I stopped before to get myself together. I also decided to pick up a salad and drinks for both of us and of course, a cup of ice. I put some makeup on and started to the room. Coming out of a room was another couple...oh you could tell they were having an affair. It was kind of cute in a way....she was homely. I don't mean to be harsh but she was.....kind of gave me the feeling like--hey, there's someone for everyone out there!
Knocked on the door and my baby was standing there in his undies....mmmmmm.....he peeked out from behind the door. My heart melted, my pussy tightened, my mouth smiled. Yes, I needed paradise. I placed down the food--and he brought ice too!!
I went to him and he just held me...."let me wipe those tears". And it felt so damn good. He was fixing the bed and of course, I have to be a pain in the ass and start playing with him...pulling down his underwear, grabbing his cock, and when he turned around I was on my knees and began to suck his cock.....he moaned..I love the way you suck me.....you do it with such a passion.
Well let''s be honest, I never knew how much I loved to suck cock. I seem to enjoy it for guys who I know really enjoy it. If a guy doesn't make like its a big deal, I will do it but not with such passion. The fact that I know how much he loves it......and loves me sucking him, licking him...deep throating him....Turns me on even more...Yes, I love to please.
The afternoon seems like one big dream right now. We fucked on the floor, we fucked in the bed...doggie style, legs in the air, legs spread eagle, legs over my head....but my favorite position is from behind...with me lying on the bed and him inside of me from behind....what I love is that I can look up and see us both in the mirror....we both smile with total peace and contentment....damn, this is perfect. I threw him a kiss in the mirror and he threw me one back...."I wish I can snap a picture right now....now this is paradise" He smiled and kissed my neck as he lied inside of me.....
And to my surprise....his change in thrusting was such a damn turn on.....usually I am just about to cum and a guy changes his rythmn and interrupts my orgasm. Mystery Man knows how to move his hips and to make my body shiver with anticipation on the next move....will it be a deep fast thrust or will he grind me and rub against my clit? It was so damn hot......
I looked into his eyes...and I asked him as he was thrusting away...is your head still swollen? (he laughted and knew what I meant....last time I emailed and told him how amazing he was as a lover. I also said I will tell you know so your head unswells by the next time we meet) With no connection, we have such a great connection.. I looked at him, kissed him and told him...."you are an amazing lover"..... he didn't answer.
We ate lunch, we giggled, we laughed and we lied there entwined. When it was time to go into the shower.....I asked him to just lie with me some more. And he did...it was heaven.
So of course, its winding down...I'm getting sad. So instead of leaving a sad silence....I become teasingly obnoxious! Yes, I do it all the time because otherwise we are both so sad. I go for his cock (which he hates....poor baby is so damn tired and soar)..Stop!! He complains. Then we go into the shower and we start soaping each other up. This is not a two person shower so we are sitting there giggling....I drop the soap...he just shoots me a look and goes out and gets another one. As he is unwrapping this one, it drops out of his hand. Well, I cannot stop laughing, I am dying and he is inside too. I can see the giggles coming to his face....
And then as an obnoxious lover.....I start to re-soap him as he finishes washing off.....and then I start to kiss his clean shoulders...I know he has to get my smell off of him...but I want to always leave myself with him....."you know you are so damn annoying"....half smiling. So I give a pouting lip and he says "don't pout, your really annoying, sexy and damn cute"!!
We get dressed, he starts to leave first...WAIT...I scream...he knows, he comes back in and gives me a kiss....."Thanks for the fuck"..I say.. "Thanks for the suck" he says.....and then he is off.
I drive home in a content daze. A very content peace. I am soooo happy with him. I wish I could just know him a little bit though. I'm afraid to ask....I'm trying to be patient. Everytime I tell him a little about me....he seems to want to know. A very little part of me.
I am so happy with the time we spend together. I wish there was just a little more on our off times. Oh boy, there is my text message. Geez, it's new guy....he misses me and can't wait to see me. Oh man, I forgot about him. We meet on Monday....
Can I combine the two to make one lover?
Friday, June 29, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Secret Lover Afternoon Rendezvous part 1
Balance.....Inner Peace....Yeah, that's what I feel after 3 hours of screwing in Paradise.
I had left my house, in tears. I called and contemplated not to meet him. I had no sexy underwear on, I had no makeup on and my hair was still half wet. Major blowup in my house over responsibility. Or I should say his lack of it. Another incident where he took the mortgage money I have been scrapping to get together. I was lower than low. I called Mystery Man....."I am running late, if its a problem we can reschedule." He heard the anxiety in my voice. "Take a deep breath, he said. When you get there, you get there." "I have no makeup on and I just ran out of my house in tears." "Relax, come here and I will relax you. We will escape to paradise". All of a sudden I didn't think much about the no makeup and the tears. I needed to get to paradise. I needed to escape for a little bit for my own sanity.
And, I will get into details....but it was amazing. It wasn't 3 hours of sex this time, although we did have more than our share. But we actually just lied there, relaxed, talked and held each other....we spooned each other and said nothing but caressed each other. He held me sooo tight.....and gave me that sense of protection I so badly needed. "My life is crazy too....he said. My mind is always racing with millions of thoughts and stress". Wow, the first time we spoke about our lives without really talking about it. I felt so close to him. I enjoyed the closeness and so did he. i guess we are both missing that warmth and sweet comfort from our lives.
Well you are going to have to wait for the sex....sorry....it's so damm long...I keep trying to think of all the positions and I can't. We just kept flipping and fucking....it was amazing. But it wasn't as raw as it sometimes is...it was more gentle this time. We made love....we had sex...but our bodies made love...slow and intense...our hands entwined...it was nice. now we aren't in love, so is that what you would call it? Hmmm....I wonder. Is there another word for such slow, intense screwing that is like making love?
Okay,against all better judgement....hee.hee. You know I had to talk about Ashley Madison. Oh please, it was burning a hole in my heart. Are you looking for someone else...I asked? I understand if you find someone who sucks your cock better than me...(he starts cracking up because I know he loves the way I blow him).
"I can read between the lines in your emails baby. I can see when you are getting frustrated and annoyed with me (and he admitted to purposely ignoring it)."
"I try to be good and not bring it up..."I said feeling like a little girl
"I know you do, but you can't help yourself. your used to always getting your way"...okay, he thinks I am difficult. I guess I am in some ways. He is laughing because I am pouting..
He took my face in his hands. "I am happy with us..I am not looking for anyone else. But I think its like that car crash. the morbid curiousity....what happened, what can I see. Everyone stops to look." I understood that. I do the same thing but I know I am just looking who is interested in me. I am happy with him, I couldnt ask for more from a lover....he has no inhibitions, it's hot. So I giggle and he kisses me. And Ashley is forgotten for now.
So the sex? WOW....I am exhausted tonight....and I already napped. I get sooo content afterwards. I feel so at peace. It's better than drugs. It's like a 2 hour massage....the stress is behind me.
I will tell you...that we couldn't have anal...it wouldn't fit!! LOL It hurt this time because of the angle....he stopped...because he could see I was in pain. I don't want to hurt you. Damn, it hurt this time. We need to practice!!
Sweet Dreams...I know I will be having them!
I had left my house, in tears. I called and contemplated not to meet him. I had no sexy underwear on, I had no makeup on and my hair was still half wet. Major blowup in my house over responsibility. Or I should say his lack of it. Another incident where he took the mortgage money I have been scrapping to get together. I was lower than low. I called Mystery Man....."I am running late, if its a problem we can reschedule." He heard the anxiety in my voice. "Take a deep breath, he said. When you get there, you get there." "I have no makeup on and I just ran out of my house in tears." "Relax, come here and I will relax you. We will escape to paradise". All of a sudden I didn't think much about the no makeup and the tears. I needed to get to paradise. I needed to escape for a little bit for my own sanity.
And, I will get into details....but it was amazing. It wasn't 3 hours of sex this time, although we did have more than our share. But we actually just lied there, relaxed, talked and held each other....we spooned each other and said nothing but caressed each other. He held me sooo tight.....and gave me that sense of protection I so badly needed. "My life is crazy too....he said. My mind is always racing with millions of thoughts and stress". Wow, the first time we spoke about our lives without really talking about it. I felt so close to him. I enjoyed the closeness and so did he. i guess we are both missing that warmth and sweet comfort from our lives.
