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Woo Hoo!! I remember when I first started my blog, I found fleshbot. I saw all these sex blogs featured and laughed at my fleeting thought that I might one day make a feature. And to my surprise, I did!!! thanks Jefferson, you made my day!!


Except from Fleshbot!!

There's nothing more comforting than cuddling up with the spouse—even if it happens to be someone else's spouse. As we pay conjugal visits to some of our favorite sex bloggers in today's Sex Blog Roundup, we find that many husbands and wives keep their wedding bands charged with secret affairs, bar room pick ups, and beaver-shaving parties. And every now and then, some couples even find time to sneak off alone. Romance isn't totally dead, you know

"He opened the door . . . he looked as sexy as he did the first time. Actually, he looked even sexier. I was all worked up. I had just had a disaster at work that I had to fix . . . so I arrived frazzled. Funny how a man's touch and kiss can slowly take away the stress of the day. Oh yes, he grabbed me and kissed me and I could feel the crisis disappearing. "

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A Spur of the Moment , Hot Secret Rendezvous

Great day at work.....closed some major deals....life was going great. I love being spontaneous...I was feeling flirty and fun.

Call to Mystery Man...."What are you doing right now?"
"Talking to you and watching my cock get a little hard".
"How was your day?"
"Excellent, I closed a big account"
"How coincidental, so did I. We have to meet right now, half way and let's celebrate in the car".
"mmmm....now that sounds hot".
"Okay, meet in the isolated parking lot"

I start to drive and the thought of seeing him is making me wet. Twice in one week.....wow! Mr, Government could barily handly once every two weeks. Wow, this was hot and spontaneous.

The rain pouring down, I couldn't wait to get there....I pull next to him in his car...and well, he looked so fucking hot. He wasn't dressed up, sweat pants, unshaven and this hot shirt. Damn, I couldn't wait to touch those lips. And I ran in the rain into his car.

"Wow, you look fucking hot"as he reaches over to kiss me and we start kissing like teenagers in heat. He has amazing lips......"let me give you your collagen treatment" mmmm....he starts sucking on my lips. Well those aren't the only lips that wanted attention.....I could feel my thong was drenched.

I push his seat back and start sucking on his cock....I can hear him moaning....I love that he finds my lips so enjoyable.....licking, sucking, moving with the moans..yes, taking cues as he moans....h stops me because well I was doing a great job and he didn't want to cum yet....

He moves his hands in my shirt playing with my nipples and then his hand slipped under my skirt.....mmmmmm....so damn wet. Yes, I wanted him.

At first, we were listening to every sound, every car in the distance and well as it got heated we couldn't care...."did you bring a condom?" I said almost breathless. "No...I ran out so fast, I forgot". My eyes almost bugged out of my head...damn....well obviously we weren't having sex. "Hmm....we are cheaters....we meet for a rendezvous....were you expecting that we were going to play cards or talk about philosophical events in the world?" As I was giggling. "I know, I know"...well honestly, it was fine....I went down on him again....this time determined to make him cum!

Consistent mouth movements, sucking, licking, playing with his balls...I was on a mission. "Oh shit, I am going to cum" with a moan. I guess that was my warning if I didn't want to swallow, its time to move off. Well, I didn't, I was feeling dirty and I wanted to swallow every little drop....YUM!! A total clean up....perfect! Not one drop escaped.....

He pulled me up to him, he looked me in my eyes and took his finger and traced my face..."Baby, you are dangerous!" Oh no!!!!!!!!!! Those words, I've heard them before....and the result has always been withdrawal......retreat....Oh No!!!!

"you are just as dangerous sexy" I said and I kissed him. "My turn as I moved his hand under my skirt". We didn't have a lot of time...so we worked together to get me to cum...I rubbed my clit and he so creatively placed two fingers (maybe three) inside of me..he was reaching spots that felt so damn good. Oh, I came so damn hard...

We kissed good by......and I went into my car. Miraculously the sun was starting to come out. How perfect....and we looked at each other, threw a kiss and we both went on our way.

He wrote me later last night.....you were such a good sport! A good sport? I think everything was great...I hope he doesn't think that I need sex everytime we meet. I would be happy just lying in his arms and kissing......I need to make that clear.

