Yes, here is a rant. I just do not get men. I don't and I am beginning to think I never will. I have a boss who calls me concerned how upset I am. Yes, first time in my life I showed weakness and I was touched by his concern. Oh wait, at our next meeting he pulled the old personal problems card on why I am slipping. Hmmmm...let's see, I didn't do one thing but I did 500 other things and you are going to take me to the cleaners? You feel I should be happy with my salary...keep it like that this year.....hmm....is that your way of saying you aren't giving me more money? How you have made me who I am? Men are so damn manipulative and controlling and I seem to surround myself with them. Oh yes, while he is traveling the world, I am home working weekends growing his business.
Oh wait. My newest lover. Who is so attentive. rough around the edges without a doubt and definitely a bad boy. A hard ass yet a soft side to him. showing up one day with the hugest mum plant I have ever seen AND that won me over. My type? not at all. But he's sexy and good in bed. He's been my knight in shining army and has taken care of things around the house that I am not able to do. I am very appreciative. But there is a pattern. He won't commit to weekends. I joke that I am not weekend worthy but again tonight he had to work late. Two other times, we had tentative plans. but tonight I see the writing on the wall....he's avoiding me on weekends. I see him all week but on the weekends he is not around. A surprise birthday party one weekend, got home late from his cabin another, text the wrong girl another time and tonight....again, he had to work late. So there is a pattern. And as of right now, I am breaking the pattern....he's gone! His cock was small anyway. I mean without even a gag, I could engulf his entire cock with room to grow. His technique was great....ahhh...but you see, I just learned the other night, he was a stripper. In fact, the mother of his child was a stripper too. Hmmmm...explains the great technique. He's been doing this for a very long time.
Next, the lover of three years. He has a phobia to purchase anything personal for me. Oh he is generous with throwing money at me or buying things that I need and even giving me expensive services. But when it comes to a personal gift, jewelry, perfume....it ain't happening. Mr. Porshe would rather give me a gift certificate than make the purchase. I reminded him....three years. THREE YEARS!! I want something personal. I do not know what I am going to do if he doesn't. It's more the fact that he knows how flowers or jewelry would mean so much. A few months and he had gone with me to pick out a ring. I realize now he handed me money. It wasn't that he actually purchased it. so stupid but it's as if it makes us less if he doesn't get me something personal. Well I want that personal. As for the I love you. You can not imagine how that went over like a lead ballon. I do love him. I love him for all that he has done for me emotionally, physically, mentally....I love for how he has given me happiness these past three years. As far as wanting him to be my husband?! Oh no way! He is difficult and high maintenance. So we shall see how this pans out.
Mr. Astronaut has flown back into my life. Now that man has a cock to die for. Problem is, I can't catch the cock. As you know, he goes undercover and disappears. When he is out of the country, I cannot BBM him. Oh he sneaks a peek but usually doesn't answer. Two weeks ago, we had a date. He had been working 75 hours straight and said he probably wasn't going to be able to get out of work. I didn't know the work ended up making him have to run out of the country that night. I, the PITA that I am, had tentative plans with him for the next night. So was I suppose to know he had to leave? so i texted...wow, your great for my ego...don't worry, I got my booty call without you. WTF?! was his response. I am out of the country...damn it, you are going to get me killed. We'll talk when I get back. Ooops! How was I suppose to know. So heres the thing. I think he's back and he's playing that he's still away. Bastard admitted to me he loves to see me squirm and want his cock. Well, I showed my girlfriend a pix of his cock and she said that she would be begging for it too. I mean he has one fine cock!
Oh there has been others. Actually five blah dates. So is it me? These men are just not doing it for me. Tonight I blew off the most high maintenance of them all. Some big time developer. A man like him wants constant pampering. He got angry when at 5PM, I refused to come over tonight. He threw a fit when I told him I had a date at 8! Sorry baby....
Oh there are more....but no one is truly floating my boat right now. Oh guess what!!! the ex has a girlfriend! I am happy for him, well happy for me. He has not been hanging around making me feel guilty and looking at me weirdly. He still stalks me, I have seen him drive by at weird hours. Now heres the funniest....my kid is out with his gf and sleeps there, my ex has his gf sleeping over and I am not allowed to date without eyes raising from the kid and my ex. hmmm..two more controlling men!
So in conclusion.....I am here on a Saturday night, sexually frustrated that I can't find a man that really gets my blood boiling. A man who can screw me, balance me, give me that euphoria that I sooooooo crave. Is there a man out there that can do it for me? Is there a man who can touch me and give me the chills and make me moan with every thrust? I am beginning to think there isn't. I have begun to look at sex differently and I am beginning to think it is the way men look at it. Interesting......it's an activity. It's a hobby. Doesn't have to have emotion in it like love or super liking. I think I am really getting the man thing. WoW, it's kind of cool. I don't want a man to sleep over, I want to fuck and have them leave. I don't need the super passion after...I don't think its love....I go on with my life right after. Amazing....I think my independence has turned me into a man! (well not physically of course)
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Saturday, November 06, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Mr. Cableman is a PITA
While I was with Mr. Porsche, Mr. Cableman knew it. So he called two times just to be annoying. It was pretty funny because I knew what he was doing. We are just good friends now. He had met a girl online that he has been seeing pretty regularly, the one he took to the hotel where Mystery Man and I used to frequent. He was telling me how hot the sex was...my reaction was...honestly, in that room you could probably have sex with a piece of dead wood and the ambience would make it good sex. He joked and said that my pix was in the lobby as a guiness book holder of visits to the hotel. I had to laugh. It certainly brought back some flashbacks. He was dying when I asked him about the neon lights and told him about the porno movies. He didm't have a mirror the first time on the ceiling, I told him to make sure he asks for a room that had one. the second time he was smart enough to ask for the mirror ceiling and he didn't use his real name this time. LOL I haven't been there in a very long time.
Last night, Mr. Cableman went to the movies with his GF. Of course, I had to return the favor and text him three times during the movie. He called me after and told me that I am way too funny and he couldn't stop laughing. I am sure the GF is not crazy about me. Oh, there was an incident when TWICE, he called her Cheri. She finally asked who I was....yikes. I told him as long as he doesn't scream my name during sex, he should be okay! We are just buddies and it is going to stay that way I think. I enjoy him as a friend and flirting by phone and text. Certainly is a highlight of my day because he is funny.
I told him to cut the hole in the popcorn bucket like I did when MM and I went to the movies. But watch out for that salt, I heard it burns. LOL He was laughing, you didn't do that? I started laughing remembering the flashbacks.....oh yeah I did. With the same hotel guy? he asked me. Yeah...with that same guy. So he asked...why aren't you two together anymore, it sounds like you guys had the ultimate banging thing going on? Long story was all that I said. Nope, not going there with him or anyone. You are never going to tell me are you? All I said was..... what does it matter, we aren't together and you are right, I don't want to talk about him at all!
