I tossed and turned all night. I went to sleep feeling really alone. But that is okay. I look at it this way, when I get divorced...I will be alone at times. And the feeling was sad but I was able to accept it. It didn't make me want to work out my marriage which tells me, I am doing the right thing. The easy thing would be to accept my life as it is...and like a dog, roll over into submis,sion. I can't do that. I deserve happiness. We all deserve happiness.

I decided to leave Mr. Porsche alone. I sent a note saying I was there for him and I totally backed off. A little out ofcharacter for me but I felt I needed to. Maybe this assistant he mentions all the time is giving him what he needs. I am not going to push. I am going to sitback and let him set the direction.

Meanwhile I decided to do something I haven't done in a million years......I went back onto Ashley Madison Agency. And I was soooo surprised. First of all, a lot more single men (not sure how I feel about that one but for where I am right now in my life--for me its good). AND, to my
surprise, a lot more men have pictures up there. Very bold, very bold. I am shocked. Of course, I am not complaining...it gives me an opportunity to browse quicker. Decide if there is any attraction at all....could there be chemistry? Too bad we all can't take an oath....I promise that once I come to this site, I will never reveal if I know someone.......kind of like the old what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas. What happens on Ashley Madison, stays on Ashley Madison...hehehe.

So, I found a few potentials and one who was handsome and I seemed to be drawn to him. I decided to spend the 5 credits and send him a note. Kind of a bizarre thing, the friend who introduced me to Mr. Porsche transferred his credits to me....so he is aiding in me flirting with men. The guy hasn't been on in 7+ days so he may never come back on.....who knows....time will tell.

Divorce Attorney....I had agreed to meet him this weekend, he must have got scared again. I haven't returned his calls and find it very humorous....we were meeting for coffee......geez..

And as I was writing this note, Mr Porsche called. I kept it friendly and business like. He had no clue that I took it as I was losing him. What it seems like is that he was just in such a stressed bad mood, he didn't want to have contact with me to attack me. We may meet tomorrow. I am not sure what is going on....I am going to not THINK!!

For all those who asked, hubby did not find the blog yet. I would have seen it in his history but I have to be damn careful these days. No little codes around..they are in (or in this case) on my ass....with my Ashley Madison Affiliate code!! hehehehe

Life is Heating Up

I never got a chance to write about my hot tryst with Mr, Porsche. Actually its in draft form in my blog because I never got to finish it. Why? My life has been heating up big time. Work has been insane and homelife is getting nuts.

Hubby is going through my stuff and questioning my every move. I am suffocating here. And the funny part, I am less active than I have been in a long time. No Ashley MAdison activity....no Mystery Man.....and Mr. Porsche is like a moving target. I always said when I got divorced I wanted to be alone to decide whether it was what I really wanted. And quite frankly, that is where I am now.

I called hubby on his online site activities. His response--its better than a porn site. It's entertainment. He claims to know something about me...what I am not sure. He knows I have bought lingerie--I am not sure if he is talking about my bras or he found some of my outfits. Either way...it doesn't matter. He's on a site, he's daying he's divorced--be careful what you wish for because you just might get it! A line from the new Pussycat Doll's song!

I do want the divorce....its time. It's time to gain my freedom. It's time to move on. but the truth is...I will be entering a whole new world and I am happy in my world here. I am happy and comfortable in the underground married but looking world. Will I stay and be a single person hooking up with married men? Wow, so much to decide. So much to figure out....my head is spinning.

So what are some of the decisions I made this weekend? I want to be divorced but can't afford it. Hence, its time to look for ways to make more money. However, the hubby has a right to anything until I serve him papers. Hence, back to the fact I need to find a lawyer get the ball rolling and then expand my business.

ALONE...since Mr. Porsche has been back...he has no time for me. We haven't had a conversation (except in bed) that lasted more than 3 minutes. I miss him. And MM, I tempted him again.....I miss his cock...I miss that delicious, hard cock and me wrapping my lips around it making that slurping sound. I miss his moans, I miss him telling me how I am amazing at sucking cock...I miss his cock thrusting deep inside of me....hmmm...I think you understand where I am coming from here....lol

Funny story about divorce attorney..but first, I need to go finish my day with Mr. Porsche.....it was something that cannot be left out of my blog....it was a day to remember!