He hinted he had checked some responses from Ashley. I went to see if he had been there. 1 Day...I know, he could be checking mine. Marathoner is right. I cheat, I check with the other account. Today, I checked with my account (even though I knew he was there a day ago). And I sent him a note on Ashley MAdison.....

"so I didn't pay enough attention to you this week? We are going to have to solve that next time we meet. I am going to suck you dry so you have absolutely nothing left to use with someone else. Oh just you wait!!! hee hee. So did you find someone who can make you cum like me? LOL

Yeah, it bothers me...I can't imagine he will find someone that it would be as hot with but you never know.....I am just a tad insecure. Funny how Ashley can find you men and also cause insecurity......

Well I am going to be confident.....I am having a great time...not think....damn, I am totally satisfied and couldn't even think of any more sex today. I wonder if he feels the same way? Sigh, I am happy.....my boss even asked me what is different about me? I can't believe he could tell but honestly there is nothing different....isn't that funny!

HAPPY?!?!

So can you see why I can't hide in this room???
The mirrors are everywhere!!!

So am I happy? Yes, I am happy. I am content. In the past, the frogs have freaked after we had sex. You can feel the change in their attitude....the fear that I might get attached...the regular line...you deserve more.....





Well I figured out where that came from. My life is tough. I am not just saying that, I know I have hinted but I have been given a lot of obstacles that most people would probably fold under the pressure. I am a strong, confident, determined woman but when people see what I have on my plate...they feel they need to help me (although I never would accept the help).





Well, I realized now, if you don't know all that I have on my plate..... I am a confident, determined, independent woman. I come across as secure, happy and dynamic. If you don't know just how much baggage I have to carry around, I am very strong. Hence, Mystery Man. He doesn't know anything...so I come across as all of those things and I love it!! I have decided that I love this escape....and I love that he doesn't know my crap.





Alluring....spontaneous, passionate, sexy, hot, irresistable... all words he used to describe me. hee.hee





Am I falling for him? Think about it? I really can't. I don't know him. I am loving our meetings, our emails, our calls. I am loving how he makes me feel. But I know nothing about him except that he loves to spank my ass, loves to eat me out, loves his cock licked up and down and in circles, he loves erotic positions, he loves to laugh, he loves to kiss. He loves green apple jelly beans but not the lemon ones....he loves to suck my nipples!!





He lives 10-15 minutes away....he has a flexible schedule.....next week, we are going to go to an afternoon matinee and fool around...





So am I happy? Yes. I feel that hole in my heart is not there. That emptiness is filling up. My head also is in a good state. I'm not so insecure...he doesn't have a problem telling me he wants me. And that is what I need. Any downfalls? Well, he checked Ashley yesterday...you know how that makes me insecure. Well this time, I am just a tad insecure...but I am going to say that he checked to see if I checked. And well, I cheated. I checked on my girlfriends account so mine still says that I haven't been there in 7 days.....it's not cheating, I didn't look at any of the mens profiles, just to see if he checked. Sneaky? Maybe a little. Well, I will check again in a day or two to see if he has returned. Then I will say something. But you know what? I know he is having a memorable time .......our sessions are definitely hot!!

Perfect Paradise, Is he Mr. Married Prince Charming?

He opened the door...he looked as sexy as he did the first time. Actually, he looked even sexier. I was all worked up. I had just had a disaster at work that I had to fix...so I arrived frazzled. Funny how a man's touch and kiss can slowly take away the stress of the day. Oh yes, he grabbed me and kissed me and I could feel the crisis disappearing.

He has a power tongue....his kisses are amazing. I can kiss him for hours and hours and hours. Let's see, at first we attacked each other with our clothes flying off...and then he laid me down and we 69nd. I have a hard time concentrating as I am about to orgasm....its hard to keep sucking while my body is responding....I came hard...he was as hard as a rock.....I licked and sucked and licked some more (using that special inner lip technique).

Ah! I brought whipped cream and chocolate syrup.....and I covered his cock in both while he covered my pussy as well....yum...a little afternoon delight....it was cold, it was hot...it was fun!!..
After we licked each other dry......our sundaes were done....he grabbed me up...I giggled with such force....oh he positioned me on the armchair....and fucked me from behind....it was hot!!

There was a glass shelf that I leaned over and he did me from behind.....then I bent all the way over touching my toes...and yes...from behind again!!