When I think about my past, I admit to three guys. Mr. Government, Mystery Man and Mr. Porsche. Honestly, that is it. The rest were fleeting events all jumbled into one grouping. DigEm also had an emotional friend connection but it wasn't a true affair. But honestly, that is it. Reality is, those were the ones that made a true impression on me and my life. Mr. Government, an obsession because he was my first but reality is...that's all he was, my first. I was so naive, I had no idea the sex wasn't that great. And well, you know the other two. Those two I can honestly say are rocking chair material. Yup, when I am old and grey and sitting on that rocker on my porch, if I have any mind, I will watch the grass grow and think about how they fucked me soooooo gooooooooooood.
At this point, there is no one on my plate. There were three guys I was talking with and I threw them all back. I am not going to start off with someone who is needy or totally lost in their life. In today's economy, many of the men that I knew and know are struggling with their work...and for them, I would be there 120%...but I have no patience for these guys who have been totally lost their whole lives. One guy last night was telling me how he worked on Wall Street, was into demolition, is now an electrician and is going to work at a ticket booth this summer...and he graduated college with a Finance degree. you do what you gotta do but this guy never stuck to any job in his life for more than 1 year. He also is 44 and still lives with his parents. He is cute but not for me.
I have to find me. People don't live as insane as I do. I am constantly spiraling, so much on my plate, so much to take care of, up all night with the kids, clients wanting more and more....I just feel like the life is being sucked out of me. What I would do for two caring hands to wrap themselves around me and just hold me tight to give me back that energy. Someone to take this heavy load off my shoulders and off my heart even if it were for ten minutes. So a few tears just fell, I need to get back on track.
Last night, Mr. Cableman went to the movies with his GF. Of course, I had to return the favor and text him three times during the movie. He called me after and told me that I am way too funny and he couldn't stop laughing. I am sure the GF is not crazy about me. Oh, there was an incident when TWICE, he called her Cheri. She finally asked who I was....yikes. I told him as long as he doesn't scream my name during sex, he should be okay! We are just buddies and it is going to stay that way I think. I enjoy him as a friend and flirting by phone and text. Certainly is a highlight of my day because he is funny.
I told him to cut the hole in the popcorn bucket like I did when MM and I went to the movies. But watch out for that salt, I heard it burns. LOL He was laughing, you didn't do that? I started laughing remembering the flashbacks.....oh yeah I did. With the same hotel guy? he asked me. Yeah...with that same guy. So he asked...why aren't you two together anymore, it sounds like you guys had the ultimate banging thing going on? Long story was all that I said. Nope, not going there with him or anyone. You are never going to tell me are you? All I said was..... what does it matter, we aren't together and you are right, I don't want to talk about him at all!
When I think about my past, I admit to three guys. Mr. Government, Mystery Man and Mr. Porsche. Honestly, that is it. The rest were fleeting events all jumbled into one grouping. DigEm also had an emotional friend connection but it wasn't a true affair. But honestly, that is it. Reality is, those were the ones that made a true impression on me and my life. Mr. Government, an obsession because he was my first but reality is...that's all he was, my first. I was so naive, I had no idea the sex wasn't that great. And well, you know the other two. Those two I can honestly say are rocking chair material. Yup, when I am old and grey and sitting on that rocker on my porch, if I have any mind, I will watch the grass grow and think about how they fucked me soooooo gooooooooooood.
At this point, there is no one on my plate. There were three guys I was talking with and I threw them all back. I am not going to start off with someone who is needy or totally lost in their life. In today's economy, many of the men that I knew and know are struggling with their work...and for them, I would be there 120%...but I have no patience for these guys who have been totally lost their whole lives. One guy last night was telling me how he worked on Wall Street, was into demolition, is now an electrician and is going to work at a ticket booth this summer...and he graduated college with a Finance degree. you do what you gotta do but this guy never stuck to any job in his life for more than 1 year. He also is 44 and still lives with his parents. He is cute but not for me.
I have to find me. People don't live as insane as I do. I am constantly spiraling, so much on my plate, so much to take care of, up all night with the kids, clients wanting more and more....I just feel like the life is being sucked out of me. What I would do for two caring hands to wrap themselves around me and just hold me tight to give me back that energy. Someone to take this heavy load off my shoulders and off my heart even if it were for ten minutes. So a few tears just fell, I need to get back on track.
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Monday, February 08, 2010
Now It was His Valentine's Day Treat
FIRST--YES THIS IS US...I LOVE PHOTO FIXING!
Mr. Porsche loves to watch me cum. It gives him so much pleasure to watch each orgasm. But I also love to give him pleasure. Nothing is more desirable than to know that I am pleasing him. after lying down, I tokd him to roll over and I would give him a massage. A combination of deep massage and light tickles. He was in heaven. I massage ever inch of him from his head to his toes (literally). And then I worked my way back up to his ass.....slowly he feels me working up that way and he opens his legs.....I oil up the prostate massager and slowly and gently teasing him until he is ready to feel me insert the massager into his ass. I work it around until i get there and he rolls over.
Here's the thing about the prostate massager, it is hot when you find the right spot. It makes him lose control, giving him a strange sensation that makes him feel like he is going to cum hard and he doesn't. It's little internal orgasms that causes that euphoria. He giggles, losing control is not something he is used to. This feeling, like a little boy with a sheepish grin, he is enjoying it and I am getting wet knowing I am pleasing him, knowing I am controlling the situation.
His cock is huge and I can see his pre-cum at his tip. I try to give him a handjob but its his own technique that can get him off. this is probably the most frustrating thing. Oh, there is no doubt that I can get him hard as a rock, get the pre-cum there but I don't seem to be able to get him over the top. With rubbing his balls and his magic touch...he came and he came hard....the prostate massager rubbing and pressing against his prostate. Moving it around and watching him moan....yes, I managed to give him that Wow...the pinball TILT! He then finally came...I open my mouth as he squirts his cum all over my face, some in my mouth, dripping down my cheek and quite frankly some shooting over my head.
And then we laid there. It was late, we were doing it for over two hours already so there wasn't much time to cuddle. He doesn't love cuddling, he does it for me. He told me he is happy to do it for me because he can see in my face how much I enjoy it. I love the gentleness, I love the holding and closeness, entwined bodies. I am finding out more and more its not many guys thing but if they are willing to do it for me, they are special.
And then I wanted to take a pix of him which turned into an ordeal with us outside, giggling and wrestling...the camera flashing all over getting flashes of light only. A woman had gotten out of her car and she was laughing at us, enjoying our little scene..running around the car, him grabbing me and the camera just flashing away. She actually stopped to watch us and she had that sheepish grin on her face. That look a person has when they are remembering some flashback in their past that brought her that fun, free romance.
We left and I was sad. Yes, sad because now I wouldn't see him for almost three weeks. Sad because my Valentine's day was over. This was all I was getting this year. Don't get me wrong, I guess its better than being with someone you have fallen out of love with, there won't be an awkwardness on the day, a twisting in my stomach but it would be nice to have someone especially since I won't have the children for the weekend.
