Deep Sunday Thoughts

Thanks for all your kind comments....Common sense, the man was a jerk. He actually wrote me yesterday and said that too. Of course I didn't answer his bbm. Common sense, I didn't like him so why do I care what he thinks. Common sense, even if he didn't say those things I would have never seen him again. Reality...he hit a nerve. He managed to verbalize my insecurities and what I don't like about myself. Things I have to work on. However, I guess the truth is they are changable things. And that is a good thing. Its better that then if I was an arrogant, vicious person. Personality traits are much harder to change.

My first night alone became a disaster. I am having a hard time with one child. He is not listening and thinks he can rule everyone. He steamrolls my ex hence, my one night off, the ex drove him home. It was a disaster. I was so angry, seeing that this child gets whatever he wants, I went crazy. Total Mommy Tsunami and I even got a little vicious. Well very vicious and I kind of wish I didn't get that mad. But I cannot have him being disrespectful to me, ordering me around and I wanted him to realize that I am serious about this sleeping at his dads. I obviously hurt him because he went to his room (we had no electricity....yeah last night was a winner) and he sat there. I refused to drive him to his sports this morning. That was it. I was furious. He didn't harp, I think he realized he pushed me over the edge and he somehow got to his sports. My desire this morning was to sleep late. And it didn't happen so I am a real bitch this morning.

I don't know what to do with, hmmmm, I think we should call him...Mr. Sugar Daddy. He's 10 years my senior and loaded beyond belief. From a business perspective, he's even a good person to know since he is in my field. However, his flaunting annoys me. If you got it, don't flaunt it. I find it much more attractive when someone is humble. Like yesterday, he mentioned flying back on his friends small plane and meeting me for breakfast. Well today, he mentioned, I am flying back on my friends small plane would you like to meet for lunch? I already knew the small plane gig. I already know about your perfect children. Wow, typing this, I already know that he is the type of man who will try to mold me into his perfect toy. Hmmmm....am I jumping to conclusions here? I refused lunch and told him we will keep our date for next week.

Okay Cheri, screw your head on better. I took my picture profile down on this site I was on. Of course, Ashley Madison I did leave up. But the other site, I think I need to cruise a little. There are three guys on there I have been talking to..I am going to keep it at that. The others, I am not responding back to now. I have some big meetings this week...concentrate on my career.