Mrs. Right?

I found this on a friend's site on myspace.... made me laugh so I just had to share it!! Happy Saturday!! Getting ready for the New Year?!? Hmmm.....gotta start working on those resolutions today...its almost here and I haven't even made them yet!

Hot Resolutions!

Well it's that time of the year, to make all those great resolutions. And then see how long it takes me to break each one. This year I think I am going to do it a little differently. Separate lists.... a sexual resolution list, career resolution list and of course a personal resolution list. See which one I am able to fulfill (or break) faster!!

Sadly, it looks like I am entering the new year with a cold unless I can miraculously fight it. I hate being under the weather. I warned Mr. Prize that I was feeling a cold coming on, he didn't care. Hope he doesn't get sick...although I did warn him.

Surprisingly, I saw the sexy doctor today. Remember him? the one at the Starbucks and the hospital. Yeah, I haven't seen him in awhile. I looked like crap today....was avoiding everyone but I had to have my coffee fix. At the 7-11, I am getting my coffee and all of a sudden hear someone behind me whisper in my ear, Happy New Year! I turn around to his great big smile (he actually startled me). I have come to the conclusion this man likes to catch me off guard.

Hey happy new year, I said and finished making my coffee. Today, I was not feeling sexual and I certainly wasn't in the mood for games. I kept it purely professional, talking shop only. Big plans for the new years? he asked me. Nope, just hanging with my family.

I went to go pay for my coffee and he was there....he insisted on paying for it. "Well this isnt the Starbucks I was hoping to have with you" I giggled, remembering our first meeting on the side of the road. He was different today. He was less cocky and suave. I liked him better. I told him I would stop by (for business) the beginning of the year. He smiled with those gorgeous eyes. BUSINESS, I said to him. I'm a married lady. And he laughed. (and inside I was hysterical laughing--look at me using the I'm married card here!!)

He walked me to my car.... "Happy New Year Married Lady!" Oh man, that was funnier than he would ever know. Yeah! He is sweet, cute and I have to keep my distance. But I'm glad we met today, it put a smile on my face.

And I have come to a new conclusion.....no more Firemen!! Yup! Another one contacted me through Ashley and I am not going for the three stricks and you are out. Something is strange about these firemen.....they all appear, come on real strong and then poof--they are gone. I think their hoses are all tangled or something?!?

Secret Lover Afternoon Delight

Ever have one of those days when you wake up and say....I have to fuck! I just want to fuck. I don't care what is takes...I have to have raw sex today! Yeah! I guess all the pondering of my future, all the stress of the day, all the frogless days..... I needed to be with someone today. I needed a friend, not just a fuck. I needed both. Hmmmm.....so Mr. Prize. Yes, he is perfect. Okay, location stinks but I love the way he makes me feel. So...we discussed meeting this week. Yes, I was determined to get to him. A state away, but somehow I was getting there.

Started off rocky, kids to carpool, work that had to get out...but I was determined. Left a 1/2 hour later than I had hoped and then got caught in ridiculous traffic. and hour late....sigh..this sucks!! But I was not giving up...even if it was for a quickie, I was going to get there. You see there is this one road that is always, always packed. Plus, if I got caught in another state..there was not way to explain it. So, I was on an adventure. My heart was palpitating....but I knew what I wanted.

I get there, he came downstairs and he snuck up from behind me. He looked great. He had a sweet boyish grin on his face and I could see that he liked what he saw. Which obviously made me feel good. you look great he said....You look like a Rockstar! Hmmm......I started laughing. I guess I did....Stevie Nicks he thought...LOL.

Well I was wearing this coat I have that has this fuzzy color....I was wearing a lace black skirt with high heeled boots that come up to me knees. I was wearing a sparkling tank top with a short jacket over it...all in black. And my silver ringed belt that I get so many compliments on. I thought I looked okay but from the look on his face, he made me feel like a million dollars and really sexy!

I jumped into his car and we went to his apartment. Such a guy's pad--you can tell he works so hard he never had time to decorate. And you can imagine, I saw its potential but I wasn't there as the interior decorator....lol Last room, the kitchen and well he couldn't wait to get his hands on me. We started kissing and he started undressing me right there. Oh there was no time to slowly undress each other....the clock was running...so we intensely kissed in the kitchen and then I dragged him to the bedroom....he took my top off, he took my bra off and then I just stood there as he sucked each of my breasts. I could feel myself getting wetter....I could feel that I needed more...I started to undress him and quickly too off my boots as he slid down my undewear and we jumped into the bed.

I love kissing, I adore it and he knows how to kiss. Soooo yummy!! And of course, since he reads my blog, he knows how much I enjoyed him eating me out. Well first, I sucked on him for a bit...mmmm...I could taste the pre-cum as he pushed my head down to get his cock deeper in my mouth, And then, I became lunch. This man knows how to use those lips....and those fingers...first, just his lips and tongue...working my clit. Then his finger inside of me, then on finger in my ass......mmmmm.....I could feel the wave of euphoria comng...but I wanted to wait till he was inside of me to cum..

"Get the rubber, Fuck me" I said. And so he did. Missionary at first and then he flipped me for my favorite...from behind...I came soon after he entered me......just a rush of euphoria...mmmm..that felt amazing. Ohhh!! Mr. Prize!! he loves when I say his name. I love saying it. Harder, harder I said. And he did...until he came and we both crashed on the bed.

He's not afraid of a connection which is so important to me. Many guys get freaked at closeness after sex. But not him....I just laid there in his arms. "what turns you on the most?"
i asked. i mean here is a guy who has done quite alot. We are talking S&M, swing clubs, swinging....can't think of much except for bi-sexual acts...but what REALLY turns him on?

And sincerely, he said...a woman with intellect. A self confident, secure smart independent woman. Body parts become body parts its the intelligence that adds to it. Hmmmm.....we do relate so well. Funny its a combination of his intellect and his dark side that turns me on. I felt compelled to defend my insecurities...(he knows how I am)---"make me feel wanted, don't lie to me and i am secure" .

Now sayng a girl's intellect--sounds like when you ask someone you are trying to fix up--Is she hot? Oh, she has a great personality!! (which means--a dog) but that's not what he was saying. I understood. Because I always say that connecting with someone on a mental level is even more important than the physical attraction.

I was lying on top looking into his face and he was playing with my hair and tracing my face wth his fingers. Looking at me with those deep eyes...."what are you thinking?" 'How beautiful you are. you are sooo beautiful". what a peaceful and wonderful thing for someone to say. I felt so complete at that moment (yes, I blushed).

I feel like a virgin with him.....I feel so inexperienced. I find myself wanting to please him yet not knowing if I am enough. As we were getting dressed he says "I hope I didn't disappoint you" I was confused. I wanted to please you more, I want to learn how you cum....I want to make you cum (your a quiet cummer)!" Him disappoint me?! I wasn't disappointed at all. but the fact that he was so concerned about me and wants to make sure that I have a great experience is soooooo sweet and such a turn on....I had a great time!! It was exactly what I needed. Oh yes, I wish we had more time to lay there. I could lay there fooling around and talking to him for hours. Sigh...we had to go

We both admitted how we wish we lived closer. It would be so perfect if we were closer together. Afternoon lunches, an hour here or there......I could see it being fulfilling for both of us both physically and emotionally.....but it is what it is.

We kissed good by and when he drove me to my car, no one could see us kiss. So I just squeezed his hand. As I was driving home, I realized how nice that just was. He was able to fulfill me physically, emotionally and without an intense attachment. We were good friends who loved to explore and play with each other. The mental stimulation was as important as the physical stimulation. Mmmmmmm....what a nice afternoon.

What would I like next time?!?
Hmmmm.....I think I'd like him to tie me up! This vanilla ice cream would like to add a little swirl!!

Computer to Computer Sex over Phone Sex

Today was an interesting day. I realized how lucky I am. Besides from all the sexual fulfillment I get from some frogs....I also get amazing support. Gotta tell ya, some of those frogs are amazing! Yup....I realized tonight, they are very special people in my life.....they truly care about me and are my friends.

Some exciting things (and some nervous things) have been occurring with my career. Opportunities that may make my life totally different. Well it was the frogs that I found myself turning to for guidance, direction and support. They have a good head on their shoulders and are successful in their own ways.....So how nice to have such a support system....