Here's the thing about the prostate massager, it is hot when you find the right spot. It makes him lose control, giving him a strange sensation that makes him feel like he is going to cum hard and he doesn't. It's little internal orgasms that causes that euphoria. He giggles, losing control is not something he is used to. This feeling, like a little boy with a sheepish grin, he is enjoying it and I am getting wet knowing I am pleasing him, knowing I am controlling the situation.
His cock is huge and I can see his pre-cum at his tip. I try to give him a handjob but its his own technique that can get him off. this is probably the most frustrating thing. Oh, there is no doubt that I can get him hard as a rock, get the pre-cum there but I don't seem to be able to get him over the top. With rubbing his balls and his magic touch...he came and he came hard....the prostate massager rubbing and pressing against his prostate. Moving it around and watching him moan....yes, I managed to give him that Wow...the pinball TILT! He then finally came...I open my mouth as he squirts his cum all over my face, some in my mouth, dripping down my cheek and quite frankly some shooting over my head.
And then we laid there. It was late, we were doing it for over two hours already so there wasn't much time to cuddle. He doesn't love cuddling, he does it for me. He told me he is happy to do it for me because he can see in my face how much I enjoy it. I love the gentleness, I love the holding and closeness, entwined bodies. I am finding out more and more its not many guys thing but if they are willing to do it for me, they are special.
And then I wanted to take a pix of him which turned into an ordeal with us outside, giggling and wrestling...the camera flashing all over getting flashes of light only. A woman had gotten out of her car and she was laughing at us, enjoying our little scene..running around the car, him grabbing me and the camera just flashing away. She actually stopped to watch us and she had that sheepish grin on her face. That look a person has when they are remembering some flashback in their past that brought her that fun, free romance.
We left and I was sad. Yes, sad because now I wouldn't see him for almost three weeks. Sad because my Valentine's day was over. This was all I was getting this year. Don't get me wrong, I guess its better than being with someone you have fallen out of love with, there won't be an awkwardness on the day, a twisting in my stomach but it would be nice to have someone especially since I won't have the children for the weekend.
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
The Devil's Elf- Spreading the Ashley Madison Secret
Yes, the underground world of Ashley Madison. A secret place that most married people do not know exists. A double life with a seductive side. So hot, so exciting...yet we walk around in the real world and no one knows we are a member of this secret society. Makes you think, how many people do you know are members of OTHER secret societies that we just don't know about. A newscaster gets murdered in is apartment and was found to be soliciting 16 year olds on Facebooks. Yikes....not the way you want to leave this world.
So should I feel guilty that I tell people about a secret society that gives me so much pleasure! I mean lets face it....if it wasn't for Ashley Madison and the secret married but looking world, if I didn't find that having an extramarital affair was so damn hot and fulfilling, I would be miserable now. I have learned so much about myself and my body. I have found sinful joy...sinful lust and most importantly hot, hot, did I say super hot sex!
I would never know the joy of orgasming until your body is in bliss. I would never know the sensation of a blindfold and a lover who can do me in so many different position that I am amazed there is even that many positions. I have tried anal sex and loved it. I have tried whipped cream, chocolate pudding, pop rocks and numerous other items. I have felt lustful, passionate sex as well as slow, intense sex.....I have met lots of people and have even advanced my career.....lol
My point?! I have one friend who is going wild on there, literally screwing about six guys. I worry about her safety, I do not want to be responsible for that. I also just introduced a friend from childhood to the secret society. A boy that I knew when I was 7! His marriage is really bad and he was telling me and I was biting my tongue and not saying anything and after three weeks of chatting, I finally said--you should check out Ashley Madison. He has now joined and has two meetings next week. Why do I feel responsible? Why do I feel like I am helping spread the devil's message? Like the devil's elf! I guess I am so happy with Ashley, I want others who are miserable to find this special lustful place!
Today I got an email from one of the guys I have been chatting with. We are going to go slow and be friends? He confessed this morning that the past three days he has looked at my picture and masturbated...my oh my! I asked him..... was I good? What a bizarre feeling to know you are sleeping and someone is looking at your pix and jerking off. Hmmmm.....gotta think how I feel about that...
Well today is another day...you know my theory, leave yesterday behind. And I am glad I left yesterday behind, I was in a bad place. Working hard to stay positive today....I love Fridays. It's my day off. Well its technically my day off but I have never taken the day off. But it feels good to feel like you are catching up on the week (even though I am working just as hard)...hmm..something isn't right about that.
Enjoy the day!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Sex Recycling, Going Green?
What do I want? That is the question I asked myself today. The inner soul is restless and I feel like I am inbetween right now. On my way to a destination but just not there. So where am I going? I asked myself today, if I could have my life a certain way, how would it be.....of course only being able to change the things I have control of. Someones health, I don't. But what would I want from the things I could control. And the answer....to be free! Have my home life under control with a clean house, the children taken care and my business efficiently working and being successful. So what would I change? I would grow my business with additional help so I could work less, divorce my husband, work out, take care of me and just enjoy sex. It could be with one lover or many. But I need to be sexually fulfilled....when you are not sexually fulfilled, you end up procrastinating in all aspects of your life.
Today, I began the day masturbating. I can't take this horniness and I find it hard to focus. I tried to work but wasn't getting anywhere so I returned to bed, removed my pants, got out the vibrator and began my little escapades. My clit is sooo sensitive these days. Some circles and you can feel the wetness in my pussy. Dipping in one finger, I use the juices to stimulate my clit. Hmmmm.....is that considered going green? I am recycling the juices, re-using them for another purpose....not using oils....wow, I guess we are talking Sex Recycling--Going Green! Of course, do not do that with condoms....now we are talking a whole other story....lol
I love when a man's cock enters me...the feeling of my walls spreading...its such a turn on so today the vibrator played that role.....mmm...I came in seconds with all the wetness and my clit was pulsating...that amazing rush came over me.....how I love to orgasm. Still better with a man...but it was good. It's so interesting how we all have our own maturbating techniques...no two are the same...its a unique approach to make you reach ecstasy.....mmmmmm.....
So, now I am going to sit here and think of Sex Recycling, Going Green.....will have to put it on my website. LOL
Today, I began the day masturbating. I can't take this horniness and I find it hard to focus. I tried to work but wasn't getting anywhere so I returned to bed, removed my pants, got out the vibrator and began my little escapades. My clit is sooo sensitive these days. Some circles and you can feel the wetness in my pussy. Dipping in one finger, I use the juices to stimulate my clit. Hmmmm.....is that considered going green? I am recycling the juices, re-using them for another purpose....not using oils....wow, I guess we are talking Sex Recycling--Going Green! Of course, do not do that with condoms....now we are talking a whole other story....lol
I love when a man's cock enters me...the feeling of my walls spreading...its such a turn on so today the vibrator played that role.....mmm...I came in seconds with all the wetness and my clit was pulsating...that amazing rush came over me.....how I love to orgasm. Still better with a man...but it was good. It's so interesting how we all have our own maturbating techniques...no two are the same...its a unique approach to make you reach ecstasy.....mmmmmm.....