Well you are going to have to wait for the sex....sorry....it's so damm long...I keep trying to think of all the positions and I can't. We just kept flipping and fucking....it was amazing. But it wasn't as raw as it sometimes is...it was more gentle this time. We made love....we had sex...but our bodies made love...slow and intense...our hands entwined...it was nice. now we aren't in love, so is that what you would call it? Hmmm....I wonder. Is there another word for such slow, intense screwing that is like making love?
Okay,against all better judgement....hee.hee. You know I had to talk about Ashley Madison. Oh please, it was burning a hole in my heart. Are you looking for someone else...I asked? I understand if you find someone who sucks your cock better than me...(he starts cracking up because I know he loves the way I blow him).
"I can read between the lines in your emails baby. I can see when you are getting frustrated and annoyed with me (and he admitted to purposely ignoring it)."
"I try to be good and not bring it up..."I said feeling like a little girl
"I know you do, but you can't help yourself. your used to always getting your way"...okay, he thinks I am difficult. I guess I am in some ways. He is laughing because I am pouting..
He took my face in his hands. "I am happy with us..I am not looking for anyone else. But I think its like that car crash. the morbid curiousity....what happened, what can I see. Everyone stops to look." I understood that. I do the same thing but I know I am just looking who is interested in me. I am happy with him, I couldnt ask for more from a lover....he has no inhibitions, it's hot. So I giggle and he kisses me. And Ashley is forgotten for now.
So the sex? WOW....I am exhausted tonight....and I already napped. I get sooo content afterwards. I feel so at peace. It's better than drugs. It's like a 2 hour massage....the stress is behind me.
I will tell you...that we couldn't have anal...it wouldn't fit!! LOL It hurt this time because of the angle....he stopped...because he could see I was in pain. I don't want to hurt you. Damn, it hurt this time. We need to practice!!
Sweet Dreams...I know I will be having them!
His Emails Get Me So Wet
Mystery Man is making me so damn wet.....I was trying to stay away, I needed to feel wanted and then he starts to send these emails.....oh my.....I need his cock!!
I'm bending you over with your hands on the floor bracing your body so I can walk up behind you and get a deep penetration angle. I guide my stiff cock between your swollen lips slipping the head in and parting those lips. I slowly start to push myself deeper inside you, you push back wanting to feel my cock deeper inside your hot sticky walls. I pull the head of my cock out as you moan in protest and then ram it hard inside you before you know what's going on. Over and over I repeat this until your so worked up that your begging me to fuck you like an animal.
your legs are shaking as your still bent over, with my cock gliding in and out of that sweet golden tunnel.....I push your head down further so your head is now close to the floor which gives me more access and I'm able to plunge my cock even deeper inside you than before. As I continue pumping, I wet my finger in my mouth and slip it between your cheeks and slowly work my way to your tight ass, My fingers rub your hole and I work my thumb inside you while pumping away on that hot wet box of yours. You let out a little moan as I'm pumping both holes at once and you feel like your in another world......."
I can tell---his goal is to get me so worked up that I want to see him so badly and I don't care that I was feeling neglected this week.....It's working....
"Mmmm. yes I will have to show you...but first more food for thought...Your on your knees now facing away from me with you legs tucked under your stomach and your plump ass poised high in the air greeting me with a warm vertical smile. You reach back with your hands and spread your cheeks wide open revealing yourself to me. you look back at me with a devilish grin and with seething eyes and you tell me to "stick that throbbing cock of yours so deep inside my ass that I come just from thinking about how good it will feel as you pound away on me" I gently slide the head of my dick in your ass and you squeal in delight as I grab a hold your hips and pull you toward me slowly, inch by inch my cock is working it's way inside you, you clench your muscles when make my cock spasm inside you sending shivers down your spine......"
"YOU WIN!! ... I SURRENDER.....Do as you please to me!!" All of a sudden hearing him tell me that he wants me or misses me....seemed to fly out of the window. He refused to use those words but managed to make me not even care about them. Now he is goooood....
His final words to me tonight!!
"""My cock awaits your lips....both sets.....nite sexy devil!!"""""
Oh fuck....he pulled me in tonight....he mentally seduced me and managed to take me from being a PITA (and slightly cranky and bitching)--giving him a hard time to putty in his hands...
I strongly recommend that last line.....it was certainly the icing on the cake....
Guess I am meeting my mystery man tomorrow....
The New guy and I spoke today...and well....he seems to satisfy me mentally....I don't think he could do this to me....Mystery Man makes me damn wet and knows exactly how to manipulate me with his words. Well, I let him do it...I like it...
Off to bed....big day tomorrow....
I'm bending you over with your hands on the floor bracing your body so I can walk up behind you and get a deep penetration angle. I guide my stiff cock between your swollen lips slipping the head in and parting those lips. I slowly start to push myself deeper inside you, you push back wanting to feel my cock deeper inside your hot sticky walls. I pull the head of my cock out as you moan in protest and then ram it hard inside you before you know what's going on. Over and over I repeat this until your so worked up that your begging me to fuck you like an animal.
your legs are shaking as your still bent over, with my cock gliding in and out of that sweet golden tunnel.....I push your head down further so your head is now close to the floor which gives me more access and I'm able to plunge my cock even deeper inside you than before. As I continue pumping, I wet my finger in my mouth and slip it between your cheeks and slowly work my way to your tight ass, My fingers rub your hole and I work my thumb inside you while pumping away on that hot wet box of yours. You let out a little moan as I'm pumping both holes at once and you feel like your in another world......."
I can tell---his goal is to get me so worked up that I want to see him so badly and I don't care that I was feeling neglected this week.....It's working....
"Mmmm. yes I will have to show you...but first more food for thought...Your on your knees now facing away from me with you legs tucked under your stomach and your plump ass poised high in the air greeting me with a warm vertical smile. You reach back with your hands and spread your cheeks wide open revealing yourself to me. you look back at me with a devilish grin and with seething eyes and you tell me to "stick that throbbing cock of yours so deep inside my ass that I come just from thinking about how good it will feel as you pound away on me" I gently slide the head of my dick in your ass and you squeal in delight as I grab a hold your hips and pull you toward me slowly, inch by inch my cock is working it's way inside you, you clench your muscles when make my cock spasm inside you sending shivers down your spine......"
"YOU WIN!! ... I SURRENDER.....Do as you please to me!!" All of a sudden hearing him tell me that he wants me or misses me....seemed to fly out of the window. He refused to use those words but managed to make me not even care about them. Now he is goooood....
His final words to me tonight!!
"""My cock awaits your lips....both sets.....nite sexy devil!!"""""
Oh fuck....he pulled me in tonight....he mentally seduced me and managed to take me from being a PITA (and slightly cranky and bitching)--giving him a hard time to putty in his hands...
I strongly recommend that last line.....it was certainly the icing on the cake....
Guess I am meeting my mystery man tomorrow....
The New guy and I spoke today...and well....he seems to satisfy me mentally....I don't think he could do this to me....Mystery Man makes me damn wet and knows exactly how to manipulate me with his words. Well, I let him do it...I like it...
Off to bed....big day tomorrow....
Some Sex Talk To Help A Friend
A very unusual thing, I have noticed Soulmate Chris has been on IM lately...I haven't sent a message because well....we really haven't spoken in a long time. funny how you can be so close with someone and then it's as if you were strangers.
Today me little one was playing with my computer and somehow she pulled up his IM and started typing away......I get back to my computer and he responded...hello? Hi! I said...sorry, my daughter was typing... oh sure he says and laughs.
I giggled too because it was true but it sounded so fake. Anyway, we started talking. He told me about his last two affairs and I am honestly so happy for him. I care about him, there will always be a special place in my heart for him.
Of course, we got on the subject of us. And he said...would you fuck me again? If we did, it would be right. I laughed....we still felt so comfortable with each other...even as time passed.....a connection was there.
I am so damn horny..he said. And so, I started to tell him a story. A new version of our past rendezvous.....one where we met and it was so damn hot.... I started by IM and then decided to call him. I finished the story on the phone.....well I got as far as kissing his neck and working my way down to his huge cock (which he does have) and just the talk about licking and sucking.... well that's all it took.....I can hear that familiar moan.....I just giggled.
Glad I could help ya friend...now you can focus better on your work....Kisses.....He laughed. He'll always be special to me.....glad I could help him in his time of need....hee.hee
Today me little one was playing with my computer and somehow she pulled up his IM and started typing away......I get back to my computer and he responded...hello? Hi! I said...sorry, my daughter was typing... oh sure he says and laughs.