Yes, MM and I have been going back and forth the last few days. Me trying to lure him to paradise.....here is our email exchange. BTW, met Mr. Porsche yesterday..it was H-O-T!! I will post our session later-- a little dominance control...and fun!

Cheri
Am I allowed to tell you that I miss your cock right now? How I am thinking about us fucking and getting so horny with no relief in site? Just curious if I am allowed to say that? lol

Mystery Man
Are you attempting to tempt me???

Cheri
ME?!?!? Sweet, innocent me?!? Oh my....would that make me an angel succubus? LOL

Hypothetically, of course, would your cock get hard if you thought about my lips wrapped around it...making that noise as I slurp right to the top and then do circles with my tongue going back down to try and suck every centimeter of your cock...Oh YUM!..or maybe it is the image of you thrusting in me in the frog or my legs over my head..going so deep as I beg you for more.....or maybe as I kiss your ear to your lips so gently as you relax and I massage you....?

Would you consider that attempting to tempting you? Would it be a
successful attempt to tempt you to meet me sometime in the near future!? lol

Mystery Man
your quite the evil bitch ya know.....would there be any sparkles????

Cheri:
LMFAO.....You are so fuckin funny....

I do KNOW---there would be Fireworks.......and loud noises!!


Sparkles are only upon request....Do you want me to massage you in oil and then roll your cock in sparkles!?!

Look, they designed a special room after us in Paradise....we must have given them the idea!! ( I took a room from the motel and with Blingee...put tons of sparkles all over it!)

My lips are yearning for your cock, your lips, every inch of you............!!! TEMPTING?!

Matthew Broderick?! John Edwards?!? Affair is in the Air

Wow...today's cheating news was heated once again. Political people....oh well, such is life and not surprising. He's a good looking guy. But I am saddened by Matthew Broderick. I love Sara Jessica Parker.....they make such a cute couple.
Well, neither rumor is confirmed yet BUT I wouldn't be surprised (I'm sure you wouldn't either)

So back to secret lovers lane.....

In 1 hour, I will hopefully be in Mr. Porsche's arms. A foul mood again today..colder than ice BUT I know its not me. But boy oh boy....he is in rare form.

However, I am overlooking it because I am so fucking horny. I can't tell you that I woke up this morning and jumped out of bed....watching that clock....working like crazy to get everything done. As I am working, I can feel the wetness in between my legs. The tightness is almost unbearable. I think I am going to cum just from his touch today....I was considering to masturbate first, because I am out of control horny......

it didn't help when I woke up this morning and Mystery Man had answered my email. I sent him a note saying....so...am I allowed to tell you that I desperately miss sucking on your cock? that I miss us fucking and I am so horny? I was curious if that is allowed? His response:

Are you trying to tempt me?

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm............I wish I could fuck him right now.....I can't tell you how badly I want his cock...so deep inside of me...sigh.....wetter....I better go get ready....I may explode!! I didn't respond yet to Mystery Man in fear he would want to meet today...but I will after I meet Mr. Porsche.....you know, I would be happy with one on and one off BUT with the two it makes my body sing!!!!!! YUMMY!!!!!!!

Cheri is Happy today!!!

The Meeting of the minds..

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Alone...

Walking around the dollar store today, I realized that I probably never felt as alone as I do right now. Or I should rephrase that...I have never been as alone as I am right now. MM gone....Mr. Porsche not really making me any type of priority in his life. I feel my last ties to hubby are cut. Yes, it is truly me right now. And I am okay. Laughing how did I get here...I mean I was so damn content and it seems like the rug was pulled out from under me (again) Why is it feast or famine in my life. But as I walked down the aisles, I realized...I am alone BUT I am okay. I can really only count on me...my friends busy with their lives (supportive but busy)...but I am positive right now just a lot of change.

