Two Cocks In One Day

What I seem to notice is just when I think that I am alone in this world without a frog and am contemplating spending time by myself......the pond opens and all the frogs start hopping out! My girlfriend was here today and she was dying. I have never seen so many men in my life calling and texting....its ridiculous. I had to laugh because it hasn't been like this as you know. Divorce Attorney insisted that he sees me tomorrow. Facebook attorney invited me out for lunch today. The mechanic was emailing me. Mr. Astronauts friend was suppose to meet me today and until 9PM. I thought it was going to happen but it didn't.

I started the afternoon with a few hours with Mr. Porsche and quite frankly it was amazing! We have been on the rocks but in our case absence made the heart grow fonder. I cannot even tell you how great today was. Oh there was deviance (I still have a mark from the ropes on my wrist) and there was tenderness and it was perfect. I mean amazing. I will write details tomorrow....too tired, I am sorry.

Dinner with Mr. Cableman who happens to live near MM. We went to dinner and he went shopping with me in this home store. Yes, I do get concerned when I am in that area that I will run into MM but I cannot avoid a town because he lives in it. Anyway, we had fun and ate and just talked and talked. I enjoy his company. He is seeing someone and he knows about me. We are not going to be because I remind him of his ex wife. which he says is a compliment. lol

And then to my surprise...Mr. Astronaut popped over tonight on his way home. damn...we sizzled. Again, details tomorrow. I am exhausted. Will write details tomorrow.!! Sweet Wet Dreams!!

The Threesome Is Cancelled

Well the past few days has been a very depressing realization for me. I am low, very low and I am actually crying right now. It has been a built in rollercoaster...going from seeing six men to NONE!!

I had been talking back and forth with Mr. Astronaut's friend. I really like him and I had been thinking a lot about him. I went into the bath last night and he texted me. Mr. Astronaut and I are going to drive by to say hello. Just hello. I freaked NOOOO! First of all, Mr. Astronaut was not going so out of the way to just stop by and say hello to me. He was looking to set up the threesome. His friend truly thought it was going to be a hello. I was hurt that he wanted to do this with Mr. Astronaut there.

anyway, we went back and forth and I didm't want them coming here together. Either one separately would have been fine but not both. First, i am not doing a threesome in my house. So talking to both of them and then texting one on the others blackberry, my head was spinning. In the end we said we would get together tomorrow for lunch (thursday).

However, tonight Mr. Astronaut and I had the hugest blowout. He was coming over and everything was fine. then I don't know what happened. It got out of control. He said I wanted honeymoon sex, I made him beg and that I made him feel guilty and like a perv. OMG, where did this come from. I told him that I hated him everyday(I never once said that) and that he disappointed me everyday. He didn't want to feel the guilt and then he said Bye.

The tears began to roll down my face. where did that all come from? when did I do that. I never said i hated him, I never said he disappointed me and I was crushed. Honeymoon sex? What is the man talking about honeymoon sex? Is anything but a threesome honeymoon sex? Sex has been ravishly hot with us. There had been no emotional attachment, what is the man talking about?!? Something happened last night because his friend didn't even call me today. Mr. Astronaut made me feel so hurt and then he disappeared and wouldn't answer.

Last night I found out they are both divorced. I am not 100% sure but it sounded like it. His friend said his wife went away for three days!?1?! What--Mr. Astronaut said you were divorced. All of this just made me sit down and cry. And i realized no matter how hot he is, I can't do this anymore. I can't take the drama that he is causing. Its suppose to feel good and he makes me feel so undesirable. Sadly I realized tonight it was over. I can't go on like this anymore.

Mr. Porsche happened to call me when I was crying and now he felt that I sounded sad because of him. round 2---OMG....I tried to pretend I wasn't sad but he knows me so well. We talked and I even gave him the out to say goodby. I think I would have freaked if he took it but happily he didn't. while we were on the phone, he has this new nextel type of thing and his kid and his wife got on the phone. I could hear them and she was talking to him and telling him what she wanted for her birthday. It was too much for me to handle and he didn't expect her to get on so it was a bad scene. I had never heard her voice?!

Brazilian, Landing Strip or Just Trimmed?