I giggled too because it was true but it sounded so fake. Anyway, we started talking. He told me about his last two affairs and I am honestly so happy for him. I care about him, there will always be a special place in my heart for him.
Of course, we got on the subject of us. And he said...would you fuck me again? If we did, it would be right. I laughed....we still felt so comfortable with each other...even as time passed.....a connection was there.
I am so damn horny..he said. And so, I started to tell him a story. A new version of our past rendezvous.....one where we met and it was so damn hot.... I started by IM and then decided to call him. I finished the story on the phone.....well I got as far as kissing his neck and working my way down to his huge cock (which he does have) and just the talk about licking and sucking.... well that's all it took.....I can hear that familiar moan.....I just giggled.
Glad I could help ya friend...now you can focus better on your work....Kisses.....He laughed. He'll always be special to me.....glad I could help him in his time of need....hee.hee
Monday, June 25, 2007
Which Man is Right For Me?
Q: What's the difference between mayonnaise and semen?
A: Mayonnaise isn't shot into your mouth at 30 MPH....
Aah!! Mystery Man has been a little busy but he sent me this surprise joke to make me laugh...
Somehow....he always seems to get my head spinning with visuals.....I flashback to sucking his cock in the room....making sure that I cover every inch...and satisfying ever desire he has...
I ask him...should I swallow or should we finger paint? I never seem to be able to wait--I always am impatient and want him inside of me before he cums. "decisions, decisions....let's do both so we don't have to decide"....
He's good....I was feeling great and then I felt played...he checked Ashley...I wondered if it was before or after my email. Rrrrrr....I hate that I feel so insecure about that. Who am I to talk? I am busy with a Surgeon and the new guy.....
The Surgeon is busy romancing me to meet. I have told him I don't have the time. Basically, I am not going to change me day even a nanosecond to accommodate you since your last escapade of not calling. So, I am going to hold off on a meeting.
Now, The New Guy.....I am not sure I mentioned him (and I am too lazy to go back and look tonight). He entertained me for the weekend....he sent me hs pix today and he is super hot. But there is something about him.....and as I am writing it I realize what it is.....he is controlling. He likes all his ducks lined up his way and perfect. Now that is a laugh...I am not that perfect girl...we all know that my life has become more and more dysfunctional. I cannot live up to what he wants in a girl....I have too much going on in my life.
Although he thinks I am perfect for him. He thinks I am beautiful, smart, witty and exciting. aaah! but the traits he won't be able to take are spontaneous, chaotic, insecure, independent and wild (compared to him). Truth is, I am not fit enough for him. All he talks about is the gym and working out and how you have to be disciplined. Hmmm.....I am mentrual, gained 6 lbs and feel like a fat blob this week.......yeah....not exactly feeling confident we are a match.
Now here is the big kicker....emotionally I wish I had met him a year ago. He has shared so much of himself and his life...never skipping a beat to tell me some deep stories. And not missing a beat to throw in that he isn't a Mystery Man. Yes, he knows about him. I made it known since I don't like to be deceptive. I certainly wasn't going to pretend my interest lied just with him right now.
I admit it, I can't open up. I can't let him in right now to my deep, dark secrets. I need to keep that wall up for awhile especially until I know he is a possible frog. Oh man, here's a man who wants to get to my soul (what I think I wanted) and I do not want someone fishing around there right now. Yeah, I want to know more about him but I want to remain a little mysterious....what a tangled web I live in!!!
And then there is another, I have been sharing fantasies with....a special friend I met through blogger....very yummy!!
A: Mayonnaise isn't shot into your mouth at 30 MPH....
Aah!! Mystery Man has been a little busy but he sent me this surprise joke to make me laugh...
Somehow....he always seems to get my head spinning with visuals.....I flashback to sucking his cock in the room....making sure that I cover every inch...and satisfying ever desire he has...
I ask him...should I swallow or should we finger paint? I never seem to be able to wait--I always am impatient and want him inside of me before he cums. "decisions, decisions....let's do both so we don't have to decide"....
He's good....I was feeling great and then I felt played...he checked Ashley...I wondered if it was before or after my email. Rrrrrr....I hate that I feel so insecure about that. Who am I to talk? I am busy with a Surgeon and the new guy.....
The Surgeon is busy romancing me to meet. I have told him I don't have the time. Basically, I am not going to change me day even a nanosecond to accommodate you since your last escapade of not calling. So, I am going to hold off on a meeting.
Now, The New Guy.....I am not sure I mentioned him (and I am too lazy to go back and look tonight). He entertained me for the weekend....he sent me hs pix today and he is super hot. But there is something about him.....and as I am writing it I realize what it is.....he is controlling. He likes all his ducks lined up his way and perfect. Now that is a laugh...I am not that perfect girl...we all know that my life has become more and more dysfunctional. I cannot live up to what he wants in a girl....I have too much going on in my life.
Although he thinks I am perfect for him. He thinks I am beautiful, smart, witty and exciting. aaah! but the traits he won't be able to take are spontaneous, chaotic, insecure, independent and wild (compared to him). Truth is, I am not fit enough for him. All he talks about is the gym and working out and how you have to be disciplined. Hmmm.....I am mentrual, gained 6 lbs and feel like a fat blob this week.......yeah....not exactly feeling confident we are a match.
Now here is the big kicker....emotionally I wish I had met him a year ago. He has shared so much of himself and his life...never skipping a beat to tell me some deep stories. And not missing a beat to throw in that he isn't a Mystery Man. Yes, he knows about him. I made it known since I don't like to be deceptive. I certainly wasn't going to pretend my interest lied just with him right now.
I admit it, I can't open up. I can't let him in right now to my deep, dark secrets. I need to keep that wall up for awhile especially until I know he is a possible frog. Oh man, here's a man who wants to get to my soul (what I think I wanted) and I do not want someone fishing around there right now. Yeah, I want to know more about him but I want to remain a little mysterious....what a tangled web I live in!!!
And then there is another, I have been sharing fantasies with....a special friend I met through blogger....very yummy!!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Married But Looking Playground
The Married But Looking Playground
A work day of stress, responsibility and frustrations
Come home to more responsibility, financial woes and complications
Wake, repeat, sleep---wake, repeat, sleep--- wake, repeat, sleep
Like a robot with a hole in my heart that seems to be so deep
I desire an escape, an adult playground with adult play
I came across Ashley Madison and Philanderers—one day
The sweet innocent girl disappeared and the search began,
For that Married Prince Charming—a very special man.
Well it’s been almost two years since I signed up on that site.
A secret location, a playground for lovers—shedding a whole new light
A hidden world where passion, desire and lust is the agenda.
Married people playing—you like her profile—a wink you send her
A secret life that I have been living that has given me so much joys,
Has opened a whole new world for me of experimenting, desires and sex toys
We discuss our wants, desires, wishes hidden online
And if there is chemistry, we meet at Starfucks or we decide to dine.
These men I meet know a side of me that no else does see
My new found sexuality—where having fun is the key
So if you haven’t gone to Ashley Madison, stop by and give it a try,
My word of advice is be open, funny and just don’t lie,
You are who you are, and you should enjoy
And don’t act like an idiot or a little boy
You see there should be no games, we’re all married, we desire more
We all should respect each other –and hopefully make our passions soar
So, here’s to all those Married But Looking websites
May they take your sexuality and your sex life to new heights!!
A work day of stress, responsibility and frustrations
Come home to more responsibility, financial woes and complications
Wake, repeat, sleep---wake, repeat, sleep--- wake, repeat, sleep
Like a robot with a hole in my heart that seems to be so deep
I desire an escape, an adult playground with adult play
I came across Ashley Madison and Philanderers—one day
The sweet innocent girl disappeared and the search began,
For that Married Prince Charming—a very special man.
Well it’s been almost two years since I signed up on that site.
A secret location, a playground for lovers—shedding a whole new light
A hidden world where passion, desire and lust is the agenda.
Married people playing—you like her profile—a wink you send her
A secret life that I have been living that has given me so much joys,
Has opened a whole new world for me of experimenting, desires and sex toys
We discuss our wants, desires, wishes hidden online
And if there is chemistry, we meet at Starfucks or we decide to dine.