I have to say that I am so sad about Mr. Porsche. This is a man I had counted on to be my friend, my confidant and my lover. He was so supportive and for the first time in our affair, I feel like I don't matter at all. A second thought. And I told him I feel that way....and all it would take was a little effort on his part but he chose not to do anything but not contact me today. I, pulled away. I did not call and I am really hurt and do not plan on calling him tomorrow. Or even calling him back. I think I am going to take a break....I don't want to feel like I am an after thought. I need to feel wanted and I don't feel that way with him. I used to feel I was a priority...after the main priorities.....now I feel like I have slipped down to ...if he has nothing else to do.

What would it take to make me happy? All I require is a little attention and a feeling that you want to see me....that you can't wait for us to be together. Unless Mr. Porsche shows that effort tomorrow, I am not going to meet him this week.

So is there a guy out there that would make me feel special. that will make me feel like I am important in his life? I need to find that man.....I need to branch out. I am beginning to think that I need to spread my wings a little. Hmmm......what direction do I go?

A New Day....I Need A Little Sex

Yes, I need some sex. Percy is correct, I have been spoiled, spoiled, spoiled. And the fact that the hubby is looking makes me want to have an earth shattering sex session, free of any guilt or inhibitions...RIGHT NOW!!

Can you hear me panting? Masturbating last night did nothing except make me even more horny today. It took no time for me to cum. Imagining Mr. Porsche playing with me and opening the door to a delivery guy who then watches me play with myself and POOF...instant orgasm....

The Surgeon popped in this morning to start my morning off telling me that he had a dream about me last night and woke up and he came in his sleep. All night, he was rock hard and tossing and turning. BUT....he still won't meet me. So I am wondering, is he a surgeon? is that his picture? I am doubting it. I am finding that the only reason a person doesn't want to meet is if they aren't who they say they are.

So I browsed Ashley Madison last night and there are a few prospects. No I did not contact anyone and my profile is still off. Because once I get addicted to Ashley, I end up spending tons of time on there. And right now, I have to get my career in order not worry about another man. Although I have to say, I am horny beyond belief!

Oh, and I remembered I forgot to show you my favorite bathing suits from that site.....ok, which one of you are going to wear this for me?!?!?! Now here is my question. Is this guy that big when he is limp? Or is his cock flexible enough to be hard and face down like that. I mean look at that specimen.....now I pull MM's cock in second gear but this is like.....5th gear or something. Is he just that endowed and what girth....I'm sorry, I am just looking at that cock and my mouth is watering!!

I opened up a PO Box this week. I am planning to start re-doing the website and would like to review toys and other products. So, I needed to get a box. It is a good 2 hours from my house in a location that no one would know me....(just in case)....but can you believe that I was able to get Suite 169!! OOOOOOOOOhhhh!!! I asked do you have 169 available? Yes, we do. Wonder what the guy was thinking. He actually shot me a look..hehehehe.

So if you have a product you would like reviewed!! Let me know!! Or you got something to send me?? Let me know!! I am at Suite 169!!!!!!!!

Way Too Easy

So either the hubby is the stupidest and worse cheater alive OR he purposely is leaving hints. Today he left the dating screen open on his account right on the sidebar. Please, can he be that stupid? I decided to leave it totally open on the screen....so he then wonders if I saw it or if I didn't. He has to wonder....I also found out that he didn't pay for the service so he isn't corresponding with anyone. Which means there has really been nothing going on except with one IM....but you never know. Except as we all know that is he did find someone......she would be pissed that he was still hanging out on the site so obviously he didn't find a match yet. COLD AS ICE! Is the best way to describe me these days.

So here I sit. What a time for Mystery Man to fly the coop and for Porsche to be so busy. Porsche doesn't have the time for me and I am feeling like I am not even on his list. He knows I feel that way (ahem...you know me, can't keep things hidden). Truth is, I don't know if he is going to be enough alone for me.

It's been weeks since I have gotten a good sexual encounter and I am fucking horny. I wrote Mystery Man tonight.....I know, I know...but I had to. I basically just said...so...am I allowed to tell you that I want your cock so badly right now and I am sitting here thinking about you fucking me and satisfying me totally. Just curious, am I allowed to tell you how damn horny I am for you? lol

You know I was hard up today. I began flirting with Divorce Attorney. Begging me to meet him for lunch.

