Well, I have been wanting to do a new episode of my podcast but unfortunately, the hubby is always around. I am suffocating. Tonight's post is just a few jokes sent to me by a friend. I figured I would share!

Funny thing happened today --- I wa on the phone with Mr. Navigator. Things are really going well with him, I am so happy. So the end of the conversation, we were talking about masturbating. We hung up and I got a text message from Chris about podcasting. I sent him back an email saying "U sound like you are set! You don't need me!".

Except---the text message mistakenly went to Mr. Navigator--let's see, we are talking about masturbating and then he gets --- "U sound like you are set! You don't need me!" How funny is that. I'm so glad he text messaged me back and said, Cheri did I say something wrong? Oh man! See how text message can be evil too!! I really hate IM and text message. Seriously, it's good at the beginning but then I think it hurts relationships.

Okay, hubby is getting a little suspicious today since my cell phone keeps ringing off the hook. So, this post is short and sweet. Enjoy these two jokes!

We all get heavier as we get older because there's a lot more information in our heads. So I'm not fat, I'm just really intelligent and my head couldn't hold any more so it started filling up the rest of me! That's my story and I'm sticking to it!

GEOGRAPHY OF A WOMAN

Between 18 and 22, a woman is like Africa,
half discovered, half wild, naturally beautiful with fertile soil.

Between 23 and 30, a woman is like America,
well developed and open to trade, especially for someone with cash.

Between 31 and 35, a woman is like India,
very hot, relaxed and convinced of her own beauty.

Between 36 and 40, a woman is like France,
gently aging but still warm and a desirable place to visit.

Between 41 and 50, a woman is like Great Britain,
with a glorious and all conquering past.

Between 51 and 60, a woman is like Yugoslavia,
lost the war and haunted by past mistakes

Between 61 and 70, a woman is like Russia,
very wide and borders are now unpatroled.

After 70, she becomes Tibet.
Wildly beautiful, with a mysterious past and the wisdom of the ages...only those with an adventurous spirit and a thirst for spiritual knowledge visit there:!

GEOGRAPHY OF A MAN
Between 1 and 70, a man is like Iran
- Ruled by a dick.

My Secret Lover Makes The Day So Fine

So, what is it with me and men who like to control me? You know I find them wherever I turn. Is it me or is it a man's nature to just want to control a woman? I am talking about in business and life. I am surrounded by men who want to control me. And, as you all know, I am a rebel. I do not like someone taking advantage of me and trying to manipulate me. I'm talking about mostly in business. My old partner has me by the balls on a few business things and I was flipping today. But thanks to Zorro's advice and his suggestion for me to go to the gym--I arouse with a whole new attitude. More level headed, more directed and more focused. The approach I am going to take "Smile, don't let him know you know and then when you are prepared....go for the balls!" Yes, I have a place over my mantle just waiting for his balls!! hee.hee. Okay, Zorro's recommended that I just focus on the preparing but I can't wiat for his downfall!

What's even funnier is that most of my fantasies involve a man taking control of me. I'm in a submissive role while he is in charge. The Japanese Love Ropes, the handcuffs, the blindfold.....I love the man to be in control in the bed. Could it be that is because I am in such control in my business and need to be responsible in every day life? I think it is. I want a man to just devour me, to take control, to be in charge so this fantasy of wanting to be tied up is just so hot. Doing as he wants with me, now that is yummy! However, not like the pix I found on the internet....now those were scary. I want it to be more explorative, more romantic not the heavy bondage stuff.

Okay, I am like a little girl with her first crush. I am so enjoying Mr. Navigator.....I hope it's as good when we finally meet. Yes, I am working my ass off in the gym too. The holidays did a number on those love handles....extra loving is there....and I have 10 days to get those suckers in shape or at least shapelier (if that is a word).

Man this guy has my head spinning! So I'm either in for the ride of my life or somebody be prepared to pick up the millions of pieces!! He emailed me today a couple of times, he called . I was nervous about his voice. Shrinky Dink ended up having this high pitched voice that was disturbing. He honestly had a feminine voice and I found it such a turn off. Oh please, let his voice be deep. Aaah! It is sexy and deep. Our first conversation was while he was away. It's so nice, we aren't at a loss of words. We just keep chatting and its amazing! Then he said "God Cheri, I'm getting hard now from your voice." Yes, another challenge...so yes, phone sex began. After me saying his name a couple of times and telling him how I couldn't wait for us to be together--he came. And he wasn't acting !

There was one thing that was bothering me. I don't have his telephone number. Sounds stupid but I should be able to get in touch with him if I want to. He has my number. So I hinted, I didn't want to push. A few hours later, a call comes into my cell. Don't recognize the number-it was him. "Here's my number--put it some place safe. I trust you just please try not to use it when I am at home unless you really need to speak to me". Well that's fair...I expect the same from him.

So then he says "how's my princess doing today? Cheri, I want to make sure that you are happy because just your voice and emails have been making me so happy these past few days ". Okay I don't know if he is full of shit or not but even if he is full of shit, he's so good at it and I am loving it.