So, now I am going to sit here and think of Sex Recycling, Going Green.....will have to put it on my website. LOL
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Created A Sex Maniac
So if you remember awhile back, I turned a friend onto Ashley Madison. She has a boyfriend but quite frankly, he's a stick in the mud. She is like his pretend wife, running errands for him, taking care of his children......hmmm...doesn't sound exciting to me. And I could see she was missing something. So, I told her to go to Ashley.
Well, well, well....she has really been living it up. I can't even keep track of her. She has been with more men in the last three weeks then I think I have in the last three years. Her days are filled with lunch sex, after work sex, evening dinners and blowjobs. She is doing it in motels, back of cars.....she is going WILD! And she likes each man for a different reason so it is hard for her to choose. A similiar situation happened to her...the man she was with, the first one who she liked a lot, kept his distance. She felt it was over. She hadn't heard from him in a few weeks. And then he popped in again. Is that the norm? Why do men do that? Women need to know where they stand....men seem to not care. Women look for closure...men seem to be okay with things lingering and they assume you have been sitting around waiting for them.
This guy is her MM. She had a great time with him. He melted her. I am beginning to think it may be that motel. I recommended her to go there and they had an amazing time. Well, now she is a regular there. Funny story, she was with one man at 11AM there and then returned that evening to the same motel with another guy. WOW.....half jokingly I told her that the motel is going to think you are a prostitute. So now she keeps thanking me for telling her about Ashley Madison Agency. I keep telling her not to thank me that I did not create this, she is the one who has chosen this life now. I just gave her the website address. the girl is flying high! It is so funny.
I don't know, silly as it may sound. I have never been with any guy to the motel where Mystery Man and I went. That was our place. Such memories, such fun, such a connection--I wouldn't be able to do someone else in that motel. And that is a great place.....but its as if it is our place. I wonder if he ever took anyone else there? I hope not. I know it is silly but I don't think I can ever do anyone else there. Too many flashbacks, too much amazing sex....
So I guess I created a sex maniac. Geez, I don't want that on my head. Today she went to a psychiatrist's office and screwed him on his couch....lol I think she had two guys dicks in her mouth every day this week....her vibrator must miss her terribly!
Well, well, well....she has really been living it up. I can't even keep track of her. She has been with more men in the last three weeks then I think I have in the last three years. Her days are filled with lunch sex, after work sex, evening dinners and blowjobs. She is doing it in motels, back of cars.....she is going WILD! And she likes each man for a different reason so it is hard for her to choose. A similiar situation happened to her...the man she was with, the first one who she liked a lot, kept his distance. She felt it was over. She hadn't heard from him in a few weeks. And then he popped in again. Is that the norm? Why do men do that? Women need to know where they stand....men seem to not care. Women look for closure...men seem to be okay with things lingering and they assume you have been sitting around waiting for them.
This guy is her MM. She had a great time with him. He melted her. I am beginning to think it may be that motel. I recommended her to go there and they had an amazing time. Well, now she is a regular there. Funny story, she was with one man at 11AM there and then returned that evening to the same motel with another guy. WOW.....half jokingly I told her that the motel is going to think you are a prostitute. So now she keeps thanking me for telling her about Ashley Madison Agency. I keep telling her not to thank me that I did not create this, she is the one who has chosen this life now. I just gave her the website address. the girl is flying high! It is so funny.
I don't know, silly as it may sound. I have never been with any guy to the motel where Mystery Man and I went. That was our place. Such memories, such fun, such a connection--I wouldn't be able to do someone else in that motel. And that is a great place.....but its as if it is our place. I wonder if he ever took anyone else there? I hope not. I know it is silly but I don't think I can ever do anyone else there. Too many flashbacks, too much amazing sex....
So I guess I created a sex maniac. Geez, I don't want that on my head. Today she went to a psychiatrist's office and screwed him on his couch....lol I think she had two guys dicks in her mouth every day this week....her vibrator must miss her terribly!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Afraid of Getting Old and All Stressed!
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Monday, May 12, 2008
Her Lips Watering At the Thought of His Cock...
with her lips watering, she thinks about her lover. Flashback to his cock going so deep inside of her mouth...perfectly fitting to the back of her throat. A vision of him thrusting inside of her so deep...hitting the perfect spot and she parts her legs and sees his sexy smile. Wait.....she's standing at the end of the bed with one leg up and her lover is entering her from behind. But now, he has chosen anal......so tight....but she relaxes, knowing that once he enters, the feeling will be like no other....paradise.....desire. An afternoon with her lover leaves her fulfilled, content, without a care in the world......
Yes, she wonders, when will I see him again? She can feel the desire growing within her......her lips unconsciously watering with the thought of his sweet juices exploding in her mouth.......oh when will she be able to escape and visit paradise with him again?
So....I sent this to Mystery Man.....do you think I will get an email back? yes, he read a card I sent to him....but no response. I can feel my anticipation and nervousness growing....while my masturbation thoughts have been about Mr. Porsche.....I cannot help but desire Mystery Man. I can't masturbate thinking about him...its strange...yet, I daydream of our sex together and I salvate and get wet when I envision his cock.
Mr. Porsche...looks like he's flying out of town for business and won't be able to fit me in before.
so let's see....I have two lovers and I can't get laid? Unbelievable!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, she wonders, when will I see him again? She can feel the desire growing within her......her lips unconsciously watering with the thought of his sweet juices exploding in her mouth.......oh when will she be able to escape and visit paradise with him again?
So....I sent this to Mystery Man.....do you think I will get an email back? yes, he read a card I sent to him....but no response. I can feel my anticipation and nervousness growing....while my masturbation thoughts have been about Mr. Porsche.....I cannot help but desire Mystery Man. I can't masturbate thinking about him...its strange...yet, I daydream of our sex together and I salvate and get wet when I envision his cock.
Mr. Porsche...looks like he's flying out of town for business and won't be able to fit me in before.
so let's see....I have two lovers and I can't get laid? Unbelievable!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 03, 2008
Yes, Breathing Is Essential During A Blow Job!!
A favorite position of Mystery Man's and Mr. Porsche's.... to think it has a name....
the Throat Swab...my biggest complaint..I can't
breathe sometimes and there have been times when I was feeling dizzy. No air and blood rushing to head...can be a dangerous situation...A aahh...I love this position. He is able to get his cock deep,deep inside my mouth. It's hot.
Well, I was always thinking that it was me. You see during a blowjob sometimes, their cock blocks off my airway...forcing me to come up for air. Phew, its something that happens to others as well.
Here is the directions to this position....hehehe. I sent it to Mystery Man....he was laughing so hard....his response "No Breathing Allowed" such the smartass!
