The Search For the Luscious Lingerie

I admit it, I think I am very nervous about this whole Secret Lover Rendezvous. I know I am looking for excuses but I was making dinner tonight and I thought--should I sleep with him? Maybe I'm being too easy. The fucking internet has a way of speeding relationships up. So, we've never met and I know so much about him, I feel like we've known each other for so long--I even have a penis collection from him ! So what do I do?!? I'm usually not nervous like this...why is it different this time?

Before I forget, I have to remind you that Valentine's is just around the corner. Be sure to get a gift--try to make it one that has a meaning....tomorrow I will post more on Valentine's Day tomorrow. Yup! I did a lot of research to try and find unique and fun things. I felt obligated to find gifts that had a little meaning since I am always stressing how important it is to spice up your sex life. Go to my website, there's already a lot of great ideas up there and definitely more to come!! Rendezvous Radio Selection of Lover Gifts.

And did you listen to the podcast? No excuses, at this point, you should be an expert at both blow jobs and cunnilingus! I wonder how Mr. Navigator is at going down on a girl? Hmmm...wish I could recommend my podcast to him!

Well today I went shopping for that special lingerie. I came home with NOTHING!!! I have an image in my mind of what I want. Black, underwire a most so that my breasts are overflowing over the top (I'm officially a D ). Yes, easy access for him to nibble on my nipples. I would like something that I can already be wearing so that is more of a bustier and camisole type of lingerie. Garter belt and stockings, hmmmm.....still can't decide to go with it or not on the first rendezvous.

So I looked at Victoria Secrets and Fredericks. Victoria had two that had potential but the one I really like had roses all over it. I wanted pure black with lace. Fredericks has this dream corset. But I like cleavage and this doesn't have that. So, I still don't know what I want and Friday is quickly approaching. I want something that says WOW! That is extremely classy yet naughty at the same time "That screams I am a sophisticated yet I want to play dirty with you." Sigh! Reminds me of the Usher song "Yeah"---- "I want a lady in the street but a freak in the bed".

So, bottom line -I have no lingerie and I'm kind of cranky too. Hubby is basically leaving for a special outing with my son for a week!! Yup! While it sounds great, truth is I am then home with the toughest of the children. And he is leaving me with a lot of business bullshit. So, I am cranky, cranky, cranky.

So why do men always apologize for being busy? If Mr. Navigator apologizes one more time for not being able to talk to me, I am going to flip. I swear, he sounds like Mr. Government and Soulmate Chris. They all say the same thing---I am convinced that each one thinks they are the only person in the world that is busy. Hello?!? you have to make time. You have to want to make the time. Anybody hear of Multi-Tasking!?! In the amount of time it took you to explain how busy you were, we could have had a conversation already. RRRRRR !!

My theory is, where there is a will there is a way! So enough with the I'm so busy. So the fuck am I!!! I feel a little better now that I have written it on my blog. I know I am just nervous, I do know that. I need to relax, I need to forget everything and just go into my fantasyland. I need to think about all the fun we are going to have and how intense it is going to be when he is inside of me. I need to think about the first five minutes of us being in the room.

We will look into each others eyes. Each one of us knowing what the other one wants. My look will be deep and sweet. I will talk with my eyes and let him see just how much I want him. The eyes to the soul! Then our lips will meet softly. We will stand there for a few minutes kissing and then we will slowly start taking off each others clothing, moving our way to the bed. Still the anxiety and anticipation will be building. Now the question is....does it feel right?!

So, we are on for Friday. AS you can see from my entry, my mind is all over the place. I can't believe I tried on all the lingerie items above and probably 30 more--still don't know the look I am going for. Well sweet wet dreams!! And you are all invited to be flies on the wall in the hotel room. Hey, I feel like we are all good friends and just think---if you were there--I wouldn't have to give you a play by play afterwards!! LOL