Large Cock Exposure Can Be Detrimental To My Future

Being exposed to some pretty damn nice cocks in my life has caused me to be less than enthused when I come across a medium cock. Realistically, I have been blessed with some amazing cocks. I mean, the trainers cock was so big this summer that I was afraid of it. I mean I couldn't even get half of it in my mouth and I never got the opportunity to experience it anymore than that this summer. honestly, that was my choice. Ladies and Gentleman, I am reaching a new level these days (I will have to explain in another post).

But back to cocks. Mr. Porsche is a nice length and he has damn girth. Thickness....mmmmmm. Mr. Astronaut also was in that category. Thick and long. Mystery Man had an amazing cock. It was thick and had girth...he also knew how to use the damn thing. IT fit perfect and well..enough said. And others I was with had decent sizes whether it be in length or some girth. Honestly, Mr. Security was little. Funny how when I was with him a few years ago I hadn't noticed it but it was kind of small.

I know I haven't been really updating as much but honestly the summer was fabulous. Not because of the great sex. Honestly, I had less sex than I have had in a really long time. I can't remember the last time I got laid. But there has been lots of fun...I hit a great point in my life this summer (I am getting off track...back to cocks).

Well there is this guy that I met in a local bar. I was out for drinks with a girlfriend and we were at a bar. This guy and I started talking and he seemed nice and cute so we chatted for awhile. Turns out that he is a field supervisor for an oil company (how ironic, I need a new oil burner--how lucky can a girl get). We've been seeing each other for around three weeks now. I am somewhat interested, actually not that interested, I am turning into a man this summer. I have had a new outlook on men lately. Anyway, I had to rush home because the babysitter had to leave so I abruptly said to my friend, we gotta go. As I was leaving I gave him my business card and ran out. He later said, I was like Cinderella and ran out leaving my card instead of a shoe and off I was before midnight.

He called me and we have seen each other quite a bit the last three weeks. He has been amazing to me, such a helpful guy. First time in my life I have allowed someone to help me. He helped me with my kids toy assembling it and he actually re-built my burner two nights ago. I paid for the parts and he spent over 5 hours fixing it. Uhm, probably the worse burner he had seen in 20 years he said. Truth was, the hubby never took care of it. I was lucky I met him, the thing had been on fire, he showed me the burnt areas. I would have been in trouble this winter.

He also came over one night and had gone to the fishermans and got a flounder right off of the boat. He then made me stuffed flounder with asparagus and crabcakes. I mean this man can cook. The flounder was to die for! It was the best dinner and so fresh tasting. Anyway, he has been cooking for me and taking care of little things. He is growing on me but I am not head over heels.

So back to the cock. I took this one slow. However, after working on my boiler for 5 hours, I felt I wanted to repay him . We haven't slept together or did we get into anything serious so I gave him a blow job. Here's the thing.....when his pants came down I basically was thinking...is that it? It was skinny and small. Deep throating was not a problem in the least. I was able to get his entire cock in my mouth and I didn't even flinch. So am I just getting amazing at deep throating or was it that he really didn't have much going on? maybe a little of both.

With ease, I was able to engulf his entire cock. I kept hoping it would get a little larger but it truly was engorged. He came in my mouth, it tasted very sweet in fact. Amazing tasting cum but even when he pushed my head down, I didn't even gag. I actually almost laughed that I was thinking....no problem dude, I can possible get your balls in my mouth too.

I gotta say, I am not exactly dying to have sex with him now except for the act of having sex. I am amazed how the emotional attachment thing doesn't come so quickly anymore. I finally get it! I get how men are about sex because I have started to feel the same way. Sex without an emotional attachment. I am loving this new freedom I feel. I am able to enjoy sex for the sex. I am actually seeing how men see it. Woo Hoo!! So I have to tell you, what a difference it is to enjoy it this way. Of course, it's not like this with everyone. In some ways I wish it were.

So now here's the thing. Have I just been lucky that I have had some juicy cocks or is it just a weird coincidence that the last two cocks have been tiny. And why did I not notice how tiny Mr. Security was years ago?!?!?! Hmmmm.....let's hope that my exposure to so many thick, delicious cocks is going to cause me to have a problem enjoying a man who is not so well endowed.

