aura. Its wild for him. Men, you should try it if you haven't.
But the funniest part of the day was that I set my alarm because the clock wasn't working. I had to be back at home and I couldn't be late so when that alarm went off I knew I had to fly. I was lying in his arms and then I started to massage his back and the alarm went off...."Oh, your time is up...gotta go!" And I jumped up and began to quickly dress. He laughed but it bothered him. He called me later and said the same thing...oh times up! well, well, well....that feeling he feels..that's it! That's the feeling I feel 99% of the time when he's running around. It felt good to turn the tables.
The sex itself...its deviant. My nipples are aching, my butt has a bite mark (his newest thing,like he wants to brand me) and my pussy is sore. So needless to say, my day with Mr. Organized, I am not as excited as I was last week. Truth is, I was suppose to see Mr. Astronaut tonight and he didn't even call so seeing Mr. Porsche was even better so it worked out. But I know I need to walk away from Mr. Astronaut.
I have a new date tomorrow night..I will let ya know how it goes.
Someone commented on my blog about the quantity of men. Oh, I get it, that is my point, the quantity is there but the quality is not. I am in search of a quality man but I have to kiss a lot of frogs to find that perfect prince charming and I am not settling.
Well off to bed...I have to rest my pussy for tomorrow. I hope I am horny, Mr. Organized has this romantic morning planned at a hotel and I am not into it.
Oh, the new look. I just decided to make a little change....did you think you weren't here?!!? lol I would love to take the time to really make the changes to my blog as I always wanted but there is never enough time. Its my baby!!
Monday, June 08, 2009
Was It Pleasure or Pain? How Many Orgasms Is Too Much?
As I had told you..I had been so damn horny I was jumping out of my skin. All I could think about was having sex....images of being thrusted from behind just filled my head...and Mr. Porsche couldn't resist a damsel in sexual distress.
He cleared his afternoon (which isn't easy so I did appreciate that) but he hit lots of traffic. I got the hotel room and waited naked in the bed for him. A prelude to this, I had masturbated earlier because I didn't want to cum immediately....but I still was damn horny. The anticipation was driving me crazy. The room has this little sitting area that if anyone wanted to watch us from outside....they certainly could see through the thin drapes. And this room also did not have the best sound proofing. Last time, we could hear a couple moaning in the next room.
I was certainly in a playful mood and I truly wanted to dominant and take control today. AND of course, that doesn't happen with Mr. Porsche. you would think he could let me take control even a little....nope. It's not an option for him which does annoys me. My vision was for him to come to the door and I would throw him up against the wall and I would attack him. I had to remember...that was Mystery Man..over, done....move on.
To entertain me, I had taken a body crayon I had found in the bottom of my bag. Hmm...I decided to mark off the areas of concentration for him with big arrows, I circled and pointed to my nipples, my lips and my pussy. I didn't want to waste time for him to find the important spots.
I am now getting frustrated. I mean what is taking so long...the phone rings, "where are you? I can't wait anymore, I may die of horniness!" He laughs...I'm still a little away..just relax and think of how wonderful I am going to make you feel. I have plans for you today". And with that sinister laugh, I felt my heart jump and my nipples harden. Little did I know what he had planned.
I hung up the phone and there was a knock on the door. I was startled. Who the hell is this? I should have known....you see Mr. Porsche loves to keep me off guard. It was him, I was shocked. I opened the door and stood beside it totally naked. He smiled. He walked in and I leaned into him...wanting to push him up against the door but that wasn't his plan. Giggling he said..wait, let me get settled...go lay down...pouting, I did. And then he saw the arrows and gave me that look. The look that I get from lovers when they think I am insane but truly loving it. I began reaching for him from the bed and he quickly put a blindfold on me.
"Hey...I want to see you, I want to attack you"....but I gave in. A blindfold always gives me that extra edge to experiment and it even increases my desire to experiment. I think its the fact that I can't see my body flaws...silly as it sounds but if I see one of my body flaws during sex, my orgasm declines and my mind wanders..with a blindfold, its as if he can't see them either.
So now I am on the end of the bed, reaching for him. Listening to his sounds as he undresses and trying to reach for his cock. Almost got it...but he managed to come around and smack me in the face with it a few times. I was hysterical laughing. There is nothing like a cock coming out of no where and smacking ya in the face and then when you grab for it...it is gone. I felt like it was a Mexican pinata...and if I gave it one good grab....all the prizes would come my way.