Mr. Astronaut was suppose to come over this morning for some great sex. I cleared my morning and couldn't wait. I was so excited yesterday that I sent a note....Brazilian, Landing Strip or just trimmed? Unfortunately, sex has been so unfrequent that I can give him all those options! BUT I didn't hear back. Not a good sign. That usually means something came up with work. Grr...In the bath, I knew he was cancelling.


And 7AM this morning I get the text. I am wrapped up today, not sure I can get away. Will probably have to make it later in the week. Sorry. UGH!!!!! I spent the day yesterday straightening up the entire house with still more to go. I went with the landing strip and now there is nothing!!! Now, I know he can't control his job. Some stupid ass criminal decides to make a move and caused me to not get screwed today. I know I should be understanding, he's probably working on some big undercover drug deal or its something to do with homeland security (I am guessing...his job heats up and he travels funky places). But they couldn't fucking wait one day to make a move? They had to do it on a Sunday, the day before I am suppose to be getting laid. Quite frankly, I want to kick that person's ass right now. Excuse me Mr. Criminal...your timing sucks...I am horny, I am bitchy and right now I want to personally kick your ass. GRRRRR...he will never tell me but I always wonder when there is some huge security thing going down that I see on the news if he is part of it.

Mr. Porsche sent me some work analysis this morning. No note, no mention of my vicious note...I did my professional evaluation and sent the results back. no note, no words just my report. And now I decided to just throw myself into bed. I have so much work but I didn't plan to be doing it right now. Pout. yes, I am pouting. Cranky, cranky...I am going to throw myself into bed and pull the covers over my head.

Of Course, Another I Love Lucy Moment

I always say how my life is an I Love Lucy show. The most strangest things happen to me. I would probably make quite an amusing reality show. I decided to take the pregnancy test last night. I needed to know, just get the negative and go on with my evening and sleep well. So I went to the back of under my sink and finally found it shoved in this cute little victorian box I keep under the sink. Anyway, I peed on it and waited the time. Now most tests, there is a control line and usually there are two things that happen. A line appears if you are pregnant and nothing if you are not OR a plus sign appears or a negative sign. MY strip showed a horizontal line in the control area and a vertical line in the other area. What the fuck does that mean?!?!

It wasn't a plus sign it wasn't a blank sign and it wasn't a negative sign...it was a damn vertical sign...AAAHH! I frantically looked for the box but remembered I had thrown it out to hide the test. I went online to try and see which test showed such results and of course, I couldn't find any. So I tossed and turned all night. i would have been better off not doing it. Grrr.....

I waited for the babysitter to come this morning and as soon as she arrived I flew out of the house to the drugstore. Which damn test was it? Why can't it be universal and who the hell came up with this vertical line? Stupid damn test. So I ran into the drugstore and went to the pregnancy test aisle and took my damned used test out to see which one it was. There were two possiblities and I am standing there holding the used test up to the boxes. Finally, I found the one that it was. What a ridiculous test and next time I don't but an extra one or I go with the test that says yes or no. It was negative. A damn vertical line (????) meant negative. I mean there should be universal results on this. Why so damn fancy.

And after I took a sigh of relief it hit me. What the hell was I thinking? I was standing in the aisle with a used test holding it up to boxes. If I knew anyone I would be the talk of the town. I am divorced with a used pregnancy stick holding it up to boxes. I couldn't help but laugh. I went in to grab some food in the store next door and my girlfriend was in there. What are you doing out so early she asked? I showed her the test and explained to her. OMG!! She was howling, you are carrying around your pregnancy test. Did you tell Mr. Porsche she asked. Yes, he was freaked out. I guess I should text him. I sent a note...no worries. He'll understand because I was taking the test this morning. He had a horrible week and was convinced that I definitely was pregnant because that would be the icing on the cake. And I assured him, he had absolutely nothing to worry about. we both know what would have to be done for so many reasons. but I hope I don't have to cross that bridge.

So now I can start my day. Still PMSing and jumping out of my skin. I am starting to go to the gym again today. I think the release will be very good for me. And then a nap. I tossed and turned all night. So if you saw a nut today holding a used pregnancy test in hand....hey, that was me!!

Insanity as Usual....