These men I meet know a side of me that no else does see
My new found sexuality—where having fun is the key
So if you haven’t gone to Ashley Madison, stop by and give it a try,
My word of advice is be open, funny and just don’t lie,
You are who you are, and you should enjoy
And don’t act like an idiot or a little boy
You see there should be no games, we’re all married, we desire more
We all should respect each other –and hopefully make our passions soar
So, here’s to all those Married But Looking websites
May they take your sexuality and your sex life to new heights!!
Okay, I had too much time on my hands tonight....didn't feel like discussing my flirting...needed to write a poem...Happy Monday!!!!!!!
The Search for Mr. MArried Prince Charming Continues
You can be surrounded by people and sometimes the loneliness is soooo intense. I definitely get the blues around that time of the month. It has to be....There are some days when I feel like Cinderella. Working, cleaning, cooking with no relief in site. Being the glue that holds the house together...yet, I have those days when I wish I could escape.
Today was a bad day emotionally...I dont know why. It's not because of a frog...its the overwhelming feeling and even depression I was feeling today. Gotta say...it scared me just a little bit. I haven't felt like this in a really long time. I threw myself in bed and just cried........the loneliness just felt so deep....the sadness actually hurt. Why? I feel so trapped sometimes.....like the light has dimmed so I can't even see it.
So what do I do? I needed an escape. I needed to just get away from here for awhile. It's either stay in bed and cry or entertain myself with a little escape. Hmmm.....I went to Ashley Madison and I even returned to Philanderers for a little searching. And what did I find? MEN!! I just dropped some return messages and this afternoon and tonight has been a feast of yummy men! And ironically, two of them had the same name as Mystery Man...... ummmm...that can get very sticky....don't ya think?
Anyway, one I already knocked out...way too paranoid for me. Another, while we had a great conversation today on the phone BUT he seems very judgmental. Too judgmental. I want someone carefree. I want someone that I can just laugh and smile and not think about his demands. So far, he has met five girls and dissed each one (each for a different reason and it wasn't because they had paws or six heads). One he didn't like her smile, another ate funny, another was too quiet...etc.etc. He seems like high maintenance.....and an ex-model. Way too caught up in age and appearance. It's not the number its the person...and I don't care if he was 30 or 50....age is just a number. He was obsessed with being in his late 40's.
Surprisingly, the one person who is back is The Surgeon. I know I should have never even responded again...but I did after he contacted me a few times. He has apologized over and over calling himself an ass and totally stupid and selfish. I am very cautious....not sure what I want to do but we do have good conversations. Before I meet him, I need to know who he is. I feel too hesitant to take a chance...
So, will they bring me happiness? No. I know that. Happiness needs to come from within me. I need to solve all the chaos that surrounds me.......I'm on the path, I think its the right one...I just seem to be taking the scenic route here. The truth is, if I thought ending my secret life would help, I would do it in a second. But right now, it is still what keeps me sane.
So a few frogs thrown back in the pond for good...some more frogs appearing and then there are the lingerers. Had a dream about Mr. government last night. Where did that come from? Do I miss him....I really thought I was over him now. I guess not 100%.
The dream....we met again. Our eyes met and we fucked...and it was hot and intense. And I woke up when he was holding me in his arms saying something about passion. So I woke up startled. But the truth, Mystery Man is a much better lover. Mr. Government was my first...we shared a lot but he had a lot of hangups both emotionally and sexually.
Mystery Man...just emotionally.....sexually he is excellent. So is there a guy out there that can handle some emotional connection and is amazing in bed? Is there a guy who realizes that its not just all about them but there is another person involved in a secret lovers affair. Do men ever think about what the woman needs? Sigh...looks like its back to the frog pond in search....
I never thought it would take this long to find Mr. Married Prince Charming.....it's going to be two years!!! But I have to confess, I get frustrated but I have enjoyed every frog so far (and even a tadpole)!
Today was a bad day emotionally...I dont know why. It's not because of a frog...its the overwhelming feeling and even depression I was feeling today. Gotta say...it scared me just a little bit. I haven't felt like this in a really long time. I threw myself in bed and just cried........the loneliness just felt so deep....the sadness actually hurt. Why? I feel so trapped sometimes.....like the light has dimmed so I can't even see it.
So what do I do? I needed an escape. I needed to just get away from here for awhile. It's either stay in bed and cry or entertain myself with a little escape. Hmmm.....I went to Ashley Madison and I even returned to Philanderers for a little searching. And what did I find? MEN!! I just dropped some return messages and this afternoon and tonight has been a feast of yummy men! And ironically, two of them had the same name as Mystery Man...... ummmm...that can get very sticky....don't ya think?
Anyway, one I already knocked out...way too paranoid for me. Another, while we had a great conversation today on the phone BUT he seems very judgmental. Too judgmental. I want someone carefree. I want someone that I can just laugh and smile and not think about his demands. So far, he has met five girls and dissed each one (each for a different reason and it wasn't because they had paws or six heads). One he didn't like her smile, another ate funny, another was too quiet...etc.etc. He seems like high maintenance.....and an ex-model. Way too caught up in age and appearance. It's not the number its the person...and I don't care if he was 30 or 50....age is just a number. He was obsessed with being in his late 40's.
Surprisingly, the one person who is back is The Surgeon. I know I should have never even responded again...but I did after he contacted me a few times. He has apologized over and over calling himself an ass and totally stupid and selfish. I am very cautious....not sure what I want to do but we do have good conversations. Before I meet him, I need to know who he is. I feel too hesitant to take a chance...
So, will they bring me happiness? No. I know that. Happiness needs to come from within me. I need to solve all the chaos that surrounds me.......I'm on the path, I think its the right one...I just seem to be taking the scenic route here. The truth is, if I thought ending my secret life would help, I would do it in a second. But right now, it is still what keeps me sane.
So a few frogs thrown back in the pond for good...some more frogs appearing and then there are the lingerers. Had a dream about Mr. government last night. Where did that come from? Do I miss him....I really thought I was over him now. I guess not 100%.
The dream....we met again. Our eyes met and we fucked...and it was hot and intense. And I woke up when he was holding me in his arms saying something about passion. So I woke up startled. But the truth, Mystery Man is a much better lover. Mr. Government was my first...we shared a lot but he had a lot of hangups both emotionally and sexually.
Mystery Man...just emotionally.....sexually he is excellent. So is there a guy out there that can handle some emotional connection and is amazing in bed? Is there a guy who realizes that its not just all about them but there is another person involved in a secret lovers affair. Do men ever think about what the woman needs? Sigh...looks like its back to the frog pond in search....
I never thought it would take this long to find Mr. Married Prince Charming.....it's going to be two years!!! But I have to confess, I get frustrated but I have enjoyed every frog so far (and even a tadpole)!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Can you carry the ball while I close my eyes for a second?
It's been an extremely quiet week. Actually, I have been buried in my work and fighting off a cold. Haven't really heard from Mystery Man in a few days...turned down Navigator and Divorce Attorney for a meeting this week.
Truth is, I am wiped. My focus has been on working and not sexual. Can you believe it? I have been asexual this week....wow!! a first I think.
Just sooooo tired. Just sooooo drained. Just soooooo stressed. Anyone have a winning lottery ticket they can share with me?!? lol
My head has been filled with so many business ideas and ways that I am going to try to make it work......I feel like it is going to burst.
And the hubby?
"Hmmmm..... you are the one who is more marketable now!"
Oh yeah...that's the answer....be sure to place that on my grave after I work myself to death to take care of this family!
Sorry, no sex today. I just wish there was an adult in this house besides me. I just wish I had a partner in life who when I was feeling wiped out could run with the ball for a little. That's not happening here...sigh....
Truth is, I am wiped. My focus has been on working and not sexual. Can you believe it? I have been asexual this week....wow!! a first I think.
Just sooooo tired. Just sooooo drained. Just soooooo stressed. Anyone have a winning lottery ticket they can share with me?!? lol
My head has been filled with so many business ideas and ways that I am going to try to make it work......I feel like it is going to burst.
And the hubby?
"Hmmmm..... you are the one who is more marketable now!"
Oh yeah...that's the answer....be sure to place that on my grave after I work myself to death to take care of this family!
Sorry, no sex today. I just wish there was an adult in this house besides me. I just wish I had a partner in life who when I was feeling wiped out could run with the ball for a little. That's not happening here...sigh....