Since he is coming to my neck of the woods--I have to plan the day. Yes, lunch is easy. But then what? Hotel seems too soon, don't you think? No doubt I want to jump his bones but should I wait ? I was thinking I want to do something fun and different? Any ideas? There is a planetarium...how romantic and cool but it's closed during the week. So help!! A museum that has gardens to escape into?! But its damn cold! Ideas! Ideas, please!! What would you find to be fun, hot, maybe we can steal away somewhere...I don't know. Such exciting pressure!!

Distraught! Love'em But Won't Do'em?!

dis·traught ( P ) Pronunciation Key (d-strôt)adj.
Deeply agitated, as from emotional conflict.
Mad; insane.
Interesting?! Didn't expect to see the mad and insane when I looked for the definition. Now that is a little scary!! And before you think I totally flipped, the name of this pix is called "Distraught"....pretty deep huh? Well, the thought of sitting on a bench and staring at a garden of flowers all day does sound quite appealling to me lately. I always tell my family to make sure the institution they put me in has flowers and a garden so I can sit there and read and paint all day.

So, why am I so "distraught"? I don't know. I should be jumping for joy. I should be ecstatic, but I am not. I don't understand it. Chris sent me the nicest note last night that made me cry. It just said how he knows he hasn't been that supportive and he was sorry and that he really wants to be there for me. Zorro has been the most unbelievable friend that I could have. He has been my confidant, my shoulder, my strength. And Mr. Navigator, well things are progressing rather quickly. And my post tonight should be about the great couple of days I've had communicating back and forth with him. It's been getting hot and heavy by email.

And, I closed the door on Mr. Government if you remember. I left him a message, sent a text message...it was over in my head. And then tonight, it said 6 messages after my bath. I expected them to be from Mr. Navigator and Ashley Madison BUT stuck in between those was one from Mr. Government. Basically how are you, I miss you. There was a huge whole and aching in my chest tonight before but now it feels like the Grand Canyon and I have a bottomless pit! More than anything I want to be in his arms but I can't play the rollercoaster. And Mr. Navigator..... too many men, too many men. And what the fuck! I am still not happy. The truth, no matter how hard I have been trying to surpress reality.....it fucking won't go away! Okay, drama moment over...my real blog tonight was something said by a few men I've met on the site.

On these married personal sites there are really a few different types of men. One that say they love their wives but their wives don't want to have sex anymore (they have an emotional void as well), those that say they really are no longer in love with their wives.

And then the third group...men who say they are in love with their wives but they do not want to have sex with them. Their wives are into them but they aren't into them but they love them. Okay, so my question...what the fuck is this? There are about 10 different definitions of love and not one of them fit this love. So what do they mean? Both Booty Caller and Mr. Navigator have said this. And I don't understand it. They don't want to sleep with their wives yet they do love them. Their wives want to screw their brains out, yet they love them and don't want them. Hmmmm??

I'm trying to understand. Obviously it does exist but I am quite thick when it comes to understanding it. I admit, maybe because I can't imagine being in love with someone and not wanting to sleep with them. Why? I admit that sadly, I do not think I am in love with my husband anymore. There is so much bitterness, so much anger, so much frustration that I can't imagine love is still buried under there. Of course, there is always hope that one day it will re-surface but I truly doubt it. But that will explain my lack of desire to want to be with him.

So my question tonight--- if you love someone, why wouldn't you want to be with them physically? Do you love them like a pet, like a sister, like what?!?

And finally, Hale McKay sent me this funny pix and well it just made me laugh that tears were rolling down my face. Thanks Hale! My interpretation "Yes! I have found it, I have found the most perfect penis and I am never letting go...it is mine, it is all mine! I will not share!" What do you think?!? Okay, something as warped as this has potential to bring me out of my slump!

Cybersex can be strangely hot!

Kylie Minogue is my favorite singer. Her songs are so sexy, so erotic and she is just hot! I guess you can say she is my idol--40 something and she is sizzling with sex appeal. Well they just added a whole bunch more of her videos and this is one of my favorite songs--Can't get you out of my head!

And what a perfect song for my post tonight. Well Cheri is starting to get those tingles again. Yes, Mr. Navigator is fulfilling my head with lustful thoughts! It's moving too fast, I'm really nervous.....but there is this feeling of excitement, desire, lust, passion....that I can't get out of my head. I feel like I am soaring.....my heart palpatating, my nipples getting hard and I truly feel the tingles.

I've never met the guy! This is truly crazy. Well truth is, I had this feeling with Chris when we first starting connecting. It was so fucking hot and then when the soulmate thing kicked in, it was the most amazing feeling. All right, don't want to think about that now....sadly, how that lust died--well not really it took a different direction, we are friends now-with some bizarre soulmate connection thing that when we start clicking, he pulls away still. Damn Chris, just let it go!! Enjoy life a little!

Anyway, I feel like a little girl again. I have the giggles, I have that glow, I am blushing. Went out the lunch with my best friend today. She took one look at me and said--okay is it Chris, good night with Zorro or Mr. Government is back? I just laughed.......no, a new secret lover, "Mr. Navigator." I was like a teenager telling her all about him. "Damn this guy is making you glow!"

So, our meeting is set for the 10th! It seems like a century away. He's all over the country with business. So what do we do for our first meeting? It's strange because our connection has moved so fast. So when we meet, do we meet for coffee? That's ridiculous. Do we go to a hotel room? Morally I don't know if I could do that. But damn, these fantasies running through my head. I have been dripping these past few days. I just want him. Hey, it's been awhile for me. All this sex researching, all this Mr. Government daydreaming and all the pressure at home.