I heard from Mr. Astronaut first thing this morning. "I want you. I just also want to experience more with you". We texted back and forth and well, I like him. His off beat way...and how ironic, I found out that he is divorced. No he is not separated but divorced. His friend who he wants to be in our threesome had said it and today he said I have the kids tonight. and then it hit me, he has the kids every other week. Duh! I asked him and he didn't answer. He just wants to keep his distance and how easy it is to do if he keeps me at a distance.

He ended up getting me so worked up that I texted him...call me, I have to masturbate, I am losing my mind. And he called me and we both came at the same time. Just our voices and talking about how we are going to meet on Monday, makes us crazy enough to cum. Yes, we have a dysfunctional thing going on with hot chemistry. His friend texted me, he has been pushing him to text me. If he only knew that we want to meet and are considering not to do the threesome but hook up...how crazy. I like his friend a lot. He is kind, he is sweet, he is cute and basically he is everything that Mr. Astronaut is not. After our texting, about a 1/2 hour later he sent me a text I miss u and we've never even met! xoxo My heart smiled.

So hear I sit on a Saturday night alone. Oh yes, I have about six dates next week with two dates guaranteed sex and four others that can be whatever I want them to be. How insane...I think I have to space them better. And then the reality...I have who actually even knows how many men. even divorce attorney was going to come over tonight. So lets say 10! And i am still not happy. I just finished watching You've Got Mail. Thats what I want, I eventually want to meet someone like that--that I connect with so well. As for right now, I have no desire to meet the one but would like someone I like at least.

I do have something to confess. My period didn't come this month and while I don't think I am pregnant, I do need to do a test. I am very careful with protection and the only one who would be the father would be Mr. Porsche. And I am probably out of my mind and that is why I have been so mean to Mr. Porsche and Mr. Astronaut. My hormones are going crazy. I just remembered that I had an extra pregnancy test upstairs, I just have to do it. It's ridiculous that I am probably worried about this in the back of my mind. A part of me is dying to get it because I am feeling off balance and PMSing. A part of me wants it to hold off for a week so I can have a wild week this week! I am truly praying that I am not pregnant. I mean geez, talk about a disaster. It would be a fluke but my whole life is crazy anyway.. wish me luck!!

Ask Her To Come Over And Watch

Something about Mr. Astronaut that I know is not healthy but he keeps luring me back in. There's this animalistic side to him, this dark side and yet his governmental ties...the dangerous side...all wrapped up is irristable to me. This threesome thing is making me crazy. He has me chatting with his friend (who now wants me alone and not with him). He had me place ads for a threesome (which turned out to be really skanky responses) and tonight he wanted my GF to watch me give him a blowjob.

Seemed innocent enough and fun so I asked her. She said why not, something else I can mark on my list of things I did (yes, my good friend Mandy). So I wasn't sure he was coming over and she wasn't sure she was coming over but she got a call from her BF so she decided to sneak out and come to my house. Ironically, I was on the phone and Mr. Astronaut was texting me. He decided to go home and Mandy had come here. It would have worked out perfectly in timing but he didn't stop by.

I texted him, where are you? He was almost home. I explained to him that she was here and it would have worked out. Well here's the thing, she had to leave. But now i was flipped because he didn't just stop by to do me...but would travel all the way back if she was going to be here? We started to make plans to see each other on Monday or Sunday. Then at the end, he throws in, can you bring the audience? when i got annoyed, he said, we are looking for different things, maybe I should find a new playmate.

So I returned with...fine. And I will just fuck your friend so hard without you. He will enjoy every minute of me sucking his cock. Yum!! Well, I admit it was a little vicious but he was hurting me with the playmate thing. well, he flipped. I never would say I would fuck your friend...blah, blah, blah.

And then I went back with...tell me you want me! Stop making me feel like I can send two other pussies and it wouldn't matter if I was there. I feel like my pussy is interchangable. At one point, I screamed there are so many men who would fuck me in a second. More than you can imagine....worldwide and you don't want to fuck me!! It's mind boggling to me that he has this damn bucket list and he refuses to sway away from it. Yes, i feel rejected.

Okay so the interchangable pussy comment did not go over well. Your an ass Good night. and jerk. was his after thought. I know I was going for the buttons there. But I need to feel wanted. I ended it with why is it so hard for you to tell me that you want me or you don't? you know everybody has their thing. I am a pleaser and what's important to me is to feel wanted and desired. that's my thing. Why are you so against making me feel wanted? OK, the ball is in your court, if you want to find another playmate, I guess that's ur choice. I tried. I did everything you asked me to do.