Sunday, June 17, 2007
the Surgeon Reappears
I went out last night to a party with my childhood friends. We definitely don't see each other enough. but when we do, it's always hysterical and I feel so great. I love them so much. And, we've all aged really well. Actually, we are all hot....and it feels great. Giggling like school girls, laughing about all our little secrets of the past and knowing the secrets of our present.....its a connection that will never die no matter how far away we are or how little we get together. There is just something that keeps us strongly connected in the soul.
Suprisingly, two of my girlfriends never had kids. One is still single and loving it. Actually her choice because she is so damn hot. And then there is my other girlfriend who surprisingly--is an extremely success businesswoman running this huge (and well known) company. she was the artsy one....
At the party, I went to say hello to this guy we used to hang out with. My friend's husband said "hey you remember...Joe....you guys sucked face a while back". We all started to laugh. Half jokingly he said "oh I think about that a lot". I giggled. We started talking, he asked me if I was happy and I said Hey you know...and he said yeah, I do. I gave him my card....he's actually a hugely successful surgeon....how funny. I kissed him good by and he blushed. It was cute.
Scary part, I don't remember ever kissing him. I don't remember making out with him at all. Hmmmm....I thought it was my girlfriend who did but sometimes the college days is a little bit of a blur. Honestly, he would remember better than me. So I guess that I did. He's a really nice guy. I know he's separated from his wife.
Oh, the surgeon sent me a note....I'm sorry about the other day. The timing is just not right.
What the fuck? He pursued me!! He kept pushing for us to meet. I sent him a note back (and Mr. Podcaster yells at me all the time--he says let them go, you don't need closure. He worries one will retaliate or something). Anyway, I sent him a nice note back...wishing him well, telling him it was just coffee and saying maybe we will meet again in the ER if my stomach explodes...LOL
Okay, I am off to do some work.....and to try and take care of this massive hangover that I have.
Happy Father's Day to you all!! I wish I had someone to wrap a blow job up as a present! I guess a designed coupon sent thru the internet would be the next best thing
Suprisingly, two of my girlfriends never had kids. One is still single and loving it. Actually her choice because she is so damn hot. And then there is my other girlfriend who surprisingly--is an extremely success businesswoman running this huge (and well known) company. she was the artsy one....
At the party, I went to say hello to this guy we used to hang out with. My friend's husband said "hey you remember...Joe....you guys sucked face a while back". We all started to laugh. Half jokingly he said "oh I think about that a lot". I giggled. We started talking, he asked me if I was happy and I said Hey you know...and he said yeah, I do. I gave him my card....he's actually a hugely successful surgeon....how funny. I kissed him good by and he blushed. It was cute.
Scary part, I don't remember ever kissing him. I don't remember making out with him at all. Hmmmm....I thought it was my girlfriend who did but sometimes the college days is a little bit of a blur. Honestly, he would remember better than me. So I guess that I did. He's a really nice guy. I know he's separated from his wife.
Oh, the surgeon sent me a note....I'm sorry about the other day. The timing is just not right.
What the fuck? He pursued me!! He kept pushing for us to meet. I sent him a note back (and Mr. Podcaster yells at me all the time--he says let them go, you don't need closure. He worries one will retaliate or something). Anyway, I sent him a nice note back...wishing him well, telling him it was just coffee and saying maybe we will meet again in the ER if my stomach explodes...LOL
Okay, I am off to do some work.....and to try and take care of this massive hangover that I have.
Happy Father's Day to you all!! I wish I had someone to wrap a blow job up as a present! I guess a designed coupon sent thru the internet would be the next best thing
Now this is a father's day present for a man. Better than any gadget you can get!!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Flag Day Rendezvous
Had a trip to Paradise...met Mystery Man at the Motel. I don't even know where to begin but I can tell you that I am totally content.
Today I was his little dirt devil slut for most of the day. Did you know it was Flag Day today? I drew blue and red stars on my chest and his name...I brought a flag bandana to blindfold and tie him up....and I dressed in red and blue (his cum was the white!) He thinks I am off the wall....but I think he gets a kick out of me. That little glimmer in his eye and the smirk tells me that he loves it. I made up new words to the Pledge of Allegiance...it was The Pledge to the Cock.....I won't bore you with the specifics but he was rolling as I sang it and sucked his cock in between each line!!
Yes, I was his little slut today....somehow I ended up with my hands tied behind my back with the bandana...somehow I had the blindfold on for awhile...he was definitely in a controlling mood. He ran the show today...i was the submissive one.
I can't even begin to count how many different positions.....and my legs actually were shaking when I came and he ate me out. I think I spent two hours sucking his cock. My lips are aching tonight but its a great ache......I have never sucked a cock for so long...this was certainly a record.
He was into the dirty little slut thing today....yeah, I was a bad girl and needed a spanking...there is a dirty, dark side to him....a side he hasn't explored but is coming out a little. Now mind you, he is always a gentleman....but today he surprised me and put his hands around my neck...he didn't choke me, it was only for a second....but I asked him...why did you do that? I wanted to was his answer. Not a bad way...I guess it was part of the play...but I didn't expect it.
We tried the wheelbarrow...we gotta work on that...we did some other yoga positions....it was fun. My downfall...is that I don't shut up during sex....I love to talk....he joked and put the bandana in my mouth but he changed his mind when he realized that I couldn't kiss or suck with the bandana in my mouth....LOL
My favorite part......when he lied on his back and I lied in his arms and on my chest....and I circled his face with my fingers....and we just laid there for about 20 minutes....gently kissing, holding each other and talkng with our eyes. It was hot and intense...I love that he's not afraid of the intimacy....he's not afraid of a connection.....you can feel the energy between us...guess its kind of tantric in a way...whatever it is, it is balancing, relaxing and peaceful. Good for the souls.
I hate leaving.....but all good things must come to an end....3 hours goes so damn fast. We showered together, fooled around a little in the shower....and then we kissed good by.
Ashley came up.....I think we both aren't thrilled when the other checks. I didn't push it but I joked about a new technique and he said....did you try it out on another Ashley guy? My answer.....No, I have this great lover that makes me feel amazing...I only need him....
Sigh....I feel so balanced and at peace right now. If life could just stay this way......
Today I was his little dirt devil slut for most of the day. Did you know it was Flag Day today? I drew blue and red stars on my chest and his name...I brought a flag bandana to blindfold and tie him up....and I dressed in red and blue (his cum was the white!) He thinks I am off the wall....but I think he gets a kick out of me. That little glimmer in his eye and the smirk tells me that he loves it. I made up new words to the Pledge of Allegiance...it was The Pledge to the Cock.....I won't bore you with the specifics but he was rolling as I sang it and sucked his cock in between each line!!
Yes, I was his little slut today....somehow I ended up with my hands tied behind my back with the bandana...somehow I had the blindfold on for awhile...he was definitely in a controlling mood. He ran the show today...i was the submissive one.
I can't even begin to count how many different positions.....and my legs actually were shaking when I came and he ate me out. I think I spent two hours sucking his cock. My lips are aching tonight but its a great ache......I have never sucked a cock for so long...this was certainly a record.
He was into the dirty little slut thing today....yeah, I was a bad girl and needed a spanking...there is a dirty, dark side to him....a side he hasn't explored but is coming out a little. Now mind you, he is always a gentleman....but today he surprised me and put his hands around my neck...he didn't choke me, it was only for a second....but I asked him...why did you do that? I wanted to was his answer. Not a bad way...I guess it was part of the play...but I didn't expect it.
We tried the wheelbarrow...we gotta work on that...we did some other yoga positions....it was fun. My downfall...is that I don't shut up during sex....I love to talk....he joked and put the bandana in my mouth but he changed his mind when he realized that I couldn't kiss or suck with the bandana in my mouth....LOL
My favorite part......when he lied on his back and I lied in his arms and on my chest....and I circled his face with my fingers....and we just laid there for about 20 minutes....gently kissing, holding each other and talkng with our eyes. It was hot and intense...I love that he's not afraid of the intimacy....he's not afraid of a connection.....you can feel the energy between us...guess its kind of tantric in a way...whatever it is, it is balancing, relaxing and peaceful. Good for the souls.
I hate leaving.....but all good things must come to an end....3 hours goes so damn fast. We showered together, fooled around a little in the shower....and then we kissed good by.