Have you ever talked to someone on the computer? Computer to computer? Mr.Podcast and I chat a lot computer to computer. For the first time, I put headphones on.....it was wild. It was as if he was in my head.....as if he was whispering in my ears. He fulfilled my whole head with his sexy voice. It was such a turn on. I wish I could hear how my voice sounded in his headset.

Mr. Podcast (as you would guess) listens to my podcast and reads my blog. He has his own podcast (hence the frog name Mr. Podcast). He has been a fan for awhile (a fan, how funny that sounds!) Anyway, we dabble at that imaginary line...that line of friendship and fringe benefits. Tonight, he was horny and I was so damn horny. So, I decided if I was turned on from his voice in my head, how would he react to my voice telling him I want him. I wanted him to cum for me. Saying his name over and over, I could hear his excitement growing. In his voice, I could hear his cock getting harder. I could hear the moans in my head.....it was as if he was there with me, fucking me. These headsets were hot!!

"cum for me" and after a little persuasion with words and some moans....he did just that. And, his son walked in just as it occurred. Poor thing, couldn't even enjoy the euphoria of the orgasm! So, headphones....I definintely recommend computer to computer with headphones over phone sex....try it, you will like it. It's like having your lover in your head......so damn yummy!!!

Man Of The Month Club

I've been spending a lot of time in my tub. I find it so relaxing with the jets shooting on my body, the candles burnng and the soft music playing. I guess I hope the answers to my life will pop in there with me...maybe the moon or the stars will send me a message. So far, I get out beet red and I feel like jello. My skin is really soft and my clit loves those jets. So I guess I don't walk away with nothing...

Last night, as I laid in the tub, I thought a lot. I try not to go back over all the frogs but I wanted to last night. I started and realized that I had to stop. You see, I have started a Man Of The Month Club. There have been enough men that I can literally have a Man of the Month. I've been in search of my married Prince Charming since last August and well, counting back....ahem....yes, there were more than a bakers dozen (that is only including the guys whose lips I have touched, whose cocks I've played with....I didn;t even include Tadpole or Curious George in that total).

So while most people get the Fruit of the Month Club, Coffee of the Month, Cigars of the Month....yeah, I've found my own cigar of entertainment club....A Man Of The Month,

Now if I tried, there couldn't have been so many men. If I had wanted to find a man of the month...it would have been a fruitless attempt. But yes, I have had a Flavor of the Month here. Damn, I hadn't realized there were so many men. These are men I met, I sucked face with and well we all know how I have sucked a few cocks as well and a few cocks from behind.

So how did this happen? I was looking for on Married Prince Charming to play with......how come I can't find him?

I want a man to hold men, to fuck me, to make me feel that state of euphoria. Oh, there were a few who gave me that.....but I want one who can be a friend and do that too!

This is a lot more work than I had anticipated. Each frog has taken a lot of energy. The meeting online, the flirting back and forth, the sexual undertones.....the planning to meet, the meeting...the preparing for the meeting (come on, it takes time to shave your pussy right). So, in conclusion, I've put a lot of time and energy into it and......I am here alone.

The new names are piling up on Ashley Madison and on Philanderers. Even Married Secrets has about 10 men waiting there. I just don't seem to be able to find the energy right now. Mr. Fireman, I think he chickened out. Decided he didn't want to have an affair--he hasn't been on Ashley or anywhere else. Hmmmm....second fireman I sent running (well the first one I think Mr. Government got a hold of).

So I am going to take the next week and think. Think about some resolutions, think about my direction and think about life. Although I did have fun in 2006....a lot of yummy men!!! Sigh!! Maybe I will do a yearly plan like I am doing for work....but for my pursuit...more directional.....oh who knows....maybe its a year of intense masturbation (headaches are all gone!!)

Merry Christmas Sexy!!

Sex and Egg Nog by the Fire

Something about this time of year, the thought of being close to someone by the fireplace, snuggling with a glass of wine or egg nog...mmmmm

then to inconspicously hide a piece of mistletoe..."oh look, well you know what that means" and the fun begins.

Slowly kissing each other, unwrapping each other till you are there totally naked in front of the fire place. First, intense, slow sex...missionary of course. Deep thrusts yet slow...mmmmm

And then some egg nog....drizzled up and down their body...with each lick the sexual desire increases. And as you get to each others forbidden fruits---pouring the egg nog...so there is tons to slurp up....the cold sensation at first being a shock......but then the warm lips and all the wetness...mmmm....some major tongue and sucking mmmmmm

Of course each of my daydreams end from behind...feeling that head entering me...feeling it separating my walls....and some fast and deep thrusts with his hand grabbing my hair....until we both cum and drop.

Cuddled naked by the fireplace...just listening to it crackle and buried in each others arms. Some romance, some sex and a great way to bring the holiday in.

Fireplaces, I've always loved fireplaces. Something about the heat on your face, staring into the fire...its so relaxing....its exciting, it takes you to another place.....ow how I love the fireplace crackling on a cold night with a hot cock inside of me.

20 ways to give him an Xrated Xmas

Thanks. to Hale, I'm able to bring you this yummy list.....the thought of doing these things just made me sooooooo wet!!!!!

20 Ways To Make HIS Xmas XXXmas!

1. Trim his tree.
2. Lick his luscious candy cane.
3. Be his "ho-ho-ho" for the holidays.
4. Polish his christmas balls.
5. Ride him like a reindeer.
6. Taste his sweet egg-nog.
7. Deck the halls with moans of pleasure.
8. Fa, la, la, latio- la, la, la, la.
9. Spark his menorah with a hot strip tease.
10. Request a stiff stocking stuff-her!
11. Make his Kris Kringle tingle.
12. Gift wrap yourself in sexy lingere.
13. Unwrap his package.
14. Hang mistletoe from any place you want kissed.
15. Rock his jingle bells in the frosty air.
16. Make your Rudolph's hose as red as his nose.
17. Heat him up with a snow job.
18. Give the Christmas carolers a show of your own.
19. Dress up as Santa's nasty little helper.
20. Make sure you're naughty, so it's nice.

Global Orgasm For Peace Day!

Are you ready?!?! Are you prepared?!?! Tomorrow is Global Orgasm For Peace Day! Yes, it is official....its like Synchronized swimming but this is a synchronized orgasm. It is a day when everyone around the world will be having an orgasm. Strive to have that orgasm. Now you do not even have to have a partner. You can do a self orgasm. So if you have a partner (or lover) this is the day to have that orgasm. If you don't, masturbation is accepted!

Is it crazy?! Okay, I'm not thinking that this will make the world stand hand in hand and bring world peace. You know I support our soldiers, I just want them to all come home safely and quickly.

Will this change the energy field..? Hmmm....I doubt it BUT even if it doesn't...you will have had a great orgasm either way. So be a part of this energy changing and have a great O!! And if you participate. just leave a comment (yes, I am talking to you....one of the 350+ who read my blog everyday and do not leave me a note!!)

I know I will be..... I was even thinking of podcasting my orgasm for my memory box!!

Taken from the Global Orgasm Site:
The Event Global Orgasm For Peace Day

WHO? All Men and Women, you and everyone
you know.

WHERE? Everywhere in the world, but especially in countries with weapons of mass destruction.

WHEN?
Winter Solstice Day - Friday, December 22nd,
at the time of your choosing, in the place of your choosing and with as much privacy as you choose.

WHY? To effect positive change in the energy field of the Earth through input of the largest possible surge of human energy a Synchronized Global Orgasm.

A Sweet Wet Dream

Peace of Mind. One thing about a pleaser, they can't stand one someone is mad at them. They can't take it when they aren't on good terms with someone.

I am a pleaser. And it was eating me up that Soulmate Chris and I were on bad terms but even more that Mr. Government and I were not even talking. I know, it shouldn't bother me but it did. Actually I didn't realize how much it bothered me until this morning.


Soulmate Chris and I have been emailing back and forth a little. Totally surface and podcast talk but I really missed him. Not in the sexual way but in the spiritual way. I missed out talks, sharing stuff etc. etc. So for now, I am at peace we are talking.

But--Mr. Government. He was furious with me after our last email exchange. I guess he didn't appreciate the You need a prostitute remark. I was rude but he really flipped me out. I mean he was my longest and first affair....the thought that he would be gone forever was eating away at me.

