The Search for Mr. MArried Prince Charming Continues

You can be surrounded by people and sometimes the loneliness is soooo intense. I definitely get the blues around that time of the month. It has to be....There are some days when I feel like Cinderella. Working, cleaning, cooking with no relief in site. Being the glue that holds the house together...yet, I have those days when I wish I could escape.

Today was a bad day emotionally...I dont know why. It's not because of a frog...its the overwhelming feeling and even depression I was feeling today. Gotta say...it scared me just a little bit. I haven't felt like this in a really long time. I threw myself in bed and just cried........the loneliness just felt so deep....the sadness actually hurt. Why? I feel so trapped sometimes.....like the light has dimmed so I can't even see it.

So what do I do? I needed an escape. I needed to just get away from here for awhile. It's either stay in bed and cry or entertain myself with a little escape. Hmmm.....I went to Ashley Madison and I even returned to Philanderers for a little searching. And what did I find? MEN!! I just dropped some return messages and this afternoon and tonight has been a feast of yummy men! And ironically, two of them had the same name as Mystery Man...... ummmm...that can get very sticky....don't ya think?

Anyway, one I already knocked out...way too paranoid for me. Another, while we had a great conversation today on the phone BUT he seems very judgmental. Too judgmental. I want someone carefree. I want someone that I can just laugh and smile and not think about his demands. So far, he has met five girls and dissed each one (each for a different reason and it wasn't because they had paws or six heads). One he didn't like her smile, another ate funny, another was too quiet...etc.etc. He seems like high maintenance.....and an ex-model. Way too caught up in age and appearance. It's not the number its the person...and I don't care if he was 30 or 50....age is just a number. He was obsessed with being in his late 40's.

Surprisingly, the one person who is back is The Surgeon. I know I should have never even responded again...but I did after he contacted me a few times. He has apologized over and over calling himself an ass and totally stupid and selfish. I am very cautious....not sure what I want to do but we do have good conversations. Before I meet him, I need to know who he is. I feel too hesitant to take a chance...

So, will they bring me happiness? No. I know that. Happiness needs to come from within me. I need to solve all the chaos that surrounds me.......I'm on the path, I think its the right one...I just seem to be taking the scenic route here. The truth is, if I thought ending my secret life would help, I would do it in a second. But right now, it is still what keeps me sane.

So a few frogs thrown back in the pond for good...some more frogs appearing and then there are the lingerers. Had a dream about Mr. government last night. Where did that come from? Do I miss him....I really thought I was over him now. I guess not 100%.

The dream....we met again. Our eyes met and we fucked...and it was hot and intense. And I woke up when he was holding me in his arms saying something about passion. So I woke up startled. But the truth, Mystery Man is a much better lover. Mr. Government was my first...we shared a lot but he had a lot of hangups both emotionally and sexually.

Mystery Man...just emotionally.....sexually he is excellent. So is there a guy out there that can handle some emotional connection and is amazing in bed? Is there a guy who realizes that its not just all about them but there is another person involved in a secret lovers affair. Do men ever think about what the woman needs? Sigh...looks like its back to the frog pond in search....

I never thought it would take this long to find Mr. Married Prince Charming.....it's going to be two years!!! But I have to confess, I get frustrated but I have enjoyed every frog so far (and even a tadpole)!

Can you carry the ball while I close my eyes for a second?

It's been an extremely quiet week. Actually, I have been buried in my work and fighting off a cold. Haven't really heard from Mystery Man in a few days...turned down Navigator and Divorce Attorney for a meeting this week.

Truth is, I am wiped. My focus has been on working and not sexual. Can you believe it? I have been asexual this week....wow!! a first I think.

Just sooooo tired. Just sooooo drained. Just soooooo stressed. Anyone have a winning lottery ticket they can share with me?!? lol

My head has been filled with so many business ideas and ways that I am going to try to make it work......I feel like it is going to burst.

And the hubby?

"Hmmmm..... you are the one who is more marketable now!"
Oh yeah...that's the answer....be sure to place that on my grave after I work myself to death to take care of this family!

Sorry, no sex today. I just wish there was an adult in this house besides me. I just wish I had a partner in life who when I was feeling wiped out could run with the ball for a little. That's not happening here...sigh....

the Surgeon Reappears

I went out last night to a party with my childhood friends. We definitely don't see each other enough. but when we do, it's always hysterical and I feel so great. I love them so much. And, we've all aged really well. Actually, we are all hot....and it feels great. Giggling like school girls, laughing about all our little secrets of the past and knowing the secrets of our present.....its a connection that will never die no matter how far away we are or how little we get together. There is just something that keeps us strongly connected in the soul.

Suprisingly, two of my girlfriends never had kids. One is still single and loving it. Actually her choice because she is so damn hot. And then there is my other girlfriend who surprisingly--is an extremely success businesswoman running this huge (and well known) company. she was the artsy one....

At the party, I went to say hello to this guy we used to hang out with. My friend's husband said "hey you remember...Joe....you guys sucked face a while back". We all started to laugh. Half jokingly he said "oh I think about that a lot". I giggled. We started talking, he asked me if I was happy and I said Hey you know...and he said yeah, I do. I gave him my card....he's actually a hugely successful surgeon....how funny. I kissed him good by and he blushed. It was cute.

Scary part, I don't remember ever kissing him. I don't remember making out with him at all. Hmmmm....I thought it was my girlfriend who did but sometimes the college days is a little bit of a blur. Honestly, he would remember better than me. So I guess that I did. He's a really nice guy. I know he's separated from his wife.

Oh, the surgeon sent me a note....I'm sorry about the other day. The timing is just not right.
What the fuck? He pursued me!! He kept pushing for us to meet. I sent him a note back (and Mr. Podcaster yells at me all the time--he says let them go, you don't need closure. He worries one will retaliate or something). Anyway, I sent him a nice note back...wishing him well, telling him it was just coffee and saying maybe we will meet again in the ER if my stomach explodes...LOL

Okay, I am off to do some work.....and to try and take care of this massive hangover that I have.

Happy Father's Day to you all!! I wish I had someone to wrap a blow job up as a present! I guess a designed coupon sent thru the internet would be the next best thing

Now this is a father's day present for a man. Better than any gadget you can get!!

Flag Day Rendezvous

Had a trip to Paradise...met Mystery Man at the Motel. I don't even know where to begin but I can tell you that I am totally content.

Today I was his little dirt devil slut for most of the day. Did you know it was Flag Day today? I drew blue and red stars on my chest and his name...I brought a flag bandana to blindfold and tie him up....and I dressed in red and blue (his cum was the white!) He thinks I am off the wall....but I think he gets a kick out of me. That little glimmer in his eye and the smirk tells me that he loves it. I made up new words to the Pledge of Allegiance...it was The Pledge to the Cock.....I won't bore you with the specifics but he was rolling as I sang it and sucked his cock in between each line!!

Yes, I was his little slut today....somehow I ended up with my hands tied behind my back with the bandana...somehow I had the blindfold on for awhile...he was definitely in a controlling mood. He ran the show today...i was the submissive one.

I can't even begin to count how many different positions.....and my legs actually were shaking when I came and he ate me out. I think I spent two hours sucking his cock. My lips are aching tonight but its a great ache......I have never sucked a cock for so long...this was certainly a record.

He was into the dirty little slut thing today....yeah, I was a bad girl and needed a spanking...there is a dirty, dark side to him....a side he hasn't explored but is coming out a little. Now mind you, he is always a gentleman....but today he surprised me and put his hands around my neck...he didn't choke me, it was only for a second....but I asked him...why did you do that? I wanted to was his answer. Not a bad way...I guess it was part of the play...but I didn't expect it.

We tried the wheelbarrow...we gotta work on that...we did some other yoga positions....it was fun. My downfall...is that I don't shut up during sex....I love to talk....he joked and put the bandana in my mouth but he changed his mind when he realized that I couldn't kiss or suck with the bandana in my mouth....LOL

My favorite part......when he lied on his back and I lied in his arms and on my chest....and I circled his face with my fingers....and we just laid there for about 20 minutes....gently kissing, holding each other and talkng with our eyes. It was hot and intense...I love that he's not afraid of the intimacy....he's not afraid of a connection.....you can feel the energy between us...guess its kind of tantric in a way...whatever it is, it is balancing, relaxing and peaceful. Good for the souls.

I hate leaving.....but all good things must come to an end....3 hours goes so damn fast. We showered together, fooled around a little in the shower....and then we kissed good by.

Ashley came up.....I think we both aren't thrilled when the other checks. I didn't push it but I joked about a new technique and he said....did you try it out on another Ashley guy? My answer.....No, I have this great lover that makes me feel amazing...I only need him....