I usually like to meet someone or get to know them a little before but we've moved into Cybersex now. We just seemed to float into it. That imaginary line, I like to call it. Where it goes from innocent flirting online to light sexual talk to full blown cybersex.

It's a wild feeling, as my body and mind start to float into this forbidden area. I can see it starting to happen on the screen, the opportunity is there to turn the conversation around but my body and mind is being pulled in. I start to feel those tingles, you start to feel that wetness in between your legs and my nipples start to harden. I can feel a sensation in between my legs and the tightening of my lips. My insides start to feel wet and pulsations start to begin.

There is still time to turn back---but I couldn't. I could feel him pull me in. How silly is it.....I couldn't masturbate. I don't know him well enough. What a ridiculous statement but it is true! But I did feel myself to see how wet I was getting and I was soo wet.

It started innocently, we were talking about how sexy and hot and how great this connection is. He was telling me how he felt like a little kid sitting in his meeting. There he is with all these executives and he is text messaging back and forth with me. It a little playful and then after his meeting he went back to his room.

We started talking about our desires. I asked him what he likes. He started to tell me that he likes it slow and romantic. Slowly undressing each other with a passionate kiss. Hey, you know I am there!!! He happened to mention that he was getting hard... this was the point...I could have stopped but I just kept going...."How hard?" What does it look like??? And off we went......his description of his hard cock, his shaft just sent my body into tingles.

Now you know me....yes, I like for a man to cum. It gives me satisfaction or as Zorro would say....I like to control the situation. So, it only took a few more words...."Can you imagine me there with you?" "What would I be doing"? And his imagination took him to the point of no return while making me soooo wet.

So now, I have a visual in my head of a man I do not even know. I've already made him cum (or really , it's the whole wild situation and unchartered territory that overcomes you). It's your needs, desires and wants that you are able to complete the whole package with someone elses few typed words. So, the fantasies in my head have woken up again. I can't wait to hear his voice....I can't wait to see him....I can't wait to touch his lips with mine....okay...that's it for tonight.

In conclusion.......Cheri needs a man!!!

Can You See It In My Eyes?!?!

Can you see it in my eyes?
By Cheri

Can you see the sadness in my eyes?
Does it show all my dirty secret lies?
Can you see that emptiness I feel deep down inside?
Does it show all the river of tears I have cried?

Can you see that flicker of hope that yearns for your touch?
Does it show you the desires I need fulfilled so much?

Can you see in my eyes, passed this façade of life that I lead?
Does it show you how much I want to escape with you indeed?

Can you see my fantasyland that I have existing in my mind?
Does it show you all the secret fantasies I want you to find?

Can you see my sexuality is about to explode?
Does it show you how my fears and inhibitions have begun to erode?

Can you see my desire to reach a point filled with total pleasure?
Does it show you the orgasms I want with you to keep and treasure?

Can you see that I am in need to escape and go to a place where we can fulfill all we’ve been denied?
Does it show you how desperately I need our worlds to collide?

Can you see how you would never know my emptiness is so deep inside of me?
Does it show you how desperately I need you to find me, fulfill me and embrace me?

Can you see it in my eyes?
Please look deep and save me from all these lies!
Please, look deep inside my eyes!!

Stressed, Make A willy kit and Intimidated!

Originally my post was just on some funny things that I found on the internet during my research for my podcast. So I will show you two of them.

One is the Make your own Willy Kit---how hysterical. Here is a pix of the actual kit. Listen to the 2nd episode of Rendezvous Radio Podcast for details but basically you can make a replica of your secret lovers penis (or your spouse) and it becomes a usable dildo. Perfect for Valentines Day, great for secret loves and long distance relationships. Go to Rendezvous Radio for additonal information. I still am laughing from this one.

The next was a potato that someone was selling on Ebay! It is a real potato that looks like a penis and they are auctioning it off. Look at this thing!! Can you imagine finding this in the supermarket and saying "I'm going to buy it and sell it on Ebay". So tomorrow, go to your local grocer. Who knows what other fruits and vegetables you can sell on Ebay.

Finall,y, I screwed up in the podcast. Use water based lubricants not oil based if you are going to use a condom in your session. Oil based eats away at the condom!! Okay, back to my day!!

Stressed?!? Yes! Nervous?!? Yes Horny?! Yes!

Have you ever met someone that you truly felt was smarter than you, more powerful than you and possibly too good for you? I've actually never felt that way.I have always felt that it isn't what or who people are, it's the inner soul that matters. It doesn't matter what you do or who you are..."we all put our pants on the same way....one pants leg at a time". You see what I am saying!

Well Mr. Navigator has not told me much about himself. We actually had a great conversation and IM chat yesterday and today. I really like him..he's sweet, he's smart, he's got a warped sense of humor and he's got an air of power about him. Is it cockiness? I don't think so. Some men just ooze of power (which I get so turned on by). He's been considerate, sexy and thoughtful. He just IM'd me as I am writing this to say good night....and I got those tingles. Yes, those tingles I love when you first meet someone. That excitement of something new, that sexy, hot beginning--that tightness in your chest!! Oh boy! I'm petrified! Hey, I haven't even put Mr. Goverment's pix in my memory box yet.

