Cheri the Drama Queen

Between the stress with my dad and my period not coming (oh yes, so the father is......I kind of flipped that this month I would have been one of those who is the father on the Maury Povich show...you know, the two men are there and it turns out to be a third guy....) It didn't feel that way...so I did a pregnancy test and it was negative...hopefully just stress.

I overreacted with Valentines Day...it is the day for lovers...and I am suppose to have three (and a long distance Prince Charming) and I wasn't feeling the love!!! Mr. Porsche did take me out for dinner the other night...it was nice. We worked together...no one thought anything, I was so professional. Of course, when his employees left I attacked him at his desk...getting down on my knees and sucking his cock. Oh he loved it....I think every man dreams about having a woman under his desk sucking his cock...and then he took me out for dinner. It was nice and so hard to keep my hands off of him...his cock was still hard....I wanted him..we snuck holding hands behind the menu and I put my hands on his leg...there were bathrooms in the back....come in here with me....oh, it would have been super hot..but he had to catch a train. I did molest him outside..he giggles like a little kid.

I did give him a hard time..he said he had nothing for me but then he pulled out a gift certificate...I was disappointed. I want you to pick something out for me. I want something from you, I don't care if its from the dollar store...its something you picked out for me. He said he was going to try. We had one more falling out yesterday...he was suppose to meet me in the morning and he didn't call...I was furious, I re-worked my schedule for him....I had to move Security Man to the afternoon and then to be dissed. I am a baby, he called, I didn't pick up. He knows that means I am pissed. So he sent me little Be my Valentine notes....he knows how to diffuse me...its so funny.

And then I met Security Man for lunch, t We were suppose to have a full rendezvous but he had to work. So two opportunities to get laid, I was so horny but none came through...Security Man and I went to lunch, quiet place with another fireplace...we hold hands and touch and kiss sweetly. I love it. We only had 15 minutes so we went out to the car and sucked face for the entire 15 mintes...okay, I went down on him. I love surprise..he was shocked...I sucked a little and then we kissed more. I could kiss him for hours...he is an amazing kisser...its wild how hot his kisses make me. He's so sensual....I like that.

I don't know, I was sad yesterday. Even Mystery Man sent me an email but the bastard couldn't say Happy Valentines...too macho for him. Well today on Valentines Day, both Securty Man and Mr. Porsche sent me Valentines day text messages. That made me smile....I don't know why I am so needy...it must be my hormones are out of wack or all this with my dad.....I seem to need extra loving these days. I need to be held and comforted....

And then, the husband. I don't know if it is better that he didn't do anything or that he did do something. I felt so guilty after because I wish i could love him. I truly do....but I can't. There has been so much there, I feel horrible and trapped when I came down this morning and there was a dozen white roses with one red one with sparkles sticking up....and the card said....you always stood out from the bunch...would you be my Valentine again? And then he bought me Betsey Johnson belts that I absolutely loved. So, I feel horrible that I don't love him. That it hurts because I don't love him....Love is so strange...its something you can't force.

So its Valentines Day and I am working to catch up on work...hopefully things will settle down soon!

Happy Valentine's DAY!!! Yes, show your lover how much you care...its our day...a day to show a lover that they mean so much to you.....xoxoxoxxo Wow, i missed blogging!!