Sigh....I feel so balanced and at peace right now. If life could just stay this way......

Eye Candy

Just a quick note......

I am a very lucky girl and I don't even know it sometimes. My site gets from 350-600 hits a day on average. And, I don't know who you all are. But in the past few months, whenever someone has sent me a pix of themselves........I blush.

These hot men, these caring and sweet eye candies are lurking on my site and know all about me....I open up the pix and my first reaction is WOW.....my second reaction is YUM!!

So thanks for coming to my blog.....and making me smile...

XOXO

PS Tadpole ya better call!! lol

Two Separate Lives

I really don't get it. It's a vicious cycle yet to me it seems so simple. You go on Ashley Madison looking to fulfill a need. Fulfill that whole in your heart that exists...seems like a totally simple concept....I mean here is a place where married can meet married.....you both need a little more....it's a perfect connection.

And how many women can you fit into a week? I don't have the time to fit so many in and I would think most men don't either.

My point....you are looking for one person...you find that one person....so you keep looking? Why not be happy with what you got, play it out till it is over and then start looking again. Doesn't that approach make sense?

Is this the male and female thing again?

Mystery Man is back online. Actually I woke up to him being online. I didn't send him an Instant Message....I just ignored that we were both on Ashley at the same time. I haven't heard from him since Friday...now usually that is not a big deal...but I got that feeling.

So the way that I look at it...checking his Ashley was more important than answering me. A PITA approach? Yeah, we all know I am a Pain In The Ass....but after no response from him and getting stood up (geez....I still don't know what that was about) I went into a very big cry yesterday.

I spent two hours just crying and crying my eyes out. Not because of these guys....please. Because of my life....because of how stressed and unhappy I am. It was the overall picture on how I can't seem to get it together. And if you knew me, that is so damn strange for me. People see me as a confident, strong, independent, successful woman....if only they knew.

Feeling like dog shit, I had a big meeting last night for a special group I work with. I was being given an honor at it.....It was as if someone from up above wanted to show me last night what is really important in my life. First, the honor. Then I had raised a lot of money for a specific area and there was a big sign dedicating the area to me and finally....I found out that I had fought for something in our legislature and I made a difference. I got things changed (with others of course). Such a triumph. I always wanted to make a big difference in the world and I did....

So how can I have such different parts to my life? I drove home last night just feeling like I am two people. And, I want to be the other one. I want my personal life to be as successful as my public life. Does that make any sense at all?

Okay, gotta go work now. Just wanted to give an update. Mystery Man emailed me while I was writing this. I feel he is losing interest. Don't get me wrong, the email was very sweet but something is missing, I can feel it. We may meet on Thursday...he says if his business trip doesn't go over. I can't help but think its more if he finds a better offer on Ashley. Oh well....I'm not going to answer till tonight. It's time to put a little wonder and distance between us.

you know the goose and gander thing.....!! Have a great day!! Mwah!!

A Quiz and I was Dissed Today

I knew something wasn't right about that surgeon. He didn't show up, he didn't call...nothing. Could there have been an emergency....? Yes, but there are telephones...of course if he got stuck in the OR...that is something I have to understand...

However, I went to the building where he claimed he worked and his name isn't listed.

You Can Change Your Life, But It Won't Be Easy

You really, truly want to change. You're just not sure that you can do it. You need a solid plan, supportive friends, and a strong will. Think about times you've made hard changes, and what you did to get through them. A change is in your future - you just need a little help getting started.

Can You Change Your Life?

A New Frog--The Surgeon

While things have been great with Mystery Man, our interaction both physically and by email has lessened. When we are together and we do talk....it is super sexual and I have to say, he is amazing in bed. To protect myself, I had gone onto Ashley Madison a week ago (as I told you). I was on for just 1 hour and four emails came in. One from a Surgeon. Now we all know that I try to stay away from the medical field but they seem to find me.

My first reaction was he is a fake like the other one who pretending to be a doctor. So I sent him a note....aren't you the guy who was pretending to be a doctor thinking all the women will swoon? For some reason, I seem to have success with the obnoxious approach lately...it's not my attempt actually, I can't stand cocky, lying men and I do believe someone should call them on their arrogance. So I elect myself when I come across them.

He writes back...and he seems real. We've been corresponding back and forth now for the week. He is either a good liar or he is legitimate. However, I do have my doubts. I can't find him on Google search. Now a surgeoon and doctor should be very easy...and for me even easier because I have access to lists that the general public does not. But based upon the name he gave me....I can't find him. So he's either lying about his real name, lying about being a doctor OR he is really a Physician Assistant and I didn't research that far. Does it matter? No. What matters is my safety and the fact that he would continue to lie. Sounds funny from a cheater but there is "honesty amongst thieves" and its one thing if he is unhappy in his marriage and another if he is a playa.

I called him on it...he wasn't too happy that I researched him. And he disappeared off of IM in the middle of our discussion. Oh well, I thought. He did return, his wife showed up at a bad time....and we decided to meet today.

He is very vanilla. Mystery Man is a swirl as is most of my frogs and then there is Divorce Attorney (still pursuing me heavily) who is total chocolate....a true deviant side there. With This new doctor, I would be like a teacher...he has done little experimenting...actually none. So it might be fun.

I will let you know after we meet today for coffee. Our IM conversation got sexual, discussing our desires, our wants and well.....it was only the second time he claims to have had a conversation like that. We will see....he could be fun....some whipped cream, syrups, blindfolds, vibrators.....all are new to him. It might be fun to take him for a ride and be his teacher.

But timing is bad. I have never had sex with two frogs at a time. Always spaced them. Can I have a double affair? Oh boy, I don't know if I could do that. Sexually, I could....oh man, the sex would be amazing. Psychologically...I don't know. I am already feeling like I need to make a move towards a divorce.

And, I am beginning to think the hubby is having an affair. I will go into details another post. But I see signs....coming home late, he had a cold three weeks ago and he slept in another room for the first time in our marriage...he hasn't returned and I don't ask. He still tries to touch me but my body cringes. It's getting closer, the five year plan seems to have taken up speed. It's finances now...I need to get the finances in order.

Gotta tell ya, the thought of freedom is soooo exciting these days. Scary but exciting. It would be tough for me....but I am getting stronger and I think I do want it. As a friend said....you are still gorgeous, you are so sexy...will you be that way in 10 years? Hit me like a ton of bricks. Food for thought...

Happy Monday...sorry I babbled....needed to get this off my chest...and 36D is enough to carry around!!

Sexual Thoughts Sizzling At The Barbeque

Sometimes I like to just send little notes to Mystery Man.....a little story about us. I guess its my way of sharing what goes on in my head...I guess it my way of wanting to make him think of me and get his cock a little hard.....I love when a guy gets hard thinking of me...I love when a man cums thinking of me...mmmmmmmmm......

So this was the note I just sent. A little story about me and Mystery Man....

Cheri sat on her deck drinking a glass of wine, listening to some music and hanging with her friends as the barbeque was sizzling. Regular chit chat with the girls when her mind seemed to flashback to the Thursday before. It was right when Mystery Man entered her from behind……the perfect angle—his hard cock just spread her walls….it felt so damn good…perfect angle, perfect thrusts. It was what she needed….the feeling of content, the feeling of desire….it felt so right with him thrusting inside of her. She just wanted more and more….make the feeling rise to an even higher euphoria. As he thrusted inside of her, she could feel his cock release….although he’s quiet when he comes, she is starting to know when he does.

Cheri shakes her head….returning to the conversation with her friends. She didn’t miss much….just some neighborhood gossip she already knew. Pouring another glass of wine, she stares off into the setting sun…her mind now wanders to sucking his cock. How much she loves to suck his cock….loves to make him moan with each slurp…how she is starting to know exactly how he likes his cock positioned, her lips wrapped around him….mmmmmm…..but this time, she remembers sucking on him and looking up to see his face with his cock deep in her mouth. He had a smile and those seductive eyes….she giggled inside…

A couple of glasses later and as the dessert came out and the whipped cream sound sparked another flashback….she remembered how funny things always seem to happen. The car not starting, the security tag, the clown music, him reminder her to suck his dick….Cheri just smiled. She is so enjoying her escapes to paradise. She so enjoys the flashbacks she has. They seem to fill in some of the rough parts of the day…a mini mind escape….exactly what she needs to keep her sanity.

