Asexual--where has my desire gone?

Numb. Usually I am filled with energy and excitement. You know, the half full thing is always in the forefront, at least I try for it to be. This week--nothing. The last few days I have no desire to do any work.....I've been throwing myself in bed. The hubby even seems to be worried, he straightened up an area of the house I have been asking him to do for two years now. So there is the half full I guess. But I barely have spoken around here.

I had my big meeting yesterday with the government. I didn't win. I got a few things but what I really wanted they were adamant about. I looked them in the eye said, ok, let's try it your way and then.....I guess I will be heading up to the state capital. I 've testified before, I can certainly do it again. am not afraid to stand up for my passions. Ironically, what they are offering me will cost the state probably 10x what I was asking for but that shows how dysfunctional our system actually is. Ridiculous...

The Governor of New York, mind you is legally blind man and has numerous staff members (which New Yorkers pay for who aide him with his disabilitiy). The man had help as a child which obviously added in his learning and his ability to be where he is today. So you would think the man would realize the value of helping those with disabilities. How important these programs are and how these people need them to survive in our society. Reality, giving services to people with disabilities saves taxpayers tons of money. If they are able to live on their own or with their family with a little help---they do not have to be put away in a residential setting which cost a fortune.

So, scarily this Governor is even more insensitive to people with disabilities than even Pataki. He is actually downright cruel....did you hear his statement? He doesn't care how many people you put in front of him in wheelchairs, he is going to balance the budget. NICE.......REAL NICE....STUPID ASS....Even if he wasn't legally blind such a comment is quite disgusting....but you ARE legally blind and you have the audacity to stand up there and be so disrespectful to a group that usually can't defend themselves. I am disgusted by him.....DISGUSTED...Talk about a double standard. Let's see, are you getting any help with your disability? Did you ever? How are you reading documents, running our government? Hmmm...is there an aide on your payroll that does that for you? Any special programs that the government installed in your program to help you? Somehow, the people are paying for your disability. So....think again before you talk. What a hypocrite......now that pisses me off.....

So that was Cheri's political rant for the day....made me feel a little better. I am suppose to meet Mr. Porsche today.....I don't want to. I don't know why. The thought of throwing myself into bed is much more appealing....my bed, with the covers over my head. I am thinking of cancelling. I just am not in the mood for sex.