Well, I am pretty good at Googling people and finding out about them with very little information. I guess I am a Google Stalker in some ways but an innocent one. I like to just see what I can find on that person. So, with really hardly any info... A first name, a state and that he is President of a Company....I googled. Yup! I found him. I couldn't believe it. And was I blown away!

His company is an international company with locations all around the world. He's one of those guys that the prominent and prestigious media companies quote him on forecasting things. I almost dropped dead. So, I am intimidated. I can't figure out why. Through my business, I have met, interviewed and even had dinner with movers and shakers.....so why this inferiority complex all of a sudden? Why did my thoughts immediately go to the fact that this guy can easily get a real show toy!!

So now I am petrified to meet him. He's seen my pix, I've been my usual sarcastic yet flirty self....so Cheri is having an inferior complex here! Ugh this sucks!! It is even worse because his wife wants him badly---he is just not interested in her (usually it's the opposite-right?!?). I feel a lot of pressure with this guy and it's my own inner pressure--since I've learned who he is.

I feel like I am playing a Poker Game. So, how do I play this one? Maybe I should fold? Should I play the cards and bluff? I holding a pair of Jacks, knowing he has a straight? !

Well, I didn't tell him that I know what he does and who he is. I actually think it's better that he doesn't know that I know. I'm going to wait for him to tell me. So any views on this one?

"If You Lust For Something, Set It Free"

I have come to the conclusion, I am addicted to the married personal online sites. It's like playing the slot machines, one more quarter is going to get me the jackpot (one more connection is going to be the Mr. Married Prince Charming that I am looking for).

Yes, I find myself going back to BROWSE. I justify it by not doing searches but by only reading the mail sent to me. Hmm...at 10 emails a day from men, three sites, that is plenty of choices. Aah! But I only go to one site a day...hence....only ten men.

So how do I know? How do you know you aren't blowing off Mr. Married Prince Charming? Some are easy to dismiss...men who write licking, horny, screwmeblind......immediately get deleted. To me that just shows a total lack of respect. Anyone out of my age range, height desire or if they are single--I glance at their profile but usually don't answer. But now I am left with 4 potentials. I can't meet them all-hey, I am married not on a dating marathon here. I can't sleep with them all, well I could but morally that would get to me .I would love to kiss each one. To me, if you kiss someone and you can feel those tingles and you can feel that you want them more, you want to rip their clothes off from that one kiss, you can feel yourself getting wet....then there is chemistry. A definite Secret Lover to pursue!

Well, I decided to erase one of the personal profiles this weekend. I don't like their setup-Married Cafe- women can't respond for free. Every other service you can't initiate but if a guy writes to you, you can respond. I think they are being a little too greedy and it is going to hurt them in the end. Personally, I don't recommend this site, you should be able to respond. I can't imagine with other sites that this one gets as good of a response.

Well I review the responses but there was never any that made me say--hey I have to join the meet this guy. But on Saturday, I got the first one that interested me. Early 40's, fun, wants the spark/tingle, looking to do fun things etc. He put his picture on Hot or Not and got a 9.6 rating. Hmmm....this guy peaked my attention but I couldn't email him back.

So Cheri began stalking! Yup! I decided to spend a few minutes tracking him down. Ladies and Gents, it is way too easy and a little scary....google yourself and see what you come up with. Even your internet name, and you may be surprised. So there is another word to the wise....make sure if you are leaving messages on funky forums....you use another email.

Well his was simple...he's into gadgets, owns a Lincoln Navigator, a whole bunch of sites he wrote on. So I got his email. Sent him an email letting him know that I stalked him and he was thrilled. Well we started chatting. He sent me a pix, he's cute (not a 9.6 in my book but he's cute). Let's just say he's worth the time. And you know how I am about that fate thing--I think it was fate that I went there and there was his message as I was signing out. So, I am intrigued by him. He has no nickname yet....hmmmm....for now, Mr. Navigator will have to do.

I am going to stay back a little. First thing I learned about these sites, when you first get on you are a cocky kid in a candy store! You want to taste and sample everything around. He's new to all this (cheated once about 5 years ago though) so I am going to sit back while he takes some tastings. I'd rather take it slower and see what happens. SLOW AND STEADY WINS THE RACE!!

And Mr. Government, sigh! I think when I get upset about him that is when I start searching again. He's being good and I decided I am going to leave him be for a little bit. I am going upstairs now to send him a Text Message saying "I will be good and let you be good. I will miss your lips, I will miss your thrusts, I will miss your cherry ass that was so hot... but I only want you if you feel good about us and we can not be on the rollercoaster of guilt. So, keep in touch my sexy man! I have those orgasms stored in my memory under amazing life experiences! XOXOXO.....Cheri" I'm sad, but I have to put him aside right now. I really liked him.

All I can thing about is "The Old Set Them Free Poem"

"If you lust for something, set it free
If it comes back, its yours for the fucking,
If it doesn't, it's not worth the mental masturbation time"

Okay, I changed it a little! hee.hee.
Have a great day!

What?!? Sex was not on my mind today?!?