Well, my thoughts....I will email to say Happy Holidays. If I got no response in the usual answer on the 3rd day, there was nothing more I could do. Within 15 minutes, I hear my text. Yes, it was him wishing me a happy holiday and saying hi. A surprised relief came over me. A sense of peace (and I'm sure in the back of my mind, a sense of hope for the future). I did not write back, I want to leave the door open. Not for this week, or next month or maybe even 6 months.....or ever. But I feel so much better with that door open.

This morning I woke up and I had been dreaming about him. Funny how the mind works. You know when you open your eyes and your barily awake and you are still dreaming (I guess the alarm woke me out of it). . I was dreaming that I was in his arms after a hot sex session. I woke up with a smile on my face, my nipples hard as a rock and I was definitely all wet. I felt like I had just had some amazing sex. So I lied there and tried to remember, I didn't want to lose it...and it came flying back to me.

We were in OUR spot. I had backed him up against the wall and began to undress him with a determined fury. It was so sexually charged....it was totally free, I was not letting him have any upper hand. I wanted him, I needed him....all my sexual desires were focused in having him. Months of yearning for him with the combination of maybe never having him again. It was as if I had to have this one sexual encounter fulfill me for the rest of my life.

I could feel the sexual energy, I could feel myself totally let go like I never did before. Not being at all self concscious about my not so perfect figure or my perky tits that just weren't as perky as they used to be----I totally let go. I devoured him as if he were my last meal. I desired him like I never desired someone before. I was determined to make this a two hour experience that we would never forget, the rest of our lives.

The dream went from me undressing him, to us savagely kissing to him fucking me hard from behind. The visual was there (mmmmmmmmmm) it was the feelings that I felt in my sleep. So damn real....so damn sexually charged and intense. MY lips were everywhere with such sexual charge. I could feel him fucking me, but mostly I could feel myself let go and be in a place that I have never been. A sexual euphoria. An animalistic frame of mind in a way.....mmmmmmmm....only to be there in real life.

I wish there was someone that could take me there. someone who could give me such a powerful aura. Oh, I have experienced it but not for such a long period. It usually occurs just before and at orgasm. In this dream, it was constant, consistent and damn....memorable.
The Fuck of a Lifetime....mmmmmm

Yeah!! So today I am back in reality but I noticed I have a little extra smile today. A little extra feeling happy. Hey, it was just a dream but damn.....I'll take the motivation and sexual fulfillment however I can get it!

Now that was a SWEET WET DREAM!!!!!!!!!

New Rendezvous Radio Episode Lunch 69

Hey! So I finally got to finish another episode of my podcast. Oh its stuff you already know...my brain freeze orgasms, lunch 69, Ashley Madison dating for married people. just sounds different I guess when I say it.... Go to my feed or you can find me on iTunes under health and then sexuality!!

And National Orgasm for Peace Day! Yup!! December 22 we all have to have an orgasm! It can be self masturbation, with a partner, a group...doesn't matter..just have an orgasm!! YUM! All of us together.....in harmony...reaching orgasm. Now I am definitely going to do it and possible podcast it too!!

That day there will be a guy up me...but its going to be my gyno!! lol Damn, I wish it was another hand. Well after, I'll have to look around.

So I am busy, busy, busy with getting ready for the holidays. I always find this time of year so stressful and kind of lonely. The only thing I do enjoy is connecting with old friends, which I have already. Of course, I love looking up these hunks and wish they would be under my tree. MMMMM!!!!!!!!!!! Well let's get through Christmas and well for New Years..well we will have to see what that will bring. I have a feeling 2007 is going to be a changing year for me. I hope all good changes.

Oh! I won! I won! I won! Yes I again won on a radio station. This time I won a $300 gift certificate for jewelry.......YEAH!!!! Mmmmm....I am going to pick out something nice for myself to symbolize my secret lovers life. Something that everytime I look at it, it warms my heart with dysfunctional frog orgasms!!! hee.hee Think they got a frog?!?! Okay, maybe I will just find something whimsical and fun...

Must Have Stocking Stuffers For that Man

Okay, I won't even comment on these....I can't. they had me laughing so damn hard that the tears are flowing....

I don't know, I think if I guy showed up in my bedroom with this on, I would just keep laughing..

Oh my...I can't stand it. If someone owns this, I need to know...talk abut stocking stuffers...

Merry Sexy Christmas

Aah!! Tis The Season To be Jolly!! or Horny

Well its that time of the year again. yes, those lovely fantasies of thinking about sitting on a cute santa's lap or of course Ms. Santa Claus. Thinking about all the mistletoe and drinking and festivities. Sigh....sex is everywhere (or maybe just in those naughty horny little girls like me!!)

Oh Santa, I have been so naughty...what can I do to make up for the year?? Is there anyway I can still get a present?!?! What do I have to do!?!?

What Goes Around Comes Around...

Today, Mr. Prize wanted me to come over. He rarily takes time off but I had to work (damn). We caught up on our lives a little and we ended up doing some intense phone sex. Now if you remember, my brain freeze orgasms has started with a phone sex/cam session with Mr. Prize...

Today, I went upstairs...I lied on my bed and closed my eyes and masturbated to his voice. He is so much more experienced than me. I am like vanilla ice cream to him. Miss Plain Jane. I feel so inexperienced. He is used to wild ones into S&M. Now with other lovers,I am definitely swirl and others I am a damn banana split with hot fudge oozing and caramel.....
but with him, I always feel like a little girl just learning. I seem to always fall into a submissive role with him.

So the phone sex is getting heated ( my little vibrator is playing with my ass) and I have this intense flow of euphoria come and NO HEADACHE!!! Woo Hoo!!!!

Last week, I was out of sorts. So I hadn't made our lunch. This week, he asked me the same day. So he started to say that I was teasing him and that if I can't and don't want to be with him.....STOP!!!!! Not fair....and I think he realized and backed off. It's hard for me and we both have to try. So we will see (this was before the phone sex)....

Anyway, I haven't heard from Mr. Fireman since this weekend. I don't know what he is playing. I know he's busy but drop me a line (aaahh..you managed to click on Ashley I noticed).
Tadpole, well you know. If I don't call, I don't hear from him. Certainly doesn't feel like he wants to hear from me.

Zorro is killing me with hysterical text messages since I haven't spoken to him in awhile....and there I was guilty as charged.

And Mr. Podcast and I have been chatting alot. He has been pretty amazing. Poor thing, always seems to be there when I need to unload...another drama moment with husband. Sigh, that's a while other post.....and I'm not even up to it. But as usual, when one disaster is resolved.....more shit hits the fan. It's as if, things are lined up waiting to be thrown into the mix....another financial disaster, I hope to resolve by the morning or its really bad. I was crying again. I hate feeling like I am not in control and powerless.

So, in conclusion....I hear that song "On The Road Again" with the words "I'm alone again!!"

In fact, I am going to be more than just frogless this weekend, family is gone too. Yes, me and my trusty vibrator.......no one home......mmm....let's see Clean or masturbate?!?! My poor abused clit!!

6 Weird Things I do For Internal Comfort

Now you had to know if I was tagged....I have to divide it into smaller subtopics!! Yes, Melanie tagged me "6 Weird Things That You Do"

Now the truth is, if you've been doing them for years, they aren't weird to you anymore. In fact, many times these slightly off things become a comfort, part of your routine...personally, I think that everybody has their shit. And everyones is different. So Live and let live!!

my six things?! Hmmmm....
Okay, I have chosen six weird things that I somehow find comfort in....(otherwise I could go on an on and on)!

1) My mom left me with many weird things that I have done out of habit . First, I always have to pee before I leave my house or someplace. I mean, I will go pee and then if I don't leave within 10 minutes, I will go pee again. Most of the time, its subconcscious and part of my routine that I don't even realize it. I have tried to break this habit but the few times that I have tried to go against the grain, fight the inner pee demon. Those are the damn times that I have gotten stuck in traffic. Damn pee demon.

