Gotta Bitch

Oh today was a winner. Surprisingly I am not in a horrible mood as I should be....

Worked like a dog....client after client trying to complete lose ends on projects....I actually got a lot done. On the phone negotiating, working with other clients, emailing and closing deals...it was one of those wild days. Two projects,I needed to hit the road to complete. Headed to the farthest part of my territory (been wanting to do this for weeks)...finally got there....YEAH! Went to get my work that I needed out of the car....hmmm...it wasn't there?!? Oh, my husband took it out. Idiot! So uncaring, it was this tiny box, never in a million years would I expect that he would take it out of my car. What an ass.

My phone is now running low (from all my yacking)....go for my car phone charger....its gone....crap, an important call was coming in and my phone was dying. I still had three hours left on the road. Wouldn't you know it....DEAD. I knew he had that too.......RAGE.....ANGER...He is my downfall in life.

Go home, I was suppose to go out with my girlfriends tonight. Oh let's see, he made other plans and took the car. I got a babysitter but as I was getting ready to get in the shower...NO HOT WATER! We ran out of oil. The man has very few responsibilities here....maybe I am old fashioned but I always thought a man should provide for their family. Shelter, food, water, clothes...you know the basics at least. Not this guy.

Let's see....he took my phone charger (well I needed it--HELLO...I bought it). He moved my work and he just decided I wasn't going out. Now I couldn't leave the kids knowing there was no heat.

So now do you wonder why I want to divorce the man? The fighting went crazy...he hasn't given me a penny towards the mortgage. When I asked him tonight, he said..I am using the money to buy a car charger and fix my car. well he better be planning to live in that car because I am beyond happy right now....

Phew....the strength builds....the fear cowers. I am getting so close. And you know what? The next man I find will be a really lucky guy. Because I will expect so little from him. I will expect his caring, his caressing and his understanding. If he helps me with the slightest thing to make my day easier...to me, it would be like gold.

Oh wait,here's the kicker. I went to the doctor yesterday. Having those female problems again. I was nervous....my period didn't come (yes, I did 2 pregnancy tests and they were negative). So, the doctor said...."its all the stress,its catching up wth you. you need to relax. you need to try and slow down." Yes, I had told this to my husband. His response, I don't cause you stress.....I think he's truly fucked in the head....lmao

The doctor prescribed a little happy pill for me to take the edge off the anxiety. Funny, it just makes me exhausted and want to sleep.

Okay, I feel better...thanks for listening....
Next week will hopefully be action packed....Mr.Porshe and I are meeting, so is Mr. Electric and I,
I need some sexual relief.....