Am I wasting my time with these married men? Are they claiming to want to find a friend and lover when they want to just all fuck and run? Pessimism is usually not in my vocabulary but today it is seeping in. Over and over again I get all excited about a guy. Only to end up disappointed. And of course, I have my friend Zorro who always tells it like it is.
"I'm meeting Mr. Fireman tomorrow, I am so excited". "Yeah" was all he said. He's really great, he's nice, he's sweet and....
Zorro finished my sentence "And in two weeks he will have some excuse why after he plays with you, he can't anymore. Something major will come up in his life. " OUCH!!!!!!!
I laughed thinking about all the reasons I never saw some of the dysfunctional frogs both on my end and theirs. Wow! Is this what it is all about? Am I wasting my time thinking that one of these guys can fulfill my emptiness for more than 3 days?
I don't tell Zorro about Mr. Government. I don't because he is right about him (as most of you are). The sex is so amazing. We are talking orgasms I have not had..I don't think EVER!!!! So I am addicted to his touch. However, he's pushing the line again. He has three days to contact me and that is it. Let the countdown begin (trust me I am being generous here). I will be really upset about this one. Really upset but I will have to move on. He hasn't checked Ashley in 2 weeks. Zorro said he changed his name. Well that gave me the warm and fuzzies!
So my big meeting is tomorrow with Mr. Fireman. Nothing big, a cup of coffee or lunch. Originally we were going to do a picnic but it is suppose to be one of the hottest days tomorrow. I am soooooo nervous. You all know how much I want this to work out. I admit it...I am a little scared. I don't know why. I can't understand it....I guess I don't want to be disappointed whether it be by his personality or by his looks...its more his personality. I haven't been with a laid back frog yet!! All have been Type A, take charge personality...
Sigh! I am off to take a bath. The bath always relaxes me with the candles, jets and romantic music. I love to just sit in there and let my worries go down the drain. All the stress from the day, released in my tub. I have a skylight and a picture window in the bathroom. I sit there and just watch the stars, any planes passing by and the moon. Aaahhh!! now that is heaven. Oh yes, as Percy says....the visual of my nipples just sticking out of the water. They get so cold from the cool air...lol
Sweet Wet Dreams!
7 comments:
Hmmm, sounds like me at times only I don't always get the sex. lol! All I can say is go with your gut instincts.
A friend with benefits would be ideal for a number of people. But dealing with people you have to watch out for those just feeding you a line.
Laid back guys can be HOT in bed! Being nervous is good, much better than being jaded. Your emotions are turned on by fireman.
The bath visual... I still see it!
;-)
BJ-exactly and I feel like a damn fish lately way too often! lol
Percy--I am turned on by fireman..we will see today. the bath was exactly what I needed! lol
SO how did it go with fireman?? Did he light a fire?
Did he whip out the hose and tamed your desire...I mean fire? LOL
It a normal thing to be nervous but at the same time you know what is best for you.
Hope things went well. =0)
Cheri,
I disagree with spg.
I do think some guys are looking for sex AND a connection.
Sex with an intimate connection of the heart is actually the most rewarding.
- Marathoner55, Chicago
T-, well its in the next post..do you think I would have held out on ya!!
Scarlett--oh man, you are hysterical. you should hook up you have a better lingo with a fireman...no he didn't whip out his hose BUT the hose was filled with pressure!!! xoxox
Hey Stretch--with such a warm and fuzzy attitude....I think I am going to hire a male prostitute..without a connection what is the difference? Except the man is guaranteed to satisfy my needs!!
SPG- sigh. SPG please tell me no!! So really why don't men just hire whores...in the end its less expensive financially and emotionally..sigh..
Marathoner--Aah! I have to believe there is a man out there that WANTS more than a hole..Thank you for reviving my thoughts on men!!
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