He got injured a few times because I was wearing 4 inch heels. Once, I landed on his toe and his nail came off, he hit his head on the mirror and another time my heels went into his chest. I laughed and laughed so hard.

Romantic moments....they actually were my favorite....we sat tasting jelly beans and guessing the flavors as we closed our eyes.....we layed in each others arms and just held each other tight. He spooned me and his cock just rubbed against me.

He dribbled chocolate on my nipples and just sucked on them for 15 minutes while he played with my clit until I orgasmed. Now that was hot..

And then, we fucked again...but this time it was slow and intense. He traced my face and I traced his with my finger.....we smiled....we gazed into each others eyes....our bodies were entwined....it was perfect.

So can Mr. Married Prince Charming be someone I know nothing about? He is a total mystery. He is a man who gives my body total pleasure and I know nothing about him. And I am feeling comfortable with him now...very comfortable and that is great. Actually, I like not knowing anything about him....you can't fall for someone you don't know. I go to a hotel room and a Mystery Man fucks me in every position and makes me feel at peace afterwards. Now that is really nice...it is paradise...

And even nicer...he's not scared afterwards....oh Mr. Government would run as soon as we had that connection....Mystery Man sends me notes how he can't wait to have me in his arms again and how he can't wait to be inside of me. Now that is nice. A man who isn't afraid of a connection.

So, I am trying not to think. I am trying not to look ahead or feel insecure. And what was even nicer, I rarily am where I am. I am always thinking about what I have to do in an hour, 3 hours, tomorrow...I never live in the moment. But with him, I do. It's me, him and paradise....

So our next event will be oils.....both of us all oiled up and massaging each other.....and possibly me tied up....hmmm......Content....yes, I am very content right now.

Sweet Wet Dreams......damn I can't wait to go to sleep!! And to think I was going to close my Ashley Account!

Finally Some Inner Peace

Amazing what a great night's sleep can do for you. Nothing has changed in my life but I feel at peace. Okay, for some reason I don't think it was just the good night's sleep. I met Mystery Man yesterday again. Three hours just flew by so quickly......gotta say, it was WOW! I am at a lose of words.....I haven't even finished telling you about the first rendezvous and we met again.

Our first meeting was hot and wild. We attacked each other....it was raw, it was intense...mmmm....highlights.....him eating me out for what felt like hours until I came. We must have fucked in 10 different positions, him always trying to get deeper and deeper..and then my feet were over my head and he thrusted so hard....oh, there was a shower scene too.
So the flashbacks were coming to me fiercely all weekend....they just kept coming and coming.....and I was getting hornier and hornier. Coincidentally, he wrote me that he was having flashbacks as well. So when Monday rolled around, neither one of us could concentrate.

Great sex is like a drug...you want more and more and more......to make you higher and higher and higher. Oh, I needed a fix of Mystery Man. We couldn't wait so we met again yesterday afternoon. I worked like a madwoman to get three hours in of peace and escape....

I will write more later...I gotta get some work done. But this time, it was just as good. Different..less animalistic but actually even more fulfilling. I hated to leave....it was the perfect escape to paradise....mmmm.....Life is just as insane but I am feeling good. A three hour sex marathon certainly can sooth the inner beast.....YUM!!

An Escape To Our Own Paradise

Tough crowd!!

He gets an A for effort guys! And no, my heart doesn't flutter and I don't hold on to every word like it was golden. PLEASE!! You have to know me better than that. But he did try and he did care enough to want to make me feel good, special and wanted....and that's what matters. Sometimes its the approach, not the exact words. It's an escape remember? It's what you want it to be....not reality....

We met today....it was hot. It was really nice. We met at Starfucks....and we had a Chai. We talked a little but not much about who we are and for a change, I liked that. This man knows nothing about my life AND I liked that. It was different. When are Chai's were done....we decided that we could have another one, go to a movie or go to the famous hourly motel down the road. I started to get shy.....I couldn't bring myself to say let's go to the motel. So we made a deal....we were going to go to the motel. No expectations......we could watch tv, talk, kiss....and see what the day brought. That I could handle (and in my heart, I knew what was going to happen).

Okay, you want cheesy....we got a room...mirrors on the ceiling, lights flashing....it was fun!! He was soooo cute, he brought a sheet. Funny we were thinking the same thing....but it wasn't so sleezy....but that was nice. Okay, more cheesy...... he mixed about 20 songs for us to listen to. They were hot and seductive and he definitely took some time to mix them. That was nice..come on guys.....!!