Change of pace...actually, I did nothing but clean all day! Yup, that is it. No computer, no podcasting, no RESEARCH! Just daydreamed and cleaned. Took my bath, way to hot (107 degrees) and I came out feeling like jello and redder than red. But relaxed and for the first time in days, wasn't super horny (hee.hee). It must have been all that scrubbing of the floors....can knock the hornyness out of ya anytime!

Cool thing happened this week. A novelist, David Kodeski is doing a reading of two books that he found at a garage sale. It's a diary of a women who worked in the Zenith factory back in the 1960's. Anyway, what he is doing is having 730 women (there are 730 entries in these two books) read an entry from the book. The name of the book first is "Another Lousy Day". It is an audio blog and it is available for listening through iTunes. So why am I telling you this whole story?! Because he asked me to do an entry and I did! It should be out this week.

What a great idea this is! So, I am going to be a part of this book. My entry was January 21st. He's obviously behind because it wasn't up there yet. I'll let you know when my debut performance is available!

Now if you listened to the podcast and you liked it--vote for Rendezvous Radio as your favorite podcast. Come on!! I have NO Votes!! Typical thing to happen to me, I was on a business call and was not really paying attention but I wanted to vote (of course I am going to vote for my own podcast) . Well I put a typo in my email address. YUP! So my vote didn't count AND I can't vote again because you can only vote for one podcast, once a month! So, I have no votes--can't even vote for myself, How ironic is that. Yes, I am pimping my podcast and proud of it!! Click here!

The Sex Research Is Killing Me!!

Today was a much better day, thankfully! Every once in awhile I feel that entrapment, the walls are closing in and I feel like there is no escape. I hate that feeling because I am a very independent person. I am used to controlling situations and I feel very uneasy when I can't see the light. For everyone, change makes us feel uneasy....change gives you a sense of uneasiness of no control. Today, I was able to see the light a little. I've weathered tough storms and I am a tough cookie if I need to be. Today, I'm back to take on my life! I know corny but true. I need to just keep looking ahead.....

So what better way than to research for the Rendezvous Radio Podcast! (hee.hee). I'll tell ya...I have to take research for this in smaller doses or my clitoris is going to wear away ! Yup, the topics I decided to do for next week are too much for me! I spent the afternoon actually fantasizing and masturbating. Yes, I admit it! I couldn't take the tightness....of course if I'm horny,

I have to release it some way.... first, I decided to send a eCard to Mr. Gov (attached is a copy I sent to myself). He's so damn disciplined. Figures, I pick one that is stubborn (horny yes, he wrote that he has had a hardon for two days and it is my fault. But I am interrupting his thoughts during the day and he is having a hard time concentrating ). So one of three things is going to happen: 1) he stays so damned disciplined for a few more months--which I am not going to be able to take 2) he breaks and we screw each others brains out (I can almost taste him) or 3) he gets a restraining order (only joking!!)

So I sent him this eCard---I love doing stuff like that. And I really think that you should sent it to someone you care about too. It makes them smile, it's sexy, it's hot, it's spontaneous! There are eCards on my website (even nude cards, love cards) if you don't know of any sites. I love www.lovingyou.com site for cards but today I found an ecard from Bryan Adams. I love Bryan Adams. My favorite songs are Run To You and Heaven! So, I sent this card to Mr. Gov--titled "Run To ME!" He will smile, blush and hopefully get a little woody!! I love spontaneous things!!

Run To ME!

You can click on it and see the card I sent! Wouldn't you do me after getting a card like that ?!!? (hee.hee) Okay, I am going to hold what I was researching on until tomorrow. It was two things "Cunnilingus" and this new exchange service I found that talk about being able to make your role playing fantasies come true. Damn, I can't take it! The tightening, the pulsations....I need to get laid! I really need to have some hot sex! I might have to move on, continue my search for Mr. Married Prince Charming...he has to be out there....next podcast....I'm advertising for him! Yup! That's it...I'm going to advertise on the podcast...maybe he will hear it and find me...talk about using bandwidth to my advantage!

Sweet Wet Dreams!

(okay the music is off so you can hear the Run To You Song and because last night at 2AM, I couldn't get it to stop playing it woke up the kids--so I need a little break...I can't control the volume on the Cheat by Mara!)

Bad Girl AND caged like a rat in my marriage!

Text Message Between Mr. Gov and Me

Mr. Government said: "C-, you sound like you are so horny!! LOL I've been trying to lay low. Attempting to keep you out of my mind. But yes, I keep thinking of how much I enjoyed bending you over and how amazing it was".

Cheri said: "Yes, Mr. G- I am very horny----4 U !! I want those orgasms during sex like I had with you. I think you should lie low---on me, in me, all over me! I have been a good girl but the thought of you bending me over again is just so yummy! Don't you believe that friends should help each other? If we can make each other feel so good, I think we should"!!

Sigh! I want that man, I know I should be a good girl and leave him alone. He's trying to be faithful to his wife. I know my text messages do not help BUT I want him. Am I being selfish? Should I let him be? I feel like our rendezvous' stopped so abruptly--I need closure. I need one last time to just make it a day to remember---3 hours in a hotel of just pure ecstasy. Living out some of my fantasies, experimenting with some of my new found fetishes----damn I want this man!!