I was an easy prey since I had the blindfold on....he gently reached for my hand and kissed me...a luscious kiss...filled with passion and with the kiss, there was a japanese rope slipped on my wrist. I bucked like a wild animal fighting the other hand to be bound. This isn't what I wanted, I wanted control. But Mr. Porsche won..he is not the biggest man but he is so damn strong. The second arm was tied behind my back, any hope of control was gone.
He unpacked his toys and threw them on the bed...and proceeded to kiss, lick and nibble on each of my pointed areas....first my lips and then he moved to each nipple and moved his way to my pussy. I could hear myself moaning...I wanted sex today. I wanted to orgasm and he was going to take me there.
But first, he wanted to hypnotize me. I truly love it. It makes me relax. It makes my body total release all the stresses. I literally go deeper and deeper as I listen to his voice. Oh how I love it when he gets my body to agree that each sensation is heightened....that each gentle touch makes my body tingle and my clit fill to almost explosion. He has feasted on my nipples which he absolutely loves. I know that is his favorite part of my body....he sucks on them and nibbles on them like they were a succulent delicacy....its hot. And then his fingers begin to spread my lips. He first puts his fingers in my mouth and has me suck them and then he goes to my clit doing circles....inserting one finger and then two...I can feel my back arching a little. I am determined to hold off...I try not to cum. He knows I am fighting it and well....he is determined to make me cum. It's a control thing. Now that I look back, I realize that is probably the only thing I can control in this state....and like a spoiled child I am going to be stubborn. Hold back that orgasm.
However, he is prepared for my resistance....and he bites my nipples as if he knew what I was thinking....there is such a fine line between pleasure and pain and with my body in such a relaxed state, the bite sends explosive sparks throughout my whole body. He now inserts my favorite toy...oh I know it well...and my body responds...deep inside of me, you can feel and hear the wetness now. Suck on my fingers as if it were my cock....the deeper you go, the more intense your orgasm will be....in this relaxed state, I am able to take his two fingers deep into my throat without even a gag.
He is determined to make me cum. And now he is back at working my pussy....the toy going in and out and now he means business. He knows that my ass is so damn sensitive and can make me cum....he begins to insert anal beads...I am trying to resist but the wave is coming stronger and stronger....the beads are in place and now he thrusts the toy deep inside of me and it goes deeper and deeper and the feeling to cum is just overwhelming, I can't resist anymore...and with a moan and my back arching....my body begins to pulsate and the juices flowing...it was intense, it was amazing.
But Mr. Porsche is not satisfied with that one hot orgasmic orgasm. This is where it becomes a true question of what feels good and what feels too good...I need a minute or two...my clit is always so sensitive, I need ride the orgasmic wave but he won't allow that. He is determined to make me orgasm over and over again. He now goes in with his fingers. You see, he recently found my G Spot. Oh he as found it before but the last few weeks, it is as if there is a button there and he knows exactly where to go. The orgasmic wave comes again and I am literally thrashing on the bed...squirming and almost begging him to stop. At this point, my mind is in a state of confusion. you have to remember, he stripped me down, all my walls had been down, my body in relaxation and then all these orgasms...it was too much for me.
One second it felt amazing and the next it was painful. My head was relaxed, orgasming...I don't know...is it possible that it was too much excitement at once? He was biting my nipples and hitting my Gspot and I was screaming now and moaning (and the people in the next room heard us!) I heard the man say somethign about sex (yes the walls are thin). Geez, I was so damn loud...but it was almost like an out of body experience....and suddenly...Tears started to roll down my face. I can't explain it, I wasn't crying because of something...my body was responding...I have never cried during sex but the tears were flowing and I was shocked..."please give me a minute, please I need a minute". But he wasn't backing down...he continued to make me orgasm again and again..."pull out the beads...come on, you have more...pull out the beads".....And with my last bit of energy, I pulled out the beads and a moan of pleasure escaped me.....he flipped me over and I was beyond exhaustion....all I remember saying is my hands, my hands..you have to take off the ropes...please...I combination of severe pain and a desire to be free overwhelmed me.
It wasn't his fault, the ropes get tighter and tighter the more you resist. As you can imagine, I was pulling and pulling and they were cutting into my skin. He quickly removed them and the blind fold as I lied on my stomach attempting to collect myself. I couldn't sort out what I was feeling. It was a combination of every emotion possible. It was amazing yet disturbing. It felt great yet there was pain. It was overwhelming to the point of crying. WOW...it was intense and I enjoyed myself but I couldn't put my finger on if I liked it. I've never really gotten to the point where I couldn't sort out my feelings. Think about it..in life we know what we are feeling and can categorize it. I couldn't categorize this at all.