So what will the next time bring? Guaranteed some orgasms, passion and some laughs. Will it be slow, hot and passionate? Will it be hot, experimental and lustful? Only time will tell…..when Mystery Man and her get to paradise. But the one thing she does know, it will be hot, it will be fulfilling and she was already anticipating their next meeting. Cheri’s mouth waters as she thinks of his cock……the head, the shaft…mmmmmm…..how she just has to have it inside of her. And his lips…sigh….how she missed those lips and that tongue…..Next time he will have to work overtime with that tongue….in her mouth, on her clit…..she can feel herself getting wet. The flashbacks are put on hold….she needs to return to reality……get back to the gossip…see ya in paradise Mystery Man!!

Secret Rendezvous and Sex in the Car

I was wrong! Mystery Man was truly sick...I haven't seen him in almost two weeks so I was beginning to make up this whole scenerio in my head. He had checked Ashley, met someone and now I am on the every other week plan. Well, this Drama Queen may have been wrong. I saw him yesterday....and he was truly sick (or the tale end of a cold).

He looked all scruffy....he looked so hot. he called me yesterday and said he was going to be in the area..that he would say hi. That he still was sick and didn't want to get me sick. Sweet...I told him I had to taste him!! Your dirty little slut needs a taste of you badly. Well, for three hours, the juices were flowing from me. I needed his cock so badly. when I think of him, my mouth starts to water. I just was horny and needed to fuck so badly. Where is this coming from? I felt like a dog in heat....I needed him deep inside of me...

We met in this out of the way field. We got into my back seat and we started to hug. It was so damn hard not to kiss.....it was driving us crazy....I wanted those lips so badly......but I sucked on the rest of him and licked him too.... his neck,. his ear, his chin...his nipples, his stomach and of course his cock!! Oh it tasted so damn good.....mmmmmmm.......I savagely went down on him..I could hear him moaning....I watched him as he watched me suck him so hard. It was another connection...it was hot.

I need you inside of me......he threw on the condom and fucked me from behind.....when he entered me it was like heaven...it didn't last long, he came quickly. Its been awhile for us...but it was worth it. Oh so worth it.....feeling his cock pound me....I couldn't get enough.....

We lied down and entwined in the back...we talked....and we cuddled....he rubbed my face, my back it was sooo nice. But it was starting to get a little hot...so I went to turn the air on and click, click, click.... oh no!

Okay, I tried again....click, click, click....hmmm....Mystery Man now became my knight in shining armor....he got me jumper cables and tried to jump the car. It didn't turn over....oh man. I don't have AAA, hubby does....and honestly, I couldn't begin to think of a reason I was where I was. Okay, no panic..I started to giggle. I was actually amused that he was taking care of me. Reality, no man has taken care of me. I usually have to handle the tough situations so this was a treat....but I was getting a little nervous. I called a friend, she lost her jumper cables and AAA in a divorce (we were laughing).....but she was going to come sit with me if I couldnt get it started. Called Mandy.....Mandy to the rescue!! She had AAA....she was going to come down. While I was calling,, Mystery Man had gone over to another car and gotten jumper cables just in case his was bad (I was sooo impressed with his take charge attitude)....

Click, click.....we sat and just talked a few more minutes. Now he could have just left me there. I was local but he didn't so I was very happy. I said to him " I feel like we are sometimes in an I Love Lucy Episode...he was laughing.

The strangest things happen to you and excitement follows you (and he doesn't even know me) now that is scary!!...Can I try it again? Yeah but don't flood it...(aaah)

So this time I prayed......and.....viola!! It turned over!! We closed the cars and then he came over to my window....he looked at me and smiled....I love the way you handle things he started to laugh. Really? I said smilimg. Yeah, you were so damn calm and even laughing....someone else would have flipped.

I started to laugh....if he only knew the half. I emailed him today (he hasn't been talking to me which sucks) and thanked him and I apologized.... he said stop it! I had fun....

will I see you next week so i can make it up to you? Not sure, busy week but we will try. Wish I could be in his head....am I on the every other week plan?, is he really busy?, is he losing interest? Hmmm....only time will tell. But I can tell you, when we are together.....he is there...110%.....and he makes me feel amazing as I do to him!!

So today I am thinking....I have problems with batteries.....first my vibrator explodes, now the car......sex and batteries are not my thing....

confusion on which way to go

Mystery Man has been sick...and with his sickness.....we are starting to fizzle.

The emails are less, the calls are not there....he's in a bad mood and the sexuality has dropped drastically. It seems that real life has come back for both of us and that hotness has dwindled. He's back browsing Ashley as well. A casual browse but a browse none the less.

So what is happening? the honeymoon period is over...our connection is moving on. This isn't bad but we can't keep our heads in the clouds. We need to be in our real lives. We will either grow or die at this point. Right now, I am concentrating on my life as well.

I put my profile back up on Ashley. Since he's browsing, I am torn. I really do not want to meet anyone else right now (my frogs keep my very content and so does he) BUT I feel like my profile needs to be up so he doesn't think that I am not looking. I hate games and I feel like someone threw a bucket of water on us.

What's the right move? Keep my profile off? Will it hurt, help or not make a difference that I put it back up if he notices? I soooo don't understand men. Why are we sooo different?

It's simple....I like him, great sex, I don't want nor do I have time for others.....I was content. I guess guys are not that simple.

3 Minute Management Course

It's not sexual this morning....but it is funny (and so damn true). Work hard today! (In every way possible).


3 Minute Management Course

Lesson One
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing?"

The eagle answered: "Sure, why not." So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested.

All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Management Lesson
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.
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Lesson Two
A turkey was chatting with a bull. "I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the energy."

"Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull. "They're packed with nutrients."

The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day , after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.
Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Management Lesson
Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.
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Lesson Three
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold; the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Managem ent Lesson -
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

This ends your three-minute management course.

An hour before he was going to return on his flight, I emailed this fantasy. So, do you think he liked his trip?


You arrive on the plane....you sit down and I am no where around. The plane takes off..."did she miss the flight?" you are thinking. "Did the Dirt Devil stay in ________?" Suddenly the stewardess appears and hands you a drink "this is from the woman in the back of the plane"...oh you know....on the peanuts is a note...."meet me in the bathroom on the left" knock three times......you come to the back of the plane....and knock three times on the door....the door opens slowly and a hand reaches out and pulls you in....

in just a garter belt, stockings and bra....""I've been a really bad girl.....I need a spanking and your little dirty slut is very horny...please take care of me..." Standing on the toilet.....you proceed to stand up there with me....slowly you lean me over leaning on the sink and you spank me for being a bad, bad girl.....mmmmmm....."now I am going to take care of my little dirty slut....." your pants are bulging and you take my friend out....I can feel him behind me.....I can feel you stick your hard cock deep inside of me.....thrusting me hard...""oh fuck me harder...make me cum so hard. Please don't stop......" You start thrusting harder and harder as the juices are flowing.....with one finger..you start playing with my butt....... "first in my pussy and then you move your cock to my ass" mmmmmm.....its more than I can take...I can feel my body crumbling...you hold me up so that I don't fall....you can see that I am reaching that point of no return.....so you fuck me harder.... fnally we both cum at the same time....I turned around and you had that sweet smile on your face with those deep eyes...mmmmm.....even in a small space like this...sex was hot!....you kiss my nose, you kiss my lips and brush my cheek softly and then walk out and back to your seat....

I return to the seat next to you ...smile and say hello....the rest of the trip is spent with small talk as if we just met....we got off the plane and went our separate ways.....until our next rendezvous.....and where will that be?!?1

XOXOX--
So did you enjoy my tale for the day? Hopefully I entertained you for a few minutes (and my friend)!

A Flight He Won't Forget

Not sure what was going on with me and Mystery Man....I decided that I needed to stop feeling so insecure and just go with the flow. I feel a million times better today....I woke up more like myself (that hormonal pathetic sap who was here the last few days was definitely scary). So today, I felt better and decided....oh fuck it...I have nothing to lose. I am not going to start playing games and wait for him to write me back, blah, blah, blah.

I wanted to do something spontaneous....something hot....I had nothing to lose, so this is what I want so I did it. Mystery Man was flying today....quick in and out of a town. So, I decided to send him a note for his reading pleasure on the plane......one for the trip there and one for the trip back (which I sent later in the day)....

Here is the first one....His trip to (actually, he won't even tell me where he went!!)

Hey Baby!!

So I am sitting here getting myself organized for a crazy day today...and you popped into my head....mmmmm...thought about you flying today....thought about how much fun it would be if I jumped on the plane with you. Are you a member of the Mile High Club??? Always wanted to become a member....although a friend of mine who is a flight attendant says that its overrated....totally uncomfortable and almost impossible...

Anyway, I hope you get this while you are on the plane....a little entertainment for ya....