Mr. Porsche had planned for us to be together on Wednesday but quite frankly, I couldn't wait to schedule my week. Work first. I said to him....so, if I asked you to keep open three days....would you do that for me? Point taken. He apologized and said he understood. There is a little stress between us.....he is taking off tomorrow and Friday...he was just gone for three weeks....

I know. I am not attractive when I am pouting but I am damn horny....I need a man!! It's like a desert right now in Secret Lover Lane...do I dare to go back to Ashley Madison? It might be time for some new frogs!!

He's On An Online Dating Site

Oh yes....here is another I Love Cheri episode you all will enjoy immensely.

I have noticed the hubby has been on the computer more than usual. Now he is not looking for a job anymore and the other day when I came down , he had that sudden move thing going on at the computer. Well, well, well hubby dear, I am the Queen of Cheatin Signs. Little does he know that I had researched it in depth for my podcast and my website. I mean I give cheating tips online to help my friends and readers find the perfect companion on Ashley Madison. LOL

Okay, so let's take a look at this:

1)Sudden movement at the computer when I walk in with body shifting.
2) Sudden improvement in appearance (well that wasn't a definite given since I did ask for a divorce and reality set in...but still a sign)
3) Contacts suddenly--- a definite sign!!!!
4) The last week--staying on the computer after I go to bed
5) Joining a gym (well that goes with the divorce thing BUT also the cheating thing)
6) And the new thing--he whistles in the house (driving me nuts)

So while he was at work yesterday, I decided to take a glance at the computer. Now, now hubby doesn't cover his tracks very well. What is my number 1 rule of online cheating.....erase your history!! And so there is was in black and white...he's on a dating site for singles. It didn't even take me a second to find it. And when I clicked it on....his new fake Yahoo email appeared.

So let's see, how long has he been browsing this site. 7 weeks....signed on about 4 weeks ago...that makes sense now. Actually, I even know he had a date on Friday. How? He strangely called me as if to check in and justify where he was going to be for a two hour period. Very bizarre behavior for him and unnecessary since I thought he was at work (a red flag). And his questioning my time....where I am at different times.....hmmm....its all coming together.

So now I know the site and that he is looking. Well its simple enough..set up my own dummy account and see if I can find him. If he has a picture listed, he's out the door. I mean that is disgusting since the world could see it and people in the neighborhood know that he is married. So, I first browse a 5 mile radius of the ones with pix....he's not there. Then I do the none pix....and bingo! Only one town over--fitting his description.

I must tell you. His profile stinks. He should have been a little more imaginative and put a little more into it. He needs Cheri's advice on writing a great profile. Okay, I am not 100% sure (90%) that it is him so now I wait. He comes home and I am cold as ice. I can guarantee he is going to run to the computer after and check the site for mail. And he does just as I think he will--straight for the computer. I wait 4 minutes and hop online. Looking to see if that person I thought was him was ONLINE NOW and voila!! He was. So I now know his name on the site.

He has only chatted IM twice on the site. I checked his phone last night for a number and I think I narrowed it down to three numbers with one that I am 90% sure is a woman.

And my reaction.....to my surprise....relief! Okay I am annoyed that she sent him to the Fredericks of Hollywood site to look at certain lingeries (now if he spends money and buys her them--he will lose his balls since I am struggling to pay the bills and he doesn't give enough money to live here). However, overall, I had to giggle on how ridiculously easy it was to find the details out.

And, I also have grounds for divorce now. Or at least the beginning of grounds which I didn't have before unless I went into emotional abuse. So, how funny is that? It was way too easy. He really needs be smarter.

So that's my story of the day. I thought you would enjoy it. With this card in my pocket, I have more power. I also can use it to get him out of the bedroom and maybe he will find someone else.

So how do I officially know I am doing the right thing and that I don't love him anymore? Because when I found out, I was concerned for all the wrong reasons. Okay Cheri, you better get the finances in place better...okay Cheri, make sure you get him to do what he has to around here. It immediately lifted the little guilt I was feeling about my lifestyle. In a way, I felt I got my ticket to some freedom.

Oh wait...I forgot. He looked at my profile online...hehehe...of course I made it the opposite of what I am. How funny if my husband tried to pick me up...the old Pina Colada Song.....lol

Have a great day...hope you were amused!!

