Have I mentally turned into a man and that desire for sex

Okay, not actually sexually but I guess mentally at times I take on a man's thinking pattern because I have been on Ashley Madison for soooooo long. I think it also has to do with my busy work schedule. When I first began Ashley, I was so naive..so rose colored glasses would be the best way to describe it. I was looking for a married prince charming on so many levels. I was hoping he would fulfill so many voids in my life and heart. Poor Mr. Government....Poor Chris. lol Both of them got caught up in my worldwind of romance. I had the Newbie Syndrome.

Two weeks ago, I met a Newbie on Ashley Madison. He definitely was a playa in his time but supposedly the affair game was new to him. He's smooth in his talk and very sexual yet respective.... we talked, exchanged pix and we liked each other. I find I don't get caught in that hot dazzy eyed desire mod these days. With all going on in my life, I don't get that super hot desire stirring with a new frog like I used to.

So how have I turned into a man? Last week I was busy with work. Very busy and I was probably unable to respond to some of his text messages (in crisis at work, and with the Blackberry now, I sometimes read and forget to respond). Anyway, the next day he sent me a "I see you aren't interested anymore. It's fine...Take Care". I started to laugh. So that is what that text sounds like on this end of the text. I will never send another closure text like that again. It just made me... roll my eyes and giggle. And so I called him and started teasing him about being oversensitive and a newbie and I fixed the little wounded boys ego.

I guess its also in my prioritizing these days. I haven't been going out of my way to meet anyone. At this time, I am in a funky place. Finding a connection is not top priority at this time. I am looking for ME, stability within and HOT SEX. That's it....I don't have time for emotions right now. I new full blown affair with all the hot aspects is not what I need. Probably why I have returned to some of my comfort zones (the old frogs). So I am debating whether to meet any of the new frogs on my plate. There are three who email with potential. And in that aspect, I am lucky to be a woman on Ashley Madison. Because being a woman, I can just go to the site and within hours have new frogs for the pond.

The taste of hot sex is truly the devil at work. Once your body experiences such passion, desire and lust....it craves it. Its a yearning that cannot be ignored, it keeps calling you for fulfillment. The taste of the forbidden fruit....oh how sweet and wicked it is. My inner animalistic needs are screaming for fulfillment....the taste of that forbidden pleasure. It's a true addicktion....