"The male version of eve's ecstasy, the throat swab can be a very exciting position for many men. The performing partner lies back on a bed tilting their head upwards over the edge while their partner penetrates their mouth from a kneeling, squatting, or standing position. Since the receiver needs air to stay alive, we recommend that you make sure to give them time for air... We know that's asking for a lot, but if you let your partner breathe, they'll be able to do it again..."
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Ashley Madison Agency - A Hottie I Would Love To Do!
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Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Sex Like I Have Never Had Before....
I can barely walk last night and this morning. Last week, I thought sex was amazing with Mystery Man. Today, it was a blissful sex marathon. We usually spend 3 hours, today my present was 6 hours. No we didn't just lay around...we fucked, sucked and did so much the entire time. I don't think we missed any position and we actually discovered a few more that were amazing. I have never left where my pussy was aching....today, still wet and dripping....my pussy reached its maximum capacity!! I couldn't fuck another minute...our last screw ended up us giggling and laughing because we realized our cup had just runneth over....we were sexed out! Now it takes a lot to get to that point. So you can imagine how many times we fucked. Six condoms (and we were using them for awhile)...no he didn't cum six times (geez) but he was hard as a rock....and he knows how to use it.
There was a twist to our usually meetings today. Besides from the sex....we laughed. Now we have laughed before.....but I am talking about like belly laughing and snorting and laughing so hard that tears were coming to my eyes. We both were laughing and it was so nice. Gotta tell ya, he is hilarious. Examples...in a conversation he called me Little Blow Peep.....then Betty Cocker...something about playing a Skin flute as my talent, his the Skin Tuba!...Honestly, I laugh because I love to be happy but this was a different laugh. This was that hysterical...good for the soul laughing.
The sexual day was well no words can describe it. Every position, at least 15-20 times we screwed and 69nd for the longest time with me on top and him on top. With my arms pinned under his legs and my head off the bed.
He blindfolded me...what a bizarre feeling....liked it but was very hard at first to allow it...a little panic....but i worked through it and it was hot....super hot. He led me to the end of the bed, he undressed me....piece by piece seducing me as he went. WOW! And then he placed me back down and began to eat me. Not having my sight and just the feel each lick and suck was magnified. I was gasping....of course he made me cum and then he pulled me to the end of the bed...finding a position that was unique--not sure why....but just moving over an inch makes a world of difference.....I was kind of on my side, with my leg up and he was from behind or in front of me going deep,deep, deep inside of me. Finding spots that no man has gone before!! It was amazing....
Then he led me to the floor and he fucked me from behind....both of us cumming as he pounded me with his cock...my juices were flowing and so were his....the feeling of his cock entering me was so hot....I needed him,I wanted him....deeper, deeper, faster,faster.
We then proceeded to fucking in the jacuzzi and this tile area they have, then with my legs totally above my head (i knocked the painting off the wall)...he loves that I am so flexible (left over from my dancing days) and he takes advantage of that...with my legs split open--with my legs totally over my head,one leg up in the air...pumping me, me moaning and screaming more baby, more baby....my favorite position was my legs up in the air and him pumping me like a frog....how ironic is that...the frog position!!
Yes, I have had sex with other people (duh) but with him...it is seriously an unbelievable sexual connection. He makes me cum over and over and over. I should take notes as we are fucking....how many different ways I can cum! For a girl who never orgasmed, I made up for it just in this one session!
For my birthday cake, he brought chocolate frosting and we covered his cock up in frosting and he sang happy birthday to me....and then I ate my whole cake. Oh yummy! I love sucking on his cock and coincidently, he can't get enough of me doing it too! I am expanding my sucking talents...I am getting pretty good....he loves when I just suck the head tight and over and over again..nice and wet making slurping noises. He loves when I go down and do tongue twirls while he is in my mouth. Then I go up and own his shaft with my lips....(the inside for softness)....and our my newest practice....deep throating. It drives him wild!!!!! But I have to work on the gag reflex. I was the type when I saw the doctor coming with that stick, I would begin gagging.....negotiating at a young age not to use it.
It amazes me how he can tell how far into my throat he is. By the end of the day...baby, I got his whole cock in my mouth,my gag reflex wasn't really there and he was down my throat, I could feel him moving my uvula out of the way...yes, seeing him love it so much was a high for me.
There was so much we did...oh...I love it fast and deep but what really turns me on also is when he goes slow and pulls all the way out and then goes back in and then pulls out and then thrusts back in....its the separation of my walls that are so hot and sexual.
And with all that, there is a part of me that is still angry with him. He is so damn stubborn...but I will think about that another day. Honestly, I know there is only so long I can put up with his Mystery but for now...well, I had my day in sexual paradise!
And its my BIRTHDAY!!! WOO HOO!!! Sadly, not a word from my son or husband (major war broke out last night here..I almost called the cops). There is a lot of shit but not today, today is my birthday!! I believe in a stress free (as much as possible day). That is my present to myself!
There was a twist to our usually meetings today. Besides from the sex....we laughed. Now we have laughed before.....but I am talking about like belly laughing and snorting and laughing so hard that tears were coming to my eyes. We both were laughing and it was so nice. Gotta tell ya, he is hilarious. Examples...in a conversation he called me Little Blow Peep.....then Betty Cocker...something about playing a Skin flute as my talent, his the Skin Tuba!...Honestly, I laugh because I love to be happy but this was a different laugh. This was that hysterical...good for the soul laughing.
The sexual day was well no words can describe it. Every position, at least 15-20 times we screwed and 69nd for the longest time with me on top and him on top. With my arms pinned under his legs and my head off the bed.
He blindfolded me...what a bizarre feeling....liked it but was very hard at first to allow it...a little panic....but i worked through it and it was hot....super hot. He led me to the end of the bed, he undressed me....piece by piece seducing me as he went. WOW! And then he placed me back down and began to eat me. Not having my sight and just the feel each lick and suck was magnified. I was gasping....of course he made me cum and then he pulled me to the end of the bed...finding a position that was unique--not sure why....but just moving over an inch makes a world of difference.....I was kind of on my side, with my leg up and he was from behind or in front of me going deep,deep, deep inside of me. Finding spots that no man has gone before!! It was amazing....
Then he led me to the floor and he fucked me from behind....both of us cumming as he pounded me with his cock...my juices were flowing and so were his....the feeling of his cock entering me was so hot....I needed him,I wanted him....deeper, deeper, faster,faster.
We then proceeded to fucking in the jacuzzi and this tile area they have, then with my legs totally above my head (i knocked the painting off the wall)...he loves that I am so flexible (left over from my dancing days) and he takes advantage of that...with my legs split open--with my legs totally over my head,one leg up in the air...pumping me, me moaning and screaming more baby, more baby....my favorite position was my legs up in the air and him pumping me like a frog....how ironic is that...the frog position!!
Yes, I have had sex with other people (duh) but with him...it is seriously an unbelievable sexual connection. He makes me cum over and over and over. I should take notes as we are fucking....how many different ways I can cum! For a girl who never orgasmed, I made up for it just in this one session!
