Yes, its been a brutal few days. I took a sleeping pill on Sunday night so that I could sleep. I haven't been sleeping and I needed to be ON for this week. I awoke at 4AM to the asshole in my bed aggressively rubbing my clit. It is two days later (oh wait, he did it a little last night too) and my clit still hurts. We are talking rubbing like a wild man...I awoke while he was in the process and I flipped out! I can see how people are disillusioned and groggy and go wild. Thankfully there was nothing like a bat in my room because I have never been so angry, feel so degraded and so violated.
What a stupid thing for him to do. Now it caused more anger..I mean we were getting along as best as possibly expected. Actually the lawyer said we were so pleasant to each other. My friends were disgusted by him and others laughed. Mr Porsche said he was trying to lend him a hand while he wasn't around....and then he realized I hadn't slept and he felt bad.
Actually the agreement states he needs to be out by October 1. I wasn't going to be an ass about it if he needed more time but quite frankly, now that I am on the couch and haven't slept in three nights well.....I am going to stick to that date. He sits around on the dating sites and looks for woman..I am picky he says. I am thinking, he better lower his standards just a bit. If you would see the woman he is looking at, we are talking high maintenance, gorgeous, woman in their early 30's. Good luck with that one.
Last night, the Carbon Monoxide went off. We had no battery to test if it was the battery or actually Carbon Monoxide...so I told him to run to the store and pick up a battery before I call the fire department to test (3AM). He returned a 1/2 hour later with the battery and he stopped at the 24 hour bagel store to get himself a bagel on the way back. HELLO?! Your family is in the house, you are not sure its the battery and you are taking your time to get home? I can't figure it out if he is that stupid or just so uncaring. I truly vote for stupid, he always would do things like this hence the divorce.
My parents came over today so I could get some sleep. I mean three nights is a lot and I was actually in tears and looked like hell. My mom began to get really upset. Said I didn't look that good, wasnt my usual upbeat self. I am not. Actually sleep deprivation can do that to you. I am going to take another nap now and then go to bed. gotta catch up on the sleep.
Ironically, I was thinking today how all the changes in my life has certainly put a damper on my sexual desire right now.
7 comments:
Just found your blog tonight and read through many of the most recent posts. I can't wait to read more past blogs. So much that I can relate too..
Keep your head up and I truly believe this is the start of an exciting new chapter in your life.
I am not surprised that your sexual desire is right down just now. You need to get that man out of your house, and then you can start to put your life back on track properly. You can't make good decisions either at home or at work with all that crap in your life. Hang on in there, you will emerge from this darkness, stronger and better.
You're divorcing him and still sleeping with him?! Are you insane? A worn out clit or overstimulated pussy is the least of your problems...
I was going to ask too why the heck in same bed? He should have been the one to sleep on couch once you both saw a mediator.
I know Cheri, you gonna have an excuse for why either of you not sleeping on couch many months ago (especially him.
With that said, truly abuse and actually you can call cops on him). Think about it! I seen it on judge shows where people have call the cops on spouse for stuff just like this.
Chin up, Cheri... you need to kick him out of your bedroom.. had he not done this before? .. don't let him back again.. if anyone it's him that has to sleep on the couch not you .. and for the stress you need is a few hours with Mr Porsche .. a body massage.. some clit kissing and licking to make it stop hurting.. some hot fucking followed with some cuddling will make the stress go away.. as you said in one of your posts 'my lover manages to pull me up and balance my world (as best that it can be balanced)'
xoxox
Ffs
I explained in my post about the same bed...he refused and now I am out. I was wrapped like a mummy each night as I slept....literally. How pathetic but true.
But as you said in many posts, that he would mess around with you while sleeping and yet you stayed in the bed. Kinda seems weird that you hated it but yet continued to stay in that bed.
You know how he was before the last incident. Cheri, while he didn't want to leave and you couldn't sleep well at night not in your bed, seems to me it must of not been that big of a deal to you. The very first time I would of called the cops (unwarranted sexual advances married or not).
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