Suck Me Back In

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Do You Believe In Fate?

Life is so strange sometimes and the most bizarre things do happen. Four years ago, I had been going to places to have a party for my son. I went to one place where there was a live band and my girlfriend and I had an amazing time. I actually ended up having the party in that place. That night we had run into a group of cops and we hung with them. I am sure I blogged about it. Mr. Government had been texting me and this cop had looked over my shoulder and was reading my phone....hey, I giggled. Hey you are married, who are you sending those texts to? I laughed and said....I should stay away from government employees...its a guy who works in your line of work sort of. He made a comment....oh you need to stay away from men like us. I went to the bathroom and the guy was gone.

so that was the prelude to the story...

I was searching on Ashley Madison and another site when I came across this guy. when I clicked on his pix, I started to laugh. He was everything that I usually do not go for in looks (shaven bald) and he was in law enforcement. I started to laugh....I can pick out a law enforcement ageny for miles....I am drawn to them. Last night, that guy sent me a note asking if I would like to talk. I wrote back....I am not into bald men and I have sworn off any form of law enforcement. He wrote back some hysterical line like wow, now that's my luck a double whammy and then he told me his name anyway.

A light bulb went off in my head.... hey, here is a bizarre question...have you ever been to that bar. I think we met there one night? I thought this guy looked like that guy from that night. but really, what were the chances. He wrote back yes, I do and now I remember you. Oh please, its been four years, he is single, he flirts with millions of girls, he doesn't remember me and its probably not him... so I said...well if it is you and you do remember me...tell me something about that night..

He wrote back....the name of the band that was playing that night, exactly where we were standing, he remembered I was with another blonde, he remembered I was married, that I was texting Mr. Government and the color sweater I was wearing! HOLY SHIT! I didn't even remember all that.

You left without saying goodby...I said. He responded, I didn't think you were interested...you had a boyfriend, you were married and I wasn't going to make a fool out of myself and pursue you. Last night, we spoke online for two hours. And he is so funny. I gave him my number and told him to call or text me.... and he made some sly comment like...oh so some other guy in a bar can tell you to stay away from me like I told you about that guy. Then when I went to my phone he had text me.... Here's my number..to my old new friend.

And then I got caught in a whirlwind of my romantic fate beliefs. It always blows my mind that you may meet someone in your life for a brief, short second and then they re-appear so many years later. Like as if, there was a sign coming down from the stars to give you a little taste. I mean the first meeting should have been uneventful for both of us. I would not be able to pick out any of his friends that were there. I would not remember anybody I met at a bar in the past year. But somehow this guy stuck in my memory and I stuck in his. Life is so strange. things happen to us that make no sense and then later on, its as if the mystery is solved. So what is with this guy? What is he suppose to mean in my life? Everything has a purpose, its just hard to know what that may be sometimes.......
do you believe in fate?

Ashley Madison Agency - A Hottie I Would Love To Do!

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A Calm Weekend

I had such a nice weekend...Long Distance Lover managed to be with me by text all weekend..it was so nice to fall asleep to a good night text and wake to one. It was so nice to get notes throughout the day telling me how he wished he could be with me.

I think when you haven't connected with your spouse in so long...it is a great feeling to feel wanted. I think you appreciate those little notes more and you love to give them back. I think we are both enjoying giving to each other...it feels so good.

We've never met but he makes me feel so good...he makes me feel so secure. It's a good feeling not having to wonder whether he's into me or not. I started planning our meeting since I know the area better. Now hotels are a totally different story...what do I know about hotels but I've narrowed it down to two that are not sleazy. One is actually a couple hotel (okay..that is clean but has funky theme rooms)....and the other is just your everyday nice room. Actually I don't care which one as long as we can be together. The anticipation has kept me so damn wet and horny.

On a side note, I got a few amazing notes from some of you who hide in the frog pond and never leave notes...I actually want to post one of them. Such an open, honest and true way that I felt about an affair. The truth..most of us go there...in desperation. It's the end of our rope....we desperately need to feel needed. We desperately need to feel that excitement in our hearts....we yearn to feel attractive, to feel someone is attracted to us.....there's a huge hole in our hearts.

Thank you for sharing your feelings. Some of you read this blog and have not crossed the line nor do you plan on it....and others are contemplating while others have crossed the line. Well, no one will judge you whatever choice you take. Of course, the smartest, the easiest and the best turn out is if you can bring that spark and connection back to your marriage. Many of us have tried with no success...and then..you end up flirting with me on Ashley Madison...(hee.hee) okay I was getting a little too bummed being so philosophical....

Have a great Monday!! Woo Hoo....I have a feeling this week is going to go sooooo damn slow for me. I hope we like each other when we see each other. Personally, I know I am going to be so damn attracted to him. I already am....his personality, his caring, his fucking hot looks.....oh yum!! We may be able to sneak away on Saturday....how amazing will that be.....sigh....