Meeting With Mystery Man--Part 1

As you can tell from his emails. There was a deviant tone in his email. Experience something different was what he said. I was so excited to meet him. Got dressed in this leopard outfit with leather, fishnet stockings and my new cutie boots.

He hates birthdays but I bought lunch, whipped cream and sprinkles, a brownie cake with a candle.....I wanted to acknowledge it. I didn't mention it in the email but knowing him, he knew that I knew.

This rendezvous is not exactly going where you think. In fact, I am very fucked up about our meeting yesterday. It was mixed of fear, tears, joy and excitement. I spent the day in bed today.....let me explain.

For 1 1/2 years, I have been meeting Mystery Man. This time he was into the dominance and submission sex thing. I figure, okay, I do it with Mr. Porsche and I enjoy it, it would be fun with him. I arrived and we kissed and I held him and he held me. I still mentioned nothing about his birthday. As we undressed, I reached for his cock and immediately got down on my knees. He had a tie....which he was using to pull my head in deeper. It was hot the way he could control my head with the scarf....and then he wrapped it around my neck. A little pressure, but nothing that was for alarm. I knew he was into something of choking...he's put his arms around my neck times before but never put any pressure. Today, he put a little more pressure but it was more of a statement than anything harmful.

I gave him the blowjob of his life. With my tongue swirling that baby. Sucking and licking like I haven't had cock in months. We went to the bed and I sucked him for a good 1/2 hour...of course we went into 69 and everytime he would get me to almost cum, he would stop. Beg me to fuck you...... and I did. Please baby, I need you inside of me. Please baby and so he took me from behind.

I was dripping and you know that feeling of euphoria when you are relaxed and just about to come and you start to float in the air? He was pounding me hard....really hard and I was rubbing my clit, all fours on the bed.....I could feel the wave coming and he was moving his cock in and out, in and out... and then he took it out and literally rammed it in my ass. Hard, no warning, my body went into shock. I saw stars, I collapsed on the bed into fetal position, could not talk and the tears just came streaming down my face. I couldn't move. Oh my God....was all that was going through my mind. It's over, I have to get out of here. But I couldn't move. There was no pleasure from that. I was violated. I trusted him and he destroyed everything. If he could do that to me, I don't know who he is or what else he is capable of. You know how you erase that from your mind. For some reason, I knew it was on purpose.....today, its fuzzy. But even though I can't remember the exact moment, I don't think there was an accident there.

Now, he felt horrible of course. I was also blindfolded and lied there with the blindfold still on and tears rolling down my face. He didn't know what to do. He gave me a second to lie there and then he came over and held me......he was talking but I couldn't hear. He spooned me and wiped my tears and held me tight. He truly was sorry but it took me some time to compose myself and be able to talk.

He held me in his arms and played with my hair. I couldn't stop the tears...he gave me water....and was caring. He was back to himself and even gentler. Should I have run? Probably, but right now I didn't want the ending to be like this. So I accepted his apology and we kissed and he was gentle and held me in his arms. We turned to tv on and we talked a little. the deviant man was gone, the old MM was back.

And now it felt like we moved to another day and time. As if that never happened and almost as if we made a joke out of it after. When he did that, my jewelry flew off....how bizarre...my earring fell out, my bracelet fell off, it was bizarre. So we joked that he fucked the jewelry off of me.

I might not have been so emotional if I wasn't about to cum. I mean it was where I was in my head that made it so damn emotional. I can't explain it. We did have a great afternoon after that. I put it aside but last night and today it keeps haunting me.

Actually, my ass is really hurt. I have discomfort today. I think he ripped something or I don't know. But my butthole really hurts. Feels almost like hemmorroids I guess or its just really bruised and swollen. I will tell you more about part 2 and his birthday. If they were two separate days, it would have been amazing. We fucked two more times and he came two more times. We laughed, we joked, we made penis whipped cream cakes....we had a fun time (as bizarre as that sounds)....but today, that other person is what stands out in my mind. I want to tell you about the great time, so I don't forget it. But I am truly sad today. Sad because our trust was destroyed. Sad because I am now somewhat afraid of Mystery Man. Trust is something you earn. And I trusted him beyond belief. He never had done such a thing to me...and now, in one brief second...it is gone. I don't know if I ever want to see him again.