When I feel alone and rejected....I always end up back at Ashley Madison. Stalin was correct, it's an addiction. An addiction which I thought I had truly beat but after today, it pulled me back in. I went to check my mail and POOF!!! My email starts to go crazy. 47 new messages on Ashley today alone....I couldn't resist. What happens if Mr. Married Prince Charming is on there? so I start to go through the list as I have so many times before. Some of my friends do scrapbooks, others are into knitting....well, my hobby is flirting and screwing cute guys. I guess everyone has to have a hobby, right?
And yes, record time, I found a frog to play with. A cute one at that....a boy toy..only 36. He looks young. And he's a wise guy. Quick witted, fun, enticing.... of course we went back and forth for about two hours....each one of us giving great email. It's truly mental stimulation that gets you going in this game of seduction. The words are so important. If you give good email, you are set. I love good email!!
So, he wanted to meet tomorrow. I don't think so. a little chat, a little talk on the phone....we will see if he's worth the meeting.
Spoke with Tadpole...oh we have to meet next week.....I want to see him. And You Win!....sounds stupid but he tried the Viagra with his wife and it was great. I'm happy for him. I feel us slipping....the honeymoon is over. No more sweet loving words like before...I don't know, he doesn't even ask when he's going to see me. He wants me to find more, he wants me to find someone closer in addition to him.
And then the big head blower for the day. I was driving and there was Mr. Government. I could feel my insides twist, I could feel my heart sink..I could feel the desire swooshing around inside of me and.....I kept driving. He didn't see me. Did a ton of bricks fall from the sky and land on me?? He didn't give me so much....yeah he was fucking hotter than hot.....but why am I still thinking of him?
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