The Bastard Bit, This Means WAR!!

Today, I was feeling bad that I was setting Mr. Government up. In fact, I sent him an email wishing him a Happy Buddha Day! And right now, I want to stick a Buddha up his ass!! The Bastard Bit !!!!!!

I knew he would. So far a wink message and he added me to his list of favorites. So, I sent a wink back saying to contact me and asked for his pix.

Okay, this is a side of Cheri you haven't seen. I really have no enemies. In fact, most people really like me a lot. Can't even think of someone who doesn't. But, there is one thing I cannot and will not tolerate...is being played a fool. Oh boy, what a mistake Mr. Government. What a mistake. You have awoken a side of me that only comes out in business when the competition gets fierce. A side of me that most people rarely get to face.

This bastard has played me for a fool for months. Yes, you all told me he was. But he was so good stringing me along. He didn't seem manipulative......I trusted him because he seemed so innocent. "Oh Cheri, I enjoyed bending you over and I miss you so. If I was going to be with someone, it would be you!"

Okay, it isn't horrendous at this point. He hasn't done anything accept send a wink and added me to his favorites. Idiot, I winked you first..obviously I looked at your profile. Anyway, I sent back a "please contact me" note and I requested his pix.

I feel guilty that I have stooped to this level BUT I don't feel guilty that I am doing this. Look he may say, he's hesitant.....but why do I think he won't? My mind is racing with what to do with this. Lori, you were right. I have to ride it out.

So, there's three scenerios in my head so far:
1) Talk and just get the info about what happened in his last affair and then disappear
2) Talk, get info and agree to meet and then don't show up and disappear
3) Talk, get info, agree to meet him and then I show up and tell him what I think of him

"Nothing Is Worse Than A Woman's Scourn". So I am hurt and I am furious that I allowed him to play me. Granted, I haven't been totally played yet but its coming. Look I knew it was too tempting not to respond so that is why I have to play it a little cool and see where his head is at. I know its not worth it...I am going to have to stoop to lower levels if the game proceeds..........it's going to get ugly (so Stretch close your eyes). I probably will stop after asking about his last affair because then I will have to get fake pix of another girl, new email etc. etc. and he's not worth the energy. But I know me, if he totally makes me into a fool by saying something stupid about what happened in his last affair.....I will have to sqwash him like a bug!! I have to be really careful and convincing. He has declared war--I am going undercover!!

You see, he does this for a living. He works in a government agency that goes under cover. Without mentioning any letters!!!!---this is what he does. So, if I did pull it off, he would be furious at a whole different level than most men would be. These letters are his life and he prides himself on being so fucking smart and good at what he does. Oh, he won't take well to Cheri having played with him like that. Internally, it would rip him up if I succeeded and let him know.

He's a professional at mind games, a professional at forensics and I should have known....a professional at fucking with a girls head. I'm not sutpid but he has been trained in this crap. Damn. On another note...

So tonight, I was talking to Zorro who is going on a business trip next month. He's planning to get an escort for the night. I disagree with that. Personally, I think its disgusting to pay for it. But he has a good point, by the time he takes a girl out, pays for dinner, theater etc......it costs the same and there is no sure deal there. An escort, it's a sure thing and you can do what you want.

Well, I am helping him pick out the escort. I am examining the woman and I am going to pick the girl he screws . Something about that is kinky and strange but I love pushing the limits a little . It cheered me up as we looked together and I gave him my advice on the different choices. WE still haven't found the right girl yet.

And then it hit me like a ton of bricks. These escorts charge $1500 a night. $350 an hour PLUS a 15% gratuity tip. So, let's see..I could probably get nice money being an escort (and get laid). I am offering my services FREE to Mr. Government (and he isn't taking it). So, tonight I go to sleep feeling like a loser! (sigh) What a smack to my ego.

I have a meeting next week...Mr. Six Pack. Oh yeah! I'm feeling desirable as much as a person with leprosy right now. Gotta go get the fatigues out. The War of Declaration has been declared!!