My wrists were left with marks....geez..good thing I wear bracelets and a watch..I had rope marks on my hands. Now that would be great if I got into an accident...can you imagine the forensic reports...unexplained rope marks on her hands...it was starting to turn a little black and blue. I lied there for a second....caught my breath..he took the mask off and kissed me gently. After a few deep breaths...I got my shit together....I am a fighter...I am not going to give up....laying exhausted on the bed I lifted my head up and turned to him with a sheepish smile and look and sternly said...."So are you going to fuck me today or what?" He laughed and placed the condom on and entered me from behind...our fingers entwined as he thrusted from behind. Mmmmmmm.......when his cock is hard..it feels so good. As he fills me up...it sends a balance throughout my body...I turn my head back and we begin to passionately kiss and I suck on his tongue as he goes deeper and deeper inside of me.
Mr, Porsche never comes in me. After I orgasmed again (and yes, he was right, he could blow on me and I would probably keep orgasming)....I went to work sucking his cock. Oh it is work to get him to cum but I am determined. Massaging his balls, and rubbing his cock..my lips working it up and down.....I was going to make him cum....as I went near his ass, it wasn't feeling so great for him....I laughed..after all you did to me and my ass you expect me to stop?!? I did but talk about a hypocrite....Finally after my fingers and mouth sucking his cock with determination....he began to cum and I opened my mouth wide...the cum squirted inside and literally made a pool in my mouth....my mouth was filled with cum and it was all over....I think he came a gallon...lol
I crawled my way up to his arms, and we laid there entwined. I love being in a man's arms. I miss and crave that affection...but today, something wasn't right. He was distant. I love to passionately kiss but his kisses weren't passionate. There was something there...a wall...something wasn't right. That pussycat wasn't there today....I felt as if...he was doing this because he had to not wanted to. Like...okay, here is your scheduled 10 minutes you require. I just got up after a few minutes and went into the shower. He followed and knew something was up...I don't pass up cuddle time.
His demeanor changed...he was chatty now and realized something was up with me and I asked..are you okay? Which when I say it a certain way...has a what the fuck was that tone... I'm stressed....I have a lot on my mind, its not you. What is it? And we showered talking about stuff that was bothering him. Things I understood about the pressure, about missing out on family things because of problems at work, major problems at work he was having....I am so glad we can talk. It feels so good to me to know we communicate like that and that I can be there for him.
So....it is days later....and I am still not sure what to make of the day. Giving up all your control is not an easy thing, well its not easy for me. I can't even tell you how many times I orgasmed or how many times I screamed of pleasure. But its the lack of control that makes me uneasy. Let's just say....he succeeded...I have not been horny again until today. Once in awhile, a day like that is different, fun to experiment but I need passionate, controlled by me sex too! Hmmmmm....an emotional rollercoaster....but I wanted to experiment...so no complaints....
The last few days, my mindset has been changing. It's good...it's scary....I have been really examining my life. More tomorrow...this is a long ass post....
He cleared his afternoon (which isn't easy so I did appreciate that) but he hit lots of traffic. I got the hotel room and waited naked in the bed for him. A prelude to this, I had masturbated earlier because I didn't want to cum immediately....but I still was damn horny. The anticipation was driving me crazy. The room has this little sitting area that if anyone wanted to watch us from outside....they certainly could see through the thin drapes. And this room also did not have the best sound proofing. Last time, we could hear a couple moaning in the next room.
I was certainly in a playful mood and I truly wanted to dominant and take control today. AND of course, that doesn't happen with Mr. Porsche. you would think he could let me take control even a little....nope. It's not an option for him which does annoys me. My vision was for him to come to the door and I would throw him up against the wall and I would attack him. I had to remember...that was Mystery Man..over, done....move on.
To entertain me, I had taken a body crayon I had found in the bottom of my bag. Hmm...I decided to mark off the areas of concentration for him with big arrows, I circled and pointed to my nipples, my lips and my pussy. I didn't want to waste time for him to find the important spots.
I am now getting frustrated. I mean what is taking so long...the phone rings, "where are you? I can't wait anymore, I may die of horniness!" He laughs...I'm still a little away..just relax and think of how wonderful I am going to make you feel. I have plans for you today". And with that sinister laugh, I felt my heart jump and my nipples harden. Little did I know what he had planned.