2) If you forget something, you gotta sit down for 10 seconds before you leave the house again. Oh yeah, your in a damn rush but if you don't do it....,.you're in trouble. Tadpole didn't listen to me once, and he got a ticket on the highway. I tell ya, take that 10 seconds....take a couple of deep breaths and start again. And then there's always on important events walk in on your right foot into the building. Hey, it got me through school and I still do it (don't tell anyone--like some additional good luck I guess)

3) I have to check a guys cock when we meet. Oh yeah, I need to brush up against him to make sure that he is into me. Insecure? of course....but that is a sure indication if a rendezvous is going well. No bulge, he's not into you that much or he likes you as a friend. So beware, I do reach for a man's cock or inconspiciously rub up against ya to check if you are happy to see me!!

4) Ketchup. Ketchup is a comfort food for me. Bizarre? Yup. I love to put ketchup on hot dogs, on scrambled eggs, roast beef sandwiches and the biggest comfort food for me is ketchup with instant mashed potatoes. Has to be instant. You gotta be gagging now. Well as I have aged, I make sure I order home fries so the ketchup thing is not as obvious (but I do dip now). Hot dogs (I throw sauerkraut over so no one sees) and the mashed potatoes....don't eat them as often but when things are really bad or I am sick.....I make some instant potatoes with a little ketchup.

5) I feel a calmness when it rains. I love to listen to the rain smash against the window. I love to hear the thunder and lighting...I love to leave my window open a little so I can hear it even better. To me, a storm is comforting yet exciting. I can fall asleep as it thunders....the turbulence in the sky rocks me to sleep....

6) A secret. Yes, my final weird thing is a secret. Which is kind of funny because since I tell you everything....how many times I masturbate and with how many fingers and even which vibrator I use. I share my deepest sex stories...and yet, I hestitate to let you in on this one.
Well, I have a problem falling asleep at night. Sometimes, the anxiety from life makes me crazy and I can't fall asleep. But what helps me fall asleep sometimes, is a vision of a frog in my bed with me holding me tight. Yup, sometimes just the thought of being in the protected arms of one of my lovers (I will hold my pillow tight and envision that they are holding me around) will help calm my nerves and carry me off into dreamland. I also have to have the covers around me a certain way every night (I guess thats number 7). Wrapped around my shoulders and feet, holding the pillowm like a little cocoon. And then I can drift away, relaxed and feeling secure.

So that's my weirdness for today....

Tagging?!? Hmmmm....so many of you have already been tagged on this. I checked and decided to spare you. However, I am tagging the following beloved friends!!

Scarlett
Hale McKay
Percy
Married Lesbian Mom
Speakin Mind (mabe he will speak again!)

XOXOXO

Where Have I been?

Many have written me and asked if I were okay....it's been 4 days since my post..that's not like me. Well its not. I have been busy with work, busy with frogs but mostly concerned about my health. It seems I probably have a hormonal imbalance (nooooooo...not menopause, oh that would send me over the edge). But what it is....it made my period not come. So...as you can imagine...I have been freaked. I am not pregnant....you can ask the three pregnancy tests in the garbage. But I have been scared and well reality was too real.

For obvious reasons, I have always, always used protection--and you should also always do the same. But accidents due happen and this one would have been huge. The thoughts that were going through my head were crazy. Springers little one...yikes!! We used protection but then the thought that what happens if his girlfriend wanted to get pregnant and punched holes in the rubbers? Crap that would only happen to me....and then I would want to tell him....for no other reason but to tell him what I thought may have been up. Oh boy, oh boy (or girl or girl). Yeah, I can joke now because it isnt true.... now I'm just dying!! Okay, a little drama. But I am not sure what is going on and I am not a happy buckaroo.

Can you imagine being my gynocologist?!? Poor man. I drive him crazy but he does love me. I am the only patient that he had to warn his associates...do not let her coerce you into a C section!! Yes, I can be quite perisistent when I want to be (and a good salesperson). So I call him "Am I pregnant or dying?" Neither...just come in next week....and relax! This man has been in charge of my pussy since I was 16 years old!! He's had to deal with me through a lot. A woman's gyno is also her psychologist and primary doctor.

Yes, I told him about the brain freezes too when I orgasm! He was laughing so hard. Most woman would be embarrassed to tell him that. I just tell it like it is. Explaining how I have been masturbating twice a day to see if it happens. You are so open my dear. Oh if he only read my blog. Why do I think we are going to need to run a whole bunch of tests on you when you come in or have you gotten re-married(his nice way of saying...you're fucking around). Hmmmm...he knows because I would complain how I was asexual for years. Now I am fucking like a bunny and orgasming like crazy. Something is up and he's not a stupid man. If he only read my blog!

So here is my words to the wise!! Bring your own protection to any rendezvous. Now nothing happened here..I am lucky. But still, it got me thinking....I am trusting someone that it is a brand new condom....BYOC!! That's my theory for now on! I will deal with the embarrassing condom key story again if I have too!!

Update--well now you know I am masturbating twice a day. Headaches are getting a little better.....when I use my vibrator they are barily there...so we are making progress in that area and my clit is sooo damn sore.

Men....hee.hee. I havent been in the mood. WOW!! Yeah. I've been playing with Mr. Podcast online. I have been webcamming with Mr. Navigator (tomorrows story), I have been waiting for Mr. Fireman..I don't know what is up with him. Very confusing man. Springer has been calling and well an IM from Booty Caller, Computer Guy and Mr. Prize (who I miss).

But with the holidays here....I find the void even deeper. One new guy on Ashley Madison. Very yummy...but so damn young looking.

yes, tis the season to be jolly!! Mmmmmmmm!! Gotta start getting into the holiday season. Yes, get that Mrs Santa Claus outfit out....can I sit on your lap? hee.hee

Talk to ya tomorrow...kisses!!

Mutual Love? Is it Rare?

Does true mutual love exist in most of people's lives?

That is a question I have been asking myself over and over this weekend. Yes, I do believe there are a select few who both partners are truly in love with their significant others. Then I believe there are some that one person is madly in love and the other is in love with their life not actually their partner. Kind of the whole package concept!

But as the years go by, are the majority of us still in love with our spouses? Do you look at your spouse and feel a warmness inside (no not a hard on...its different)? Do you look at them and still enjoy being with them, sharing with them and loving them? Do they look at you that way too?

I have to say, that I do know a few people who are mutual love. Both spouses are happy, they are like little kids...it shows in their eyes. But the majority of the people I know are in love with their life and their spouse just happens to be an intregate part of it (they care for them but are not in love with them the same way. They respect them for things they do).

And then there are those with voids. Many of us believe that we are in it for life and have to work hard to make it workable for some reason or another.

So how do we move from one level to another? Is there a secret to finding that special soulmate? What is the right thing? Do you live with what you got and just hope it will be enough and the void won't keep getting bigger?

Hmmmm......deep thought for the day. Any secret to falling back in love with your spouse?

I have no idea where the hell all this deep thought came from. But I needed to unload it!!

There, I feel tons better...thanks for listening!!

Fun Night Out Flirtin!

This weekend was fun and productive so far!!

Going out, damn I had such a great time. Nothing like stumbling home at 2:45AM. We were doing great until our last final stop and then--well--we got dangerous.

First stop, a local place where my friends boyfriend is. Wouldn't you know it--there was a Christmas party for the Sheriffs Department. Oh my oh my---you know how I love those men in uniforms.. Crazy friend looked at me and started laughing hysterical because she knows how much I crave them. However, we were out with other woman who dont (and couldnt) know about my secret life. So I decided to flirt and get the single girls dates with them. Yup! I guess got to flirt and do good!!

Ever notice when a person is single they are shyer. I wonder if that is why men like married woman. Are they just freer? Is it more of a challenge? Is it just hot? What is it that married woman usually get the attention from the men?

Now you know me,.. you spoke with him, he's hot, we are leaving.....why not give him your number? Oh I couldnt..she said. WHY? And whats the worst case scenerio...you never hear from him. You defintely arent going to hear from him if we leave and you never see him? I don't understand. So what happens? One of the guys asked me for my number. Hee.hee. But I am married, I sweetly declined (damn!)

Next place dinner. Excellent actually. the owner is cute...new place that opened in my town. Well we all had so much fun. Liquor flowing way too much. My girlfriends laugh is insane..you can hear her for a mile around. Actually she was going to podcast with me but our conclusion, one cackle from her and anyone who knew us would know it was her.