An Amazing Single Summer

My posts have been so infrequent this summer and I do apologize. I am disappointed with myself for because I had a phenomenal summer and quite frankly I didn't keep it in my blog for memories. There was no one super special, in fact I dated here and there, went out on the town a lot which I think is what made is so great versus sitting at home. But most importantly, I am growing and feeling really good about myself as a person.

The only down side is the EX. He is getting a little psychotic on me and quite frankly it is scaring me. He has been stalking the house. Sending me notes when I am out, showing up when I had the Electrician over and I had to shove him outside. And last night, we had a drag out war. He has decided he has a right to things in the house. He was told that he needed to remove everything last year....all of a sudden he tried to threaten me last night over some crystal pieces. Honestly, I would have given them to him but the way he attacked me....screw him. He threatened to come in and break them if I didn't give them to him, claiming he would do the jail time out of principle. SCARY! So I said you want them I will fling them out the door now! Oh, it was ugly and then it got worse.

I had gone to the store and regrettably left him in the house. Where he ravaged through my things. However, you better be prepared when you ravage through someones things on what you will find. I had a bag by the door of toys. He claimed my kid was going through them, she couldn't reach them....in there were vibrators, massagers, ropes and a few other kinky toys. He was disgusted, he was freaking out, I just giggled serves you right. The rest of the night he was texting me, accusing me of cheating on him when we were married and telling me G-d would get me. Wooooooow! I was more scared he was going to show up with a knife.

He's dating now and I hope he finds a girl fast. He tells me how he can't take the kids because he needs the weekends to go out with women. Let's just say the rest of the night consisted of what do you do with the ropes? what were some of the things in the bag? I told him to look it up online, don't bother me.

Except for him, I have to say I am feeling a really good inner peace right now. Work is crazy and high pressure, men are nothing special (except for Mr. P and the electrician--everyone else is just a few good dates). I will talk write more soon....wanna catch you up

Crazy Days, Crazy Nights

Yes, this has been a summer to remember. My computer has been acting up and its been painful to try and post since its running sooooo slow. But I can say...I have been extremely busy these past few weeks.

Mr. Electrician and I have really clicked. It's a weird connection and quite frankly his next month is so packed I will probably not see him. But he's slept over three times and I slept at his house as well. The sex is really good. And of course I will share the evenings....so worth the post. Doing it in front of his fireplace.....doing it in my gazebo outside. Oh it has been an unbelievable few weeks. We're going to a lecture together later this month. We're friends with fringe benefits. He's smart, he's fun, we grab dinner together and just laugh and tell each other funny stories. I feel so relaxed with him. I am not on guard. It's been 20 years since I have gotten stoned and we got stoned together...oh my, my brain felt like it was split in half. One side still working (I could see little men in my head sitting at desks working) and the other side was so relaxed and content. Coolest feeling. And the sex and blow job when I was stoned. Well I will write the full night but damn. You know I love giving a man a blow job but this was amazing! I was sooooo into it. I mean I was soooooo enjoying his cock.

The newest addition is Charlie Brown. My friends call him that because he is bald. I have never dated a bald man. A body to die for. He is so damn sexy and an amazing tongue. I can tell he is going to be an amazing lover.

I have been out every night the past two weeks and have been having soooo much fun. It's hysterical. Mr. Porsche has been busy with his family. He knows I am getting frustrated. We had a real heart to heart the other night. He posted to this college gf Love you babe. And well it was truly a friend only love you but it set me in a tailspin. I will explain.

So I am still alive....I am having the time of my life right now. Every night I have gone out, I have met a guy and just have been having fun. I have to write my posts soon because I kind of put feelers out for a whole new group of frogs....lol. Single life is agreeing with me these days. I feel alive most of the time, lonely still at times but mostly really great about me.

And, I think I had a major revelation! In one day, Mr. Porsche, Mr. Electrician and Charlie Brown all said basically the same thing about me on why they like me. And then it hit me...that's it. Those are the personality traits I strive for and when I am in a good place, that is what turns men on. So....I might have to run with it and share it with you and you can let me know if anyone agrees with me.

Okay, gotta get ready tonight to go out. Tonight is the last night of the season for that hot lounge I have been hanging out in. I am going to get dressed and I am ready to have fun! I truly hope you all are enjoying your days and nights as much as I am. I truly gotta say that I think I am enjoying the summer so because I am discovering so much more about me. Even more than the men. I am discovering who I am and the men are just a little flavor to the stew.

Enjoy your night...I hope I do!