We got into the room and we looked into each others eyes. He has brown penetrating eyes with a little sinister look and a smile to match. He leaned over and kissed me.......I love the first kiss....he had a strong tongue...I love strong tongues. We went at it...kissing and kissing and kissing.... "Dueling Tongues" I said.

He took my hand and had me stand up......holding my face in his hands....smiling and kissing my forehead...he slowly began to undress me....he liked control..I could feel it. He wanted to control the rendezvous....he placed me on the bed....and we kissed more...this time it was heating up...our clothes were coming off and then he pinned me to the bed and worked his way down....down, down, down...."you taste so damn sweet and juicy" oh yum....I love when a man goes down on me...I wanted to cum, I went to play with my clit...he pinned me again....he wanted to control...he wanted to please me...and he was....I loved his technique, it had me squirming.....he was determined to suck me and finger me until I would cum. And so I did...

Round 1 complete.....to be continued....oh it was so hot. We spent three hours in paradise....entwined, ravaging each other....life is good....fun words, fun thoughts, mmmmm......

The Anticipation and Lustful Emails exceprts!

Nothing is like the anticipaton of a new meeting. The emails flying back and forth....the words of lust and desire.. The anticipation of the first kiss. Mmmmmmm..... The little girl excitement that is within me is overwhelming.....it fills me. That hole that has been so empty is finally filled.

Of course, I know the reality. It doesn't last long. I always find the smooth men on the site. The great talkers...this one is amazing with words. He is hot in looks, hot in words but he is a player.
So dear friends, if you want some words to steal or want to know what gets me all worked up...her are some excerpts from our emails last night!! Oh men, steal these lines...they made me wetter than wet!!

"Careful, if that pillow represents me it might try to devour you in the middle of the night. Lusty dreams sweetie. I know I'll be thinking of you. TTYL."

"Hey babe, it was a busy day. I just got back from a birthday dinner at a local restaurant. All through dinner I kept thinking about how good you must taste. Did you think that is a sign of things that come over and over again? Mmmm...T minus 2 and counting"

"Well if my words bring a smile to your face, just imagine how my actions will bring moans from those sexy lips of yours..... Mmmmm....I must say I'm impressed how your mind works, so similar to my own. So I'm starting to think that you have more than coffee on your mind. Perhaps a quiet little hideaway where we can release all these pent up desires we seem to share and then create some erotic memories to cherish. I wouldn't want to get in the way of such a determined lady who's churning desires and burning passion is so unstoppable. I have a place in mind that's just minutes down the road from that StarFucks we're going to be at. God Damn It better be fucking Friday already!!!!"

Double The Goodness

Oh! I've mentioned this before.....I go for doubles. I've dated two guys with the same name throughout my life. However, I never did that at the same time. You Win and the new guy have the same name. Now there is convenience!!! Screaming during orgasm, I don't have to worry the name I scream out....

Today, the new guy was my entertainment...oh, he is quite good with words. He is quick witted just like I like them....he kept me entertained and wet all afternoon. I love that first connection. I love when you first start flirting with someone. Its so fucking hot!! The anticipation....the desire, the want.....okay, you know I had to masturbate this afternoon. I couldn't concentrate.

We flirted and flirted and chatted....discussed what we wanted to try....aaahhh....we started to cross over the line. I could feel us floating over....I could feel the wetness and desire in between my legs. HOT!!

We got a long great....then I sent him a few pictures of me. He was very happy...extremely happy. That made me feel so great. I know I am pretty but it feels nice when a guy says WOW! You are gorgeous. Makes me blush... and then get nervous. He liked a pix of me that I was all dolled up. hmmm....interesting. You Win! liked the natural one of me with hardly any makeup...down to earth. Different men, different styles......

Well he's into blindfolding....oh yes...we decided we would meet Friday at Starbucks and compare our Wish Lists....see if we can satisfy each others needs.

Okay, so I went to Ashley to clean out the box and close it. how did this happen?? Wasn't I closing my podcast and my blog a week ago?? I don't know if I mentioned that....I was going to close up....and hear I am....like a little school girl again.....part of me wants to skip the damn coffee and just get laid. Damn, I could use a nice, hard cock right now...maybe I will suggest it...

Tonight's Entertainment--A New Flirting Frog!