Of course I bought her a vibrator, penis straws and these cum wipes. Its a joke between us. She made a rule up with her boyfriend..no showering after sex. Poor thing, will go back to work and feel like he smells like her and sex all day. So as a joke, I bought the wipes for him.

Have you ever tasted a cappucino martini. Oh man, my new favorite after dinner drink. Delicious!!! We drank those ...way too many and then we were off to the martini bar.

The fun was to just begin. We met Venezulan Soap Opera stars...oh they were 34...boy toy material. They came over and sat with us. One of our single friends got up on the dance floor and they were grinding and having sex on the dance floor. My girlfriends and I got up and started to dance and well the other "stars joined us on the floor.

One cute one comes up to me and says "now don't be nervous, this is all in fun." Oh my! He's talking to me!! Like I am a virgin to grinding. A virgin to dancing with a man outside my marriage....oh boy! Crazy girl here's this and now is dying.the laughter is heard throughout the bar. She can't stop laughing. "Did he say that to you?"

So I started off slow,letting him lead. "See?" he says. Okay, now its time to have fun. "oh this is fun".....so now I start grinding him. And getting really close, my hands wandering his body. His eyes start bugging out. WOW! And now I start moving my ass right into him and flipping my hair around. My hand circles his lips....I think he was stunned (and happy to see me..come on I had to check). My girlfriend now goes behind him and we sandwich him. Start moving up and down his body....we were having way too much fun with him. I think he was in shock when we were done..we certainly had fun...the fan blowing in our hair, light flashing..oh it was quite a show.

Somewhere during the night I remember calling Tadpole (he had to work all night). The second call, i don't even remember making but I vaguely remember my girlfriend screaming into the phone too. So how much is he going to kill me?!? I would have never called if I didn't know it was on his work machine but for the life of me I can't remember what we said.

Came home and sent an erotic message to Mr. Fireman (definitely a mistake but I don't think any damage was done). Oh, I forgot to tell you, he had to back out. Wife surprised him and something happened at work--they closed her office so she was home and wanted to go shopping. Well , nothing you can do. I pouted but from his message, he was sincere. He kept apologizing, so we will try again this week.

And Mr. Navigator sent me a note...don't know if I can make it Wednesday, gotta move this, that blah, blah , blah and he sent me a pix of his dick. For the rest of the weekend, he kept popping on waiting for me to respond. Nah! No responding till tonight AND I am cancelling..not waiting around for him. Yeah!! "Maybe Ill catch ya next year." Actually I was so busy with Mr Fireman, I forgot about our possible meeting.

Cheri Hits The Town

Woo Hoo!!! Party Time Tonight! My crazy friend is turning 40 today!! Yeah!! And we are hitting the town... about 8 of us. Now this is a scary group. This is at least 6 wild, off the wall spontaneous women. Oh yeah, the combination-- three single and three having affairs.,hmmm... one single friend just goes for boy toys (we need to check their IDs) and well you know about my two friends Mandy and Crazy Girl who are also in attendance.

No man is safe tonight. I recommend they stay home because we will eat them alive! (literally) Let's see, first bar is where the birthday girl's boyfriend is. Dinner is at the biggest pick up joint for the mature flirt. And ending at the martini bar....yes, everyone ends at the martini bar....
So that's my night.

Oh wait!! I am off now for my big meeting with Mr. Fireman. Yup! It's finally here. I am so damn nervous. Conversation has been really great lately, flirty and fun. So a little respectable coffee amongst friends, that is it. Yeah, slow and steady wins the race.

Have a great weekend!!!!! Mwah!!!

So how did his cock get so big?

Exhaustion....total exhaustion. Passed out for a couple of hours after putting the kids to sleep. Signed on to find Mr. Podcast. What a great guy and amazing friend. Yup! Never judges....just an all around great guy. Who we are both lucky lives far away because he is spontaneous as me! Late night runs for milk, I would have gallons here!!

Actually was off to bed and Mr. Navigator was on all night but I didn't want to webcam. When he signed off, 15 minutes later I sent him a note saying sorry I missed you and he was there waiting for me actually. We had a long talk today...well basically the talk was how bad he wants me. I guess I should be honored when a guy re-arranges his schedule--three or four meetings to fit me in. For him, that's big. Lots of effort there and it makes it hard to say no. He's very authoritative, he's used to getting his way. So, I admit it...I make it a little tougher for him. Even tonight, I knew he was waiting for me....a guy like that...he stays interested because I am not totally accessible to him. Seriously, he is used to everything being at his beckon call. Except Cheri this time around!!

He already said...I feel a difference in you. Hmmmm...I felt like saying "yeah, I 've learned after being with a lot of dysfunctiional frogs"! What do you feel, I said. "You are distant but not in a bad way". I felt like saying...no, I am not looking for a torrid love affair like last time. I am not looking for you to sweep me off my feet. I know what you want now....I know how to control the situation this time around. My head is clearer!!

Yes, this man wants to know his cock is the best. This man wants to feel like he is amazing in bed. He's a perfectionst and he needs to feel that stroking. He doesn't want someone at his beckon call, he wants a woman of independence. He wants a woman who will stand on their own and then fucks him hard. He wants to hear how great he fucks and how big his cock is and how he is the best lover I've ever had. YES....a man with a huge ego, a true perfectionist. And to keep a man like that on his toes, you have to make sure he never thinks that you are his property.

Now his wife is no dummy. She is there for him whenever he wants. Her legs are open whenever he comes calling and she encourages the calling. She plays the wife role well and truthfully I have felt bad for her in some ways. He's never around. However, on the other hand, she knew what she was getting into and he can afford to give her a lot. So they have two nannies.....a sleep in as well. They live in a mansion...I've seen it on the webcam....and the rooms are huge....decorated by a decorator without a doubt. Cleaned by the live in without a doubt.

So now here is the clincher....he is not into doing her. She tells him what he needs to hear but he doesn't get turned on by her. It's amazing. Its as if he conquered and he needs to be wanted by others too. Hmmmmm.....

Well he turned his webcam on tonight and well he looked fucking great!! He's had a personal trainer and damn it shows. He needed me to see him and for me to see his cock. He wanted to hear me say how inviting it looked. He says he was hard all day thinking about me.

I am foreplay for a lot of my frogs. They come to me and play and then do their wives. Last night, after talking to me, he was so damn horny--he did her. Tonight she wanted more and he needed me before.......The other night, Mr. Podcast and my conversation got heated and he also did his wife (that's funny)!

More importantly than the foreplay issue is after I am with a guy and they come back, they always look better. What is up with that? Why don't I look better? I mean Mr. Navigator has muscles in his arms and he lost 30 lbs....his stomach was tight...damn...he looked good. Mr. government, same thing happened....but he got a damn six pack the second time around. Tomorrow salads, back to salads. I can't have these guys looking so hot and me not feeling up to par.

And Mr. Fireman...slow and steady wins the race. that comfort is there. That excitement when I see his email come in. We started flirting more....the emails started to get a little more flirty..the anticipation is growing. I really can't wait to meet him. And I am afraid to meet him. I am enjoying what we have right now. What happens if we meet and he's not what I think (or I am not what he thinks although I have sent really recent pix). His were from a while ago. But I find, most men age with grace. They get more distinguished....they get that touch of gray. They still look good after a couple of years. Dare I say, if we connect when we meet. He might be good affair material. He makes me happy and calms me.....a good combination for me.

Okay, I am off to bed. Been feeling a little under the weather. I think its affecting my libido. Okay stop laughing, but the truth is all these men are coming to me right now. I am not in search of them. I'm not complaining...I would be lying if I said I didnt like the attention. But I would prefer 2 mens attention that I care about than volumnes.. so today's lesson is quality not quantity.

Edit:
I haven't even gotten to post this and Mr. Navigator returned. "I can't sleep...I am tossing and turning thinking about you and I have a huge hard on". "Can I cam and masturbate while you watch. So do I say NO!! Of course not, so he does his thing. But....as he takes his cock out I am blown away...it looks huge (does a cam add ten pounds to a cock like it does on tv?) Damn...is there a procedure to enlarge, add some thickness....special cams? Something is different. Then he takes off his shirt. I told you he looked good but he had a six pack!!! Oh man, he had cuts. He got a new hiar look...I swear if I saw him walking down the street, I wouldn't have recognized him. His cock was hard and standing at attention...mmmmm....I keep visualizing hopping on, it was calling me..I swear!! He still has that technque of masturbating..I guess we all do. Certain motion, certain speed...he has it down to a science. And boy did he cum!

