A Meeting at where else--StarF*cks

Amazing how Starbucks is such the meeting place. Two additional meetings were going on when our meeting was going on.....lol you could hear them talking, first dates. Of course, we were the only first married dates. The others in there were talking about their careers, their divorces and one was even discussing how his medical was distributed and his child support (now that is a turn off).

Scarily the new guy mentioned Underdog...okay, he hit me and Mystery Man on the head...very scary with all the same mentioning of all the same characters that were a part of my affair with MM. In the back of my mind, I was hoping that it was MM. He would mess with me like that --but he wasn't.

I was nervous about meeting. I haven't been feeling confident lately. I think I have been fearing rejection. Having gained some weight, I haven't been feeling sexy at all. Here was a guy who seemed like there would be some potential....OMG....what happens if he wasn't interested.

I wasn't myself...its been awhile since I have met someone really new. I think I have been avoiding it. Partially because I felt like such a whore after MM. Maybe in the back of my mind, I had hoped he would come back and I wouldn't have been with anyone new this time. But it looks like he has decided to stay away forever. Anyway, this new guy, who is hysterical...he decided he wanted to meet today....YIKES! but I liked him, he was entertaining.

We met at Starbucks and he was handsome. Not drop dead gorgeous but a nice body and handsome. something about him. I admit, he looked a little like MM which is a little concern. today he called from a phone booth which I didn't even know they still existed. Putting the dimes in I just laughed through the whole conversation....every two second the woman interrupting, it was a riot.

We talked about a few things. Today (as the woman was interrupting) he spoke about his boy who was his buddy who had chemo a year or so ago. Oh my, poor baby...my heart ached for that child and I felt for him. I didn't bring it up until halway through the conversation (I wasn't on as much as I usual am because I felt so self conscious). And then, I turned to him and said "I am so sorry about your boy having the tumor and the chemo"...with my caring eyes and holding his arm, I understand what it is like for a sick child and to have to hide the medicine. Its so cute that you call it a Scooby Snack Bologna. " Sympathetic eyes as well but I also felt bad because I thought he had said he had two girls and I thought I didn't remember our emails correctly.

He looks at me and said "it wasn't my boy it was my dog. He's my buddy and I hide the pills in the Bologna. the dogs name is Scooby". OH MY GOD!! I smacked him on the arm and we both started laughing. the operator had come on this afternoon when he had said dog and I thought he said boy. I thought the Scooby Bologna was a cute thing he did with his kid. It was hysterical. I felt so stupid but was laughing so hard tears were coming to my eyes. Only me! another I Love Lucy moment.

So we didn't have long but at least we got to meet. I was so glad that we were able to meet each other. and then we left. He dropped hints that he liked me but you never know. And usually after you leave if you like each other, you drop a note. Well, it had been 4 minutes and no text. i was feeling insecure. And then came the text...."I am so glad we met and you are so damn sexy. I wanted you so badly, more than I had ever thought I would. I hope you felt the same". And a feeling of relief came over me. So i still have it? I actually confessed to him my insecurity telling him how when my dad got sick, I gained weight and was trying to lose it and not feeling great about myself. his response "are you serious? you are gorgeous, you should look in the mirror more often". And thinking to myself...oh i do and I see the extra imperfections....lmao

I agreed to see him again. go slow I told him and meet for lunch. He wrote back...I want you!...So I walked out feeling really great and feeling great tonight. But here's the thing. He can't escape during the day at all and he can't talk on the phone. Wife pays bill and at work there are too many people around. He can only meet, not even after work because he takes his kid but at 8 at night. That has to be the worst time for me in existence. And never any phone contact? Hmmmm.....not what i was looking for. So, there are a few roadblocks here that I am not sure they are going to work. Unless he can meet on the weekend, it is not looking that good for us.

But I did feel good and thought..maybe I am still hot. Wooo Hooooo!!! LOL