Chris was laughing. His response "poor guy". He knows how fanatical I can get when I set my mind to it. Whether its a man, a podcast or my work--when I focus in---I am determined. But I do feel some guilt--a little--but I truly need to feel him inside of me again. I need those thrusts, I need his sweet finger caressing my cheek--that was so simple and so hot--so sexy and romantic. Funny, the things you remember the most with a secret lover. The things that give you that warm feeling that bring a smile to your face (and wetness to your panties!)

Well, I haven't been with a lack of email company! I always love getting notes from Stud Muffin and my Scottish lad...such great guys! I made a podcasting buddy--he is really sweet and giving me much needed tips and he liked my podcast!!

Aaah! And the rest of the contenders---Mr. Booty Caller, Divorce Attorney and Mr. Chiropractor. Not really doing it for me actually.

Divorce Attorney has mellowed big time. Since our little phone sex episode and he came, he hasn't spoken disrespectfully dirty to me--I bet he didn't think I would play his game--he doesn't know Cheri too well. Tomorrow he wants to meet to watch a movie (Unfaithful) and for us just to hang in a hotel room. He swears he's not going to touch me. Please.....I'm canceling!

Mr. Chiropractor, boy could I use his services. I am going to meet him for coffee maybe next week. This one is slow because he's just not catching my attention in any specific way.

And Booty Caller---I was so busy with the podcast, I fell behind on answering emails---he sent one today "I'm not feeling the love from ya"....he is so comical--I enjoy our little emails. He again invited me for lunch and I just keep laughing and saying-let's make it a day when I have to go to the mall and you will just meet me there...I am not so stupid that I would make a planned meeting again.

Chris and I are good. He is going to podcast with me. I know, I know we rollercoaster back and forth but truth....he manages to come through for me in the end. He is working on a project and he wants me to look at it--- I swear, just as I was about to say something--he said "I know, you are going to make me wait 8 weeks to look at it like I did to you!" Tears were rolling down my face from laughing so hard...the fact that he acknowledged it--is what is important to me.

Sadly, I have to say that today was one of those days where I don't think I can stay married anymore. Do you ever have one of those? Do you ever just want to jump in your car and just keep driving? I will go into it over the weekend, but if I could figure out a way to pay the bills on the house and take care of other entanglements that we have---I think I would leave.

Today, I told him I wasn't happy (nothing new). I told him I want a divorce, I can't keep living like this--I am miserable. However, he knows I am trapped. He knows I can't go anywhere--I feel like a caged rat today......like a slave. So not like me so its time to re-evaluate the situation. Any suggestions?!?

Drug Of Lust, Podcast Up and Kama Sutra

It's finally up and running! I feel like I have been on a sex marathon! My entire body is aching from head to toe but it is a good ache! Probably if I wasn't technically inept it would help but I do pretty good for a dizzy blonde I guess!! So now you have to listen!! Yup! I promise you will laugh when you have a 1/2 hour, just click on it or listen to it while you are blogging!! It's so hard talking to yourself...it's weird. But I am enjoying it.

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So I have been so pre-occupied with my podcast. I forgot to give you updates. Mr. Government responded to the Cleavage pix...then I sent another note--- I told him look at all the PR and marketing I had to do for a cup of coffee, I would have to hire a whole advertising agency for a visit to OUR SPOT!! I added, I keep having flashbacks of you and I and I want you inside of me! I want "you and I" to experience all the different ways we didn't get to play! I WANT YOU!

He responded back: Tell me all about the different ways you want me? Hmmmm......I keep seeing him in my head. I keep wanting him so much. It was the rawness, it was the passion, it was the lust between two people who for so many years have forgotten what that feeling can feel like. It's an addicting feeling that once you taste it---you want more. It's the "Drug Of Lust".

I have this theory, that if you never tasted something you have no idea what it tastes like (I think I've told this theory to you before--too tired to look back). If you don't know the taste, you can't crave or desire it. But if you know how amazing something is, you can almost taste it when you want it so bad. I know that taste I have for Mr. Government is because we have already built a trust foundation. I trust him, we both feel the same emptiness in our marriages and he's not out to hurt me. In my heart, I know he could be replaced easily by someone else who fits that bill. But right now, I just have those images, especially the one I told you about, but didn't know the name---it's actually a Kama Sutra position. How fancy....I called it Doggie Style with me lying flat on my stomach with my butt arched up (this is the closest I could find)....The official title is "Aibha-The elephant" position or it was called "The Coitus of The Perfumed Garden." OKAY....in my book it was just amazing hot!! Have you ever looked into Kama Sutra? That is going to be in an upcoming podcast...its sensual, its hot and its aerobics.. Now researching that will be fun.

SO I am going to hit the bed and dream about some Kama Sutra positions. Definitely not with the hubby. Did you hear that explosion at 5:30AM EST?!? It was me!! It's a long story but I am old fashioned in some ways. I feel a man should provide (or at least contribute to providing ) for his family. Especially if you are afraid to leave your kids with him because he may forget to take care of them. He's not cut out for the daddy at home thing. Part of me feels working in the "real world" for someone else might be a great step towards my Escape Plan.