Well this was a long one.....should have been two days at least but hey...life has been action packed lately....have a greaet day!

Sexual Day with no Sex!! AAAAHHH!!!

Well I haven't been able to exercise lately...but man oh man, Hale sent me this pix and I decided that this would be the perfect alternative to going to the gym. It would be like killing two birds with one stone. Exercising, increasing flexibility AND releasing sexual tension....MMMM!!! You know I used to be able to do this....actually I tried last night and I still can do it....but I think it might be tough with a cock in my mouth. OH man!!! Blogger won't let me load the pix (any pix right now)!!!. Well I promise, it is worth coming back to see.....I will post later tonight!! Damn Blogger!!

Crazy Frog Day!!
Wow! There hasn't been enough hours in a day for me lately. And, I am convinced there is something, something in the air that is making the frogs come out of the woodwork. Actually, I can't keep up with it!! It's as if when I said I needed some time to re-evaluate.....Boom, the dysfunctional frog pond began to cause those men to start popping out of the water. Actually, I am not going to name them....just talk about the signficant ones.... 4 additional ones emailed me but not worth the space to report.

First, the highlight of the day!!! I met Tadpole for coffee.....YEAH!! Yup, we were talking the night before, he said he had time off and well he said let's meet. We met at the Starfucks we met at last time and we sat and talked for an hour. It was so nice, I can talk to him forever....I care about his life and he cares about mine. So first and foremost, we are friends....and to me that is so important. But I never know what is going through his head between us. It was way too public for any fooling around and it was too damn cold. But he never tried to make a move...I kissed his cherry lips about 10 times....and hugged him....because honestly, I was just so glad we got to see each other. And it was perfect, there didn't have to be any fooling around. I really was just content talking and hanging with him. I do wonder though, is he not into me? does he not want to do something in public? does he not feel comfortable cheating now? Any of the above would be fine but I would love to know. So, anyway, I enjoyed it!! It was the nicest way to start my day!!

As I was leaving, Mr. Fireman called. Actually, a very nice conversation. we definitely connect. He is quick witted and fun. Very laid back...which is what I need. Opposites attract and well we are opposites in many ways. I feel comfortable talking to him, I feel like I know him a long time. I also am afraid because his mannerisms are like Mr. Government and his voice even sounds like Mr. Government that unconconsciously I am placing him there, that the comfort is just projected from MR. Government. Does that make sense? Anyway, I want us to meet. And soon...because well, I want to make sure its him I am into and not some projection thing. I really enjoy our conversations, but meeting face to face will confirm that it is him. He gives me a calmness, a familiarity feeling inside that is nice. A void filler!! lol

Mr. Springer....calls me as I am leaving work. His EX stole his key and has been snooping around his house. Oh boy, weird crap. Coming home and seeing things moved around, knocked over. It's a freaky thing. So we sat and talked for awhile...he's so wild, so exciting and damn I want that tongue!!! lol

And last night, as I was working....I get a note from Mr. Navigator. Oh you remember him. I mentioned hm a couple of days ago that I jokingly sent his cock pix back to him....anyway, he wrote again last night. He is that big CEO from that International company...I gotta go back and see what happened between us (at the time--this blog comes in so handy sometimes!!)

Anyway, the highlights of the conversation were.... "I can't stop thinking about you. There are many masturbation sessions where I just think about us in the car and you giving me that handjob. The expression on your gorgous face...the sweetness and the desire. I have seen your face many times over the past months. I think about you often and us entwined having hot sex". So what happened I asked? "I got busy as I always do. I knew you wanted an affair and I also knew I couldnt give it to you. I liked you too much to promise something I knew I coudn't delver just to fuck your brains out and play games". Honesty...refreshing. But reality is, he still can't give me an affair. Last night he wanted me so fucking bad (hee.hee) and he was looking to re-work his schedule to meet me. And this guys schedule is crazy....we are talking that he flies around the world for meetings on red eyes. Total craziness....I really have never seen anything like it. I am flattered that he is into me BUT if I don't see him in the next day or so, we wouldn't be able to meet until after the New Year...and well, I think that's what I am going to opt for.

SO!!!! That was my day in Secret Lovers Lane! Filled with frogs and I didn't even get laid. Huh? I didn't even put my tongue in someones mouth and suck theirs. My hormones are raging and I haven't found someone to release that sexual tension and it keeps building and building!!

Masturbation Update: Much better in the tub...oh yes, only a little headache but when I relaxed..it wasn't there. How the fuck can you all of a sudden have an issue with masturbating? Unbelievable!! So, someone is going to step up to the plate here. I'm loving the attention but I need to relieve the tension sooooooo....Cheri needs a nice stiff cock and soon!!!

Have a great day!!

Okay Court Date and The Sweet Men

Hey....

They let me out for good behavior!! hee.hee. with a fine! I get so annoyed with our justice system. Sometimes it is a damn joke...I truly think that middle America gets the raw end of the deal. The lower income get court appointed attorneys, the rich can afford attorney and then there is the middle. I could have walked away with no fine, nothing....but they would have to adjourn because the prosecutor didn't have the authority to totally dismiss my case. Mind you, they hadn't seen the evidence...soI was so damn pissed. IF I adjourned, I would have been dismissed but next time around....I would have had to take another day off from work AND paid my lawyer....so in the end, costing me more. RIDICULOUS!!

Sadly, it costs too much to prove your innocence in this country!! And most of us can't afford the hefty lawyer fees so we end up pleading down!! So yes, my fine was the same as the girl in front of me who had 13 counts held against her....she attacked her boyfriend and his girlfriend, threatening them with a knife and damaging their home. Oh, she did get 4 restraining orders too but the same fine?!?

RRRRRRR!!! Oh I forgot to mention the court officers and translator did remember me! how funny, they actually were sweet to get me out of the cold!! There was a 25 minute line to get through security....so it is worth being nice to someone in the past. And embarrassing, people at the court kept thinking I was a lawyer....I guess I don't look like most of the female potential criminals that walk through the door.

Yesterday, was a nice evening...really nice evening actually. Mr. Podcast and I chatted. Tadpole asked me for a tentative coffee......yes, you read right...he asked me for coffee today...of course if we can work it out...

And Mr, Fireman contacted me to see how my jail day went...so sweet. He's going to call me in the morning...we flirted over email last nght a little!!

There is one thing hanging over my head tonight, I tossed and turned all night...it's a biggie and well I am hoping that I am wrong..I know I am being mysterious but I need to make sure first. Why can't life be more simple?

Will You Bail Me Out?!

Yes, tomorrow is my big day in court. I know it is a silly thing (car registration problem) but it is a misdemeanor. Up to 1 year in jail or probation.....now realistically, I shouldn't be worried but stranger things have happened to me.

I don't know if hubby even knew I got a lawyer. He said, oh yeah I saw the letter come. RRRRRR!! I prefer him not to be there but still...I would think he would have asked...do you want me to go with you? Nay, just can you fix my computer. Unbelievable!!

So I hope if I send a message or post that I am in jail, you will write me regularly, send me little gifts and bail me out!!!! I will be starting the Cheri's Criminal Fund This week....

Mr. Fireman was laughing...he said, hmmm, Ive never been with a criminal, I gotta think about it. And tonight, he sent me a little note-- If they put you away, I will wait for you and I will be faithful!!

A dry sense of humor that fireman has....we are suppose to meet for the first time this week.

So wish me luck!!!! Send files, send love...hmmm....you think I can set up some different men for conjugal visits??!

A Secret Lovers Lane Poem- The Affair

I was actually working tonight...how I came across this poem, I can't even remember. It's as if, this poem actually found me. But this poem hit a nerve, this poem struck my heart...this poem...read it and I think it will say it all!!

The Affair
by Sasha Tara Smith

Spirit of my soul,
Angel of my heart,
We can never be together.
We can never be apart.

Spirit of my soul,
We met just briefly.
Something is between us,
Some mystic chemistry.

Angel of my heart
Sent to guard over me,
Fighting down barriers,
Setting my life free.