Going to sleep and feeling like crap. Why does this man not want me? Actually, why can't this man tell me he wants me? Honestly, I know his type. Emotionless in some ways. A lot like the rest of my frogs, afraid of their inner emotion. he is a hard ass. He is just like Mr. government. It must be part of the training, I swear. Uncle Sam makes them hard and their emotions are destroyed. Or its what they see in a day. It hardens them so that they can't show good emotions like desire, want, love, caring...its as if they see it as a weakness. Whatever it is, I always go for the difficult ones.

As I am sitting here, late at night. There is this sweet guy that I have gone on a few dates now. we all know that he doesn't make me as crazy as mr. Astronaut or Mr. Porsche. He's a simple man. He is a perfectionist. He is organized, his whole life is perfect. I guessed that his underwear was folded, his shirts color coordinated in his closet, his work is done two days before deadline and he is up at 4aM to start his day so he can have a cup of coffee and read the newspaper. The man reads the same newspaper to go to work and a different one to go home. His life is simple...and he adores me. He just sent me a text telling me that he is thinking of me, asked how my day was and if I was getting some beauty sleep. Aaaaaah!! He's the one I should be going after. the simple man who thinks I am so sweet (and yes, he thinks I am a little innocent, a little too timid to sleep with him just yet--ok, stop laughing, I like this vision he has of me! lol). However, he admitted to me that he knows my goal is to take him out of his comfort box. Yes, I do intend on causing a little havoc in his life. I am going to push him over his comfort limits and quite frankly I think he likes that thought. I know I am going to rock his world. But who knows, he might surprise me and show up with the whips and gag ball.....lol

It's time for bed. Mr. Porsche and I had it out tonight as well. I haven't seen him in three weeks and when he didn't make mention of seeing me today, I lost it. Ummm...BIATCH was his word for me, in a loving manner of course. I love Mr. Porsche. I am me with him. No matter what the situation, I just tell him what is on my mind. He pulls it out of me purposely. His theory is that it sits in me and festers and eventually I explode. So he prefers to take the small doses of sarcasm instead of a total flip out. Tonight, I told him how I miss him and it hurts that he couldn't see me and I realized that all this crap was going wrong in his life but I was still pouting. He said he knew it and that he was sorry and that he would make it up to me. hopefully next week, we can straighten this all out.

Well, I have a feeling I won't be hearing from Mr. Astronaut. I pushed him to his limits tonight. I went for the kill. But let me ask you....if you never experienced sex outside of the bedroom and wanted to experiment. I mean I asked him did you ever do it anywhere outside of a car and he said no. So I made a list of places for us to do it. I even invited him over to fuck me in my backyard in the moonlight...Grrrr....I was in rare form tonight.

I Hate Men

So I think that says it all. I don't understand them. I don't get their thought process or lack of it. I just don't get any of them.

They fly in like vultars and then they disappear. Okay, I am pouting right now. Mr. Porsche is way too busy for me and quite frankly I don't see when he will be available in the near future. He's not a stupid man, he sent me a check to go buy myself something. Hmmmm....a pay off. Basically I am not going to be around for awhile, go get yourself something. Oh it was suppose to be for helping him do something but it was much larger than that.

I miss my afternoons of wild sex. I miss the escape. Oh there are tons of men but none that is fulfilling me right now. I am swamped with work but I still need that escape. All my frogs are entrenched in their work....no time to play. Sad, sad Cheri. I need to play!!

I haven't been around lately because I had been deathly ill with bronchitis or something like that. I am starting to feel better. It's a sad feeling when there is no one to take care of me. Well there wasn't before either but now there isn't even anyone to be annoyed at for not taking care of me.

I admit that I am overwhelmed with work. But I am so tired of just working and cleaning. I need to escape. So I decided I need to get into shape. I am not happy with the weight I gained and I am tired of being sad about it. I am joining a kickboxing class. Yup, I think that is perfect and I will do well with it. All I have to do is picture the face of my Ex, a few frogs and I should be in great shape in no time. It was that or Zumba. And I think I would do better right now at kickboxing....I took a hot yoga class. that was soooo much fun and well I am flexible so it went well. going to fill in with that. The teacher looked at me and said Ooooooo you very flexible.. well yes teacher, I love to fuck and do wild positions with my legs stretched in all ways. I didn't say that but I wanted to. My girlfriend that I went with (who is pissed that she has been doing this class for a year and isn't as flexible said she is going to take up sex.)