Ashley came up.....I think we both aren't thrilled when the other checks. I didn't push it but I joked about a new technique and he said....did you try it out on another Ashley guy? My answer.....No, I have this great lover that makes me feel amazing...I only need him....
Sigh....I feel so balanced and at peace right now. If life could just stay this way......
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Eye Candy
Just a quick note......
I am a very lucky girl and I don't even know it sometimes. My site gets from 350-600 hits a day on average. And, I don't know who you all are. But in the past few months, whenever someone has sent me a pix of themselves........I blush.
These hot men, these caring and sweet eye candies are lurking on my site and know all about me....I open up the pix and my first reaction is WOW.....my second reaction is YUM!!
So thanks for coming to my blog.....and making me smile...
XOXO
PS Tadpole ya better call!! lol
I am a very lucky girl and I don't even know it sometimes. My site gets from 350-600 hits a day on average. And, I don't know who you all are. But in the past few months, whenever someone has sent me a pix of themselves........I blush.
These hot men, these caring and sweet eye candies are lurking on my site and know all about me....I open up the pix and my first reaction is WOW.....my second reaction is YUM!!
So thanks for coming to my blog.....and making me smile...
XOXO
PS Tadpole ya better call!! lol
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Two Separate Lives
I really don't get it. It's a vicious cycle yet to me it seems so simple. You go on Ashley Madison looking to fulfill a need. Fulfill that whole in your heart that exists...seems like a totally simple concept....I mean here is a place where married can meet married.....you both need a little more....it's a perfect connection.
And how many women can you fit into a week? I don't have the time to fit so many in and I would think most men don't either.
My point....you are looking for one person...you find that one person....so you keep looking? Why not be happy with what you got, play it out till it is over and then start looking again. Doesn't that approach make sense?
Is this the male and female thing again?
Mystery Man is back online. Actually I woke up to him being online. I didn't send him an Instant Message....I just ignored that we were both on Ashley at the same time. I haven't heard from him since Friday...now usually that is not a big deal...but I got that feeling.
So the way that I look at it...checking his Ashley was more important than answering me. A PITA approach? Yeah, we all know I am a Pain In The Ass....but after no response from him and getting stood up (geez....I still don't know what that was about) I went into a very big cry yesterday.
I spent two hours just crying and crying my eyes out. Not because of these guys....please. Because of my life....because of how stressed and unhappy I am. It was the overall picture on how I can't seem to get it together. And if you knew me, that is so damn strange for me. People see me as a confident, strong, independent, successful woman....if only they knew.
Feeling like dog shit, I had a big meeting last night for a special group I work with. I was being given an honor at it.....It was as if someone from up above wanted to show me last night what is really important in my life. First, the honor. Then I had raised a lot of money for a specific area and there was a big sign dedicating the area to me and finally....I found out that I had fought for something in our legislature and I made a difference. I got things changed (with others of course). Such a triumph. I always wanted to make a big difference in the world and I did....
So how can I have such different parts to my life? I drove home last night just feeling like I am two people. And, I want to be the other one. I want my personal life to be as successful as my public life. Does that make any sense at all?
Okay, gotta go work now. Just wanted to give an update. Mystery Man emailed me while I was writing this. I feel he is losing interest. Don't get me wrong, the email was very sweet but something is missing, I can feel it. We may meet on Thursday...he says if his business trip doesn't go over. I can't help but think its more if he finds a better offer on Ashley. Oh well....I'm not going to answer till tonight. It's time to put a little wonder and distance between us.
you know the goose and gander thing.....!! Have a great day!! Mwah!!
And how many women can you fit into a week? I don't have the time to fit so many in and I would think most men don't either.
My point....you are looking for one person...you find that one person....so you keep looking? Why not be happy with what you got, play it out till it is over and then start looking again. Doesn't that approach make sense?
Is this the male and female thing again?
Mystery Man is back online. Actually I woke up to him being online. I didn't send him an Instant Message....I just ignored that we were both on Ashley at the same time. I haven't heard from him since Friday...now usually that is not a big deal...but I got that feeling.
So the way that I look at it...checking his Ashley was more important than answering me. A PITA approach? Yeah, we all know I am a Pain In The Ass....but after no response from him and getting stood up (geez....I still don't know what that was about) I went into a very big cry yesterday.
I spent two hours just crying and crying my eyes out. Not because of these guys....please. Because of my life....because of how stressed and unhappy I am. It was the overall picture on how I can't seem to get it together. And if you knew me, that is so damn strange for me. People see me as a confident, strong, independent, successful woman....if only they knew.
Feeling like dog shit, I had a big meeting last night for a special group I work with. I was being given an honor at it.....It was as if someone from up above wanted to show me last night what is really important in my life. First, the honor. Then I had raised a lot of money for a specific area and there was a big sign dedicating the area to me and finally....I found out that I had fought for something in our legislature and I made a difference. I got things changed (with others of course). Such a triumph. I always wanted to make a big difference in the world and I did....
So how can I have such different parts to my life? I drove home last night just feeling like I am two people. And, I want to be the other one. I want my personal life to be as successful as my public life. Does that make any sense at all?
Okay, gotta go work now. Just wanted to give an update. Mystery Man emailed me while I was writing this. I feel he is losing interest. Don't get me wrong, the email was very sweet but something is missing, I can feel it. We may meet on Thursday...he says if his business trip doesn't go over. I can't help but think its more if he finds a better offer on Ashley. Oh well....I'm not going to answer till tonight. It's time to put a little wonder and distance between us.
you know the goose and gander thing.....!! Have a great day!! Mwah!!
Monday, June 11, 2007
A Quiz and I was Dissed Today
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A New Frog--The Surgeon
While things have been great with Mystery Man, our interaction both physically and by email has lessened. When we are together and we do talk....it is super sexual and I have to say, he is amazing in bed. To protect myself, I had gone onto Ashley Madison a week ago (as I told you). I was on for just 1 hour and four emails came in. One from a Surgeon. Now we all know that I try to stay away from the medical field but they seem to find me.
My first reaction was he is a fake like the other one who pretending to be a doctor. So I sent him a note....aren't you the guy who was pretending to be a doctor thinking all the women will swoon? For some reason, I seem to have success with the obnoxious approach lately...it's not my attempt actually, I can't stand cocky, lying men and I do believe someone should call them on their arrogance. So I elect myself when I come across them.
He writes back...and he seems real. We've been corresponding back and forth now for the week. He is either a good liar or he is legitimate. However, I do have my doubts. I can't find him on Google search. Now a surgeoon and doctor should be very easy...and for me even easier because I have access to lists that the general public does not. But based upon the name he gave me....I can't find him. So he's either lying about his real name, lying about being a doctor OR he is really a Physician Assistant and I didn't research that far. Does it matter? No. What matters is my safety and the fact that he would continue to lie. Sounds funny from a cheater but there is "honesty amongst thieves" and its one thing if he is unhappy in his marriage and another if he is a playa.
I called him on it...he wasn't too happy that I researched him. And he disappeared off of IM in the middle of our discussion. Oh well, I thought. He did return, his wife showed up at a bad time....and we decided to meet today.
He is very vanilla. Mystery Man is a swirl as is most of my frogs and then there is Divorce Attorney (still pursuing me heavily) who is total chocolate....a true deviant side there. With This new doctor, I would be like a teacher...he has done little experimenting...actually none. So it might be fun.
I will let you know after we meet today for coffee. Our IM conversation got sexual, discussing our desires, our wants and well.....it was only the second time he claims to have had a conversation like that. We will see....he could be fun....some whipped cream, syrups, blindfolds, vibrators.....all are new to him. It might be fun to take him for a ride and be his teacher.
But timing is bad. I have never had sex with two frogs at a time. Always spaced them. Can I have a double affair? Oh boy, I don't know if I could do that. Sexually, I could....oh man, the sex would be amazing. Psychologically...I don't know. I am already feeling like I need to make a move towards a divorce.
And, I am beginning to think the hubby is having an affair. I will go into details another post. But I see signs....coming home late, he had a cold three weeks ago and he slept in another room for the first time in our marriage...he hasn't returned and I don't ask. He still tries to touch me but my body cringes. It's getting closer, the five year plan seems to have taken up speed. It's finances now...I need to get the finances in order.
Gotta tell ya, the thought of freedom is soooo exciting these days. Scary but exciting. It would be tough for me....but I am getting stronger and I think I do want it. As a friend said....you are still gorgeous, you are so sexy...will you be that way in 10 years? Hit me like a ton of bricks. Food for thought...