OMG...I haven't laughed so hard....

Yes, this was a coffee spurting out all over my computer moment! It is worth two posts for these pix. You have to see my favorite one tomorrow. These are unbelievable. I know that Mystery Man and I are off right now but I had to share these with him. I mean they are so damn funny. So I sent it and just wrote had to share...lol

Yes, his warped sense of humor...he wrote back that he laughed out loud and thanked me...I wrote back that I would buy him one. So, we are on good terms...I so badly want him.

Now back to these pix....I mean...WOW...I can't imagine any man I know in these. I think you have to be a really gay manly man to wear this with muscles like these guys. And I recommend sending this to someone and asking them how many should you order them (and by the way...they are available!!)

He's Back and I am Happy but...

I woke up this morning and I felt okay. Lots of work stress, lots of home problems but I felt okay. Not sure when Mr. Porsche was coming home....but I was smiling thinking about it.

The phone rang...and a smile came to my face. My insides were smiling. He couldn't talk long but he was back. I Missed You. Mmmmm....I made him say it again....I loved hearing it. We fell right into place....he started talking about an issue at work. He's very good at chess, I can tell. Patience and plans and watches maneuvers...he has something going down that I would never sleep.

I am trying to fit you in..I want to see you. Okay so to me that was like..he was going to see me before friday. Well my week is booked through Thursday, I am trying to fit you in on Monday. OKAY. Dead silence. I assumed he would fit me in by Tuesday. I busted his chops a little more. But now that I am thinking about it..I understand work comes first but hey, we have work to go over too. So I am doubly annoyed...a little although I am so glad he is back.

Well I know games are not recommended BUT I think I need to be a little less accessible at last minute notice. Guess I won't be seeing Mr. Porsche for another week. No call tomorrow....he has to call me. Just a little coolness and distance. A little less attainable....

Sigh..men are so difficult...LOL

UPS Man Returns and Being Drawn To My Blog

Drawn to my blog. Drawn to my safe haven. Yes, this blog has been consistent in my life for three years now. When my heart aches, my thoughts are to blog. Throw it all up here and maybe it will go away.

Truth is, Mystery Man leaving just made me look at me. We're in a holding pattern but now I can look around and see my life. Conclusion 1. I need to get out more. I need to start doing little things not just sitting in this house and working. Life is passing me by and I am missing it. Oh yes, I am experiencing a lot in my secret life but my real life is pathetic.

Hubby is being an ass. did I tell you he lost 45 lbs. and got contacts-- a new him! I mean he looks really good again, joined a gym and everything. Except I realize its the person I can't stand. He has decided to do nothing around here. Has been coming home at 11 at night. And last night....he just decided he didn't want to put out child back to sleep so I could work. (I had done it twice). He was busy with itunes he said. ASS..wouldn't it be funny if he found Rendezvous Radio...hehehhhehe

The UPS man showed up today. Oooo LALALALA!! Actually he got his hair cut and he looks 12. Way too young. He handed me my package and said here you go Cheri....I smiled....I forgot to ask his name and if he was my new UPS man. I am off in flirting these few days. Well I went into the house and I turned around and he was watchng me.....yummy ass he has. He waved and smiled. Hot smile...but the spikey hair makes him look so young. Oh well.....I would love to fuck him once so I can say I did a man in uniform. Wait..I have done a man in uniform.....hmmmm...ok, a man in a brown shorts uniform...in his truck!!!

Handcuffs? Blindfolds? Shaving? Next week should be fun!

Mr. Porsche has been away and I cannot forward any provocative emails. They are purely business emails....although after he teased me with these....I did respond to him as if I was discussing the website.... About the pubic hair....well... it was an unruly section of the website that needed us to go over together.....
Anyway....I figured I would share these with you.....hopefully I am in for some fun when he gets back.

I'willwrite more later......

Here's his emails:

Close your eyes after you read this

Your laying down and I grab you from behind. I hand cuff your hands, then blindfold you. I start to whisper in your ear that you wont get hurt as long as you do as told. I start to feel your breasts, then move toward those great nipples that I love biting on and I hear you wince as I pull them tight. I start to lick your breasts and then as your breathing gets rougher, I nibble on the nipples. then I start to get rougher and bite them. oh how I love to chew those ripe babies.

