Yes, I am addicted. The high that I get with those two men are unbelievable. Sex is good for me. My migraine is totally gone now and my spirits are high. Yes, there is a fulfillment that I can't put in words. That deep hole is filled...its as if my heart is singing again. My mood is so much better at home. I am happy. My work production even increases. Yes, the up to a secret lover.
Today though.....the down side. Mr. Porsche was in a real pissy mood. Didn't even call me back today. Waters are getting rough there. I don't know what it is. I have decided to back off as of right now. Pull back a little bit. I don't think its me, I think its life for him right now.
And Mystery Man...well I always have an uneasiness with him....but that is within me. Why am I so insecure? I have two men who give me total fulfillment.....
Hubby is putting a guilt trip on me. that I didn't give us a chance. Oh please....he's also getting bad advice from his sisters. Oh yes, they want him to try to hang me. I know....they are looking into me giving him support. I can see from the questions he asked. (how much do you make?). I had to put a stop to those thoughts.....I looked him in the face and said...you want to listen to them, it will end us in court. I will serve you with papers and get a lawyer. If you want it to be ugly....it can be. I don't want that. I want to go to a mediator and do what is best for our children. DON'T Make Stupid Decisions and take bad advice. I guarantee you will lose."
Now, I have a heart of gold. I will give and give and give until I can't anymore. you all know me. However, do not mess with my kids. Him expecting me to support him? Him not supporting his children? Now there comes another side of me. A lion protecting her cubs.
And to think, I sit here and think how I will help find him an apartment and make this peaceful. I must be dreaming. I guess a friendly divorce doesn't exist in this world.
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Darling... don't get wrong, but he is and has been leeching off of you. Why you didn't give him the boot earlier is the question.
Talk to an attorney now, or you will regret it later. Trust me. If anything, the attorney will point you in the direction that you need to go. This way things are still done amicably and at the same time, it will protect you.
Be sure to remember this, since he hasn't had a job in forever, you can request that he undergo a vocational evaluation. This is basically a test of his job skills and employability. It is also very humiliating to the person that has to take the test.
You will have to remember this in the event you have to fight dirty.
You know how to get ahold of me.
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