We can never be together.
Life is cruel at times.
Spirit of my soul,
How we commit crimes.

We can never be apart.
You are always there.
Angel of my heart,
No one can compare.

Spirit, leave my soul.
Angel, let go of my heart.
Longing to be together
Always to be apart.

Quick Update..

Wow! I didn't post in two days!! Wanted to let you all know I am alive!! Thanks for all your concerns on the headache front! It's still happening. It's as if I am obssessed now to masturbate and to try for it not to happen. I think that I am rubbing my clit with sooo much force these days that I am tensing my shoulders up (combination of a sinus thing) and WOW!! brain freeze orgasm!! I also get them from 7-11 Slurpees!! hee.hee But I can stay away from a slirpee. So all of you were right--it's the tightening of the shoulders.

I have a lot to update on a week that I thought was going to be so quiet....

Ended up not meeting Mr. Prize or Divorce Attorney for lunch. Got so caught up at work, I just couldn't get away

Mr. Fireman.....we talked and I like him. Gotta post my convo with him

Mr. Podcast...we've been spending a lot of time IMing.....trying not to step over that imaginary line to keep it pure (oh sure)...we stepped over last night..it was fun. Gotta post that too!!

Tadpole, we spoke...I'll post

and wow, did you hear about the blogger who was plastered on a paper in England? Her identity and pix was on the front cover. She just wrote a book...damn, poor thing. That is my biggest fear....that someone would find me out and it would become public my identity. Scary shit. Her life is in turmoil. That's why I am glad while all of you come to my blog, it's now a HUGE ridiculous volumn of people. We are an intimate group....and I feel like you are all my friends!

Aah! So I will post throughout the weekend...but right now..I gotta get back to reality and this house. Yes, Cheri does House Cleaning!! Maybe I should go to the Wife Trader Club and find someone to clean my house while I perform sexual favors for him? Now that, to me would be the perfect trade!!!!!

Oh my?! Can I Still Masturbate?!?

Okay, so here's something that is so bizarre...it's kind of funny yet freaking me out a little.

When Mr. Prize and I were webcamming and playing the other night, as I started to cum, I got this severe pain in my head. Shooting up the back of my head into my eyeballs and my nose. For a second, I couldn't even move it hurt so much. I had assumed that it was from me pushing my head hard against the chair as I reached climax. It subsided after a while but it was lingering until yesterday.

Well I was talking to Mr. Podcast and he said it might be my blood pressure. Nah, its always been fine. Must be the chair, I was in a weird position or something.

So yesterday, I went upstairs for my own lunch break. Took my handy vibrator out and began to play...talkiing with so many frogs has certainly made me horny and playful. A little vibrations to the rim of my ass, two finger insertions, some special attention to my clit....and well here came that amazing orgasm.....yummy!!



However, so did that damn headache..like as if I were having a stroke. This only has happened to me when I would fly years ago. So maybe I have a slight sinus thing going on. But damn, the pain was excruciating.



So does that mean, I can never masturbate again?


Oh my, will I never be able to orgasm again...no sex? I swear I am tempted to call a frog and say FUCK ME....I need to see if I get this headache again when I fuck or does it just come when I masturbate...do you think I can't masturbate anymore? Oh man, now I am depressed!!



Mr. Podcast came up with the recommendation that I just keep a constant orgasm....since it seems like it is when I am coming down that the headache attacks. Such a good friend, he volunteered (too bad we are so far away).



So I called my girlfriend last night...telling her my story. Can you imagine if it were a stroke or something? Damn, I don't want to be found with a vibrator hanging out of my pussy. Talk about embarrassing...what a way to go. What a way to be found!!!



My girlfriend said "love ya but I ain't coming over to pull the vibrator out of ya". So we told her boyfriend he was on call should it happen again. He's on Vibrator Removal Duty for the next two weeks until I get this straightened out.



I told Mr. Springer what happened. Okay, he was dying laughing. I think he is feeling a tinge of guilt over us but just the sex not the friendship. He told me he missed me and that he missed laughing with me. We're going to go out to lunch next week.



Divorce attorney keeps emailing and IMing...a blast from the past. Actually, he wants to meet for lunch. I keep saying no...he is trying to entice me with free advice JUST in case I decide to make a move. I'm thinking about it since I have a meeting two blocks away from his office tomorrow.



Booty Caller!! Do you remember him?? He was almost, almost my first affair. We were hot and heavy for awhile...and then I got bored. He chickened out and well I wasn't sticking around to just exchange hot emails. He sent me a note too this week.....tryng to re-kindle


Tadpole? Hmmmm....he hasn't called. And while I would love to talk to him, I'm not going to call. I feel like I am bothering him. I feel if he wants to talk to me he knows how to find me. I'm not going to bother him....I hate feeling like a pain. A girl likes to feel desired..not like she is always making the intiative...even friendship is a two way street.

BUT the big news...Mr. Fireman. Aah! Just when you throw them to the curb they return. He claims that our plans weren't definite last time and he apologized up and down that I thought they were. Well, I thought we just had to firm up a time. So, he's been quite the attentive one. Emailing, calling, IMing...actually I enjoy talking with him. We talked about everything from work to hobbies to future career stuff....he was going to check out something for me today.

Anyway, we are shooting to meet next Thursday or Friday. Who knows. I won't put all my eggs in one basket...but I love when a guy mentally stimulates me. And I'm not talking about phone sex. I find it so hot when two people connect as people. Turns me on even more I think!

so cute, he asked me...."Can I call you tomorrow? I really enjoyed our conversation." Wow...that was so sweet. "Of course, I said...I'd like that!" So that's on a positive note.

Okay, okay I said no men. But I didn't track down anyone...they all seemed to find me. I haven't been on Ashley in search of new...these were all, well ones that were there already. All though I think everyones hormones are heating up....lots of new catches on Ashley.....yummy!! But I need to finish what I have on my plate now...don't want to be a pig, I'll save some for some other girls (hee.hee)!

Sweet Wet dreams (I am trying to keep my sexual arousal to a minimum until I figure out this head thing so mine won't be wet!! lol)

The Frogs Are Restless This Time of Year!!

Wow! What a strange day. Was there a email blast informing all my dysfunctional frogs that I was thinking on taking a little break? Was there a full moon? OR with the holidays beginning is everyone just needing the feeling that they need to catch up with lost friends OR is everyone just damn horny this time of year? Hmmmm....I wonder.

Let's see....

Mr. Fireman re-appearred and we are talking he tried to reach me by phone, IM, email and through Ashley Madison yesterday. Quite out of character for him to try to track me down to say hi. Was this his approach to showing me more attention? Not sure but my horoscope did say to give someone a second chance. Could it be him?!

Mr. Navigator dropped me a line...well I returned his pictures (I had found an email with all these cock shots that he had sent to me). As a joke (of course we know I still have them) I sent them through the email saying I was returning them. He was howling....he thinks I am too much. He mentioned getting together.... I am going to have to pass. There is a man of power but he has no time for anything.

And a real surprise---Booty Caller...an early holiday wish. Now there is a blast from my past. He never tried to put on a fake facade. A straight shooter....I am selfish, I am into fucking and definitely will not cuddle after. However, we never consummated that affair....we were SOOOO close....he chickened out. Yeah, not taking that path either.

And then Mr. Prize. After a great chat last night with Mr. Podcast, I was shutting down and Mr. Prize sent me an IM. We started chatting, a chat which went into 2AM, phone sex and webcamming. Him directing me by phone until I came and then me returning the favor. He wants to meet. I care about him a lot. I definitely would love to meet...but there is a part of me that feels like I was duped. Of course, I mentioned it last night. Which kind of shrunk his cock so I worked extra hard after to make it work!! He disappearred for awhile because he found another on Ashley. Well I don't want to be filler although he does sound sincere that he wants me. I think we look at this affair thing differently. For him, its casual sex with numerous partners. He even enjoyed reading Mr. Springer and about our sexual escapade. We discussed his pussy eating technique last night like we were critiquing a book..lol Anyway, I guess I will see what occurs, I might meet him for lunch next week.

Then there were the IMs from Mr. Computer (begging for me to meet him) and the guy with the gallery of photos of someone else (Iming and emailing). Oh, and Mr. Backgammon sent me a pix....he drops in once in a while wanting to meet. That hot boy toy...now that would be quite a day.