I can see your pussy is getting your panties wet so I ripe them off. I see you haven't shaved as I have been away. I feel your pussy is hot and as I tease the lips your clit pokes out.. I reach into my bag of goodies and you hear something. oh no.. you feel the shaving cream as its being applied to your whole pussy... to be continued you soon..

remember strictly professional responses from your side ....lol nite babe

New Email:
I had decided to let you imagine the hair cut you will get for the mean time. Next I will have you bend over and use some rope to tie your breasts up. this has a great effect when done because the nipples and breasts get that more sensitive. With your wet pussy getting more excited by the minute I will tease it until you are begging to get deeply fucked by my THICK cock! Maybe I will wait till your clit is sticking out for me to nibble on it as I pinch your nipples and listen to you moan. Ah but all this fun and no touching your asshole yet. I will probably lick my way down further and swipe across your little rose bud. to continue...

So why does it hurt so much? Truth is, he filled such a void in my life. In a weird dysfunctional way, he made my home life tolerable. Yes, I was happy. I was content. I was satisfied--emotionally, sexually, physically. Mystery Man brought all that to my life. So losing that--yes, but a huge vacumn in my chest. But, the difficult part--I have to go back to look at my life. When you are happy, reality seems more tolerable. When you are living that secret life (or two in my case)--you can deal with unhappiness at home. You are getting it somewhere else.

But now...reality is staring me in the face again. Mr. Porsche is coming back and things are great when we are together. But I need another lover. I need to not put all my eggs in one basket. But quite frankly, I don't have the energy to look and the desire to put my heart on the rollercoaster again. Oh nothing beats a connection....nothing beats that high of lust!

So now what? Think about what I avoid-my life, my work. And continue with Mr. Porsche next week and I will be fine. Yes, focus more on me and getting life back on track. when I have the two of them, I was so content....I didn't want change.

Things at home are super sucky now. I barely talk. Just exist!

It's beginning to sink in. I feel like a teenager again...the drama. Did I tell you about the time my girlfriend and I lied under a steamroller and took pix with signs that said our boyfriend's names...Yes, they were steamrolling over our hearts....LOL I actually called that friend tonight. Yes, 30 years later and we are still picking up the broken pieces of each other's hearts. And what is she doing tonight? She was getting ready for A-Rod's party and then heading to Jeter's (I swear, how funny is that)! Damn, we went in such different directions...yet we are still the same.

So...if I didn't answer Mystery Man's note, he would have just thought I was mad. And I am not. I am wondering if its a seasonal thing...he was gone last July and August...hmmmm...anyway, I decided to take the honest and high road. Here is my note back to him:

And to think I was thinking of getting a Brazilian wax this week.....phew, now that would have been useless pain!!! (hehehe)

So..so....so.....A lot is going on in my head tonight. I know you know that. I'll leave it as I am very, very sad (but I am not mad). Wish I could help (I am worried about you) but I know you are wired differently...that's why I enjoy you so much (my wires are off a little too you know) lol

But you are 100% right....it definitely sucks and its not what I wanted to hear (I enjoy being with you) BUT.....I am happy that you told me this time. Thank you baby, I appreciate it. I am going to miss you and our trips to paradise. Please keep in touch and don't stay away too long. No pressure, always enjoyment!! xoxo

Devastated.....got a shovel to scoop me up?

"sorry haven't been in a good mood. appreciate your attempts to cheer
me up and wanting to listen but I'm just not wired that way. Until I
can get past my issues, I'll be somewhat difficult. Nothing you can do
to change it unfortunately, it just has to run it's course. I know
it's not what you wanted to here but it' just the way it is. I know it
SUCKS for everyone!!! I'll be in touch ;-("

Yes...its Mystery Man..
I saw it coming but until it actually gets here....you forget how much it hurts. The good news, he at least sent a note this time and didn't declare it over. The bad news is...it fucking hurts. I could feel the void in my heart opening again and the tears filling my eyes.

This time, I got smarter. I have Mr. Porsche and everything is great with him. Even while he is away he is sending me provocative emails....so we are okay. However, my heart is aching right now. It must be a seasonal thing with Mystery Man...this happened last summer at the same time. I am going to miss him terribly.