I don't want to be a grown up anymore!! I want to be in my mid twenties, working in the city and partying every night till dawn. How can we turn the clocks back!?! Such an old lady thought...but if I only knew what I know now!! Talk about how I would have lived life to capacity!

All right, going to put my pjs on and crawl under the cover. Going to think about some hot man tonight....Oh! You know I found these pix online...and I think they are a great reminder for us all that sometimes a lot is too much!...now are these real?!? I couldn't imagine a guy THAT big. Has anyone ever come across one that size. That would go in one way and come out my throat! Damn...and now look at this lady? How the hell does she walk around with those. I found them as I was researching and I had to share. Damn. he's also cute, okay bedtime..(sigh)

Sweet WET Dreams!

THE LUSCIOUS LIPS WIN LIPS DOWN!!!!

Wow! That was a tough poll to tally!! And the winner is.................

THE LIPS!!!

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Help! Which do you like for the RR Podcast

Okay, I'm going crazy (well you already all knew that) but I am trying to figure out which pix I like to put up on the iTunes site for the podcast (and on the podcast show notes).

Unfortunately, I only have the clipart pix to work with right now---so until I get a real pix to represent the podcast--I am stuck with these.

So take a look AND PLEASE COMMENT!!

Lips or Heart! Which way should I go?!?!

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Thanks tons!!
XO
Cheri

Researching Masturbation, my soulmate and results of quizzes

Interesting!! I am working like crazy to get the podcast done, but you know I have to make a post or I will feel inept! Copied Tony tonight by taking some of the quizzes.....some interesting results so I figured I would share!! And I am so wet and horny the past few days---the podcast research is driving me wild. Yup, a topic is maturbation. All night last night I was researching about maturbation.....I couldn't help myself...I had an amazing masturbation session while I was researching. Just reading all the stories on masturbation and what feels great---I decided just to do it at my computer. It was hot!! I couldn;t believe how turned on I was.

My, my....Chris FINALLY posted are response to my blog. Let's see--I have called him horrible things, called our sex an emotionless fuck and Robot Sex, I have written wild fantasies about us, I tell the world all my intimate dreams and fantasies-----and he responds to my government bashing post!! That's what gets him all hot and heated---

So my response back is basically--I wish he had as much passion about my bush as he does about Bush! And if hell freezes over and we sleep together again--I am going to put a picture of President Bush right over my pussy. Now that will guarantee that he will take extra special care and do a phenomenal job eating me out! Men!

You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Cheri's Cleavage Cafe

I am not a big fan of nude photography. I should re-state--I am not a big fan of taking nude pix of myself in sexually explicit positions, especially with a secret lover. I do get very wet from looking at big cocks and even envious looking at women with amazing bodies....but an incident in college kind of gave me a warning on how pix are real and can always resurface.

When I was in college, my boyfriend and I had played around with a camera. We took pix of me sucking his cock, us doing it etc. and well there were no digital cameras back then. Surprisingly those pix WERE printed but when we went to pick them up, the hard copies were missing. So, somewhere in a shoebox or at the bottom of a landfill are pix of Cheri at 20 getting laid.

On New Years Eve, I had decided to send a pix of my cleavage to Zorro through my phone. He laughed and it was no biggie (well yeah, they are 36D so I guess they are a little big). However, I took another pix (a few days later) to send to MR. Government and this damn pix keeps popping up all over my computer. I swear I erased it but it keeps showing up in different files. Not cool when you have a 13 year old. So everyday, I erase it and this damn thumbfile keeps popping up. It's torturing me...but tonight I think I finally got rid of it.

Well, as I told you...I am not making life easy for Mr. Government. He sends me text messages 2 times a week and calls at least once a week. But he is still determined to be a good boy. Well, I have to be honest. I need closure....and I keep fantasizing about that one last time. Yup! I think we should have a farewell fuck! I can taste him, so sweet so deliciously delectable. No pop rocks this time. Just a secret rendezvous that will be two hours to remember. Then if he needs to be good, fine. But I need him one more time to get him out of my system.

Well, Cheri has been up to her little sweet forget me nots. I decided to send him a cleavage pix with the words "Cafe" written on it. To make him laugh and entice him to meet for coffee one last time (oh come on, we all know what coffee is going to lead to--let's see our last meeting was just for cafe). I've also sent to him a Cheri Alert with my blarring sirens......Missing--one hot government official...... He's wearing down.....how's your week next week was the last text message.... ohh la! la!!

So what do I see our meeting being? I want to show up in my long fur coat with a lingerie underneath.....a sexy red one with fishnet stockings and high heels. I'm sure we will go to our spot!! I will get there before and leave rose petals on the bed, the music playing, a bottle of wine and a bag of tricks in the room. We always get the same room and the guy likes me so I know he will let me in ahead of time. This way when he goes in, the mood is already set.

I am going to knock on the door in that fur and lingerie and let's let the festivities begin....I want to slowly undress him, licking ever inch as I take his clothes off, have him just stand there while I slowly disrobe him. Its going to be a real slow seduction, with my eyes just looking into his (he says my eyes go through him )...so I will just keep them steadily on him. When he is totally undressed, I am going to lead him to the bed. I'm goinng to once again, use the tongue he loves so much to explore every inch of his body. I want to remember every inch of him. I want to take his cock in my mouth and totally engulf the whole thing....sucking and circling the top of his cock with my tongue. I want him to want me like he never has......now the bj technique that makes him groan...oh yes, we will certainly be using that technique and I am going to work on him until I get that boy moaning and groaning and until he cums all over me. I want him to smear his cum all over my breasts.

