God Bless The Frogs Today, The Venom Was Flying

Okay, I admit it. Today I was in rare form. Any male who came within inches of me felt the bite of my venom....yes, it had to be me today because I was at in rare form. First, Security Man....I finally figured it out about him. His sarcasm is bordering insulting at times, or its not insulting as it is designed to get a rise out of me. Well have you noticed lately, I have had more than enough drama in my life so when I finally hit it on the head---for a man who requested no drama--he was being the King Of Drama. So I finally said...listen you are working hard to get a rise out of me today but it isn't going to work....you love drama don't you? Well I hit a nerve, but now I went for it. Look, my life is drama..if you need drama, hang with your wife. I am not into any more in my life. He was shocked. And then he apologized and the emails took a nicer but definitely different tone. I don't know, since MM is gone...I haven't really wanted to see him.. as if I am blaming him for MM leaving but that isn't the truth. It was me.

Mr. P certainly didn't get away from the venom. We were working great together and suddenly we came to a roadblock. Oh it hit a nerve and I began to discuss it intensely with him and then he said something and I could feel the volcano eruption occurring.....when I get like that....I can't explain it....I can feel the anger about to explode....when I get like that, I just hang up on him. It's the easiest and safest thing for both of us. He knows me so well (and now I am laughing but I wasn't then)....he waits a little bit and then will call back and calmly talk to me, beginning with ....somehow we got discounted, can you believe it!?! And then he will say--the answer is NO, you are still going to work with me, I need you. We then usually will start on neutral ground and we work it out. It's hard, so emotionally close to the situation its tough to not want to see him progress quickly.

Next Round....one more client. The doctor from Ashley who became my client. Similiar situation today, he was going to handle it. Okay...fine I said. However, when I got to his office, the right players were there and the end result was great. No problems...

Final Round...the hubby. Last night he made a comment under his breath "I can't wait to get the fuck out of here". Well, I waited till tonight..when something else came up. And I finally said you can't wait to get the fuck out....GO!!!! It was getting ugly....oh and if you think I am going to come back like the guy across the street and take care of the kids for you, its not happening. Aaah....of course not, I can't get you to take care of them now....you wouldn't be a good dad, I knew that...please....

So today, I was a fighter not a lover. Except for the hubby, the others were fights that ended in good ways. The hubby, well trust me, he is showing his true colors. He's only here because he can't afford to leave. That is the reality..

And, throw all this crap....somehow I miss MM....I think the anger is here. The anger he would just leave....double damn standard...no response from him after I wrote....he gave me what I needed...I make one mistake...a blog...and he is in total uproar.

So....today was an emotionally draining day.....I just want to cry. Oh, good news...my friend finally arrived so I guess I should cancel the appearance on the Maury show....lol