So yesterday was a very action packed day of many dysfunctional frogs from the past. Unsolicited but nice to hear from them. Glad they are all okay and still got those hot, horny cocks!! I have to admit, I do like that I am still friends with all of the frogs--well I am friends with them all except for one---and we all know who that is--the frog who left the void.

Well I'm off to work!! Kisses today.....who knows what today will bring....you never know!

Webcamming and I have seeped into his dreams!!

My friend Curious George has been way too busy to webcam (and was kind of trying to give up the life). Well, when he is away on business....it pulls him back in again.

He loves to webcam. But as you know, I do not have one. So It is not an even balance there. So sweetly, he offered to send me one, but I cannot accept gifts. I don't know, I don't want to feel like a kept woman. It's silly, I might just have him send it but still....you know me, I write and do all this sex stuff for free! (lol)

Well, he was on and I was glad we were able to catch up. I was also glad to see that he took his webcam with him. I miss the webcam fun. I miss giving him directions and seeing him cum knowing that he is thinking of me. Many times we run into one problem. I don't share! Yes, I am a spoiled webcammer viewer. If he has other woman watching, I don't like to watch. I don't like to see him typing to someone else. Selfish, one on one that's me. I want a man to myself. CG jokes and says "I can just imagine what you were like in Kindergarten, you don't share".

He had a dream about me. I thought that was sooo cool. No , not a fantasy but an actual dream where I seeped into his unconscious while he was sleeping. How yummy and what a turn on that is for me. I was wearing a pink mask in the dream. I can just imagine what I was doing. LOL

So, he turned his webcam on and I had forgotten how much his cock turns me on. Something about the tip of his cock. It has a perfect mushroom head. I always imagine it just entering me and how it would give me additional pleasure as he pulled it out. Extra ribbing!!!

Well he did give me my one on one time which made me very happy and very horny. I love watching him rub his cock. I love directing him to put more lotion on, to rub his head, to move his hand faster up and down his shaft. Such a turn on!

CG and I had some issues in the past. He once made a comment like I was his whore. Okay, flipped me out. I took it so personally and not like it was part of the other world. A nickname usually used in submission. Let's face it....even though I don't feel I am a whore, I am very sensitive about that.

For some reason seeing his hard cock there...I was feeling super horny and super naughty. I told him that I am his spoiled whore! He was shocked and he actually loved it.

"Okay my little whore, take a pix of those breasts...zip that zipper down on your shirt and snap a pix. then snap one with your bra off".

For some reason, the submission tonight was just what I needed. So I followed directions to the tee. "You see, your spoiled little whore can follow directions."

I love telling him how to caress his cock....its as if I am there. But it has to be one on one.....I am spoiled....I need the one on one direction...I need a man to be 100% with me. Not his mind wandering on some other chick sending him instant messages. I need crave to be the only one, even if it is for a few minutes.

"Does my whore want me to cum?" "Mmmmm.....yes I want you to cum for me, thinking only of me"!! And so he did.....the cum is like the medal at the end of the race....the more intense and powerful and messy...the more intense the orgasm and the better I feel. It's like winning a race....

CG fantasizes about us going to a hotel one day and webcamming while we savagely screw. He also wants me to be submissive, I've never taken on that role and well, he was shocked that I did. I was too, I guess I was just feeling super naughty that night.

Well, CG has had a dream since. I guess it was the excitement of me giving into the submissive role. Yes, if we meet, I agreed to do whatever he wants (in disguise) on the webcam. Well that day should fulfill a couple of my 50 sexual things I want to do.

He dreamed about me with a pink wig and a mask.....to cover my id. And I was his little whore for the day....obeying his every wish. I guess its a turn on to give up my power. USually, I am quite the active and aggressive one in bed. Usually I am into the pleasing making sure that the rendezvous goes perfect and that I am there to please...but I am in control. Seems like it would be nice to change the roles a little. I did with Mr. Prize and I enjoyed it. He was my teacher that night, he directed the moves and I obliged. Had to follow the class syllbus if you want the A!!

I actually started this post last on November 19th, its been sitting in my posts. Today was a very interesting day. I know, I know, I had said nothing new for the week..but well...this day took on a strange turn. Tadpole and I, for the first time, were on way different wavelengths. I usually tease him and well he wasn't into the teasing or he just didn't want to play with me. I don't know...I hung up very sad. Like our connection was so off...

And then there was quite the surprise....I fellow podcaster and I have been talking a lot. He is a sweetheart. hmmm...nothing to report further...its just weird for someone to know all about me and I know so little about them. Kind of like all my blogger friends.. but he shared something really personal and well....it really got me thinking but that is a whole other post. Hey podcast buddy, thanks for being such a great friend!!

Sweet Wet Webcam Dreams All!!! Hee. hee.

Weekend Update

What do you feel when you look at your significant other? Do you feel a warmth of love and admiration? Do you respect them? Are they your best friend? Do you look forward to coming home and telling them about your day? Do you look forward to holding them in their arms and finding that is the only place in the world that you want to be?

Is such a feeling possible after many years? Or does life chip away at all our relationships? Is such a love possible to go on and on?

More than anything....I want to feel that feeling again. More than anything I want to be in love with my husband. So I really have to say FUCK YOU to anyone who ridicules my family time!! You just don't get it. I want to feel the respect, the love, the admiration. And this weekend, I was hoping that it would start to come back. In the past, we have left our environment and a little connection would return. I am grasping for the slightest connection and hoping that we can grow it again. The good news, he was great with the kids this weekend. So much so that friends commented on how they never thought he was good with them (he does get credit for really trying to help out--so there was some admiration). There was no screaming, there was no fighting...it was bearable and nice.

A person who wanders or considers to wander....is unhappy. I don't think they do it (at least most) as kind of a hobby or a quick thrill. I think a cheating spouse has gone into it lacking something in their life. Wanting to just feel that part of them come alive. It doesn't come without any guilt, a tremendous amount of guilt. In fact, sometimes the guilt is too much too bear. They would probably do anything to bring that spark they found in the bed of another to their own marriage. And in most cases, they have tried. It's a form of inner need that gets so strong.....

So am I advocating to cheat in your marriage? NO!! I would love for every married couple to work on their marriage and fix it. On my website, I urge people to go to counseling, try and spark your marriage again....but sometimes, life is not that easy.

So yes, I drove for 3 hours. I drove and drove and drove. When I need to think, I do all the driving while everyone sleeps. And I did a lot of thinking. A lot of thinking.

Any answers? No.. lol

but I did come up with some thoughts.
-I'm not going to settle. There was awhile when I was grasping....grasping in hopes that a frog would satisfy me actually knowing before it even began, that wasn't the frog for me. I'm not going to do that anymore. If I know there is no friendship connection--he will not become a Suck and Fuck!

-I'm going to concentrate more on me. So, for the holidays, it looks like batteries are the perfect gift for me!!

-Go back to my plan....Go back to the thought to straighten my life and set it up so that IF I want to divorce, the possibility could be there. That is going to take a lot. But at least strive. In the process, it can only better my household if I succeed even if I decide to stay.

-And if I decide to divorce, I should be alone without a frog when I make the decision. I need to do it alone, I need to do it for me.

This weekend was good for me. It opened my eyes. A couple of instances, it also pointed out that I still have it. Yes, a few people in our group were shocked (the men were talking) that I was married to my husband. As a male friend of mine put it, they never imagined that I would be so hot!! (hee.hee) Made me feel so good just hearing it. I would never touch any of them (nor do I think they would ever make a pass at me)!! I don't believe in ever shitting where you eat but it was nice to flirt.

So I don't know where I am. Just as confused, just as lonely. And I don't know what is going to happen. I don't even have the desire to browse on Ashley Madison for new frogs. Am I giving up? I don't think so. I think I am taking a breather this week... a catch up is a good way to put it. For a while there, I was so busy screwing around, I missed a couple of hot webcam moments with Curious George, the doctor guy and the update on Mr. Fireman2. So next week, is a hot catch up week. Of course, I've said that before and its been some of the hottest sex weeks of my life so who knows.

Only Time Will tell.....Kisses!!! Talk to ya tomorrow!!