Were we in the same motel room???

I spent the day organizing and ripping apart my department. Funny how people can tell when something is wrong. Usually, the entire office knows when I am around...today a few co-workers came over and asked me if I was okay. I have been described as a whirlwind when I enter a room. The energy level increases drastically..today I was quieter than a mouse and people really noticed.

But truthfully, I did a lot of thinking. Mr. Heart called three times. I didn't answer. I really wonder if we were in the same room, the same place. Ironically, he thinks everything is okay.

The message he left: "Hey Beautiful! Yesterday was unbelievable...I have been thinking about it all day. I keep seeing your face....it was the best sex I've ever had..thank you. I went to sleep thinking about you and woke up wishing you were here. I can't wait to see you again. I can't wait to hold you in my arms and see your sexy face. Kisses. You are amazing".

Hmmm......what the fuck?!?! I definitely wonder if we were in the same motel room? Maybe I fell asleep? Okay, this is bizarre. How could I have seen it so differently? Men! I feel like I am in a time warp. This guy missed his calling, he should have been a car salesman.

I was concerned about Tadpole today. Well he reads my blog and he did say he didn't want me to see Mr. Heart. Granted we are just friends, met for coffee once, but our conversations have been so nice and well....I truly enjoy him and who knows if something will ever come of it. I guess I was concerned on his take on yesterday. "Any comment on my post". "No". Okay, we all he had thoughts, opinions and comments but didn't want to share them. Now that made it worse. We did finally talk about it (after I harrassed him all day--lol).

And I thank him for not thinking less of me for going. And I'm glad our friendship is still intact. I know I have been a poor judge of character lately but I do feel that tadpole is a class act!

And then , there was Mr. Feet. I keep forgetting about him. I forget to call him back, I forget to email him. I am so wrapped up in crap--he is just not at the top of my list. Well, he actually had called from a restricted number and I thought it was my office after I left work. It was him. We had a nice conversation. He's a really nice guy but I hesitate to start something "NEW" while I have so many loose ends floating around these days.

I apologized and said to him that he knew I was involved in something and I didn't want to start something until I worked my feelings out. His response: "Is coffee a bad thing? We can meet for just coffee...I realize you are pre-occupied but I would like to meet you face to face. I keep thinking about you and would like to see you are not just a figment of my imagination. I promise a respectable cup of coffee. "

I told him I would call him on Wednesday. If we meet, it will be just for coffee. No kiss, nothing. Plus he picked me up some info I had needed and I did say we would meet for me to get it. Damn, I have to buy some stock in Starfucks!! LOL

Okay, I am off to bed. Happy July 4th All!! Hope you see more than the fireworks in the sky!!
Sweet Wet Dreams!