For my birthday cake, he brought chocolate frosting and we covered his cock up in frosting and he sang happy birthday to me....and then I ate my whole cake. Oh yummy! I love sucking on his cock and coincidently, he can't get enough of me doing it too! I am expanding my sucking talents...I am getting pretty good....he loves when I just suck the head tight and over and over again..nice and wet making slurping noises. He loves when I go down and do tongue twirls while he is in my mouth. Then I go up and own his shaft with my lips....(the inside for softness)....and our my newest practice....deep throating. It drives him wild!!!!! But I have to work on the gag reflex. I was the type when I saw the doctor coming with that stick, I would begin gagging.....negotiating at a young age not to use it.
It amazes me how he can tell how far into my throat he is. By the end of the day...baby, I got his whole cock in my mouth,my gag reflex wasn't really there and he was down my throat, I could feel him moving my uvula out of the way...yes, seeing him love it so much was a high for me.
There was so much we did...oh...I love it fast and deep but what really turns me on also is when he goes slow and pulls all the way out and then goes back in and then pulls out and then thrusts back in....its the separation of my walls that are so hot and sexual.
And with all that, there is a part of me that is still angry with him. He is so damn stubborn...but I will think about that another day. Honestly, I know there is only so long I can put up with his Mystery but for now...well, I had my day in sexual paradise!
And its my BIRTHDAY!!! WOO HOO!!! Sadly, not a word from my son or husband (major war broke out last night here..I almost called the cops). There is a lot of shit but not today, today is my birthday!! I believe in a stress free (as much as possible day). That is my present to myself!
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
I NEED TO........
FUCK! Oh yes, no doubt about it. It's been three weeks and I am about to explode. All this texting and back and forth sexual attraction with Long Distance Lover is really making me hot.
We are certainly a lot a like. Emotionally, we are looking for the same fulfillment which makes it pretty easy to know what the other person needs. The things he says just feels so good. He will text me that he can't stop thinking about me. Tell me how intoxicating I am. How he's wild about me..etc.etc.
Told a childhood friend today that I was planning on meeting him. She was shocked to hear I was going to BE with him the first time we met. I guess because we have been talking back and forth so much...I feel like I know him forever. the ethical thing is to wait....however, I can't. I really feel a physical and mental connection with him.
The distance...the distance is really tough. And realistically, that means we shouldn't give up our other lovers. But you know me...I am not the best at sharing (although I am getting much better). He;s seeing his lover on Friday or Saturday. I was shocked to see how it bothered me and I was so mad at myself. Practically..we've never met...PRactically...we are far away from each other. Practically...it shouldn't matter if we have other lovers. Realistically--I don't like to share!! So I am not going to talk to him for a few days.....yes, I am going into denial.....not think about him with her.
Okay, here is a weird thing.....tonight as I was sitting at the computer and thinking about how Mr Prize and I related very well....but mentally, Long Distance Lover is getting close to how I felt about Soulmate Chris. That total connection. That total desire to talk with him continually. That feeling that my heart was smiling when we were on the phone. And just as I was thinking that...who sends me an IM....SOULMATE CHRIS!!!!! We havent really spoken in months. We started to talk and well one thing led to another. He told me about his two women (since me) and well, I kinda told him I was having fun.
We talked....we even talked about our sexual encounter that he made me cry. We teased and talked and I laughed...he always makes me laugh. And I was soooooo glad to know that while I was still sexually attracted to him....that Soulmate thing was not there as deep. Yeah, he will be my friend for life. He helped me through tough times and he still knows how to make me laugh. But that intense, out of control....soulmate thing wasn't there. Much healthier now...
He was telling me how horny he was. Now if you remember....he is very, very well endowed. Yes, I have to say in the Girth department...he is hung like a stud (or so I vaguely remember). "Let me see" I said to him. And so his webcam was on.....
Now, to my surprise...I forgot just how fucking big he was. His cock is so damn thick...it took my breath away for a second. Wow, I said. Yeah, I had to give him the credit where credit was due. I haven't seen a thick, thick cock like this since I dated this guy in College (it didn't fit at first). Well, feeling like I needed to get my mind off of Long Distance Guy....I played with Soulmate Chris a little until he came. I want to see you again..he said... that would be nice...I said. And we agreed we'd talk again soon.
Comfort Lovers seems to bw this weeks theme. I think I just don't have the desire to find a new frog. Long Distance Lover is keeping me mentally happy (and horny). And the old familiars....are also what I need. I have no desire to search for someone new right now. I am definitely just playing a little with the familiar frogs and enjoying Long Distance Lover.
Mr. Navigator text me yesterday. "I can't stop thinking about you....I really want to see you. How about next Monday?" "I got a date already, I told him". Change it he said....Nope I said...sorry. He flies around the world....and is actually going to be in Europe the week after that. I said to him "you want me....you change your schedule". Now I know, you may be thinking how ridiculous for me to say BUT I am tired of squeezing in between Italy, China and the States. So.....re-work it if you want me." And he said he would call me back and try to move a meeting to the following week and not fly out for three days. Hmmm.....we will see...I'd be impressed if he moved his business trip just to see me....
So that's whats cooking in Secret Lovers Lane. A possible Married Prince Charming, some MIA Frogs, some familiar frogs that make me happy (Navigator, Chris, CG and of course Tadpole)....... AND all these men and.....
I AM SO DAMN HORNY!!! I feel like my clit may explode...I'm wet, juicy and my clit is engorged...with no relief in site. Sigh....I need some hands on me soon. I need a warm cock inside of me....sigh...looks like the old vibrator is going to have to make his appearance tonight for some relief.
Sweet Wet Dreams!!
We are certainly a lot a like. Emotionally, we are looking for the same fulfillment which makes it pretty easy to know what the other person needs. The things he says just feels so good. He will text me that he can't stop thinking about me. Tell me how intoxicating I am. How he's wild about me..etc.etc.
Told a childhood friend today that I was planning on meeting him. She was shocked to hear I was going to BE with him the first time we met. I guess because we have been talking back and forth so much...I feel like I know him forever. the ethical thing is to wait....however, I can't. I really feel a physical and mental connection with him.
The distance...the distance is really tough. And realistically, that means we shouldn't give up our other lovers. But you know me...I am not the best at sharing (although I am getting much better). He;s seeing his lover on Friday or Saturday. I was shocked to see how it bothered me and I was so mad at myself. Practically..we've never met...PRactically...we are far away from each other. Practically...it shouldn't matter if we have other lovers. Realistically--I don't like to share!! So I am not going to talk to him for a few days.....yes, I am going into denial.....not think about him with her.
Okay, here is a weird thing.....tonight as I was sitting at the computer and thinking about how Mr Prize and I related very well....but mentally, Long Distance Lover is getting close to how I felt about Soulmate Chris. That total connection. That total desire to talk with him continually. That feeling that my heart was smiling when we were on the phone. And just as I was thinking that...who sends me an IM....SOULMATE CHRIS!!!!! We havent really spoken in months. We started to talk and well one thing led to another. He told me about his two women (since me) and well, I kinda told him I was having fun.