Happy Monday...sorry I babbled....needed to get this off my chest...and 36D is enough to carry around!!
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Sexual Thoughts Sizzling At The Barbeque
Sometimes I like to just send little notes to Mystery Man.....a little story about us. I guess its my way of sharing what goes on in my head...I guess it my way of wanting to make him think of me and get his cock a little hard.....I love when a guy gets hard thinking of me...I love when a man cums thinking of me...mmmmmmmmm......
So this was the note I just sent. A little story about me and Mystery Man....
Cheri sat on her deck drinking a glass of wine, listening to some music and hanging with her friends as the barbeque was sizzling. Regular chit chat with the girls when her mind seemed to flashback to the Thursday before. It was right when Mystery Man entered her from behind……the perfect angle—his hard cock just spread her walls….it felt so damn good…perfect angle, perfect thrusts. It was what she needed….the feeling of content, the feeling of desire….it felt so right with him thrusting inside of her. She just wanted more and more….make the feeling rise to an even higher euphoria. As he thrusted inside of her, she could feel his cock release….although he’s quiet when he comes, she is starting to know when he does.
Cheri shakes her head….returning to the conversation with her friends. She didn’t miss much….just some neighborhood gossip she already knew. Pouring another glass of wine, she stares off into the setting sun…her mind now wanders to sucking his cock. How much she loves to suck his cock….loves to make him moan with each slurp…how she is starting to know exactly how he likes his cock positioned, her lips wrapped around him….mmmmmm…..but this time, she remembers sucking on him and looking up to see his face with his cock deep in her mouth. He had a smile and those seductive eyes….she giggled inside…
A couple of glasses later and as the dessert came out and the whipped cream sound sparked another flashback….she remembered how funny things always seem to happen. The car not starting, the security tag, the clown music, him reminder her to suck his dick….Cheri just smiled. She is so enjoying her escapes to paradise. She so enjoys the flashbacks she has. They seem to fill in some of the rough parts of the day…a mini mind escape….exactly what she needs to keep her sanity.
So what will the next time bring? Guaranteed some orgasms, passion and some laughs. Will it be slow, hot and passionate? Will it be hot, experimental and lustful? Only time will tell…..when Mystery Man and her get to paradise. But the one thing she does know, it will be hot, it will be fulfilling and she was already anticipating their next meeting. Cheri’s mouth waters as she thinks of his cock……the head, the shaft…mmmmmm…..how she just has to have it inside of her. And his lips…sigh….how she missed those lips and that tongue…..Next time he will have to work overtime with that tongue….in her mouth, on her clit…..she can feel herself getting wet. The flashbacks are put on hold….she needs to return to reality……get back to the gossip…see ya in paradise Mystery Man!!
So this was the note I just sent. A little story about me and Mystery Man....
Cheri sat on her deck drinking a glass of wine, listening to some music and hanging with her friends as the barbeque was sizzling. Regular chit chat with the girls when her mind seemed to flashback to the Thursday before. It was right when Mystery Man entered her from behind……the perfect angle—his hard cock just spread her walls….it felt so damn good…perfect angle, perfect thrusts. It was what she needed….the feeling of content, the feeling of desire….it felt so right with him thrusting inside of her. She just wanted more and more….make the feeling rise to an even higher euphoria. As he thrusted inside of her, she could feel his cock release….although he’s quiet when he comes, she is starting to know when he does.
Cheri shakes her head….returning to the conversation with her friends. She didn’t miss much….just some neighborhood gossip she already knew. Pouring another glass of wine, she stares off into the setting sun…her mind now wanders to sucking his cock. How much she loves to suck his cock….loves to make him moan with each slurp…how she is starting to know exactly how he likes his cock positioned, her lips wrapped around him….mmmmmm…..but this time, she remembers sucking on him and looking up to see his face with his cock deep in her mouth. He had a smile and those seductive eyes….she giggled inside…
A couple of glasses later and as the dessert came out and the whipped cream sound sparked another flashback….she remembered how funny things always seem to happen. The car not starting, the security tag, the clown music, him reminder her to suck his dick….Cheri just smiled. She is so enjoying her escapes to paradise. She so enjoys the flashbacks she has. They seem to fill in some of the rough parts of the day…a mini mind escape….exactly what she needs to keep her sanity.
So what will the next time bring? Guaranteed some orgasms, passion and some laughs. Will it be slow, hot and passionate? Will it be hot, experimental and lustful? Only time will tell…..when Mystery Man and her get to paradise. But the one thing she does know, it will be hot, it will be fulfilling and she was already anticipating their next meeting. Cheri’s mouth waters as she thinks of his cock……the head, the shaft…mmmmmm…..how she just has to have it inside of her. And his lips…sigh….how she missed those lips and that tongue…..Next time he will have to work overtime with that tongue….in her mouth, on her clit…..she can feel herself getting wet. The flashbacks are put on hold….she needs to return to reality……get back to the gossip…see ya in paradise Mystery Man!!
Friday, June 08, 2007
Secret Rendezvous and Sex in the Car
I was wrong! Mystery Man was truly sick...I haven't seen him in almost two weeks so I was beginning to make up this whole scenerio in my head. He had checked Ashley, met someone and now I am on the every other week plan. Well, this Drama Queen may have been wrong. I saw him yesterday....and he was truly sick (or the tale end of a cold).
He looked all scruffy....he looked so hot. he called me yesterday and said he was going to be in the area..that he would say hi. That he still was sick and didn't want to get me sick. Sweet...I told him I had to taste him!! Your dirty little slut needs a taste of you badly. Well, for three hours, the juices were flowing from me. I needed his cock so badly. when I think of him, my mouth starts to water. I just was horny and needed to fuck so badly. Where is this coming from? I felt like a dog in heat....I needed him deep inside of me...
We met in this out of the way field. We got into my back seat and we started to hug. It was so damn hard not to kiss.....it was driving us crazy....I wanted those lips so badly......but I sucked on the rest of him and licked him too.... his neck,. his ear, his chin...his nipples, his stomach and of course his cock!! Oh it tasted so damn good.....mmmmmmm.......I savagely went down on him..I could hear him moaning....I watched him as he watched me suck him so hard. It was another connection...it was hot.
I need you inside of me......he threw on the condom and fucked me from behind.....when he entered me it was like heaven...it didn't last long, he came quickly. Its been awhile for us...but it was worth it. Oh so worth it.....feeling his cock pound me....I couldn't get enough.....
We lied down and entwined in the back...we talked....and we cuddled....he rubbed my face, my back it was sooo nice. But it was starting to get a little hot...so I went to turn the air on and click, click, click.... oh no!
Okay, I tried again....click, click, click....hmmm....Mystery Man now became my knight in shining armor....he got me jumper cables and tried to jump the car. It didn't turn over....oh man. I don't have AAA, hubby does....and honestly, I couldn't begin to think of a reason I was where I was. Okay, no panic..I started to giggle. I was actually amused that he was taking care of me. Reality, no man has taken care of me. I usually have to handle the tough situations so this was a treat....but I was getting a little nervous. I called a friend, she lost her jumper cables and AAA in a divorce (we were laughing).....but she was going to come sit with me if I couldnt get it started. Called Mandy.....Mandy to the rescue!! She had AAA....she was going to come down. While I was calling,, Mystery Man had gone over to another car and gotten jumper cables just in case his was bad (I was sooo impressed with his take charge attitude)....
Click, click.....we sat and just talked a few more minutes. Now he could have just left me there. I was local but he didn't so I was very happy. I said to him " I feel like we are sometimes in an I Love Lucy Episode...he was laughing.
The strangest things happen to you and excitement follows you (and he doesn't even know me) now that is scary!!...Can I try it again? Yeah but don't flood it...(aaah)
So this time I prayed......and.....viola!! It turned over!! We closed the cars and then he came over to my window....he looked at me and smiled....I love the way you handle things he started to laugh. Really? I said smilimg. Yeah, you were so damn calm and even laughing....someone else would have flipped.
I started to laugh....if he only knew the half. I emailed him today (he hasn't been talking to me which sucks) and thanked him and I apologized.... he said stop it! I had fun....
will I see you next week so i can make it up to you? Not sure, busy week but we will try. Wish I could be in his head....am I on the every other week plan?, is he really busy?, is he losing interest? Hmmm....only time will tell. But I can tell you, when we are together.....he is there...110%.....and he makes me feel amazing as I do to him!!