I can't even write more right now. It's actually first settling in. I know I shouldn't get attached...I know this isn't going any further.....but when something feel so good its so hard to give it up....he's my addiction!

EBAY is not fulfilling MY VOID!!!

Love that everyone agrees that a married friend is not the best way to go!! LOL

Well I am sexually frustrated and using my down time to do work and try to fulfill a void with EBAY. My conclusion-- Fucking and an affair is so much more satisfying than purchases on EBAY. Oh yeah, I get the high when I win....my bank account is going down, down, down...and a get a little flitter when the package arrives but quite frankly.....an affair is MUCH better. More satisfying and Ebay doesn't compare.

When I was younger and I broke up with a guy i was living with...I went shopping for two days straight and the only thing that satisfied my void was the purchase of a new hot red sports car. These days, the money is not there and I don't think it will fulfill that void like hot wild OH WOW SEX does!!

So here is a winner.....I found these Betsey Johnson Frog Earrings....Prince Charming Earrings...and I loved them. I mean I should own these...they were screaming my name. And I figured who else would wear such earrings. For me they would be a hidden fun thing (I bought a frog bracelet..hehehe). The damn earring are going for over $55 now.....they were at $1.49 Geez....and they are so damn cute...oh well....the bracelet will have to do...

All I can tell you is that MM better get out of his funk and Mr. Porsche better get his ass home. I am annoyed. We agreed that I wouldn't send any sexual emails...but he could send to me. All he has sent was business.....yes, insecurity is building... and I miss him terribly!!

Sigh.....both the Divorce Attorney and the Surgeon are annoying me. I avoided them for two days. As for the surgeon, I don't get it. What is up with the IM messages only. He doesn't want to meet or talk...it's so played already.....

A-Rod and Madonna An Affair? Divorce, Cheating...Christie Brinkley and Peter Cook On the Internet Dating?!?! WOW

So the cover of the NY Post is covered with A-Rod's wife filing for divorce because she can't take his cheating ways. Madonna is filing for divorce and A-Rod has been hanging out at Madonna's apartment. Hmmmm....it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out something is going on!

I feel bad for A-Rod's wife. She just got had a baby and supposedly he flew in for 10 minutes to see the new baby. I want to think that is because of his baseball schedule not his cock needing Madonna.

Well I gotta tell ya, I would looove A-Rod to join Ashley Madison. Now there is a treat for all us woman...a sexy, boy toy!! But I guess he doesn't need the internet..that man probably has a harem already just waiting for him.

And then there is the Christie Brinkley and Peter Cook divorce. Wooo Hoo!! It is vicious. Now Peter Cook found women online. I wonder if he was part of Ashley Madison or Match.com? Now he is hot. I never saw him on there....definitely not. But its better anyway that famous people don't find these married but looking sites. Because if they get busted....man oh man....you are going down with them in the paper...

Nah, I like my privacy......I like that everyone on Ashley Madison has just as much to lose so its honesty amongst thieves theory. Something about online. Its such a better way to meet. A friend of mine fell in love with another parent and basically things are so fucked up right now. yes, the old soccer mom and dad hooking up....bad move. Poor kids.....the whole town is talking. It's ugly. All avoided when you meet someone out of your town....

Wow, sex is in the air (just not mine this week...sigh...back to work)

Can you say ASEXUAL?

Oh man......I have been so sexually deprived. Mr. Porsche is out of the country. Mystery Man is busy working and probably won't be able to see me this week. I am bored with the Divorce Attorney (he's so demanding and pushy). The Surgeon pops in to say hello....(the only online is getting so played).

So...I am sexless. I am asexual. Oh wait, to top it off. At 4AM, the hubby was touching my leg. I thought it was a bug crawling on me. He got busted and I flipped. I mean I am totally grossed out by that. It's like he's trying to fuck a dead body. The thought that he plays with my pussy when I am sleeping is disgusting. I told him to get the fuck out. He pretended he didn't know what he was doing....but when I moved he pulled his hand away quickly.....DUH!! He's creeping me out....I feel violated. I mean he's really scaring me.....I don't even know who he is...he may kill me in my sleep...(I hope that is just drama but I am a little concerned when he is weird like this and strange even during the day).