Okay the rant is over....gotta get back to work....damn I miss a hot afternoon fuck!!! I am craving mind blowing SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mr Sports Arrives After One Year of Cock Teasing

So it is two weeks shy of one year that my best girlfriend introduced me to this guy. a big shot in sports management. she knew him from her days of dating some pro ball players. He has been a good friend of mine for almost a year. He says he's coming out to see me and he never ends up coming so should I have thought he was going to show up tonight? Of course tonight he does. giving me 4 minutes to prepare.


Nothing is stranger than talking to a man for a full year and never knowing what he looks like yet he knows so much about you. He knows my tones, my fears, my desires and my wants. I am coming over to be with you! OMG! I never even thought about it. I can't sleep with a stranger who is not a stranger but a good friend. I told him I couldn't. I don't know you...he laughed and said, I know you very well and I'll be there in two minutes.


I started to get a panic attack and the gigglesd. He knocked on the door and when I opened it, there stood an unfamiliar face yet the voice was one I know so well. What a bizarre and strange feeling. I smiled and kissed and hugged him. I explained that I felt so strange. He said he felt totally comfortable...why? because he had a picture. He understood how I couldn't jump into bed with him so we sat and talked for awhile. I gave him a tour of the house and he wanted to see the famous virgin bed which we all know is no longer but I left out that fact. We hung out on top of the bed, listened to the radio and we began to talk.


Talking in the almost dark, I heard the voice of my dear friend as I lied on his chest. And then I reached up and kissed him. I giggled but was feeling more comfortable. His hands wandered and he slide his hand in my pants. Fingering me, I began to really loosen up. And of course seeing his hard on in his pants did not help the situation....well.....the man loves to eat a woman out and I haven't had a good eating in awhile...hmmmm...and you can certainly guess where there is going.


For a good 15 minutes, he feasted on my pussy until I came. Oh I was feeling so selfish at this point. And then I opened his pants to a hard cock. It was more of two friends experimenting than the intense passion. There was a comfort there for me. And he was excellent at eating pussy. While he fingered me. Man, he was good. I slide my hands on his cock and could feel it bulge as my hand touched it. You could hear a little moan from him. That to me is always enticing. I get off knowing that I am pleasing someone. So I worked my way down to devour his cock. Oh, he moaned and moaned good. After an amazing blowjob, I looked at his cock and felt that it would be a waste for him to cum and us not to have sex. I love what it feels like when a man sticks his cock so deep inside of me. I love the thrusting...I love when a cock first enters me and it spreads my lips and then my muscles wrap around his cock.

So i told him, get the condom. The guy hasn't worn a condom in a million years but no raincoat, no sex. So he put it on and thrusted inside of me...it was french vanilla sex. i say that because it was missionary but I added a little flavor to it with my legs wrapped around him and my additional hip thrusts. Soon after, he came. If he didnt announce it, the little moan was all he gave. Afterwards, I loved his reaction. His mind was blown. He laid there and felt amazing. He held me close and we chatted. Actually even called my GF because she couldn't believe we finally met.

Well the sex was good but you know me, i need to push the limits. can he get it up again. I just started playing a little after 10 minutes and it began to rise again. Yes, there was life! So now there was a challenge. He said there was no way it was going to get hard enough to screw again...aaahh!! That is a challenge I will take on. And so I did with a great handjob and a little lip action and well, his cock was up again. There's not way I will cum, I can't believe you even managed to get me hard again. Hmmmm....lets try! So he went isndie of me again and this time I wrapped my legs around him and thrusted my hips too even faster and then I played with his balls and to his surprise, he came again. As he looked me in the face, he had a dazed look. "I haven't been able to cum twice like that in 20 minutes since I was 17!" He collapsed on the bed. He works out daily and responded that this was a better workout then he could do at the gym.

he made me laugh so hard. He truthfully was shocked that he was able to perform like that. Holy shit, you are amazing. And that made me feel great. My girlfriend called me this morning and we laughed. Amazing how times have changed. When I said goodby to him it was totally fine. You see, it was more like a sport then it was an actual sexually intense attraction. The sex was like an activity. He's my friend but I had no attachment. It was nice. We both laughed, yes, I was feeling like a man feels after sex. Now i get it. There's no emotional attachment, it was fun. That was it. I like him but it was like he was my tennis partner or something. Too funny.
In fact, 15 minutes later, I was on the phone with Mr. Porsche who is out of town and chatting. With him there is emotion, it was so different.