I hung up the phone and there was a knock on the door. I was startled. Who the hell is this? I should have known....you see Mr. Porsche loves to keep me off guard. It was him, I was shocked. I opened the door and stood beside it totally naked. He smiled. He walked in and I leaned into him...wanting to push him up against the door but that wasn't his plan. Giggling he said..wait, let me get settled...go lay down...pouting, I did. And then he saw the arrows and gave me that look. The look that I get from lovers when they think I am insane but truly loving it. I began reaching for him from the bed and he quickly put a blindfold on me.
"Hey...I want to see you, I want to attack you"....but I gave in. A blindfold always gives me that extra edge to experiment and it even increases my desire to experiment. I think its the fact that I can't see my body flaws...silly as it sounds but if I see one of my body flaws during sex, my orgasm declines and my mind wanders..with a blindfold, its as if he can't see them either.
So now I am on the end of the bed, reaching for him. Listening to his sounds as he undresses and trying to reach for his cock. Almost got it...but he managed to come around and smack me in the face with it a few times. I was hysterical laughing. There is nothing like a cock coming out of no where and smacking ya in the face and then when you grab for it...it is gone. I felt like it was a Mexican pinata...and if I gave it one good grab....all the prizes would come my way.
I was an easy prey since I had the blindfold on....he gently reached for my hand and kissed me...a luscious kiss...filled with passion and with the kiss, there was a japanese rope slipped on my wrist. I bucked like a wild animal fighting the other hand to be bound. This isn't what I wanted, I wanted control. But Mr. Porsche won..he is not the biggest man but he is so damn strong. The second arm was tied behind my back, any hope of control was gone.
He unpacked his toys and threw them on the bed...and proceeded to kiss, lick and nibble on each of my pointed areas....first my lips and then he moved to each nipple and moved his way to my pussy. I could hear myself moaning...I wanted sex today. I wanted to orgasm and he was going to take me there.
But first, he wanted to hypnotize me. I truly love it. It makes me relax. It makes my body total release all the stresses. I literally go deeper and deeper as I listen to his voice. Oh how I love it when he gets my body to agree that each sensation is heightened....that each gentle touch makes my body tingle and my clit fill to almost explosion. He has feasted on my nipples which he absolutely loves. I know that is his favorite part of my body....he sucks on them and nibbles on them like they were a succulent delicacy....its hot. And then his fingers begin to spread my lips. He first puts his fingers in my mouth and has me suck them and then he goes to my clit doing circles....inserting one finger and then two...I can feel my back arching a little. I am determined to hold off...I try not to cum. He knows I am fighting it and well....he is determined to make me cum. It's a control thing. Now that I look back, I realize that is probably the only thing I can control in this state....and like a spoiled child I am going to be stubborn. Hold back that orgasm.
However, he is prepared for my resistance....and he bites my nipples as if he knew what I was thinking....there is such a fine line between pleasure and pain and with my body in such a relaxed state, the bite sends explosive sparks throughout my whole body. He now inserts my favorite toy...oh I know it well...and my body responds...deep inside of me, you can feel and hear the wetness now. Suck on my fingers as if it were my cock....the deeper you go, the more intense your orgasm will be....in this relaxed state, I am able to take his two fingers deep into my throat without even a gag.
He is determined to make me cum. And now he is back at working my pussy....the toy going in and out and now he means business. He knows that my ass is so damn sensitive and can make me cum....he begins to insert anal beads...I am trying to resist but the wave is coming stronger and stronger....the beads are in place and now he thrusts the toy deep inside of me and it goes deeper and deeper and the feeling to cum is just overwhelming, I can't resist anymore...and with a moan and my back arching....my body begins to pulsate and the juices flowing...it was intense, it was amazing.
But Mr. Porsche is not satisfied with that one hot orgasmic orgasm. This is where it becomes a true question of what feels good and what feels too good...I need a minute or two...my clit is always so sensitive, I need ride the orgasmic wave but he won't allow that. He is determined to make me orgasm over and over again. He now goes in with his fingers. You see, he recently found my G Spot. Oh he as found it before but the last few weeks, it is as if there is a button there and he knows exactly where to go. The orgasmic wave comes again and I am literally thrashing on the bed...squirming and almost begging him to stop. At this point, my mind is in a state of confusion. you have to remember, he stripped me down, all my walls had been down, my body in relaxation and then all these orgasms...it was too much for me.
