Is Anyone Truly Happy?

I wonder, is anyone truly happy? Is it just me? Trust me, the divorce was the right move and everyday I know I made the right decision. Actually there hasn't been one day where I thought it was the wrong decision. My life is more on track. I am more in control and I no longer anticipate a financial disaster luring around the corner. But there is this emptiness inside of me. It's still there. It's not like it was but I am still empty. Will I ever truly be happy or do we all walk around with a little emptiness? Are there people who are fulfilled or are we all striving for something that truly does not exist?

The man I have been with for eight months now....yes, Cheri has been faithful to him for eight months. Mr. Porsche knows I have found someone. I still talk to him weekly but I haven't seen him. He's still a huge support for me. I still love him but at this time, I am fulfilled sexually by my new man.

The sex?! Mind blowing sex ladies and gentleman. Everyone deserves to have this type of sex in their lives. And...it is still as hot as it was since day one! During a weekend, we will have sex seven to ten times. And if we don't....he will go down on me some of the time until I can't take the orgasms anymore. Yes, sex in the kitchen, sex on the washing machine...sex on the couch, in the bed, in the tub. Oh, it's really great sex...lol

I do love him. BUT it's not perfect. He's like Jekyll and Hyde sometimes and that is difficult. He has issues he has to work out. Sometimes I can't take them. Sometimes I want to leave but when we are relaxing and enjoying each other...I know this is where I want to be. But, there are problems. He is very critical which is not good for my self esteem. He is also a little OCD and ADHD....a pessimistic person too. Funny, he's a lot like Mystery Man...hehehhehe isn't that ironic.

So back to the question. When you close your eyes and think of your life....are you happy? Do you say I have a great life? Or are you longing for something else or someone else? Is there a little emptiness that is not filled? I am wondering if I am looking for something that just doesn't exist. Oh, there is a part of me that will always have a sad part....because its related to my children and that I cannot fix but I have accepted that will always be there. But my question is, do I still keep looking for contentment and happiness that fills me totally or is this the best it will be?