No Girlfriend?!

Mr. Electrician's girlfriend was not at the funeral. Not exactly sure what that meant nor was I going to ask him. It was so sad. The pain, I hate people I love being in pain. I was so glad I went because it felt like the right thing to do. Why there was no girlfriend, I do not know. However, he's the type of person that would forgive his girlfriend if she couldn't make it. We've spoken everyday, I am trying to console him. He told me so much about his father's life. He was such an interesting man. Is he the one for me?! I don't think so actually. But what I am finding is qualities in men that I know I have to have...so I guess that is good. He is very close. Very close.

So if I only could just take a little of this, little of that and join them all together. I would have the perfect match for me.

Mr New Guy

well I have been seeing Mr. New Guy for three weeks now. It's been going very well until he got sick this weekend. We actually were seeing each other almost every day. It's ironic how both Mr. Porsche and Mr. Non Weekend Committal felt his presence. I am still trying to figure out if it was something I did or didn't do or if they could feel a personality shift but they both felt it. Each of them tracking me down a lot more this past week. Each of them asking me where I have been--they never notice.

Mr Non committal actually tried to track me down last friday night. I was with Mr New Guy. The sex with Mr. New Guy is amazing! I think I might have found a sexual connection again. I am not sure but we will see. He can suck on my tits and almost make me orgasm. he sucks on my clit and my whole body shivers. It is very, very hot!

I am liking him.

Seeing someone you love hurt

Sometimes life weaves itself so many unusual ways. Mr. Electrician has a heart of gold. We're great friends but he has found the girl of his dreams--of course my luck after 12 years of looking. As you know, he mentally excites me and I would rather have him as a friend even if I can't have him as a lover.

Ironically, the world is so small. A loved one of his was being treated by someone I know very well. I made a call to them to make sure they were giving his family member VIP treatment according to Mr. Electrician, it was only for a few days since it was minor testing. When I called, I found out, it wasn't minor testing...it was really serious. Sadly, I broke the news to him but his happy spirit--he couldn't thank me enough. My news allowed him to have the time to say good by to his loved one. Sadly, his loved one passed away. I've been talking to him as support throughout the week. When his call came today, I knew it was over. So hard to say you are sorry.

The funeral is tomorrow. I want to take him in my arms and hold him tight and kiss him so because he is just such a wonderful caring person. I love him dearly. But reality is, that is not my role. His girlfriend will be there and it will break my heart. But I have to be there for him tomorrow--he was my lover, he is my friend and its not jealousy but envy that she has such a wonderful man. I am so glad he is in my life-because he brings me so much happiness. It's going to hurt tomorrow seeing him hurting so. I hope the tears don't overwhelm me. God Bless Him and his family...

OMG....what a screwed up weekend!

Have you ever heard me say that I am sorry I got divorced? Well I certainly am not and will never say it. Actually my ex and I had the biggest war that we've ever had. The truth is, I am a sweetheart but when I have reached my limits--you better run!

The bastard lied about the mileage expiring to the lawyer and he had tons of mileage in our account and hotel points. He took his GF out of the country. Didn't bother to tell me, used my points to buy her ticket and is still behind in his child support. So let me get this straight.....you stole the points, gave it to your GF and you went on vacation owing me three months of child support and $20,000 in additional expenses. Hmmm...and you think I am not going to bug out on you? I have been working my butt off to support these kids and you get a vacation on me?!?!

I couldn't figure out a way to get him back. He told me it was too fucking bad that I should deal with it. Oh did I tell you he sold something worth $20,000, promised my kid money and now decided he wasn't going to give it to him?

Well I had enough. Get yourself a boyfriend, he screamed at me. We all know how I internally giggled at that one. He was trying to make me feel bad because the loser thinks he's a big shot with a girlfriend. THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO!

Well to me those are fighting words. there is nothing I can do? For a minute he was right. I can take him to court that is it. or is it? I emerged into my magic tub for four hours with a bottle of wine!! He basically said I will move and I should ship one kid down to visit and keep the rest. Mother Fucker---you are going down!! Don't hurt my kids. We always knew he was a piece of shit but now he has reached levels beyond shit! I admit it. I felt helpless. Little I could do...or was there. Hmmmm...all gloves off now. I sent a note to the GF....hope you enjoyed your vacation that my children paid for with the child support money.....and the points...btw, you will be called into court...I will be by this week to pick up our souvenirs. Truth is, she is going through a vicious divorce and her ex had no idea that he watched the kids while she claimed to be away on business. Another vicious email from my ex. Hmmmm.....I think I need a new friend on facebook.....her ex husband to be.

A little low for me but there was no other way to go with this one. My ex is the only man who doesn't want his children. So I went after the GF. fighting through the night, calling each other names...the morning was wild!