One second it felt amazing and the next it was painful. My head was relaxed, orgasming...I don't know...is it possible that it was too much excitement at once? He was biting my nipples and hitting my Gspot and I was screaming now and moaning (and the people in the next room heard us!) I heard the man say somethign about sex (yes the walls are thin). Geez, I was so damn loud...but it was almost like an out of body experience....and suddenly...Tears started to roll down my face. I can't explain it, I wasn't crying because of something...my body was responding...I have never cried during sex but the tears were flowing and I was shocked..."please give me a minute, please I need a minute". But he wasn't backing down...he continued to make me orgasm again and again..."pull out the beads...come on, you have more...pull out the beads".....And with my last bit of energy, I pulled out the beads and a moan of pleasure escaped me.....he flipped me over and I was beyond exhaustion....all I remember saying is my hands, my hands..you have to take off the ropes...please...I combination of severe pain and a desire to be free overwhelmed me.
It wasn't his fault, the ropes get tighter and tighter the more you resist. As you can imagine, I was pulling and pulling and they were cutting into my skin. He quickly removed them and the blind fold as I lied on my stomach attempting to collect myself. I couldn't sort out what I was feeling. It was a combination of every emotion possible. It was amazing yet disturbing. It felt great yet there was pain. It was overwhelming to the point of crying. WOW...it was intense and I enjoyed myself but I couldn't put my finger on if I liked it. I've never really gotten to the point where I couldn't sort out my feelings. Think about it..in life we know what we are feeling and can categorize it. I couldn't categorize this at all.
My wrists were left with marks....geez..good thing I wear bracelets and a watch..I had rope marks on my hands. Now that would be great if I got into an accident...can you imagine the forensic reports...unexplained rope marks on her hands...it was starting to turn a little black and blue. I lied there for a second....caught my breath..he took the mask off and kissed me gently. After a few deep breaths...I got my shit together....I am a fighter...I am not going to give up....laying exhausted on the bed I lifted my head up and turned to him with a sheepish smile and look and sternly said...."So are you going to fuck me today or what?" He laughed and placed the condom on and entered me from behind...our fingers entwined as he thrusted from behind. Mmmmmmm.......when his cock is hard..it feels so good. As he fills me up...it sends a balance throughout my body...I turn my head back and we begin to passionately kiss and I suck on his tongue as he goes deeper and deeper inside of me.
Mr, Porsche never comes in me. After I orgasmed again (and yes, he was right, he could blow on me and I would probably keep orgasming)....I went to work sucking his cock. Oh it is work to get him to cum but I am determined. Massaging his balls, and rubbing his cock..my lips working it up and down.....I was going to make him cum....as I went near his ass, it wasn't feeling so great for him....I laughed..after all you did to me and my ass you expect me to stop?!? I did but talk about a hypocrite....Finally after my fingers and mouth sucking his cock with determination....he began to cum and I opened my mouth wide...the cum squirted inside and literally made a pool in my mouth....my mouth was filled with cum and it was all over....I think he came a gallon...lol
I crawled my way up to his arms, and we laid there entwined. I love being in a man's arms. I miss and crave that affection...but today, something wasn't right. He was distant. I love to passionately kiss but his kisses weren't passionate. There was something there...a wall...something wasn't right. That pussycat wasn't there today....I felt as if...he was doing this because he had to not wanted to. Like...okay, here is your scheduled 10 minutes you require. I just got up after a few minutes and went into the shower. He followed and knew something was up...I don't pass up cuddle time.
His demeanor changed...he was chatty now and realized something was up with me and I asked..are you okay? Which when I say it a certain way...has a what the fuck was that tone... I'm stressed....I have a lot on my mind, its not you. What is it? And we showered talking about stuff that was bothering him. Things I understood about the pressure, about missing out on family things because of problems at work, major problems at work he was having....I am so glad we can talk. It feels so good to me to know we communicate like that and that I can be there for him.
So....it is days later....and I am still not sure what to make of the day. Giving up all your control is not an easy thing, well its not easy for me. I can't even tell you how many times I orgasmed or how many times I screamed of pleasure. But its the lack of control that makes me uneasy. Let's just say....he succeeded...I have not been horny again until today. Once in awhile, a day like that is different, fun to experiment but I need passionate, controlled by me sex too! Hmmmmm....an emotional rollercoaster....but I wanted to experiment...so no complaints....
The last few days, my mindset has been changing. It's good...it's scary....I have been really examining my life. More tomorrow...this is a long ass post....
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Sex Like I Have Never Had Before....