When I feel alone and rejected....I always end up back at Ashley Madison. Stalin was correct, it's an addiction. An addiction which I thought I had truly beat but after today, it pulled me back in. I went to check my mail and POOF!!! My email starts to go crazy. 47 new messages on Ashley today alone....I couldn't resist. What happens if Mr. Married Prince Charming is on there? so I start to go through the list as I have so many times before. Some of my friends do scrapbooks, others are into knitting....well, my hobby is flirting and screwing cute guys. I guess everyone has to have a hobby, right?

And yes, record time, I found a frog to play with. A cute one at that....a boy toy..only 36. He looks young. And he's a wise guy. Quick witted, fun, enticing.... of course we went back and forth for about two hours....each one of us giving great email. It's truly mental stimulation that gets you going in this game of seduction. The words are so important. If you give good email, you are set. I love good email!!

So, he wanted to meet tomorrow. I don't think so. a little chat, a little talk on the phone....we will see if he's worth the meeting.

Spoke with Tadpole...oh we have to meet next week.....I want to see him. And You Win!....sounds stupid but he tried the Viagra with his wife and it was great. I'm happy for him. I feel us slipping....the honeymoon is over. No more sweet loving words like before...I don't know, he doesn't even ask when he's going to see me. He wants me to find more, he wants me to find someone closer in addition to him.

And then the big head blower for the day. I was driving and there was Mr. Government. I could feel my insides twist, I could feel my heart sink..I could feel the desire swooshing around inside of me and.....I kept driving. He didn't see me. Did a ton of bricks fall from the sky and land on me?? He didn't give me so much....yeah he was fucking hotter than hot.....but why am I still thinking of him?

We all know how I love romance......how I desire to be swept off my feet. Well now I found something that is sure to be a winner in your secret lovers life or your wife. What better way then to have you and your lover's names in a real romance book!! Oh you know how much we love those trashy books. Well what better way then to have your name in there.

Okay, you can't get your secret lover too many things. The book is something that is not highlighted..so it looks real. She can read about you and her every night...your dirty little secret.

Or of course, your wife. Oh man.....this is the gift to get laid...especially if your wife ever reads one of these books. She will be shocked that you did this!!!!!!!!

This is a sex winner!!

Yeah, its an affiliate program thing so be sure to click on it from my site. I saw this and I immediately signd up for the affiliate program!! What a great gift....

you can personalize it and try it out go for it!!

Oh man, I am such a moosh!!

Below is the link and I also did a paragraph sample....sigh!!! Married Prince Charming where are you????




Personalized Romance Novel - ER Fever!








Prince Charming Hot Stuff signed the race sponsorship contract and extended his hand to shake. cheri reached out and felt the strength and warmth of his fingers – as he unintentionally transferred grease to her palm. “It’s a deal, Ms. Moore,” Prince Charming said with a broad smile, his blue eyes sparkling with amused curiosity. “I’ll be here for the race on Sunday, and if you need to contact me here’s my card.” Pulling a card from inside the pocket of her blazer, she inadvertently marked her white button-down shirt with the grease from her hand. Prince Charming took the card and quickly glanced at it, chuckling for some reason. cheri stood and straightened her shirt hem, wiping more grease on the white cotton fabric. “Thanks,” Prince Charming said, his lips curled into a devious smirk. “Um, you got a little smudge on your face. Let me wipe it off for you.” He reached up to her left cheek and smeared more black goo to match the opposite side. cheri shivered involuntarily in response to his touch. “There, I got it. Oops. There’s a little on your nose too,” he said as he dabbed a bit more on her nose. “All better. I’d hate for you to leave here looking like you’re a mechanic or something.” “Ah, thanks,” cheri said, frowning at his strangely amused expression. “But Prince Charming don’t let the suit fool you, I’m quite accustomed to the world of racing...

The 1/2 awake lover

Ever be fast asleep and awaken just enoughh to realize that you are hornier than you can believe. The dream I had must have been AMAZING! I could feel the wetness in between my legs...the desire to have a cock inside of me....

I could see some frogs running through my head....I could see one specific frog...was I dreaming about him?

How I wish, there was a man next to me that I wanted to do. The thought of just reaching over and grabbing his cock....the thought of starting to kiss his neck and before he was even 1/2 awake, I would be sucking on his cock. Now that is a way to wake up....I think a guy would love that. I would certainly love to wake to a man's face in between my legs....mmmmm....