The GF bugged. She wrote me a vicious note and I wrote back a note telling her that her name was on the papers being submitted to the courts. She was freaking. My ex folded. yes, I won. He is purchasing me a trip on the rest of the miles and he came over with half the back money. Ironically, the GF and I calmed down and we had a decent email exchange. I told her I just wanted him to pay his support and to find a GF that cared for my children. she agreed with me, having kids herself. I befriended her ex and we decided to be on friendly terms. No she's not going to be my BFF....but peace is good.

I am shaking though. My kid is crushed. My ex is garbage. the other two don't understand....sadly he will always be a dead beat dad. But I knew that. He had the nerve to come into my house today and go into my refrigerator.....war broke out. My final words to him as he was leaving and saying--I don't care if I see the kids, its their loss.....screaming at the top of my lungs--- You Will Rot In Hell! It's your Loss, they are great kids!

And I look back and I am so glad I divorced him. Yes, I work like crazy. Yes, my life is a rollercoaster BUT I need to get the poison out of my life and he is poison. i think a part of me always felt bad for him being such a loser. Now that he doesn't even care about the kids, my pity is gone. I told him I will make his life so miserable and I plan on doing it. I know negativity is bad but he is mentally warped. I won this round but sadly, there are so many more rounds to come. How can a man not want his children? How can a man walk away from two amazing kids that are angels and sweet and only want to be loved? I know vengeance is bad but this man is not a man, he's pathetic. Rage, anger...I hate this feeling. I have never hated someone as much in my life.

I am heading to bed...with my body shaking. He's threatening to quit his job too so he doesn't have to pay me money. I think I may have to begin a collection for the Cheri Bailout Fund! Sweet dreams!!

Rihanna - Only Girl (In The World)

I Just Had Sex (feat. Akon)

Flirting with the Garbage Men

Okay, I admit it. I am a total flirt sometimes and I do use it to my advantage. There are strict rules here with garbage. You must break up boxes and put strings around them for them to take them. Garbage cans have to be a certain size etc. etc. And if you don't do it, they leave you a nasty note and do not take them. For awhile after my ex left, I was having some garbage issues. Not because he was so Joe Perfect with the Garbage but because we got a new garbage supervisor on the route. The whole area was having problems. Yes, our garbage became the discussion of the whole neighborhood.

Well, you have to know that I needed to do something to change that. I had to get around the garbage situation because it was becoming an issue. One morning, I happened to be outside when the garbage supervisor came. I smiled and went over and said hello to all my garbage men, I explained how I was newly divorced and please be patient with me. Yes, I admit it, I flirted with the garbage man giving him a very sweet smile and sexy look with my eyes. Telling him I would try my best and please to be patient. Since that day, he waves to be and says hi and well the garbage has been a lot easier.

Today, my garbage was out of control. Yes, boxes tons of boxes...I was too tired last night to break up my boxes. I was pushing it today...how far would my past smile get me? The garbage men were running late today so when they just pulled up, I went outside....hair in a pony with a big smile and a tight shirt. Hi! I am sorry, my garbage is a disaster today..... He looked at me and said good morning..don't worry, it's fine. and he gave me a big smile. Hmmmm...the guy is handsome. I am not a morning person so I never noticed. Thank you sooooo much and I gave him the biggest, flirty smile. Oh man, I knew this guy got a little woody from the smile and wink he gave me!

Aaaaahh! Such innocent little fun! And well I have to tell you another thing. This time of year UPS hires a whole bunch of new men. Each year, they are all hotties. Damn, I look forward to my packages arriving. The last three men were smoking. I am convinced that you UPS has a new policy around the holidays. Hire young, tight, build hotties! What a phenomenal marketing approach. It's not by accident...yes, I almost want to send myself a package once my regular holiday packages are done. Okay, I am definitely being a pathetic hard up surburban divorcee. And you would think I haven't gotten laid in forever.....I am writing about my newest right now, New Guy. Enjoy your Monday!! I am!! Yummmmmm!!

Pre-Sexual Flashback Torture

The last week has been like a whirlwind. I met New Guy. It's funny because he called me to his friends New Girl and I called him to mine, New Guy. We started talking on Monday last week and well he sucked me in. Constant calls, sexual talk, talking about our lives, our dreams, our desires and we were up till 4AM every night. He's dangerous. The worse type of guy is one that comes in like a whirlwind where you feel you are so caught up in it and that its been going on forever. Your soul feels good, your head feels good and you feel so fulfilled. Honestly, it felt more like an affair meeting from Ashley Madison than a date!

So, we met on Thursday for coffee. I wanted to meet him to see if there was any potential. No need to get all worked up and then be let down that there was nothing there. He says he is so taken by me. My looks, my brains, my smile, my flirty way and the fact that I am not a pushover. I tell him like it is. You are different, you aren't like the other girls (geez, as I type that I realize how I was so suckered in).