You sit down, get comfortable and start to look at your work for your presentation. You feel a presence next to you but you are too busy to look up...suddenly there is a whisper in your ear...."excuse me , is this seat taken?" as my tongue slowly sucks on your ear lobe....I have no luggage..just a little handbag (filled with my little bzzzzzzz, a condom and some hand lotion)....as the stewardess is giving the safety directions...I slip my hand on to your lap....I had taken my suit jacket off and placed it on your lap so no one would see what I was going to do...

There was my new best friend......beginning to realize I was there...he wanted to play with me...I could tell...he has this way of sticking his head out of the top of your underwear. Without a moment to waste ....I place my hands inside your pants....."mmmmm.....I can feel my lips watering....I fucking want your cock sooooooo bad". A quick hand job......and my mouth can't wait any longer.... my lips must have your cock in my mouth....I take my tongue and do circles on your head....my luscious flesh pillows wrapping themselves around it....oh yum....suck just the head....mmmm.....some more circles and then my lips go down your entire shaft...up and down up and down.....can you feel it?? now round and round.....I get back up to the top...a few more circles and I have to have your cock deep in my mouth. I open as wide as I can....steady it with my hand...and wrap my mouth around your whole cock putting as much as I can get into my mouth....almost all but not quite....so my hand needs to help out to reach the rest..... sucking, sucking the juices are building up in my mouth....faster, faster.....ooooooooooo....I am getting so wet and want this baby buried deep inside of me.... a few more sucks and a big slurpy pop sound like you like....

I quickly get off because others looked around to see what that pop was...after things settle down....I go back down for the finale......deep throating your cock in my mouth....until you are about to cum......I can taste the pre-cum...yum.... I know what I have to do....I have to swallow every little drop like a good little slut.... and so I do,,,,,

"How was your flight?" I asked....and then we get off the plane....we kiss good by...and I go off to do a few hours of work while I wait for you to return for the flight home......
mmmm....can you wait for that flight home?!?

I hope you get this on the plane......to be continued...have a great day!!
XOXOX

Hormones Getting The Best Of Me Today

Hormones are a horrible thing......especially when you already feel the world is on shaky ground. I am having today, something I haven't had in a real long time.......a major anxiety attack. Oh, I can feel myself unraveling...not good. It's not Mystery Man (although if he hadn't checked Ashley that would be better). It's my life.....and he is the cherry on the cake.

Knowing that I need to be cool......I mentioned nothing about Ashley when he sent me an email today. He's really funny...... can't wait to put my "head" on your soft flesh pillows (which is his nickname for my lips).

The real problem is my life.I got some major shit going down.....the light is getting dimmer.....the escape hole is getting smaller...my juggling act is not as good...and please don't say its my extracurricular activities because it is not. I am suffocating, feeling like that rat again running on the wheel.

I need to win Lotto...anyone have the winning numbers? Money is not the answer to everything but it sure helps when things are tight.

Oooohh!! Dirty Sex Talk...when my anxiety attack passes...I will have to tell you about dirty sex talk...

Back On Ashley

Mr. Podcast tells me daily that it doesn't matter if Mystery Man is on Ashley...he hadn't been on for 10 days....but today, I got a weird feeling. I didn't hear from him as much.....I felt something different from his emails...the witch in me? Yeah, that other voice that I sometimes here.

I noticed he was on this afternoon....my heart sunk. But hey, he has a right to go on Ashley MAdison and as Marathoner has pointed out, maybe he is checking if my profile is up...still felt weird, went back tonight and he was on an hour ago. Hence, he is looking.....

I know it shouldn't matter.....but it does. I feel like it is a slap in my face....like I am not good enough. Am I wrong for feeling that way? I know we have hot moments....its not just me...so what does it say that he is looking again? I know that I also wander a little.....but I have turned down Navigator and Divorce Attorney this week...I am content....I guess he isn't.

So what does that mean? Sadly my wall goes up and so will the games begin. It was nice while it lasted.....I finally orgasmed with ease...feeling so connected with someone. Oh well....I know the drama queen is rising inside of me....but is it so horrible to want 1 affair with 1 guy? I don't have time for the rat race...I don't have the energy....sigh....I can feel the tears coming....I can feel the emptiness again in my heart.....I guess if he finds someone that can do all that we do AND suck his dick as good as I do......then I'm happy for him. I need to feel wanted, not like a second fiddle....

The tears are beginning to flow, I gotta go before someone notices....sweet dreams

Flashbacks of our Secret Rendezvous

Flashbacks of our secret rendezvous keep popping through my head. The one I see the most, is when he was lying on top of me...he was deep inside of me. I looked up and he looked up and we both just stared at each other in the mirror. There were no words, our eyes just connected and our eyes were talking to each other. They were saying "This is fucking amazing..." and I remember smiling but I was concentrating on his eyes and his smile that came to his face as a smile came to mine.

He told me he was having flahbacks all weekend.....of what I asked? Anything particular or the whole afternoon? "Yeah, when you looked up and our eyes connected and a beautiful smile came to your face with the neon lights shining on it. You looked gorgeous just lying there with me inside of you".

Aaah! The exact moment...how great to have connected like that.

Tonight, I don't know what it is but I have been crying on and off all day (maybe just really bad PMS, maybe the problems at home are coming to a head, maybe that light has been dimming because financially i don't see a way out, or maybe its because I spent the weekend throwing out, cleaning and really trying to get my life in order--but its hard alone).

I'm so sad because I feel like a failure. I am so unhappy in my marriage. He didn't do anything this weekend wrong, actually he helped a little. Yet it has become even more apparent with the anger not there, that there is no love there. When he tried to touch me this weekend, my entire body cringed. So much has happened, so much disappointment.......there is no road back. Sigh...I turned to see if I could travel down that road and I don't want to. I have to move ahead....i have to figure out the new journey.

I started to try to straighten up some of the disasters he has made. I can't do it alone. I am a very independent woman and usually very self sufficient but he hasn't taken care of so much...I have decided to look for professionals to help me undig all the madness. Hence, I have failed. I am admitting defeat in a way....something that is very hard for me.

And Mr. Married Prince Charming (Mystery Man)....have I found him? I might have in a way...but it doesn't affect my situation at all. I guess Mr. Government had instilled in me that I was looking for a man to be a full time boyfriend. He always felt I needed someone to take care of me. Well, I know now he was wrong. I am enjoying Mystery Man trememdously but its as if it is a separate life. One does not have anything to do with the other. I need to do what I have to do for me. I originally had said it was a five year plan. I think it is going to be four now. I need to start getting things together.....and move ahead. I have to admit, the thought of freedom is both scary and soooo exciting.

Well Happy Tuesday!!! Stay Focused and Stay Horny!! Thanks for your support!!

XOXOXO

Making Love To A Stranger

I met Mystery Man again today. Today was different.....it wasn't 12 positions, it was more like I am used to having with frogs. It was great, today we weren't fucking raw! We were very sensual...it was intense.....the sex was slower, the desire was deeper, there was caring and emotion in this rendezvous.....and now I am nervous.

I've never been successful in the past with guys when emotions have come into play. When we were fucking today, it was what I always wanted it to be......and I was afraid he was going to flip although he did initiate it. Yes, he fucked me hard from behind as I stood up and was holding my ankles...yes, he fucked me while I was holding onto this ledge.....but most of the time....it was more intense.

We would lie there and kiss slowly....he would run his finger up and down my face so gently...he looked into my eyes as he was pumping me.....he encompassed his body over mine as he just lied inside of me....we even eskimo kissed with our noses. He played with my hair gently, he told me how beautiful I was, he went deep.....real deep......and then we would just lie there...he held my hand and kissed it......I could feel my emotions rising and I basically started to shift to get out of it....he wouldn't let me...he looked me in the eyes, as if he knew what I was thinking...and it calmed me. He wants me to go to that sensual place....he wants to feel my soul and he wants to make love to me....that's what he did. Two strangers that made love to each other...how strange of a feeling that was. I forgot what it was like to feel that connection, how nice it felt for someone to hold you tight and kiss you and be so gentle.

We spent time just talking about absolutely nothing....we smiled, we held each other and we massaged each other. I bought this hot wax oil but he wouldn't let me use it because it smelled too much.....that wa a little disappointing.

We did get on the subject of knowing each other.....I said..."I know a lot about you....more than you think". I could feel his body tighten.....and then I went on to say......"I know your favorite color is red. I know that you love when I kiss your neck like this...and when I work my way down to your cock like this. I know that it drives you crazy when I do circles with my tongue on the head of your cock as your cock is in my mouth and I suck it hard. I know you love your cock playd with hard and your balls gentle." I know all I need to know....and then I went down on him...

