A Little S&M Flavor to the Rendezvous

Since my last post, so much as gone on. What an active day yesterday. As I am sitting here, I realize why I don't post Mr. Porsche's meetings. Because the person I am in the bedroom with him is so different than the person I am in all other aspects of my life. It's so difficult to write about the submissive role that I play in our rendezvous' when I am sitting here in such control and Miss. Responsible. And then when I am with him...I've been experimenting in an area that is dark, a little out of my comfort zone yet hot in an offbeat way.

He loves control. He loves controlling me. More than anything in the world,he wants me to call him "My Master"....words I can't bring myself to say.....however yesterday he did get me to say YOU ARE! Damn, we were having anal sex and he was pumping me so hard and I was mentally flying....and as my orgasm was hitting an all time high...he says Who's your master? I would have done anything at this point...the orgasm was coming with such a rush...I screamed and was panting and all I remember was as the rush of the orgasm took over my whole body....I said You are! Yes, in return I knew he was going to take me to a mindblowing state The old OH WOW FACTOR!!! And my body was in that state I love more than anything in this world!! Mmmm....After, I reach that point, I cannot move. My body is tingling, my mind is at peace and its better than any drug in existence. Balance, peace, euphoria...bliss! Yes, the OH WOW CONNECTION!

He's a little rough...he loves my nipples...I mean he is so into them....he loves to get them so damn erect....I can't figure out if its pleasure or pain...its the border sometimes..I can see how S&M has its place when its on that border like that!
Amazingly, it makes me so fucking wet. I mean I giggle that in my 40's that I am wetter than I was when I was in my 20's. I look at the wetting lubricants as I pass them in the drugstores and I giggle sometimes because if I got any wetter...we would be swimming!

The experimental things we've been doing: well anal I've been doing for awhile now but he is the only guy who loves his prostate rubbed. He loves my finger up his ass and massaging his prostate. He is also the first guy that I have given a rim job too. It is a turn on to me that it is so slutty and out of my comfort zone AND that it turns him on so much. The turn on I think is that it turns him on so much to take me beyond my comfort zone. I'm like a little kid being that devil...its mysterious, its hot and everytime I am with him...I am not sure which direction he is going to take me.

Control. Yes, if he makes a request and I don't submit to the request (which is an internal struggle with me at the beginning because of the Miss Independent I am) he will squeeze my nipples a litte harder or grab onto my hair and control my moves. He manages to get my arms pinned when I least expect it and I am intrigued by his manipulation skills. Oh there is trust here. And without that, I would not be able to go out of my comfort zone.

Oh, I control too....when he is lying there and his cock is in my mouth...I know I have the power. Yes, he can't resist my mouth on his cock....my lips wrapped around and sucking as I work my way down his balls and he moans. And quite frankly,the fact that I take him to a place that blows his mind too (with all that he has experienced, the fact that I make him cum like never before--now that's hot!)

What do I enjoy about men? Well of course the hot sex but its also the idea that I learn their body, learn the man. Take the cues and figure out what does it...what excites a man. I am always amazed how one man can be turned on by one thing and another so turned off by the same thing. It's like experiementing with a recipe...testing the different ingredients until.....PERFECT!! You got down exactly what they like....you know what is going to send them through the roof. Yes, I can say that I know what Mr. Porsche and Mystery Man love (and what they don't). Quite honestly they are opposites....lol

The only place I couldn't go...hmmmm....he want to video me masturbating and put it on the internet. Still debating about that one. He laughs....okay, so you tell everyone about every orgasm you have, you have broadcasted your desires, you've posted your tits online...and you don't want to experiment with the next stage. I'll keep you informed about that one. Other mentions that I haven't bit on is someone watching and the newest addition yesterday was him peeing on me. Not sure I can deal with that one....for some reason I am open to things but that is not doing it for me....

So that was my day yesterday. When I got there, I told him I was upset. I gained 5 lbs. and I felt very unsexy. He looked me in the face and said I don't give a shit except it bothers you. You should get to the gym for you. Oh, and then right after my OH WOW Connection.....he slapped my ass 10 fucking times for each lb that I gained times 2. I did not see that coming....it hurt but I giggled....

And of course, the cuddling. No man escapes a rendezvous without cuddling with me. "This is so important to you. You love the cuddling'. He likes it too...but its not as important to him as it is to me. Yeah, I miss the connection with someone. I love lying in a man's arms and him holding me tight as I lie on his chest and gently move my nails around on his chest. Honestly, the last few months, both Mr. Porsche and MM have fallen asleep while I do that. It's relaxing, we're at peace....its a connection.

So, that was my day with Mr. Porsche. then I went to meet my High School friends. What a fucking amazing time I had. I laughed so damn hard...I'll give you an update later.

Have a great day. Yes, today I am at peace!! Balance!! I feel goooooooDDDD!!! SEX IS GOOOOOODDD!! Good Sex is Heaven!!!