Sigh, reality is here. I roll back over and close my eyes. Damn, if only I could get back into that dream.

Happy Monday!

Under Survellance....

It's been hard for me to blog lately and quite honestly, I do miss the escape. I love to tell you my inner thoughts, I love to place them up here for you all to read. It's as if you are my inner souls talking to me. I know it sounds strange, but I truly use this as my journal. I have rarily gone back to read it. It's as if its a dumping ground of my heart and soul.

Lately its been harder to write for a few reasons. One, I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel.....I'm still so far away, but it seems more attainable these days. So I have been working like crazy to reach that light. But I have been on a treadmill and well, I don't know if I am going at it the right way. It's political, its confusing....its more drama that I just don't really need. Life is so political and its who you know. I hope I am playing my cards right.

Well, I have to tell you....it amazes me on how drama finds me. I truly do not search it out. but it always finds me. Yesterday....was so typical of my life..I swear you couldn't even make this stuff up.

The hubby pulled the same shit again. It doesn't change for him because he doesn't see anything wrong with what he does. And reality, its not going to change. We will never see eye to eye on things and honestly, he's instilling into my children that his way is normal. So, now I am beginning to think that him being around them is truly not a good thing but there is a hysterical story so stick with me here.

My child wanted a new piece of sporting equipment. I can't afford it and he was going to take it out of the money that he made. So far, so good right? Well the payment didn't come in so I said we have to wait for you to purchase it. Hubby went behind my back and took the mortgage money to lay out the money for it. Mind you, I have been working 3 different jobs....and I scraped the money together....and now a chunk was gone. Feeling defeated (AGAIN) I waited for his pay to come in and paid the mortgage (basically scrapping every penny). So this week, there is truly no money around ( I hid $30....luckily so I could buy groceries for the kids and medicine for the little one). Personally, its disgusting that life has gotten to this point. Writing what I just wrote makes me sick to my stomach. I never lived like this...EVER.

Anyway, so the hubby calls and says he needs gas. I just meet him and give him money. Sorry dude! There is none I told him. His answer, I should have waited till this week to pay the mortgage. Not, I shouldn't have bought the sporting equipment. Not, we are already two months behind. None of that. No, I was wrong for being responsible and trying to get out of debt as he just shovels on more. I hung up on him. Called my girlfriend as sat there freaking out on the phone in front of the pharmacy.

For 15 minutes I went on and on how bad my day was. I noticed people walking outside my car but I wasn't really paying attention. There was a guy in a car behind me but I wasn't paying attention. Finally as I was saying how I can't take these days...there is a tap on my window. I look over and its a guy with a ponytail...looking not like your model citizen. I was afraid to open the window. All of a sudden, he flashes a badge. I'm on the phone with my girlfriend still....is it illegal to sit in front of a meter that was missing the meter? "Is your name Pam?" "No I say". Do you have any ID? I show him my ID.....he had already run my plates to know the car was in my name and I had my license. They were looking for a suspect that fit my description for bad prescriptions. they had been surveillancing me for the 15 minutes but I wouldn't get out of the car. They were afraid I was going to be tipped off that they already arrested the two other people they were looking for.

Geez!! Like my day wasn't bad enough. Well, I started laughing hysterical. I never wear my hair in a ponytail (and today I did). I grabbed my winter jacket with the fur on the collar and was complaining that I was hot. They showed me the description of the female they were looking for because they felt bad that they stopped me like that. Hee.hee. I told him how I was complaining what a bad day I was having and now I almost got arrested. How crazy was that. MY girlfriend was dying on the phone. the cop could hear her laughing. Now he was laughing. So no matter how I try to keep the drama down...the drama finds me.

My life is so bizarre. Yeah, its 2:30AM...I can't sleep. the kids were all up, got me up,they went back to sleep and I am pacing the floors. You Win! and I are okay. He lives so far away. Right now he's been enough. I can't figure him out but what else is new. He says I am too insecure yet he keeps trying to make me that way. Says he was meeting a girl yesterday to see my reaction. HELLO??!?! We all know I am soooo damn jealous. It's not the jealousy as it is the insecurity of thinking that he found someone better than me. That's what it comes down to. He was Bullshitting (or was he?!)