Leaving was tough today. I hate the leaving. I hate that we wash each others scents off like we have the cooties...I find it so disturbing. Yes, its necessary but its disturbing...To share so much and then to feel your whole body needs to be cleansed of that person....yes, a necessity but a crappy one at that. There was silence today as we both got dressed. I was sadder than usual and didn't want to say the wrong thing so I chose to say very little. He could see that...he kept looking over at me. It's unusual that I am not yacking away...even just busting his chops about something. I was feeling very strange today. We just shared something that was different than before.

Yes, I am looking into it too deeply. But everytime after we were together....there was an immediate note from him. Today there wasnt. I know it is the holiday weekend and he probably had something to do tonight....but I would have liked that reassurance. Damn, Mr, Government fucked me up more than I knew. Springer was just as bad too. I guess I fear that he is going to say...today we got to close...good by. This is where Mr, Government would run as fast as he could. Will Mystery Man be able to deal with feeling a little emotion? Only time will tell.

So today was hot. It was intense. It was so nice. I can feel him inside of me, lying on me, and then we both looked up to look in the mirror...our eyes connected and we both smiled. Aah! I am enjoying this Mystery Man very much....

Have a great weekend!!

Another Super Horny Day!

Ever have one of those days where you are just so damn horny that you can't concentrate? Well that was today. The anticipation of meeting Mystery Man tomorrow was affecting my concentration all day.....I had to masturbate in the middle of the day...my clit was so engorged...my walls so tight....and even playing with myself didn't release so much pressure.

He keeps sending me these erotic notes that are making me crazy.....they are soooo visual and soooo sexual...sigh...I can't wait for tomorrow.

Got some wild fuck me shoes!! So out of character for me...but fun and was screaming his name...I actually am not prepared for tomorrow....I have to run out and get the final touches....yes, tomorrow is dirty talk and I am going to be his little slut in leopard fuck me pumps and a thong......of course, the garter belt with the fishnet stockings......to top it off...damn...where did the week go...

Well here is a pix I sent to him today....my pouting lips.....let's just say he loved thinking about what they were going to do to his cock......

Mmmmmm...there's a lot to live up to...the last rendezvous was the best sex I have ever had!

Masturbating and Thinking About MM

MY email to Mystery Man today....do you think he liked getting this in the middle of his meeting today?


Our talks all day yesterday....kept me in a constant wet state...lol

I tossed and turned and knew that unless I fantasized about you, about us, there was going to be no sleep. I closed my eyes.....and thought about you blindfolding me....you being in charge and me being your sex slave. I envisioned you were in the room, wanting me to masturbate until I came, you watched as I played with myself.....slipping my hands into my panties, I could feel the wetness from thinking about you....my clit was already so enlarged...the pressure was already there...the anticipation, the yearning for you to be inside of me....was overwhelming......

It didn't take much for me to cum last night....the juices were already flowing, the tightness was already there and just the thought of you was just enough to send me over the top...YUM!!

So Mystery Man, have a wonderful day....and think of me and all the hot sex we are going to have on Friday......

Don't Think It's Going To Fit

Yes, I'm talking anal sex. Tried it once but it wasn't for that long and I was really tight. Let's be realistic, there hasn't been a cock there EVER....



Mystery Man surprised me....we discussed that I would be open to trying it one day BUT I wasn't expecting it. I was on all fours and suddenly I felt the pressure.... "S-L-O-W" I said really sternly..... He leaned down and whispered in my ear..."I promise" I took a deep, deep breath and relaxed....I knew he wouldn't hurt me on purpose.

What a rush!! What an amazing feeling! What a damn orgasms...multiple orgasms...it felt so tight, so good feeling him going in and out...at first it was a little ouch but then my body yearned for it more......he was gentle and then he picked up the pace. I liked it a lot. Did I like it because it was on my wish list? Because I felt it was a dirty little thing to do? Or my orgasms were just so much stronger? Hmmm....all of the above and more!!

So anal sex can be checked off....it was hot, very hot....

sorry the comments were shut off.....I didn't do that on purpose...don't know how it got that way! hope you can comment now!

3 Hours of Sexual Fulfillment-Part 1

I don't know where to begin...it was the best sex I have ever had! It was our best Secret Rendezvous yet. And to think, I was giving up that exact day that I met him. What I would have missed out on.

Today I decided no costumes, no over the top toys....I wasn't going to plan berries, hot fudge....no props. Just us (with some back ups of edible paint and anal beads in my bag). Oh, I did bring scarves....but that was it...

My dress....black pants....a black shirt that had little holes in it that is usually a work shirt with a tank top underneath...this time, I just wore a leopard bra...no tank top so my cleavage was right there...you couldn't miss it. I wanted to knock on the door and say "excuse me sir, I am locked out from my room. I saw you come in and I said I have to have that hot man....can I come in.." then I wanted to throw him up against the wall... Of course, there was a problem. The cleaning ladies were standing right outside the room....I couldn't walk up in this outfit. So, plan B....COMEDY!! I threw an oversized zippered sweatshirt on, threw the hood over my head and wore these huge sunglasses.....he opened the door and started cracking up. you could see nothing but sunglasses..

When I got inside, I started to undo the sweatshirt and went into the excuse me sir.....when I opened my sweatshirt he said.....you look so fucking hot. And he said, oh yes mam, you can certainly have me...and before I could react, he threw me up against the wall....hot, hot, hot kisses...this man knows how to kiss....it was as if we hadn't seen each other in months...so intense....the kissing alone makes me so wet....its hot, its erotic, its totally fulfilling...

We made it to the bed...how I don't even remember.....I just wanted him inside of me...."I want you inside of me". Say please.... "please I said...please fuck me". Nope, first I tease ya with my tongue and suck all the juices out of ya.....I need to taste your sweetness....I've been dreaming about making you cum with my tongue all week....

He reached for a scarf and covered my eyes....and then began to undress me....it was too soon..I couldn' t take the sensation of the scarf at the beginning..I was too charged up.....but he kept going....I blindfolded him too...let's do this both bliindfolded.....and then I left the scarf on...
He pulled me to the end of the bed and just started sucking on my clit, circles, licks...oh man, this guy knows how to use that tongue....and fingers...inserting them just at the right time. I could feel my body floating I could feel my body giving in to this aura....like a wave.....the sensation overcame me and my whole body began to shiver....I came like I have never came before...it was so damn powerful. He cheated though, his blindfold was off when I looked up..."bad boys get spanked....I said and spanked that hot cherry ass.

This is going to be a few parter post. Unbelievable what you could fit into three hours of total pleasure. 15 positions, a porno flick, sucking, fucking, licking, orgasms, anal sex too!! I want to try and remember every position, every lick....but it was a blur even as I was there trying to remember. Why do you analyze it after? Like you are reviewing it.....and he started to laugh. I realize now......I go over it so I can blog it.....Its as if I ask him so I don't forget the key parts. I never realized I did that with him. Ohhhhh....if he only knew. Yikes.

Today, I can't concentrate at all. My head is spinning my mind is floating....I am at peace. This is what I wanted....a hot, intense affair. Mr. Podcaster keeps trying to help me get over the fact that I know nothing about him. The good girl in my wants to know the person. But I guess once that happens, it becomes a lot more intense. And right now, he is right. This is the best for me!!

Wow, I woke up today...and my body is achy. My clit is sensitive, my ass feels the memories and I guess the knee bends made my legs tighten....oh, everyone should have a day like this. Everyone should allow themselves to go and enjoy and play....

Too Hot, So Wet!

So what do I write....I am hornier than I could imagine...I have been thinking about meeting him all day.....he had to cancel for today, so I answered his email with:


Cheri said:

Tomorrow sounds better because it is sooner...but since its not an option...Friday sounds great. I gotta move a few things....are you worth it??? Of course, you need to entice me with words of desire.....mmmmmmm...

Give me that magic tongue to get the anticipation going......I love when you get me all worked up so I can't wait for the minutes to pass...wanting you, feeling you....oo la la!!


I came home today to this note......I can't wait to throw him up against the wall when he opens the door. No questions, no words....I am going to be the most assertive I have ever been...assertive and seductive...a skirt and no underwear....oh la la!! All I can say is thank you Ashley MAdison!! I told him he should write a blog. He laughed (oh, little does he know)

Mystery Man wrote:

Hey,,,,You know I'm worth it! Let's see how do I entice you???.........your moist smoldering love box awaits my velvety tongue....your vulva quivers as I tease your wet inner folds and lick the length of your labia......pausing to blow my hot breath on your clitoral hood...I work my fingers deep inside of you while my lips clamp around the top of your pussy sending deep vibrations down your sticky corridor......round and round my tongue probes you...licking the sweet juices that are slowly trickling down from above..faster and faster my fingers are working you up into a hot lather.....oo la la!!!