I can barely walk last night and this morning. Last week, I thought sex was amazing with Mystery Man. Today, it was a blissful sex marathon. We usually spend 3 hours, today my present was 6 hours. No we didn't just lay around...we fucked, sucked and did so much the entire time. I don't think we missed any position and we actually discovered a few more that were amazing. I have never left where my pussy was aching....today, still wet and dripping....my pussy reached its maximum capacity!! I couldn't fuck another minute...our last screw ended up us giggling and laughing because we realized our cup had just runneth over....we were sexed out! Now it takes a lot to get to that point. So you can imagine how many times we fucked. Six condoms (and we were using them for awhile)...no he didn't cum six times (geez) but he was hard as a rock....and he knows how to use it.
There was a twist to our usually meetings today. Besides from the sex....we laughed. Now we have laughed before.....but I am talking about like belly laughing and snorting and laughing so hard that tears were coming to my eyes. We both were laughing and it was so nice. Gotta tell ya, he is hilarious. Examples...in a conversation he called me Little Blow Peep.....then Betty Cocker...something about playing a Skin flute as my talent, his the Skin Tuba!...Honestly, I laugh because I love to be happy but this was a different laugh. This was that hysterical...good for the soul laughing.
The sexual day was well no words can describe it. Every position, at least 15-20 times we screwed and 69nd for the longest time with me on top and him on top. With my arms pinned under his legs and my head off the bed.
He blindfolded me...what a bizarre feeling....liked it but was very hard at first to allow it...a little panic....but i worked through it and it was hot....super hot. He led me to the end of the bed, he undressed me....piece by piece seducing me as he went. WOW! And then he placed me back down and began to eat me. Not having my sight and just the feel each lick and suck was magnified. I was gasping....of course he made me cum and then he pulled me to the end of the bed...finding a position that was unique--not sure why....but just moving over an inch makes a world of difference.....I was kind of on my side, with my leg up and he was from behind or in front of me going deep,deep, deep inside of me. Finding spots that no man has gone before!! It was amazing....
Then he led me to the floor and he fucked me from behind....both of us cumming as he pounded me with his cock...my juices were flowing and so were his....the feeling of his cock entering me was so hot....I needed him,I wanted him....deeper, deeper, faster,faster.
We then proceeded to fucking in the jacuzzi and this tile area they have, then with my legs totally above my head (i knocked the painting off the wall)...he loves that I am so flexible (left over from my dancing days) and he takes advantage of that...with my legs split open--with my legs totally over my head,one leg up in the air...pumping me, me moaning and screaming more baby, more baby....my favorite position was my legs up in the air and him pumping me like a frog....how ironic is that...the frog position!!
Yes, I have had sex with other people (duh) but with him...it is seriously an unbelievable sexual connection. He makes me cum over and over and over. I should take notes as we are fucking....how many different ways I can cum! For a girl who never orgasmed, I made up for it just in this one session!
For my birthday cake, he brought chocolate frosting and we covered his cock up in frosting and he sang happy birthday to me....and then I ate my whole cake. Oh yummy! I love sucking on his cock and coincidently, he can't get enough of me doing it too! I am expanding my sucking talents...I am getting pretty good....he loves when I just suck the head tight and over and over again..nice and wet making slurping noises. He loves when I go down and do tongue twirls while he is in my mouth. Then I go up and own his shaft with my lips....(the inside for softness)....and our my newest practice....deep throating. It drives him wild!!!!! But I have to work on the gag reflex. I was the type when I saw the doctor coming with that stick, I would begin gagging.....negotiating at a young age not to use it.
It amazes me how he can tell how far into my throat he is. By the end of the day...baby, I got his whole cock in my mouth,my gag reflex wasn't really there and he was down my throat, I could feel him moving my uvula out of the way...yes, seeing him love it so much was a high for me.
There was so much we did...oh...I love it fast and deep but what really turns me on also is when he goes slow and pulls all the way out and then goes back in and then pulls out and then thrusts back in....its the separation of my walls that are so hot and sexual.
And with all that, there is a part of me that is still angry with him. He is so damn stubborn...but I will think about that another day. Honestly, I know there is only so long I can put up with his Mystery but for now...well, I had my day in sexual paradise!
And its my BIRTHDAY!!! WOO HOO!!! Sadly, not a word from my son or husband (major war broke out last night here..I almost called the cops). There is a lot of shit but not today, today is my birthday!! I believe in a stress free (as much as possible day). That is my present to myself!