So that was my day yesterday....tons of talking to various men, four dates and one sexual rendezvous. No wonder i was so tired this morning. Yesterday was a day I certainly will remember.

Three Dates in a day or going for four?!

Today I did what I have never done before. Triple booked. Actually four dates..waiting to see if the last one is going to get out of a meeting early and drop by.. I am exhausted. Now here is the thing, I didn't do anything with any of them!! Yes, it was a bizarre day.

First date was with the guy I went out with two weeks ago. we met for breakfast and chatted because he is going out of town for two weeks. He's sweet, a little quirky, a perfectionist. A really early bird who gets to our rendezvous a half hour early. Hence the pressure I feel..since I am always a 1/2 hour late. LOL I warned him. He's very sweet and caring. He just wrote me a note how pretty I am. He asks about my day and really cares about what is going on. It's nice. Sexually, well, hopefully he will surprise me. But if he has sex like he lives his life---well it may be a little too routine for me!

Actually drove 1 mile to the next meeting. It is with that guy I met on Ashley Madison that I have been dying to meet. It went well. I knew he liked me because his eyes sparkled when he looked at me and he had this sweet smirk. I liked him. Car guy....great eyes. very nice, educated yet rough around the edges. I loved the way he looked at me. It was so sexy...made me feel sexy and desired. He had a limited time for lunch but ended up running late. I am enjoying you too much, I'll be a little late. He kissed me gently good by and....I was off to my next date.

Well this was a business meeting with tons of flirting. Yes, we hung out in his office for two hours going over work and he has introduced me to a new offspring business that I could get into. It's actually extremely easy to do and while it doesn't pay much its like an affiliate program set up. Basically, its money I will be getting on a monthly basis. It's a win/win situation. I am able to save a company money...anyway, I was psyched that he introduced me to it. So we flirted all afternoon and I walked out of his established with a designer upgrade. I am so excited about it. He was extremely generous to me. He told me that I brighten his day and that I am so dangerous....very dangerous. He'd been thinking about me since our last dinner meeting very bad thoughts. I think I must have kissed him six times during the day...each time he adjusted himself.

Ran home and took care of some work and hung out with my neighbor. She listened to my day laughing. In between the three encounters I spoke with Mr. Astronaut's friend....made me promise to understand that the stock market has been going insane. Once it calms down, he was dying to meet me. He can't concentrate with a hard on and the market fluctuating! lol

I was just about to get undressed for the night when my phone rang. This guy has been my friend for almost a year. Actually we never met but if it wasn't for him, I don't know if I could have made it through the rough times last year. He would give me the energy and logic I needed to address major problems. He is like a kept man though. He makes a nice living but his wife makes 2x what he makes.....a big time ad woman. Anyway, he called and he was literally 4 minutes from my house.

So here's the deal. A voice that has been my biggest supporter, a friend whenever I needed one and yet, i have never set eyes on him. And yet, he has been into me for a long time. thinking that I was not with anyone else (hmmm but I was not with him). I never corrected him, I left it alone. But he was four minutes away and a man so familiar yet so distant. He wanted to have sex! OMG! I told him I couldn't, that I have never met him even though I know everything about him. How strange, how bizarre....and the next thing I know he was knocking on my door. date four has arrived...what am I going to do?!!?

10 Good Men

Happy Mother's Day to All!! I slept late today...yeah!! Finally a good night's sleep. I rolled over and checked my phone since it was so late and to my surprise in a sleepy state, I saw all these messages. Happy Mother's Day....by the end of the day, I had 10 frogs wish me Happy Mother's Day. It felt so good that they remembered me. If you remember in the past--I was always ignored on Mother's day. The ex never said it, the kids didn't say it--it was so hurtful. I would go to sleep crying at night. But actually this turned out to be the best mother's day yet!