We talked....we even talked about our sexual encounter that he made me cry. We teased and talked and I laughed...he always makes me laugh. And I was soooooo glad to know that while I was still sexually attracted to him....that Soulmate thing was not there as deep. Yeah, he will be my friend for life. He helped me through tough times and he still knows how to make me laugh. But that intense, out of control....soulmate thing wasn't there. Much healthier now...
He was telling me how horny he was. Now if you remember....he is very, very well endowed. Yes, I have to say in the Girth department...he is hung like a stud (or so I vaguely remember). "Let me see" I said to him. And so his webcam was on.....
Now, to my surprise...I forgot just how fucking big he was. His cock is so damn thick...it took my breath away for a second. Wow, I said. Yeah, I had to give him the credit where credit was due. I haven't seen a thick, thick cock like this since I dated this guy in College (it didn't fit at first). Well, feeling like I needed to get my mind off of Long Distance Guy....I played with Soulmate Chris a little until he came. I want to see you again..he said... that would be nice...I said. And we agreed we'd talk again soon.
Comfort Lovers seems to bw this weeks theme. I think I just don't have the desire to find a new frog. Long Distance Lover is keeping me mentally happy (and horny). And the old familiars....are also what I need. I have no desire to search for someone new right now. I am definitely just playing a little with the familiar frogs and enjoying Long Distance Lover.
Mr. Navigator text me yesterday. "I can't stop thinking about you....I really want to see you. How about next Monday?" "I got a date already, I told him". Change it he said....Nope I said...sorry. He flies around the world....and is actually going to be in Europe the week after that. I said to him "you want me....you change your schedule". Now I know, you may be thinking how ridiculous for me to say BUT I am tired of squeezing in between Italy, China and the States. So.....re-work it if you want me." And he said he would call me back and try to move a meeting to the following week and not fly out for three days. Hmmm.....we will see...I'd be impressed if he moved his business trip just to see me....
So that's whats cooking in Secret Lovers Lane. A possible Married Prince Charming, some MIA Frogs, some familiar frogs that make me happy (Navigator, Chris, CG and of course Tadpole)....... AND all these men and.....
I AM SO DAMN HORNY!!! I feel like my clit may explode...I'm wet, juicy and my clit is engorged...with no relief in site. Sigh....I need some hands on me soon. I need a warm cock inside of me....sigh...looks like the old vibrator is going to have to make his appearance tonight for some relief.
Sweet Wet Dreams!!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
IPOD Vibrator--now here is a hot toy!
Okay, now here is something I have to have!!! This is a must for every woman....A vibrator that moves to the beat of the music on your Ipod. talk about taking music to a totally new level. Music makes me hot...a great song really turns me on...there is a way to have an orgasm to my favorite song.....wow! The thought of some hot music, my favorite music beating inside of me.
The thought is making me wet. I have to have this....to me this would be the ultimate in toys....I wonder what it feels like? Anyone try it....What would be the best song to listen to?
I'm getting horny just thinking about it. Listening to my favorite dance song as t gets me off...now here is technology at its best. Click on the banners above to see more juicy details...it's take you to their site.....and their is even a holster garter belt to keep your ipod strapped to your leg....HOT!!! SUPER HOT!!
AND Their new product......when your cell phone rings...it keeps the vibrator going the entire conversation....now here is phone sex to a new level. Talk about really getting your partner off in a conversation....you can control the calls..the rings...woo hoo!!
Now this made my day...funny how the little things can go a long way!!
Sunday, October 22, 2006
The Psychic Knew About My Secret Lovers!!!
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Friday, October 20, 2006
My New Sexy Toy and The Psychic
So.....I told you I bought a new bullet. Aahh!! I love my sex toys. The hubby still has not returned mine (after numerous requests--its definitely a control thing). so I went out and bought a new bullet.
This one is hidden like a compact. Okay, it looks more like a large perfume bottle..all marbelized and way too big for a normal compact. But I keep with my perfume bottles and so far it has not been discovered. However, the hubby did notice that batteries were missing (interesting the man watches my batter intake).
So, I have to tell you. I am happy that he stole the bullet. Yup! the good and plenty bullet that I had is child's play compared to the power of this one and the size is even larger. I am not crazy about the marble look (kind of made me think I was having sex with a zebra at one point--a fleeting thought and pretty gross).
So I turned the baby on and YUM!!! The buzz was perfect. My clit reacted immediately...I think I had an orgasm within seconds. Now that was out of the way, it was time to really start playing. This baby does magic on my clit...giving it a little earthquake action. Playing down, slowly inserting it my pussy.....my walls just wrapped around the vibrator...nice...snug as a glove. Faster and faster in and out.....I could feel my body begin to twitch....I relax my whole body to enhance the inevitable orgasm...as it starts to come, I can feel my whole body twitching. My walls were pulsating in and out....oh man...this was nice.
This one is hidden like a compact. Okay, it looks more like a large perfume bottle..all marbelized and way too big for a normal compact. But I keep with my perfume bottles and so far it has not been discovered. However, the hubby did notice that batteries were missing (interesting the man watches my batter intake).
So, I have to tell you. I am happy that he stole the bullet. Yup! the good and plenty bullet that I had is child's play compared to the power of this one and the size is even larger. I am not crazy about the marble look (kind of made me think I was having sex with a zebra at one point--a fleeting thought and pretty gross).
So I turned the baby on and YUM!!! The buzz was perfect. My clit reacted immediately...I think I had an orgasm within seconds. Now that was out of the way, it was time to really start playing. This baby does magic on my clit...giving it a little earthquake action. Playing down, slowly inserting it my pussy.....my walls just wrapped around the vibrator...nice...snug as a glove. Faster and faster in and out.....I could feel my body begin to twitch....I relax my whole body to enhance the inevitable orgasm...as it starts to come, I can feel my whole body twitching. My walls were pulsating in and out....oh man...this was nice.
They say three is a charm!! Do I dare? Do I see its feel in my ass? Well we all know I have been having this anal sex fetish lately. Gotta tell ya, my butt is tight. After a little playing around and a few attempts....my buddy was in. And, it was worth the wait. Is is because it something new to me? Is it because it is so tight? Or can it be because the vibrations are able to hit areas that the vibrator can't when its inside my pussy? Not sure what the science or reasoning is behind it really--- I had the most amazing orgasm. Guess it was like an earthquake because I could feel this most amazing euphoria come over me as my body was pulsating. WOW!!
Mr. Springer was telling me that most women can squirt but they have never been brought to such levels. Is this true? I can't imagine the sensations and overwhelming enjoyment that would bring. Sigh...I have never been there. Of course it could be like my theory on certain foods... never had it, you can't crave it. So maybe its best that I have never had that happen because that sounds like its something I would want over and over and over again!!!
