REALITY..

I admit it...the last two days I have gone wild on Ashley Madison Because here is the reality.

Mystery Man doesn't care at all and doesn't even think about me...he's blocked me out. And I was so unprepared for it to come to such an end. I am fighting the closure. No doubt he is on Ashley as an alias and fucking around by now. Lucky girl!

Mr. P- is too busy for me and has pulled away a little bit. Truth be known, I knew he wasn't going to be able to give me all the attention and sex I crave. His work schedule is too busy AND I need MM sex. No doubt, I have to search for another MM.

And so the search began......emailing man after man after man....and last night I chatted with a few. Picked myself up a boy toy. Convinving him that i was too old for him yet looking at his hot body....I was getting drenched. He was almost convincing but I have someone else for him. A friend who is single and young. He didn't want to know from that but I have to give him away..lol

And then the avalanche hit today......the married, the single...the super hot, the sophisticated. Men with PhDs to men who wouldn't even know what the letter meant. Bulging muscles to bulging brains and in between. My email was donging all day today. Hardly could get anything done. The MM look a like was texting all day (gotta think of a better name)....then there was the old Fireman, the Facebook Attorney and The Plumber. All I am suppose to meet this week for lunch...I ran out of days.

And then a whole crew of newbies. Sorting them by those that entertain me..dumping those that are scary and highly obnoxious. and then there was the one who ordered a picture from me. Interesting approach, I won't talk to you until you send a pix to this email.....oh really?!?! Well baby doll, it doesn't work that way for me. So I sent him a note....well since you were rude enough not even to say hi, i will say hi! It was a pleasure to meet you but I don't work that way. i see you are single and you have a pix. Handsome but you better learn how to treat a lady. so here is my pix, my dear, so you can see who you were such a rude ass too.

And he responded, apologized and said he gets all these cooky girls sending him notes and he's not a text person. He gave me his telephone number. I don't think so. His loss, if he is that rude before we meet, can you imagine his attitude after we were together for awhile.

So, I have a few meetings, I have potentials......and I feel ok. Nothing has changed here. Wish you could go back in life but I have to say....the one thing I did learn was that at least I enjoyed what i had in the end. You see, past times with MM, I was upset that he might leave again, I had dwelled on that and it ruined what I had. At least the last time, i totally enjoyed him and us. I was more relaxed, I cherished the flashbacks...no anxiety, no worries. So, I even wrote, I finally felt balanced and enjoyed it.

So Cheri's Aesops Fable for the day---Enjoy what you have and not worry about what sadness tomorrow will bring. Because its important to enjoy what you have in the present..tomorrows worries and troubles will eventually come.....

So which one do I do? hmmmm.....