Navigating his Desires

"Hey baby!"
"Where were you tonight?!"
"Out with my billionaire playboy friend, hanging with 20 year olds"
"And you are IMing me in between?"
"Not my scene really"
"Hmmm.....but a 40 year old across the world is a better scene and more satisfying?"
"Yes, when you've been thinking about how you want to fuck her all day...it definitely is"


Mr, Navigator....Mr. Navigator...what am I going to do with him? he was wasted off his ass and he was convinced he wouldn't be able to get hard and cum. Oh please, give me such a challenge and of course I am going to take it. Oh his dick got hard....and he came really hard. I knew, a few little words of encouragement, a few words of description of how big his cock looked (it looks big because its bigger than your present lovers.....cocky bastard!) and a sweet reminder of our meeting and his desire for my mouth......and Viola!! He came and came hard.....

With him, if I want to play, its keeping the ball in my court. Keeping the upper hand...with him, it's a game.

With Mystery Man, I am truly enjoying him. I am enjoying our meetings, our bodies entwining, our connection. The games are starting a little. I see us each putting a wall up just a bit. Why? We are getting closer....we are starting to know the person....we are starting to talk about our day to day....experiences, things that are in our past. Not our families....that we need to stay away from. But he knows something is going on in mine. He knows I adore my children because there is only one rule when we are together. I have to check my phone if it rings...no matter what we are doing....and trust me the damn phone always rings at the worst times...but I told him...I promise its important why I check and he totally understands.

So, life continues and in some ways it is so sad. I stayed in this marriage for the children. However, now the hubby is doing things that are not good for the children. His presence is becoming a problem now. I can't go into details but I am going to be forced to get him out. He is not a parent. I am realizing that I would be better with a 16 year old watching my children. They have better ethics and reality of what is right and wrong. Who is this man? I didn't marry the person he is today. We were never totally on the same page...but now we are in totally different books....sigh... hold on.....the rocky road is just beginning!!

Rough Week!

It's been a rough week BUT it seems to be getting better. One thing about Ashley men, they seem to come in and out of my life. Divorce Attorney saw me online......he begged me to call. I did at 6AM and he came after one sentence....what a way to start the day.

Mr. Navigator has all of a sudden been thinking about me all the time. Calling, IMing, writing. It's funny when he's in the United States, I don't hear from him but when he's jetsetting around the world...he is Joe Attentive. I admit, I am playing with him a little. Well he doesn't want any commitment and the power with him is so intriguing.

Mystery Man and I are going strong. A little rocky of a Monday but it was the day not us. Suppose to meet tomorrow but its been postponed till Friday. Actually, I like Fridays better...the end to a week....a nice ending..... A couch!! Yes, that is the main event this time. A hotel room with a couch for exotic positions on it. And possibly, a light whip (that does not hurt according to the ad). I am in charge of the toys....

Gotta say, I am enjoying him. I gotta get over this Ashley thing though. I keep checking if he checks and he says he is checking if I check. Vicious cycle....I am trying to stop feeling like he is looking for something better. That's my insecurity....

Well Friday will be here soon!!! Hooray......gonna go look for whip options now!! I sent him this book cover...he can't believe how many pix I have or where I find them....sigh...hopefully he will never find Secret Lovers Lane!

What a surprise...Mr. Navigator...a blast from the past, resurfaced today. "I have been thinking about you a lot and just wanted to see how you were doing" came across my Instant Message. Wow, I thought about him the other day briefly (actually not in a good light, thinking how selfish he was).

thinking about me??!?!? Yeah, thinking about how I should have made the time to get you to that hotel. How I regret very little in life, but the fact that I didn't make the time....stupid. But honestly, I thought you wanted more than I could ever give you. I am always traveling.
So how's your love life?

I have been seeing someone pretty regularly for a month and its great. I answered with a smirk.

Aah, I am happy for you and can't say that I am not a little jealous of what that guy has! Lucky guy!

Timing is everything, I said to him. We just never could get it together.

Damn, you make me hard just from some IM's.......I still fantasize about you....I think about your smile, your face, those great tits......mmmmm....

Mr. Navigator would be one of those special arrangements if I ever had the balls to do something like that. Emotionally, he's never around so I couldn't rely on him for any connection. He's the type that travels around the world for work 80% of the time. He's afraid of a connection....he's afraid he would get emotionally connected to me. So, we would have to have a business arrangement in a way. He treats me like a princess and I expect nothing.

Well right now, I am happy with Mystery Man so being a kept woman is not what I am looking for. He was disappointed that I was "taken" right now but you never know what tomorrow will bring. I will call you next week, he said. How often do you see him? I saw him twice this week. You fucked him twice this week??! Well actually, once today and probably 6 different positions the other day for three hours.....(I had to get that in)...

"I am so hard right now....the thought of having you for three hours---shit! Is his cock as big as mine?"

Aah.....with the power and the money comes the ego! His cock was above average in girth and size...but the fact that he knows it and has such an ego about it.....well, it shrinks it. I wasn't going to give him total satisfaction there...Mystery Man has a great size and girth....its perfect for me....and quite honestly, he knows how to use it.

"Well I don't know the exact comparison but he knows how to use what he has....You....the jury is still out!"

I've come a long way in the year that I had first met Mr. Navigator. In fact, I've become more realistic and Mr. Married Prince Charming's title is still up for the grabbing. Yeah, Mystery Man is close but I really don't know him to give him that title. Let's see what this week brings.

Hope all your Mother's Days were great....and you treated your wives and moms well. Here, absolutely nothing......my mom and dad bought me something.....a friend came over and brought me flowers. But I was woken to my family saying it was raining in the kitchen (of course no one knew what to do but me as the toilet has overflowed). My dog had run away today. I was running through the neighborhood praying he wouldn't get hit by a car. My adrenaline was flowing, I scratched up my whole back running through the trees trying to catch up to him....it was a disaster.....I finally got him...the rest of the day I was exhausted from being so upset and my back looks like I had been lashed. I know now, I would not be into whips.....that would be very, very bad!!!

But I did have a great bath and I am off to sleep. Mystery Man checked Ashley last night...I have to stop checking...but I don't want to be hurt. Look at You Win! poof....he disappeared. Actually, I am glad, I didn't have the balls to tell him I didn't want to see him anymore.

Well have a great week......a great Monday.....XOXOXO

The Perfect End To A Rough Week with my Lover

After a meeting with Mystery Man, I am sexually and mentally content. My whole body is at peace. I always need a nap after we have sex. It's the best sleep I get.

We had a secret rendezvous today. It started off rocky. I was tied like I said and cranky. He didnt call when we were suppose to meet so I was starting to feel insecure and the number wasn't working....hmmmm....more insecurity. I went home to check my emails and then my phone rang. It was him. He had been with a co-worker so couldn't call and was stuck in traffic.

I want to relax, just hang on a blanket and feed you grapes. "NO, I don't want grapes and I want air conditioner". Rrrrrr...someone is in a funky mood. Well to summarize, we met 1 1/2 hours later....had to change locations because it was too crowded at the park. went to the back of the mall in his car...

It seemed whatever I said he would say the opposite. I wasn't mad but was getting a little tired of not feeling great....so I said..okay, I am going to leave (this was not going to turn into a You Win! situation. No more guys who like to knock me down or feed my insecurities). No, no he said.

so I turned to him and grabbed him close to me and said "I am a bad listener. You can tell me things and I am going to do what I want to do. you are also a bad listener. You do what you want too. So, we are both bad listeners. Fucking eat this grape, pacify me and kiss me!!" We both laughed, he ate the grape..."oh so yummy! Best grape I have ever eaten!" And then we were both fine and had a fucking amazing time!!! He finally relaxed.

we went to the backseat of his car. And we kissed....we are great kissers together...two strong and powerful tongues....determined tongues, dueling tongues....oh, kissing is an art. So we kissed passionately, intensely and he got hard and I got wet just from the kissing.....I opened his pants and went down on him. Wow! I enjoy sucking cock because I know that he enjoys the way I do it so much. "You are amazing at sucking my cock.....moan". Oh, I know what he likes now. He loves the hard suck with slurps....a few ice cubes, he loves my hand rubbing his shaft as I suck and playing with his balls. He loves my tongue to do circles on his cock teasingly and then go in for the dive....