There was a twist to our usually meetings today. Besides from the sex....we laughed. Now we have laughed before.....but I am talking about like belly laughing and snorting and laughing so hard that tears were coming to my eyes. We both were laughing and it was so nice. Gotta tell ya, he is hilarious. Examples...in a conversation he called me Little Blow Peep.....then Betty Cocker...something about playing a Skin flute as my talent, his the Skin Tuba!...Honestly, I laugh because I love to be happy but this was a different laugh. This was that hysterical...good for the soul laughing.
The sexual day was well no words can describe it. Every position, at least 15-20 times we screwed and 69nd for the longest time with me on top and him on top. With my arms pinned under his legs and my head off the bed.
He blindfolded me...what a bizarre feeling....liked it but was very hard at first to allow it...a little panic....but i worked through it and it was hot....super hot. He led me to the end of the bed, he undressed me....piece by piece seducing me as he went. WOW! And then he placed me back down and began to eat me. Not having my sight and just the feel each lick and suck was magnified. I was gasping....of course he made me cum and then he pulled me to the end of the bed...finding a position that was unique--not sure why....but just moving over an inch makes a world of difference.....I was kind of on my side, with my leg up and he was from behind or in front of me going deep,deep, deep inside of me. Finding spots that no man has gone before!! It was amazing....
Then he led me to the floor and he fucked me from behind....both of us cumming as he pounded me with his cock...my juices were flowing and so were his....the feeling of his cock entering me was so hot....I needed him,I wanted him....deeper, deeper, faster,faster.
We then proceeded to fucking in the jacuzzi and this tile area they have, then with my legs totally above my head (i knocked the painting off the wall)...he loves that I am so flexible (left over from my dancing days) and he takes advantage of that...with my legs split open--with my legs totally over my head,one leg up in the air...pumping me, me moaning and screaming more baby, more baby....my favorite position was my legs up in the air and him pumping me like a frog....how ironic is that...the frog position!!
Yes, I have had sex with other people (duh) but with him...it is seriously an unbelievable sexual connection. He makes me cum over and over and over. I should take notes as we are fucking....how many different ways I can cum! For a girl who never orgasmed, I made up for it just in this one session!
For my birthday cake, he brought chocolate frosting and we covered his cock up in frosting and he sang happy birthday to me....and then I ate my whole cake. Oh yummy! I love sucking on his cock and coincidently, he can't get enough of me doing it too! I am expanding my sucking talents...I am getting pretty good....he loves when I just suck the head tight and over and over again..nice and wet making slurping noises. He loves when I go down and do tongue twirls while he is in my mouth. Then I go up and own his shaft with my lips....(the inside for softness)....and our my newest practice....deep throating. It drives him wild!!!!! But I have to work on the gag reflex. I was the type when I saw the doctor coming with that stick, I would begin gagging.....negotiating at a young age not to use it.
It amazes me how he can tell how far into my throat he is. By the end of the day...baby, I got his whole cock in my mouth,my gag reflex wasn't really there and he was down my throat, I could feel him moving my uvula out of the way...yes, seeing him love it so much was a high for me.
There was so much we did...oh...I love it fast and deep but what really turns me on also is when he goes slow and pulls all the way out and then goes back in and then pulls out and then thrusts back in....its the separation of my walls that are so hot and sexual.
And with all that, there is a part of me that is still angry with him. He is so damn stubborn...but I will think about that another day. Honestly, I know there is only so long I can put up with his Mystery but for now...well, I had my day in sexual paradise!
And its my BIRTHDAY!!! WOO HOO!!! Sadly, not a word from my son or husband (major war broke out last night here..I almost called the cops). There is a lot of shit but not today, today is my birthday!! I believe in a stress free (as much as possible day). That is my present to myself!
Saturday, September 23, 2006
A Secret Lover Rendezvous - Part 3
Mr. Prize has had many affairs. I guess when you are experimenting with orgies the numbers can rack up pretty fast. Our life expectancy would be about December 18th at the rate he has gone. Now there are ups and downs to that. The down--he has had many affairs (I know I have repeated myself--its not a typo). I found myself different with him. I was the student, he was the teacher. Where in my situations before--we were either on equal ground or I was the aggressive one. Here I was the follower and he was the leader.
I had nothing to teach him. I'm sure he has experienced it all before. So, I allowed him to take the leading role. Something unique for me, but enjoyable none the less.
