Two Dates In One Day

I seem to be at a crossroads right now. Today I tried an experiment. I decided to meet both men from my space--one for lunch, the other for afternoon coffee. I got along with both of them and quite honestly, they both asked me out again. I was a breath of fresh air and fun for one and the other one said he thought I was amazing and filled with passion.

so I should be floating right? I'm not...can't get excited about these meetings anymore. Seems like I always find the ones that are afraid of any connection. I wait for the second shoe to fall. It seems to always come no matter what they say and promise.

Dig'em....the distance is horrible. An obstacle that I can't overcome here. If he was local, everyday would be a party. We would be like little kids giggling all the time. Like first lovers....I just enjoy him so much. I think part of me found these myspace men to cushion my heart with Dig-Em. Cushion the second shoe falling since the cards are stacked against us. but then when we talk...we just laugh and laugh and laugh...its great.

Meeting #1- met at a nice restaurant. This guy is a high power guy. Yeah, one of those big swigs who is very serious and type A personality all the way. So my challenge, to make him smile and laugh...and come on...you know me...I had him laughing hysterical. Pulled him right in with my sweet charm...hee.hee. I liked him. He was nice, kinda cute....was into his power a lot. But I know my wall needs to be very high with him. He's ruthless. I can tell...I know his type well, don't cross them. So I will take this one very cautiously. A thank you for lunch and a kiss good by (peek on the lips). As we pulled away, I yelled out my window...better wipe that lipstick of your lips.....he answered...nope I want to taste you for as long as I can.....he's suave.

Meeting #2- down to earth and very nice. A potential more realistic meeting here...beautiful blue eyes.....I felt so comfortable with him. we drank our ice coffee and talked and laughed. I enoyed his company a lot. And he obviously enjoyed mine because I could see his cock was as hard as a rock......we were talking and then he reached over and kiss me...it was really nice. He must of text me a hundred times after our meeting. I want to keep it distant a little...he was so cute. As he said...I wouldn't do this unless the girl was worth it. Guess I am worth it!

So, I should be floating right? I'm not. I don't know what it is. I am looking for something that I have a feeling does not exist. Of course, it doesn't help that hubby starts pawing at me when I get home. I rush in make dinner, take care of the kids, everything in record time. ThenI had someone coming for construction estimate. He just walks out of the house and its 3 hours later, no where to be found. .

It's getting bad here.....its been building and something is going to give...not sure what though but something is going to give...I feel it starting to come to a head. sigh..

So that was my day. Two dates in one day.....and i thought I would be totally happy....