I am truly hesitant to tell men what I do. Truth is, I love what I do (we are talking as a career here not any sexual talents). So when they ask me, I tell them and suddenly we are discussing their business. If they don't have their own business, I am safe. But if they do, I have to learn not to talk about my career. Why? Because they want to hire me. Now my girlfriend was dying tonight. I am at a point in my company where I need to finish up some client's work. I am overwhelmed and truly cannot take on another client for a couple of months. I already have a waiting list (which is great, don't get me wrong). HOWEVER.. when I go on Ashley Madison, I want to escape.
My GF today was literally howling that I get clients from the frogs I meet online. She thinks it is hysterical that I am looking for a lover and clients keeps coming my way. "Stop using me for my brain" "Stop wanting to pay me and have sex with me".... we both starting laughing. I am a dysfunctional brain girl. I throw in some business advice with each blowjob....lol
"Have Great Sex AND increase your business with Cheri"
Today the single guy I was emailing yesterday called. It was a great conversation and I like him. Actually, the conversation turned to business and once that happens...our connection turns. He asked me to work for him after I had done a quick evaluation. I said no. Gotta tell ya, when you say no to a man they want you more. He emailed me three more times asking me to reconsider. The more he thought about it, the more he decided he needed me. I told him that I gave him pointers, go with it. He owes me a dinner now for the advice. I told him to decide....business or possible pleasure. He chose possible pleasure. So we are going to meet and not talk business. Actually, I am thinking I may just want to be friends with him. He's too single if that makes sense. Very set in his ways....very independent.....but hey, we will meet and see where it goes. So maybe he will become a client.
Security Man texted me today. We talked a little bit back and forth. Truth is, he is afraid of feelings. He is afraid of being hurt and I hurt him. I didn't realize it, I was upset I guess and needed comforting and when I didn't get it from him....I said....Bye Bye. He wants us to try again. He said he would try to stop with the jokes and give more. That he does miss me and can't stop thinking about me. I kind of felt bad with that because I don't know if I feel that way.
MM made me hard in that area. I took his distance and mystery because that's what we were about from the beginning. I continued to take it and he is the only one who will ever be able to get away with that. I realize now, I am adamant when I meet a man who attempts the mystery approach. Immediately, I blow them off. There is only one Mystery Man.....lol So what do I do about Security Man? He wants to meet for lunch. Start again with no jokes. I think I am sitting here with the hopes that MM will return.....and I have to be realistic..it probably isn't happening.....so do I wait or go on?
Sexually, I am in limbo. Right now, I am so damn horny. I just want to escape and not think. Just have wild sex to escape the world. No words, no thoughts, just closeness and thrusting. I swear which each thrust.....I am able to escape further and further into paradise. It's as if sex is able to act like yoga and meditation for me. The harder I work, the hornier I get.....
Funny, I looked at the hubby before. He got his haircut. Other men would die for his thick head of hair. He actually looks great. Other women would go crazy over him on Ashley..he's been working out, beginning to show definition and he's very good looking, tall, dark....a definite catch. How sad that we fell so far and there is no return.
Close Your Eyes....And Listen To the Words.....This is Cheri's Recommendation Of A Super Hot Song To Fuck to.....Do you feel this when you are with your lover? Is the sex this hot? Just let go, turn on this song.....and if you can find those Lips Like Morphine...you are a lucky soul!!
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