He took my hand a led me off the bed. We were now standing on kissing. Slowly he lowered me to my knees and he pushed my head to his cock. Quite the submissive role. He was in charge and I was following his lead. He thrusted his cock deeper and deeper into my mouth as he stood and I knelt. His hand held my head steady to get the right angle and right penetration. It was quite the submissive role, I could feel my vulnerability. Yet, I did enjoy it. So nice for someone to be in control for a change. Aah!! I had always thought I would enjoy being in a submissive position and yes..I did.
We returned to the bed and it was my turn now. Yes, my favorite position...from behind! He angled me perfectly and deeply went inside of me. I could feel him hitting just the right spot for my body to react. It was nice, it was intense...it was my favorite thing in the world!! Thrusting faster and faster, deeper and deeper....and he started to spank me. Not hard, but just enough to make me feel the sensation. It was hot. I haven't been spanked in many a years.
He slowly pulled me toward the end of the bed. He was standing and I was in a perfect position. He was toying with my ass. And then he inserted....relax, was all I could remember saying in my head..and so I did. The sensation of him in my ass was amazing. It was like enhanced sex..not painful like I had imagined, in fact, it was quite erotic. To my surprise, he went in with no problem and except for the increased in the orgasm, I was kind of surprised at how it felt so great. So much so that I kept asking him if he had been in my ass.
Well I am sure, I love anal sex! From that angle it didn't hurt but with each thrust I could feel myself increasing in desire. Yes, i can see anal sex is now on my list of things to do on a regular basis.
He went back to fucking me from behind on the bed and we both orgasmed at the same time. It was amazing. We hung out, we talked, we had a good time. What a strange feeling to be so close to a stranger. Have such a connection with a stranger.
Will we have a rendezvous again?? Actually I don't know. The distance is tough but reality is...I don't think I am enough for him. Here is a man who has experienced so much and so many woman in life. It was a phenomenal, phenomenal experience which I wouldn't trade for anything AND I enjoy talking with him. He mentally stimulates me as well. But I am looking for someone who is into me. Someone who wants a one to one affair that we both can enjoy each other. Mr. Prize loves sex, he loves woman and he loves experimenting.
So who knows.....time will tell. But if it doesn't work out, hey, I accomplished a couple of things on my Wish List all in one night!!
I had nothing to teach him. I'm sure he has experienced it all before. So, I allowed him to take the leading role. Something unique for me, but enjoyable none the less.
He took my hand a led me off the bed. We were now standing on kissing. Slowly he lowered me to my knees and he pushed my head to his cock. Quite the submissive role. He was in charge and I was following his lead. He thrusted his cock deeper and deeper into my mouth as he stood and I knelt. His hand held my head steady to get the right angle and right penetration. It was quite the submissive role, I could feel my vulnerability. Yet, I did enjoy it. So nice for someone to be in control for a change. Aah!! I had always thought I would enjoy being in a submissive position and yes..I did.
We returned to the bed and it was my turn now. Yes, my favorite position...from behind! He angled me perfectly and deeply went inside of me. I could feel him hitting just the right spot for my body to react. It was nice, it was intense...it was my favorite thing in the world!! Thrusting faster and faster, deeper and deeper....and he started to spank me. Not hard, but just enough to make me feel the sensation. It was hot. I haven't been spanked in many a years.
He slowly pulled me toward the end of the bed. He was standing and I was in a perfect position. He was toying with my ass. And then he inserted....relax, was all I could remember saying in my head..and so I did. The sensation of him in my ass was amazing. It was like enhanced sex..not painful like I had imagined, in fact, it was quite erotic. To my surprise, he went in with no problem and except for the increased in the orgasm, I was kind of surprised at how it felt so great. So much so that I kept asking him if he had been in my ass.
Well I am sure, I love anal sex! From that angle it didn't hurt but with each thrust I could feel myself increasing in desire. Yes, i can see anal sex is now on my list of things to do on a regular basis.
He went back to fucking me from behind on the bed and we both orgasmed at the same time. It was amazing. We hung out, we talked, we had a good time. What a strange feeling to be so close to a stranger. Have such a connection with a stranger.
Will we have a rendezvous again?? Actually I don't know. The distance is tough but reality is...I don't think I am enough for him. Here is a man who has experienced so much and so many woman in life. It was a phenomenal, phenomenal experience which I wouldn't trade for anything AND I enjoy talking with him. He mentally stimulates me as well. But I am looking for someone who is into me. Someone who wants a one to one affair that we both can enjoy each other. Mr. Prize loves sex, he loves woman and he loves experimenting.
So who knows.....time will tell. But if it doesn't work out, hey, I accomplished a couple of things on my Wish List all in one night!!
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