Springer called me and emailed me. He is definitely done. He wants to have a threesome. So now its as if it can't be the two of us....before he gets serious with his girlfriend (hmm..I thought you were already)...he wants to have a threesome with me and another girl. I should ask my friends. Oh, yeah!! Does he think I belong to a swingers club? Please....I'm done.

so here I am....alone. Lately, I have been thinking about starting over. Moving to another state...more affordable with the kids and beginning again.

Secret Rendezvous Meeting Part 2

Hey!!!! I am still alive and kicking. I honestly have just been extremely busy working and trying to keep food on the table and internally dealing with my life. I am at a crossroad right now. Not exactly sure which road to take and of course I will share after I finish my rendezvous.

So now here is the hysterical part of the rendezvous...

I feel so comfortable with him. Like I know him forever. I didn't feel like I had to put a sexy facade on, like I had to play games. I was me and that was sooooo nice.

So we laid in bed for awhile just talking and him holding me in his arms. Our conversations are endless...there is never a lull. Of course I had to have a pillow fight with him and he thinks I am nuts. But we giggle and laugh and that's what makes it very special.

His life is very controlled. He is a Marine. His home life is quiet and predictable. I can see him with the lounging robe, pipe and the dog bringing him his slippers. And then there is ME! Sometimes I don't think he knows how to deal with me....he just laughs.

Embarrassing moments....I am going to confess. I still giggle outloud when I think about them.
First, he didn't want to wear a condomn. Well we have to. You know the rules with me. Safe sex is the most important thing. So as a joke when i went to pick up the food, I also picked up a box of condoms. As we unpacked the dinner I said "wow look what they give you for dessert!"

The Mushroom
I was so hungry. A whole day of not eating. An evening of sex and so hormoned up from those pills....I was starved and craving a juicy burger. There was a local place that has amazing burgers so we ordered. Mine was with mushrooms and onions.... well this damn burger was from heaven. It was so scrumptous....just the way I like it...medium rare and juicy. The mushroom were piled so high that I took a bite and one fell out of the sandwich and down the front of my shirt...in between my boobs. Now this was extremely funny because Curious George had just told me about a meeting he had with a girl and how grossed out he was when a similiar thing happened to her and she said "You can lick that later". So I decided not to use that line.

"You know you eat like a fucking marine"....I was dying. I admit it. I wasn't my usual relax, eat and enjoy a romantic dinner. For some reason, it was as if I was at home with the kids. Eat as fast as I can so I can get to cleaning up and doing all my work. I probably would have re-done this part of the evening and ordered a salad but fuck it...I hadn't eaten all day...and the burger was what my hormones wanted.

I was on the phone also, checking in with the family..so I reached down and grabbed the mushroom. He was laughing and so was I. Meal was over and we sat on the couch in the room and talked some more. I layed down across his lap and he was lovingly tickling my belly with his fingers....then he says what the fuck is this? Oh my GOD!! It was a mushroom. I was now laughing out of control. I couldn't even catch my breath. I missed another part of the mushroom. How damn embarrassing!!

He was quiet. He wasn't feeling so great. He did love playing with my toys. He wouldn't let me stick it up his butt though. So we cuddled and fooled around a little more. We both were exhausted.....the room was so damn hot and I couldn't breathe. My airways were all clogged now. What a match we made.

he held me in his arms. Time for bed. Well, I wanted more. So I kept playing with his cock and kissing his neck. Poor guy was exhausted. I guess he concluded though that he wasnt going to get any sleep until he fucked me again. He looked at me and said..."Pull your fuckin panties off." I giggled. And then he started ravaging me. Absolutely yummy. We fucked with my legs in the air, we did it in the spoon position AND of course, my favorite....from behind. Which he came nice and hard as did I. He stood at the end of the bed and I was on all fours. Nothing like getting it from behind....

The Snoring...
Since my fall, I think I crushed my sinus. I have a hard time breathing out of one side of my face. Then with the heat in the damn room....I couldn't breathe in there. A little wine, exhaustion, hot room and well I was snoring. I was hysterical because I could hear myself. I usually don't snore but tonight, I couldn't breathe in here. He couldn't fall asleep with my snoring. I was laughing hysterical. At one point, he was standing over me looking at me and I woke up and it scared the crap out of me so I jumped up which startled him. His face was priceless. During the night, I woke up to find him with the pillow over his head. How hysterical. Then when he sleeps.....his legs jerk. His body moves. He kept waking me up.