Tonight....tonight is the night I go to the Psychic. Aah!! I am petrified. I know, I know not everyone believes in it. Part of me says if the psychic was that good why are they always living in small rundown places. If you could see the future or predict it or talk to the dead--come on wouldn't you take a peak at the Stock Market or see what inventions are going to be big and go for it?
I have this vision of me stepping into the room tonight and her being overwhelmed by my aura (and not in a good way!) "So, you are a cheater!!! And I certainly don't want to be lectured by my dead family member....
Okay, have a great weekend and I will let you know how it goes. Had to cancel on Mr. Prize...that did not make me happy. I had no choice (sigh).
Saturday, October 07, 2006
3 Different Cocks?? A Perfect Day!!!
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Monday, October 02, 2006
Potpourri of Orgasmic Thoughts and What I need?
Is it Him Or The Orgasm?
Did you ever wonder how much you actual miss an ex lover or if you just miss the orgasms they gave you? Do you miss the actual person because of who they are OR do you miss the way your body would respond, the hotness of ripping each others clothes off, the way your body would be so wet just lusting for them to be inside of you? One of the wonders of life!
Are You Out There??
Okay, there are usually close to 500 or more people who stop by to read my blog. Why don't you say hi? I don't bite (unless you want me too), so drop me a hi...I love people, and sometimes I feel so lonely!! IT's like you dropped by and I missed ya!!! So say hi!! I'd love to hear from ya!
Mr. Prize Drops A Message.....
So Mr. Prize just called to say we aren't exclusive. That he wants me to look and find someone closer because it won't be enough for me. He isn't going to look right now. He doesn't want anything more..
So here I am again. Another man who feels I need more than he can give!?!?!?!?! I don't know if its true but do I come across as that horny or just so damn needy?? Probably both. As he is telling me this, my husband walks into the room. I can't say a word. I can't say anything at such an important announcement SOOO I start asking him stupid questions, hoping he will catch on. He thinks I am just flipped by what he just said. I get totally silent. He thinks I am really upset. I was tempted to say..Honey, my husband is standing here...BUT I didn't. Finally I asked him a totally out of here remark and he caught on. Whew!!!! But now I have to find sometime for us to talk tonight. I don't know what to say. I am not sure.
It's that time of the month for me so I figured we wouldn't see each other. He says he doesn't care. Hmm....I haven't screwed in so long with my period. We are talking over 18 years. The idea is somewhat gross yet exciting. I might just take him up on it...Crime Scene Sex.
UPDATE:
We spoke further. Once again the same words of how I need more than he can give me now because of his limited time. Now I had to know. "What is it? Do I send off a vibe? Did I smother you? Why are you saying this? I confessed to him that it was the same words Mr. Government said. So what is it?? Granted, he still wants to see me. Actually nothing has changed. Honestly with Mr. Government, I flipped when he said it so our continuing went downhill fast.
A little annoyed and curious I said "What is it about you guys that you are so damn sure what I want and need? I don't even know what I need, how do you?"
His first response-- "Wow, that is damn presumptious of me isn't it? You right but thinking about it our schedules are so limited. I don't want to feel like I am holding you back from being happy and fulfilling some of your needs that I cannot fill. For me, it relieves some of the guilt I put on myself. It's not that I don't want to be with you all the time, I want you more than ever. Honey, you deserve to have someone right near you can see more than once a month. You deserve to be happy".
He is so damn sweet and he is right. And put so eloquently like that--I understand what he is saying. It's nothing I've done here. I have tried hard not to pressure him in anyway but I'm just tired of hearing the same words again and again. This time the words are right though. Another state is so far. But we are still planning to see each other again. But the door is open for me to see others.
Well I guess its back to Ashley to flirt a little. No, Mr. Prize is not gone. nothing has changed at all. Except I appreciate him even more. I can talk to him. I don't fear he is going to walk away if we don't agree. We have this thing called friendship which is such a nice base. I really like him, he's a first place prize!!
Did you ever wonder how much you actual miss an ex lover or if you just miss the orgasms they gave you? Do you miss the actual person because of who they are OR do you miss the way your body would respond, the hotness of ripping each others clothes off, the way your body would be so wet just lusting for them to be inside of you? One of the wonders of life!
Are You Out There??
Okay, there are usually close to 500 or more people who stop by to read my blog. Why don't you say hi? I don't bite (unless you want me too), so drop me a hi...I love people, and sometimes I feel so lonely!! IT's like you dropped by and I missed ya!!! So say hi!! I'd love to hear from ya!
Mr. Prize Drops A Message.....
So Mr. Prize just called to say we aren't exclusive. That he wants me to look and find someone closer because it won't be enough for me. He isn't going to look right now. He doesn't want anything more..
So here I am again. Another man who feels I need more than he can give!?!?!?!?! I don't know if its true but do I come across as that horny or just so damn needy?? Probably both. As he is telling me this, my husband walks into the room. I can't say a word. I can't say anything at such an important announcement SOOO I start asking him stupid questions, hoping he will catch on. He thinks I am just flipped by what he just said. I get totally silent. He thinks I am really upset. I was tempted to say..Honey, my husband is standing here...BUT I didn't. Finally I asked him a totally out of here remark and he caught on. Whew!!!! But now I have to find sometime for us to talk tonight. I don't know what to say. I am not sure.
It's that time of the month for me so I figured we wouldn't see each other. He says he doesn't care. Hmm....I haven't screwed in so long with my period. We are talking over 18 years. The idea is somewhat gross yet exciting. I might just take him up on it...Crime Scene Sex.
UPDATE:
We spoke further. Once again the same words of how I need more than he can give me now because of his limited time. Now I had to know. "What is it? Do I send off a vibe? Did I smother you? Why are you saying this? I confessed to him that it was the same words Mr. Government said. So what is it?? Granted, he still wants to see me. Actually nothing has changed. Honestly with Mr. Government, I flipped when he said it so our continuing went downhill fast.
A little annoyed and curious I said "What is it about you guys that you are so damn sure what I want and need? I don't even know what I need, how do you?"
His first response-- "Wow, that is damn presumptious of me isn't it? You right but thinking about it our schedules are so limited. I don't want to feel like I am holding you back from being happy and fulfilling some of your needs that I cannot fill. For me, it relieves some of the guilt I put on myself. It's not that I don't want to be with you all the time, I want you more than ever. Honey, you deserve to have someone right near you can see more than once a month. You deserve to be happy".
He is so damn sweet and he is right. And put so eloquently like that--I understand what he is saying. It's nothing I've done here. I have tried hard not to pressure him in anyway but I'm just tired of hearing the same words again and again. This time the words are right though. Another state is so far. But we are still planning to see each other again. But the door is open for me to see others.
Well I guess its back to Ashley to flirt a little. No, Mr. Prize is not gone. nothing has changed at all. Except I appreciate him even more. I can talk to him. I don't fear he is going to walk away if we don't agree. We have this thing called friendship which is such a nice base. I really like him, he's a first place prize!!
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