My damn phone went off twice...once the hubby (oh boy) and another time my girlfriend. I picked up and said okay, I am busy...she started to laugh (I always get her and her boyfriend fucking around so I guess it my turn). when the phone rang, it was my turn for my mouth to go up and down to the beat...oh don't change your ring ...we both laughed

He reached over and began to play with me.....aahh...I came prepared...shorter skirt and crotchless underwear that opened with a pull of the string. Oh my, I really like these....they were hot...and I was beyond juicy....I was so close to an orgasm...but sometimes my mind won't let me go there (so frustrating)...what gets me there is thinking about other people watching me....anyway that's for another day......

So he says to me...I want to be inside of you......mmmmm....I wanted him too. So he layed down and I got on top but backwards.......and I grinded him and rode him. He loved it...we are talking that he moaned and came so fast....'Oh you are going to kill me, he said" I came too fast". It was watching you sliding and thrusting on top.....

Well I took it as hot....I am a giver and a pleasurer. I was so psyched that he got so turned on that he came so quickly. Granted, if it happened every time, it wouldn't be fun...but it was hot that I was able to do that to him. I told him that too....

we kissed somemore and it was time to go. While we are Mystery to each other...we are open and talk honestly and its nice. I love that we turn each other on and that we have fun times and laugh together. It's a great combination.....enjoying the sexual and the mental person.

I told him that he had done something sweet last time by email. I looked at him and said do you know what it was? He didn't remember. I asked him...why did you get out of your car and come back and kiss me when you were leaving? "You looked sad. I love when you smile". I guess my face sometimes says it all. I wasn't sad...I was happy but sad our paradise was over for that day. I had been in deep thought, I was shocked when he was standing next to me and I felt his kiss. Funny, how the little things can mean so much. The fact that he cared to come back...made me really happy.

Sigh...I'm liking this time with my Mystery Man!!

Meeting? Self Taught BJ's

Well here's a new one....Mystery Man wants to see me today and I don't know if I want to see him. Nothing major happened...... he didn't build the anticipation like he usually does....last night he sent me an email that I am sure there was some kidding in there but timing is everything.

"NO PERFUME, SEXY RED AND Shut up and save that mouth to pleasure me!!" And then he had checked Ashley for the first time in 8 days. Was it to see if I was there...I don't know. He was just cranky from a horrible travel day.

I guess I was tired from a very exhausting week too. My head is spinning with work, I have a million projects to do and I am exhausted..... having to research a place for us to go, buying sexy underwears and supplies......It seems like a lot of work this week. Actually, I am more into just meeting and holding each other and fooling around.....no outfits, no major meeting place..just hanging out. I feel the pressure to top the movie theater and its not going to happen..that was so damn hot!!

Mr Prize, what a bizarre relationship we have.....last night he IM'd me and said how happy he was for me. That it sounds like I am really enjoying myself.... He is like my kinky sex therapist! He was giving me ideas where to go for public sex...it was great! I wish he was closer...we have such a stable fucking friendship.....hee.hee

So the coffee is kicking in...I am going to start working like crazy so I can meet him....I don't know where yet...... I am excited to meet him...I just want it to be relaxed.

Oh I have to tell you my blow job story ......He says I give the best blow jobs!! He can't stop thinking about it...he's addicted to them. Well, that is funny....since I hadn't given one for years with the hubby.....and quite frankly, I wasn't sure what to do with a cock before I was married. So look how great the research has paid off......that technique with the inner part of my lips running up and down his shaft pays off everytime. It's a silky feeling I guess....every frog has moaned. He loves it when I suck really hard, use my hands on the bottom of his shaft and he hears a slurpy sound from my mouth.....fast and steady...drives him crazy....a little ball play too.... hee.hee. And to think that I was able to research to give an amazing blow job!! Self Taught Blow Jobs!!

Addicted to Him

You know how important mental stimulation is to me (in addition to the physical)...well the bonus is that he gives great email. IT's so entertaining!! I enjoy our emails back and forth....they are hot, they are fun, they are totally sizzling... cheesy? I like to say entertaining. They are visually descriptive and creative....

This one killed me--I told him his Lips were Like Morphine. I was addicted to them, yearned for them, lusted for them......wanted them now!! (the song Lips Like Morphine, you gotta listen to it...it so deviant..and having sex to it...mmmmm)

His response.... "well I guess that would make me a CRACK addict and you a COCKaine Addict!!" I love when some one is clever and I don't see it coming....

He asked me last night to meet again on Friday for a quick meeting....an hour or two.....the big question is where.....we are looking at some exhibitism here.....so public places...where can we go? So far on the list is a park or a dressing room in a store....I'm too nervous for the dressing room but he is turned on by that. I'm thinking a bathroom in a restaurant possibly.....any suggestions??? Come on there are almost 500 of you who come to my site everyday...someone has got to be able to help me out here.....ideas, ideas, Kind of kinky if you think about it....YOU are part of my sexual experience......mmmmm.........

The world works in funny ways.....You Win! had been very supportive and even got me a project at his company. Now he either got fired or he quit....not sure how that played out but anyway, I think I am still doing the project and he isn' there anymore. He went into this total removal after that....phone disconnected, no way for me to contact him but through email....really bizarre. He's taking time off to enjoy life and find a direction (he was only working for two months). All I can say is I am glad that I had already moved on.....I would have felt so abandoned...it would have left some marks on me if I didn't have Mystery Man.

Guys (and Gals) don't be selfish when you are having an affair. You go to Ashley Madison, you find someone and you know what.....they made you happy for some time. So if you are moving on, show the person a little respect......and say good by or meet them and leave on good terms. In an affair, you don't owe each other much....but you should respect the other person for the human being that they are......

Lips of Morphine or Lips of an Angel?

Lips Like An Angel or Lips Of Morphine was the question?

My cock wants to dive back into that warm moist place that feels like ecstasy. Mmmmmmmm soooo nice. Flashing back to when you were straddling and riding on top of me as you grinded your sweet pussy up and down and all around on my stiff throbbing member....Also missing that warm/cold mouth and velvet tongue that massaged and caressed the entire length from head to balls.....your soft blonde hair brushing against my stomach and slipping between my fingers....oh yesssssssss Lips of an angel.........

Is Comedy Always Part of A Secret Affair?

Today as I was leaving the motel, it hit me. My life is like an episode of "I Love Lucy". People have affairs and they discuss the hours of a man eating them out (which is exactly what he did to me..oh man...it was amazing). Most secret lovers have amazing sex and that is the highlight of the secret rendezvous. Now we did have amazing sex...we did it in so many different positions....it was fast and hot then we would slow down to romantic and intense. It was so damn nice...

tons of sucking, fucking and orgasms. We massaged each other and we played with ice cubes....oh man, if you have never played with ice cubes....I strongly recommend them...they are amazing everywhere. We did it in a million different positions (well at least 6).

but now the eating out. I gotta tell ya....amazing! WOW!! He sucks, nibbles, blows, does circles with his tongue, fingers me.....oh my whole body shivers...but this time, he was making me tell him what felt better.....he would give me choices......this (and after 5 minutes) or this....they both felt amazing.....

So where did the I Love Lucy come in?! I go to the bathroom to put on my sexy outfit with white fishnet stockings. I have a necklace similiar to the girl in the pix...I am psyched. As I go to put the outfit on, I realize the woman forgot to remove the damn security tags!!!!! the thong underwear was stuck to the corset....I wanted to go home...I was so upset....how unsexy could you feel at that point....this was like a bad comedy....I put the outfit on and made my way to the bed but I couldn't pull it off with the thong dangling on my back. I just started giggling and I told him your thong underwear is on my back....we were laughing so hard.

Then, my cell phone goes off.....it sounds like circus music--the clowns coming out of the car---well he starts to thrust to the beat.....I started hysterical laughing, when he realized what he was doing, now he started to crack up....we just dropped to the bed laughing....

Let's see, we tried to do a head stand and sex......(it didn't work well), I went to sit on his lap and then when I thought he was hard.....his cock bent and he was in excruciating pain. After he recovered, we went into the bathroom and I bent down to kiss it to make it feel better...and I hit my head on the sink...

So is that a porno I Love Lucy or what?!

It's three hours and they had to call to tell us it was check out. We didn't want to leave. It gets so sad when we have to leave. Letting paradise go, is not easy. It reminds me of planning a big party....its so great and then at the end, there is a happy yet sad feeling. He went into our cars and I was just sitting there thinking about it. I guess I looked kind of sad....he got out of his car and walked back over to me...and gave me the sweetest kiss and rubbed my cheek. I smiled and then he went to his car and drove off.

Oh, this man is Mr. Married Prince Charming...or at least as close as I ever have come!!