So let's just say, I forgot what it was like to sleep with someone else. That night, we were not compatable. Definitely not compatable. But it was damn funny.

He woke up early.....he was in the shower. Tiredly, I snuck in. We both just let the water drip on us.....him holding me sleepily. He kissed me so gently and sweetly....it was so nice. I kissed his neck and of course began to get a little frisky. He looks me in the eyes and says "You are a fucking machine!" We both giggled. We were both too tired to do anything but just stand there.

So he left and I went back to sleep for a little bit. I met him at his place of work and then we spent the rest of the day as business associates. Working. No one knew what we had just shared. The Passion and the fun.

So things have been good. We deal a lot on business together. I feel our sexual connection as certainly dropped a little. He had said he felt obsessed for awhile...so I guess its a healthier connection now. What we had was what I needed. It was a great Rendezvous. And now? It's on the fence and I am okay with that.

He has a hard time with the drama in my life. But that is my life. I cannot help it. And I was annoyed because he wanted to know it all, he wanted to know all about me, he wanted to help me....so when he made a comment about the drama is a lot for him......it angered me a little. I felt like it was a slap in the face. You wanted to know, you pushed till I opened up to you and then you throw it in my face. I was upset but now I just don't tell him as much.

I don't share the drama with the frogs. I want to escape it, so I rarily tell them all about it. The only ones who know are Mr. Podcaster and Tadpole. My confidants. Now with Tadpole, I was waiting for him to contact me..he was waiting for me to contact him...so for a week we both waited for the other. Nothing has ever happened with us....yet, I did think about him before my rendezvous. I wonder what that means?

So that's the update. I have been staying low at Ashley Madison. And that is where the crossroads comes in. I will explain when I have a little more time.

Secret Lover Meeting-Part 1

Spending the night with you Win! was quite the adventure. I haven't spent a night with another man in 15 years. So I hadn't realized how different it would be.

I looked through the peephole (knowing that he had his finger over it...we're always on the same wavelength...and he did). I opened the door and he whisped me in, grabbing me and smiling....Hi Baby Girl!! I love being called that. We kissed at the doorway.....it was a slow, sweet and inviting....he showed me a bottle of wine and we just sat down on the couch. There was plenty of time for activities...which was so nice.

Downside...he was getting sick. He felt like crap. Damn....that stinks. His throat hurt, his body ached and I was not happy. I am finally feeling great and he is sick. Well I was going to have to pamper him....(and fuck him wildly)!

There was no awkwardness between us, it was as if we were old friends. He makes me laugh so hard. He opened the bottle of wine and we sat down on the couch and just talked for a bit. I had gone shopping at this little artsy town and bought this great necklace. I joked with him, everytime I wear this necklace it is either going to remind me of a great night or a sucky one...

I started to show him the other little trinkets I bought...."you describe things with such enthusiasm...you are so full of life" and then he got up and kissed me. We made our way to the bed laughing...."let's look at the toys you bought". Oh I stopped at the toy store and loaded up on a few things....or Home Depot as he called it. I wrote Home Depot on the bag....hee.hee

filled with anal beds, caramel whipped cream, vibrator, edible paints, glow in the dark condoms and other little fun stuff.....yes, we were going to have fun.

I was concerned about him and the Viagra...he had never tried it before and well....I was a little worried. Well, let's just say he didn't need it. All body parts seemed to miraculously work 100% okay with no help. For him, I think that alone was a huge plus.

His cock was hard and he rubbed up against me. I love the feeling of a hard cock...I was dripping.....the thought of spending 14 hours was so nice and relaxing for a change. We giggled and played and the passion began to build...I couldn't wait to feel him inside of me. I was dripping and needed to feel a hard cock. nothing is more exciting then feeling the head spreading me apart on entry.....the anticipation, the desire....the want...

The first round was hot....first missionary and then with my legs in the air. He entered me hard. I have to tell you that it felt so damn good to feel a man inside of me again. He worked and worked until I came. I could feel my whole body going, I could feel that aura taking me over, I could feel the shiver throughout my whole body. And so did he...he said he could feel my walls pulsating so intensely.

Mmmmm...now this was a great way to start the rendezvous.

Okay, now the humor sets in.....damn I had fun!