He's brilliant but he has that darkness about him. I find brilliant men sometimes have this really dark tortured side. As if they are too smart for this world. Amazing how such brains can torture a man. I think its on the lines of Einstein and Picasso. There is a fight within themselves. I am attracted and drawn to men like that. Actually the Mafia guy from two weeks ago was like that too and I also think thats where Mystery Man's darkness came from too. Oh there were others but a lot of them were smart taught. These men are acceptions, their knowledge, their brains are above the norm.

He wanted me to see him on Friday night. I had a date but I ended up cancelling it. I needed to see if I was into this guy or not. He admits to being a flirt and a little bit of a player. Making me feel like I am different, I am the first girl he really liked (oh my, how suckered...lol). He actually did tell his friends about me because one of them text and said so is it as good as you thought with the new girl? That made me feel good.

There is a part of the area that he loves. This area along the water that it seems when people move there, they never want to leave. This is where he wants to get an apartment, right now he is in the basement of his house until he can legally leave. He took me out to this amazing restaurant and we kissed and held hands. We talked, we laughed and we had a great time. It was cold out but I said--well you took me here, lets go to the water. Freezing cold, we were both shivering and we kissed by the water under the stars. A block away, his friend had a million dollar home that has a separate little cabana that he had the key (how convenient). We went there to hang out. I looked at him and said...leave the condoms in the car. Oh he's one of those that doesn't like condoms but with me--no condoms no sex. And honestly, if the condoms were in the car, I knew we were not going to have sex. He laughed, hoping to sway me but I was like---empty your pockets dude...put the condoms in the car.

We went into the apartment and I so didn't want oral sex either. I made it clear to him but I ended up sucking his cock. I know, I just couldn't resist. It was very tempting and I was hot and horny. We were totally naked and he was devouring my nipples. OMG, you have the most amazing nipples. I guess they are pretty hot looking. He's not the first to tell me that. Size D tits with nipples that get all pointy...real pointy...an inch or more...he was dying and you know how there is a direct link to my pussy. I was drenched. When he went to put his fingers inside of he was like, wow! you are so wet, that is so hot! As he was fingering me, I needed to cum, I needed to go over the edge. I had to get there so I started to play with my clit. You are so fucking hot he said. It is such a turn on to watch you masturbate and see how your face is at such peace.

I came so hard..the wave overcame me. My entire body pulsated and I could feel that euphoria I love so much. A wave of heaven and then I sucked on him for just a few minutes and he came all over me. He asked, can I cum on you and I said where ever you want baby. He moaned and he came all over my tits.

We cleaned up and laid there for a few minutes and then we got dressed. He drove me home and we talked and laughed the whole way. I was calling him on things. He's used to girls falling in love with him right away. Are you in love with me yet? I said OMG, yes, let's run off to Vegas and get married tonight! and we both laughed. Wise ass, he said. Yeah, that's me baby. Don't hold your breath, I ain't fallen like the other chickies!

He walked me to the door and came in for a minute and then he left. When he got home, he called me and we spoke till 5AM. It was crazy, I am into this guy. the last two hours we talked about work. He was cracking up, he said, OMG, you are so damm smart and I am getting a woody from it. Now that is sick. I am so turned on by your brain that I am hard as a rock. We both laughed. Most people do phone sex, we did work sex.

Go out with me tonight, he said. Oh man, I had a tentative date with non-committal weekend. I will have to let you know in a bit. I called Mr non committal weekend and it still was non committed for the night because he had to work late so I told him lets make it another night. I don't want to get mad. He said, go ahead, call the next guy. I laughed but it wasn't that far from the truth. He's not stupid, I know he feels I am dating other people. Pulling away just a little.

I called back New Guy...Okay lets go out. I want to take you to a motel. I want to be alone with you and hold you. He's a major cuddler. I want to eat your pussy. He loves pussy. Geez, I am not sure I am ready for this. We will see I said. Lets start with dinner. I heard there is a great motel that is clean and he names it. My coffee went flying out of my mouth. It was the motel that was mine and Mystery Mans. Now I am sure Mystery Man is there every week with a new chickie but I have only been there once with Mr. Porsche. It was a little weird but I know him so well so it wasn't so awkward. This was different, this was a new guy. A new guy having my first encounter. I wasn't sure how I felt about it. It's just a damn place, I told myself. You were there once before, you will be fine. Mystery Man long forgot about you and has probably made that his own place with someone new. You're over it. Deal with it.

And so the evening began. He picked me up, he kissed me so sweetly, he opened the doors and closed them for me...he's a gentleman. And he sweeped me off to a restaurant with a fireplace. Actually I had been there with Mr. Security before and another date but that didn't matter. I love this place in the winter, sitting right by the fireplace...let the fun begin!