And now, it's his turn (or should I say my turn). He loves to eat me out. And now the bag of tricks.....his choice....handcuffs, blindfold, love ropes, tickle n taste, the tickle feather, the vibrator......whatever he wants....it's his choice. Well I know him, he's going to use them all!! lol Aah! The blindfold is a must and so is the love ropes. I am dying to try them and I trust him enough to be able to let go and let him do as he pleases.

Yes, thanks to Stretch's lovely rendezvous fantasy, I haven't been able to stop fantasizing about a blindfold. I once did it with a blindfold, it was hot and I wasn't comfortable with who I was then. So now, I can't even imagine how amazing it would be. Your other senses heighten when you take away the sense of site. And then to take away the ability to touch and be in a submissive role...oh dear...Cheri is getting way to wet right now. I can feel my insides tightening ...damn I want him so badly right now. I want to feel him inside of me thrusting, I want to feel his sexy lips sucking my nipples so hard, I want to feel my back arch and I want to beg him, beg him to go inside of me.

He loves my toys....he loves watching the vibrator go in and out of me. IT turns him on. The slow motion of the vibrator and his consistent and slow moving of it in and out can drive a girl crazy. Juicy will be an understatement....I know it.

I have to stop....I have to. I have to research the podcast and the hubby is out of town AGAIN!! Well there is only one thing for me to do tonight. Research a little more so I'm ready to record tomorrow and then go test my toys to make sure they all work. Too bad I'm all alone! I could use some assistance tonight!! OH well! I am solo once again!

Sweet Wet Dreams!! XOXOXOXO

"Yes Sir!!! I'll Be The Perfect Angel Tomorrow"

Well tonight Cheri didn't make a lot of friends! In fact, my views seemed to upset a few people today. Funny, there are times that people closest to me will criticize me (even hurt me with their comments) but I will not flip out, I will listen to what they say. I may not agree with them even after I analyzed the situation but I respect their opinion. I will not get mad that they had an opinion.

With men, I don't seem to always find that to be the case. They seem to love that I am an independent woman and that I have my own thoughts. They love that I run a business and that I am a tough negotiator. But when it comes to giving my thoughts about something they've done or something they think.....now we are talking another story.

Men like independence until they are faced with the freedom of speech and freedom of thought effecting them. I seem to be surrounded with these men. I admit it, I am attracted to them also because they have such independent personalities as well.

So today, I actually had a few run ins. So maybe it was me... quite opinionated today...well probably not more opinionated than usual but actually more outspoken today. I guess I wasn't the Yes Sir Girl today! And what really gets me, the men I know take the superior attitude and they clam up (probably because they know it makes me nuts).

They all did have one thing hysterically in common today. They all got their haircuts. Hmmmm....do you think part of their brains were cut out in the process? That is a funny coincidence that until I started to write just now, I didn't make the connection. Are their brains in their hair? Soulmate, Zorro and Booty Caller got their haircuts. I think I will ask Divorce Attorney tomorrow and Mr. Government. Was there a haircut special today "Get 10% off if you have flirted with Cheri".

So I had a rough night tonight but I am not going to apologize for my tone. It seems I didn't add all the fluff around my comments today. I was kind of telling it like I saw it. So tonight, I got scolded for my IM tone being too curt. I think its back to the hair. Maybe they didn't have the normal cushioning that their hair provides them to handle an opinion. The old hair buffer was missing! It has to be!

So, tomorrow I will make sure that I dot my i's and cross my t's. That I add fluff to all my emails and IMs. That I put on a skirt, high heels and my lipstick is perfect. And that I, "Yes" all the men around me! I'll throw in some flirty giggles and bat my eyes at them as well. Or, I will tell them how wonderful they are over the computer. Tomorrow I will be as sweet as sugar!! Yes, tomorrow I will be an angel sent down from the sky! Tomorrow, I will be the submissive sweet girl that they want me to be!!! Or I can buy them all wigs to replace the hair they lost!!

Okay, I know there are two men out there right now that there is steam coming out of their ears from this post (Chris and Zorro). In fact, I bet they thought about stuffing me and putting my head up above their mantle tonight. I couldnt get the little face to replace the deer but I'm sure you can all imagine it!!

But honestly, I am sorry if I was a little rough today---I'm a PITA....and you love me no matter what right?!? So, from my heart, I am sorry for being difficult today and I did not mean to piss off either one of you. Okay, maybe knew how to push your buttons and I did. Look an apology in front of the whole blogging world from Cheri! Hey, hold onto it......it might be worth something on Ebay one day!

Yup, if these two ever meet up, I am dead meat!

What Do YOU Consider Cheating?!

Rendezvous Radio Podcast Question Of The Week!

Yes, I am getting ready to do the next show! And, the Question of the Week is coming to a close so please place your vote right now!

What Do You Consider Cheating?

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That is the question. The race is surprisingly close...so I can definitely use some more votes to sway it one way or another!

So, sexy bloggers, what do you consider cheating?!?!?