It's time again to start moving ahead. His small salary has been helping but I can't handle this.

Let's see on a happier note......

Heard from DigEm....it was one year ago that we met. I called him. I was upbeat but he knows me so well...he sensed a little sadness in my voice. Amazing...what a great guy he is!!

What else?! NOTHING!! Oh, I have been shopping on EBAY like a mad woman. Never did it before but I have been frustrated so I bought sooooo much. Jewelry, bathroom sinks, suits for work, more jewelry.....lol

Is asexual a consideration if you masturbate? Does that count? I just sat upstairs in my big chair and played with myself fantasizing about two guys watching me and wanting to fuck me....it took a little bit, but I ended up cumming.....rubbing my clit in my famous circles.....so I feel a little better I guess.

Ok, back to work. Trying to get a lot of work done this week on my website and other real work. I might has be successful and make money if I can't fuck right?

Alone AND I have two men?!?!

Everything was fine....no glitters were discovered and yes, Mystery Man finds the humor in the whole thing!! My kind of man!!

And then there is Mr. Porsche....so stressed since he is going away. I mean beyond stressed. He can hardly even think or talk his mind is so fragmented (takes one to know one!)

Well, I had a DVD series I had bought for him that I wanted to give to him before he went away. It was kind of a joke, while we were relaxing and talking he was watching the re-run of an old tv show. I was like hey,,,,,no tv...ME!! He laughed. So I bought him the whole first series of the show and told him "here, watch it on your own time now!' He laughed hysterical.

Knowing that he really had no time for me (understandably)...I decided to go to him. Yes, driving to his office which takes a good hour and it is stressful..right in the city. I called him from the traffic....almost there....come down, I said for 5 minutes...he left the office and I picked him up on the corner.

Poor baby....stress was written all over his face. Well, well..looks like Cheri is the de-stresser was on all this week. I reached over with my hand and rubbed his cock....."there is no way that is moving!' I laughed. I drove to a remote spot while he told me all his crap. I gave him the DVD and he smiled, was shocked and so appreciative. He's used to giving...not receiving and I was so happy to be able to give him something. He kept saying over and over I didnt want you to spend money on me.....and I can't believe bought that for me.....it made me feel so good.

Well, I listened to him and played and kissed him and tried to relax and make him laugh. His cock did get a little hard but more importantly, I saw the stress leave his face a little and he smiled. After a 1/2 hour ( I guess I knew it wouldnt be 5 minutes) I started to head back.. I mean I came for a kiss...but then I said...let me kiss your cock good by. No...he said..I looked at him and said did you think I traveled this far to kiss your lips only? Take that baby out....I am going to kiss him good by. A control issue....but I was going to win.....straight forward..I am not taking you back until I suck that cock for 1 minute.......so my darling, either take him out or I will rip your pants off....he laughed and undid his zipper and there was that succulent cock!!!

I am enjoying it....yummy!!! He moans as I swallow it hole...he was a little hard so I could get it all in my mouth......Yeah, yeah now you can deep throat me....and we laughed as I put his cock and I licked his balls with my tongue at the same time.

We headed back....come on, I am going to take this car for a quick car wash. My heart melted. You see, my dad used to take care of my cars. Its he one area that i am helpless. My dad took my cars for oil changes and car washes and everything. The hubby doesn't do shit. So for some reason, his offering to clean my car was so amazing. He had the guy clean it inside and out and my rims which were black....I got in and I kissed him and hugged him. Thank you. He couldnt understand it....but he takes care of me. He protects me and quite frankly if I needed someone....I would run to him first. I know I can count on him......

So he's off now. Mystery Man is somewhere in this world and I have decided to dedicate my two weeks to work (hopefully hearing from MM at least to meet next week). It's going to be weird without Mr. Porsche...I mean we talked 4 times a day.....scary....I will have withdrawals.

Ironically, the Divorce Attorney re-appeared yesterday. I explained to him that my plate was full. It turned him on even more..that guy is too funny. He's hot, sucessful and into me. So why am I always pushing him away??? Hmmmm...