So today I am thinking....I have problems with batteries.....first my vibrator explodes, now the car......sex and batteries are not my thing....
He looked all scruffy....he looked so hot. he called me yesterday and said he was going to be in the area..that he would say hi. That he still was sick and didn't want to get me sick. Sweet...I told him I had to taste him!! Your dirty little slut needs a taste of you badly. Well, for three hours, the juices were flowing from me. I needed his cock so badly. when I think of him, my mouth starts to water. I just was horny and needed to fuck so badly. Where is this coming from? I felt like a dog in heat....I needed him deep inside of me...
We met in this out of the way field. We got into my back seat and we started to hug. It was so damn hard not to kiss.....it was driving us crazy....I wanted those lips so badly......but I sucked on the rest of him and licked him too.... his neck,. his ear, his chin...his nipples, his stomach and of course his cock!! Oh it tasted so damn good.....mmmmmmm.......I savagely went down on him..I could hear him moaning....I watched him as he watched me suck him so hard. It was another connection...it was hot.
I need you inside of me......he threw on the condom and fucked me from behind.....when he entered me it was like heaven...it didn't last long, he came quickly. Its been awhile for us...but it was worth it. Oh so worth it.....feeling his cock pound me....I couldn't get enough.....
We lied down and entwined in the back...we talked....and we cuddled....he rubbed my face, my back it was sooo nice. But it was starting to get a little hot...so I went to turn the air on and click, click, click.... oh no!
Okay, I tried again....click, click, click....hmmm....Mystery Man now became my knight in shining armor....he got me jumper cables and tried to jump the car. It didn't turn over....oh man. I don't have AAA, hubby does....and honestly, I couldn't begin to think of a reason I was where I was. Okay, no panic..I started to giggle. I was actually amused that he was taking care of me. Reality, no man has taken care of me. I usually have to handle the tough situations so this was a treat....but I was getting a little nervous. I called a friend, she lost her jumper cables and AAA in a divorce (we were laughing).....but she was going to come sit with me if I couldnt get it started. Called Mandy.....Mandy to the rescue!! She had AAA....she was going to come down. While I was calling,, Mystery Man had gone over to another car and gotten jumper cables just in case his was bad (I was sooo impressed with his take charge attitude)....
Click, click.....we sat and just talked a few more minutes. Now he could have just left me there. I was local but he didn't so I was very happy. I said to him " I feel like we are sometimes in an I Love Lucy Episode...he was laughing.
The strangest things happen to you and excitement follows you (and he doesn't even know me) now that is scary!!...Can I try it again? Yeah but don't flood it...(aaah)
So this time I prayed......and.....viola!! It turned over!! We closed the cars and then he came over to my window....he looked at me and smiled....I love the way you handle things he started to laugh. Really? I said smilimg. Yeah, you were so damn calm and even laughing....someone else would have flipped.
I started to laugh....if he only knew the half. I emailed him today (he hasn't been talking to me which sucks) and thanked him and I apologized.... he said stop it! I had fun....
will I see you next week so i can make it up to you? Not sure, busy week but we will try. Wish I could be in his head....am I on the every other week plan?, is he really busy?, is he losing interest? Hmmm....only time will tell. But I can tell you, when we are together.....he is there...110%.....and he makes me feel amazing as I do to him!!
So today I am thinking....I have problems with batteries.....first my vibrator explodes, now the car......sex and batteries are not my thing....
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
confusion on which way to go
Mystery Man has been sick...and with his sickness.....we are starting to fizzle.
The emails are less, the calls are not there....he's in a bad mood and the sexuality has dropped drastically. It seems that real life has come back for both of us and that hotness has dwindled. He's back browsing Ashley as well. A casual browse but a browse none the less.
So what is happening? the honeymoon period is over...our connection is moving on. This isn't bad but we can't keep our heads in the clouds. We need to be in our real lives. We will either grow or die at this point. Right now, I am concentrating on my life as well.
I put my profile back up on Ashley. Since he's browsing, I am torn. I really do not want to meet anyone else right now (my frogs keep my very content and so does he) BUT I feel like my profile needs to be up so he doesn't think that I am not looking. I hate games and I feel like someone threw a bucket of water on us.
What's the right move? Keep my profile off? Will it hurt, help or not make a difference that I put it back up if he notices? I soooo don't understand men. Why are we sooo different?
It's simple....I like him, great sex, I don't want nor do I have time for others.....I was content. I guess guys are not that simple.
The emails are less, the calls are not there....he's in a bad mood and the sexuality has dropped drastically. It seems that real life has come back for both of us and that hotness has dwindled. He's back browsing Ashley as well. A casual browse but a browse none the less.
So what is happening? the honeymoon period is over...our connection is moving on. This isn't bad but we can't keep our heads in the clouds. We need to be in our real lives. We will either grow or die at this point. Right now, I am concentrating on my life as well.
I put my profile back up on Ashley. Since he's browsing, I am torn. I really do not want to meet anyone else right now (my frogs keep my very content and so does he) BUT I feel like my profile needs to be up so he doesn't think that I am not looking. I hate games and I feel like someone threw a bucket of water on us.
What's the right move? Keep my profile off? Will it hurt, help or not make a difference that I put it back up if he notices? I soooo don't understand men. Why are we sooo different?
It's simple....I like him, great sex, I don't want nor do I have time for others.....I was content. I guess guys are not that simple.
Monday, June 04, 2007
3 Minute Management Course
It's not sexual this morning....but it is funny (and so damn true). Work hard today! (In every way possible).
3 Minute Management Course
Lesson One
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing?"
The eagle answered: "Sure, why not." So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested.
All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.
Management Lesson
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.
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Lesson Two
A turkey was chatting with a bull. "I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the energy."
"Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull. "They're packed with nutrients."
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day , after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.
Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.
Management Lesson
Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.
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Lesson Three
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold; the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.
Managem ent Lesson -
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!
This ends your three-minute management course.
3 Minute Management Course
Lesson One
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing?"
The eagle answered: "Sure, why not." So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested.
All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.
Management Lesson
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.
____________________________________
Lesson Two
A turkey was chatting with a bull. "I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, "but I haven't got the energy."
"Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull. "They're packed with nutrients."
The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day , after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.
Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.
Management Lesson
Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.
_____________________________________
Lesson Three
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold; the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.
Managem ent Lesson -
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!
This ends your three-minute management course.
Friday, June 01, 2007
An hour before he was going to return on his flight, I emailed this fantasy. So, do you think he liked his trip?
You arrive on the plane....you sit down and I am no where around. The plane takes off..."did she miss the flight?" you are thinking. "Did the Dirt Devil stay in ________?" Suddenly the stewardess appears and hands you a drink "this is from the woman in the back of the plane"...oh you know....on the peanuts is a note...."meet me in the bathroom on the left" knock three times......you come to the back of the plane....and knock three times on the door....the door opens slowly and a hand reaches out and pulls you in....
in just a garter belt, stockings and bra....""I've been a really bad girl.....I need a spanking and your little dirty slut is very horny...please take care of me..." Standing on the toilet.....you proceed to stand up there with me....slowly you lean me over leaning on the sink and you spank me for being a bad, bad girl.....mmmmmm....."now I am going to take care of my little dirty slut....." your pants are bulging and you take my friend out....I can feel him behind me.....I can feel you stick your hard cock deep inside of me.....thrusting me hard...""oh fuck me harder...make me cum so hard. Please don't stop......" You start thrusting harder and harder as the juices are flowing.....with one finger..you start playing with my butt....... "first in my pussy and then you move your cock to my ass" mmmmmm.....its more than I can take...I can feel my body crumbling...you hold me up so that I don't fall....you can see that I am reaching that point of no return.....so you fuck me harder.... fnally we both cum at the same time....I turned around and you had that sweet smile on your face with those deep eyes...mmmmm.....even in a small space like this...sex was hot!....you kiss my nose, you kiss my lips and brush my cheek softly and then walk out and back to your seat....
I return to the seat next to you ...smile and say hello....the rest of the trip is spent with small talk as if we just met....we got off the plane and went our separate ways.....until our next rendezvous.....and where will that be?!?1
XOXOX--
So did you enjoy my tale for the day? Hopefully I entertained you for a few minutes (and my friend)!
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