Sweet Wet Dreams!!

Me For Lunch!

Oh yes, tomorrow I have a long lunch scheduled with Mystery Man....I can't wait...I bought this outfit for the occasion......with fishnet matching stockings.......the bad angel look I guess....bad yet pure.... classy yet slutty....oh I can't wait....

Our emails have been outrageous.....he's a fantastic writer....he wrote me a scenerio of tomorrow....and damn, I get wet thinking about it. So, do you think he will like the corset??

A color preference?

Hee.hee.... a little off in humor but it made me chuckle and what better of a way to start your week? (thanks Hale)


Mystery Man has a way with words....yes, some may say they are cheesy, I like to say they are creative and visual. They all can't be pick up lines, he would have run out of them by now. They make me smile and that's what counts..Isn't that what this is all about?


He wants me to wear a thong next meeting... my fat ass? I love that ass especially when I am watching my cock disappear inside of you and I am smacking that ass!


Any color preference? Fuschia or leopard!




Well, this year's colors are not fuschia or leopard. To find a thong in those colors were quite the event. But I was determined. Yes, I could have ordered online but they would never get here in time for Tomorrow. I searched (having fun actually enjoying--trying on various lingeries) and I found a leopard bra and thong panties that almost match.....close enough....I can't wait to wear them for him. They had matching fuck me heels in leopard (which would have drove him crazy) but let's be realistic...where do you hide those?












Going back and forth with Mystery Man all weekend....Thanks to Hale, my graphic guru, I find programs that do all kinds of personalized fun pix...and Mystery Man loves them. And I have fun doing them.


So, tomorrow is our meeting. We are both sooo excited. I can't wait to be taken away to paradise for a couple of hours.....to escape, to release all the tension I have built up. Mmmmmm, 28 hours till paradise!!

The Perfect Afternoon Rendezvous

Arriving at the movies, we decided to meet inside. I picked up the popcorn and soda and saw him going into the theatre....arriving as the lights were already down...I couldn't see a damn thing. A middle of the afternoon, there were 4 people and well we had decided the last row was a perfect place for us to meet.....I went up to the last row..

"excuse me sir, is this seat taken?"
"no, would you like to sit"...
"thank you, can I squeeze by you?" And so I did...as I brushed across his cock for effect.
"oh my, there is no armrest (he pushed it up already)..do you mind if I use your leg as an armrest?" "No problem".....

"Oh, my lips need attention......" and i just kissed him with such passion. "WOW, these previews are fuckin hot!"

My day today was unbelievable. I have never had so much fun with someone. I mean we were in a movie theater and it was so sexual and we were laughing so damn much. The movie? Well let's just say that the 2 women in the bathroom said it was the worst movie they had ever seen....personally, it is one I will never ever forget...

Highlights? His tongue is wild. Its strong, decisive and he knows how to use it. Our dueling tongues...we will spend 20 minutes playing catch and suck......with our tongues floating in each others mouths, trying to suck the others tongue almost out of their mouth....it was so damn fun...

Of course, our hands wandered all over...and my mouth must have been sucking his cock for half of the movie....I licked, I used my lips, I sucked, I played with his balls and I did it all again and again and again...... I had gotten extra butter in a cup.....and had oiled up his cock with the warm butter.....and licked it all off...YUM! Then we put butter on each others lips...it was so damn sensual....

His favorite part that drove him wild was when I filled my mouth up with Diet Pepsi and then went down on him. The cold and wet drove him wild!! He hated diet before..now he wrote me tonight how he loves Diet Pepsi.....I just kept filling my mouth up with diet pepsi and going down on him "Oh fuck, that is amazing" I could tell those were real words and I loved pleasing him.

Now you know me....I like fun.....I like silliness and craziness and spontaneous things that I normally wouldn't do. So......I cut a hole in the bottom of the popcorn....and I put his cock through the bottom so it was in the popcorn...."I kept feeding him popcorn so I could get to the surprise in the bag!!" He was dying.....the popcorn was scratching his cock. He was laughins so hard as I was in search in the bag for the popcorn....he was even able to make the bag move...we were laughing so hard. "I want the prize....like in the cracker jack box!! I want the surprise in the bag!!" And I kept searching and when I found it, I gave him an amazing handjob.....now mind you popcorn was all over the place.....when we took the bag off...it was in his underwear, his pubic hairs, everywhere.....I had to clean him up....and I did that mighty well. "you are crazy" he said....and then I looked at him and said "and that's what you love about me"...and he grabbed me and started to squeeze my nipples and passionately kiss me....

Oh his sense of humor is also a little off.... you know me..I don't stop talking...last time we were together...he joked and said...shut the fuck up! we both laughed. Last night, we were discussing fetishes...he came across the bondage with the mask...I joked and said....I'm surprised that you don't like the one with the red cork in the mouth that is used with S&M. So what does he do today.....he said...close your eyes....and he put a wine cork in my mouth. I was laughing so hard....his humor is just as off as mine. A silly little thing, like bringing a wine cork really made me smile and showed he was thinking of a way to make me smile.

Tonight he wrote me what an amazing time he had....he even sent me the definition of matinee which is dramatic entertainment during the day.....baby you are definitely a matinee!! I aksed hi m if his cock was all scratched up and if he got the popcorn out of his pants.... he said "my cock is fine and I even had a snack for the ride home"...he is very funny.

So in conclusion....I have never been so content, so happy, so fulfilled and enjoying myself so much. I am like a teenager....I am so happy tonight I am going to burst. And mostly, he makes me feel secure. All I needed is a note after saying I miss your lips already. I love to feel wanted! So there is my advice for the day guys! Make the girl feel wanted. Don't worry about how she is going to feel...oh, I don't want her to get attached, so you back off. Make her feel good...that's what this is all about.

Wow, three weeks ago, I was closing down my Ashley account. I was giving up, thinking about closing this blog, moving on and giving up the search for Mr. Married Prince Charming. I even started writing my summary for the closure of my blog. And then, when I least expect it, the last person I contacted on Ashley....he turns out to be the closest thing I have found to Mr. Married Prince Charming. Is he him? In one aspect he is. so now the question, do you need to know about who Mr Married Prince Charming is in real life or is it okay that you know nothing about him. Remember, I know his first name and what he does for a living..that's it.

But I do know that he likes thunderstorms, rock music, the beach, the sun. I know what turns him on and I know every area that makes him squirm. I know that he can make his cock move in many directions...i know he has a great tongue. I know he hates when I am late, he's competitive, he's funny and we don't ever run out of things to talk about. Yet, I know nothing about his life or his mine. I have found Mr. Married Prince Charming in a Mystery Man.....and right now (to my fucking surprise) I am loving this. It's 100% escape...he doesn't know anything about my heartaches....my hardships....he wants me for me!!

So is he Mr. Married Prince Charming? I don't know...but TODAY he is....

Sweet Wet Dreams......

handjob at the Movie

Have you heard this song?! Wow, it's the perfect escape song....I have put it on our CD for our next meeting......mmmmm....unfortunately I was blessed with my period today.....damn...he wanted to meet Thursday. I am not in the mood for crime scene sex. so I am going to suggest a movie and I can sneak and suck his cock for two hours.....or at least a handjob. An afternoon matinee at the worst movie playing....there will be no body there except us.....the fun we will have...my mouth all over him...yum!!!! I can't wait.

We talk for hours and hours on email....yet, we don't talk about our lives. I don't know what we talk about. Last night we played hangman......we talked about Kama Sutra and Tantric Sex....we talked about thunderstorms....actually nothing important...it was soooo nice..

So things are good. I have my moments of insecurity but it seems when Mr. Podcaster gives me a good talk.....I calm down and well he comes around. The mind is such a wild thing. You can make up a whole scenerio.

You Win! (remember him?) well he did the nicest thing yesterday. Knowing that I am having financial issues he offered me money that he just got in from commission. How sweet. But we all know, I wouldn't take it. But it was the gesture that counted. I need to do this on my own.

the hubby.....you can't imagine the BS that he has been pulling. the consensus amongst my friends, leave him already, he's pulling you down. I'm scared probably because it is getting closer. I did ask him to leave the other night. He pretends I don't say it and goes on with what he is doing. i tell him our marriage is over, he ignores me. The ducks have to start lining up faster...its the fact that he is getting me in more and more financial trouble each week. Rrrrr...my only sanity is Mystery Man and You Win right now (and of course Mr. Podcaster).

Tadpole? He seems to have moved on....have you seen a tadpole swimming around anywhere? Tell him to call cheri!!

SNOW PATROL LYRICS

"Chasing Cars"

We'll do it all


Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?