Mr. Astronaut, Mr. Cableman, Divorce Attorney, Facebook Attorney, Mr. Security, Mr. Astronauts Hot friend (oops I don't know id I mentioned him), the new dude from Ashley I can't wait to tell you about, last week's date and Mr. Fireman. All sent me text messages. Nothing is better than an unsolicited text message. The only sad thing was that Mr. Porsche didn't text me. Oh he wished me on Friday but he could have shot off a text. Guess men are on their best behaviors when they aren't doing you but trying to do you.

The best present of all was spending quality time with my oldest. It's been tough with all that we've been through. He has a heart of gold but so many walls. Today we just had a great time and spent the whole day together. It was truly my best day in a long time. So tonight, i am at peace.

Mother's Day is like your birthday, new years eve and valentines day. It's a day that you just want to be acknowledged. For someone to say...hey, you are special and I am thinking about you. So why do some men go out of their way not to wish someone a happy mother's day? i can't tell you how many of my friends were miserable today. Three friends called me hysterical crying. Such a simple thing and yet its as if men and children use it as a vicious tool to hurt their mother's and their wives. Honestly, its things like that when relationships take a turn. Because then father's day comes around and the mother decides she is going to return the lack of attention...and so on and so on.

Well I am happy. Very happy and content today. And, I am very excited about this new guy I met on Ashley Madison . I had seen his pix and wrote him a note. He disappeared for two weeks. I think I mentioned him before. I was so annoyed that he was gone forever. Well he finally wrote me back and we spoke yesterday and i really like him. Funny, intelligent....living with a woman for awhile. Anyway, we are suppose to meet for lunch on tuesday. I also have another date with the guy I went out with last week from Ashley but I have to say, I am not as excited as I am about this one. Heading to bed....I hope this is going to be a good week.....

Sweet dreams!! xoxo

I Gotta Remember I am Single....

I realize now that when you get divorced, you usually just begin dating again. As a woman who has had extramarital affairs...I kind of dated but secretly. So I am having a hard time with this concept that I am able to be out there. I am able to be seen with a man. I don't have to sneak around but old habits die hard. I have to re-learn this single dating thing.

Tonight, I had something for Mr. Security. I was passing near his house so I called him to see if he wanted to meet me and I would give it to him. He said, no come over, we are outside. I have met one of his kids (the youngest) she actually told her mom how I had great boots....uhm...I was then almost pulled into their divorce but luckily he gave me a man's name. For the past 6 months he has been calling me Chuckie. just in case she mentioned me again, everyone would think daddy's friend chuckie was a man. So he picked up the phone and called me chuckie.

When i pulled up, there was all three of his kids, his neighbor, his neighbor's kids, his partner. I was in shell shock. I had always been a secret, he has always been a secret. So when i pulled up the neighbors kids said something like see, i told you, this is chuckie. I was in shock. Now the kids were like you are chuckie?! Oh man, Mr.. Security was dying. I guess his daughter has said I saw daddy's friend chuckie in the supermarket...

You see, his custody was finalized. I guess he has no problem with introducing me to his world. It was so strange. He introduced me to his neighbor and I talked to his partner. I hung out with his kids for a little and we all had ice cream. His son was stand offish. He was the most effected by the wicked witch step mother so I think that any woman that come into his father's life, he is standoffish. He kept looking at me.

Mr. Security was in a better place. He was open and happy and it was as if he was so happy to not have to hide. I hung out with him until it was bedtime for the kids and then I said I am going to leave. He walked me to my car and in front of his kids he hugged and kissed me.

WOW...so is this what a normal male/female single thing is like. Way too funny. It was weird. It was normal. So I don't know what it was but it was nice. i can't wait for someone to come here and I don't have to hide. Wow, it was scary because I wasn't expecting it but it was cool. I was so nervous it was strange. I liked it though.

Mr. Porsche Plans A Sexual Escape...YUM

I have to say I was surprised. Mr. Porsche called this morning and wanted to escape for two hours. He was planning it last week but was afraid it would fall through and well we have been having some communication issues lately. Last week, we had gone to a show together. My phone was ringing off the hook...I think he was thinking it was frogs. And it actually was.


Well today I was entrenched in a project so when I didn't sound super excited I think he was a little disappointed. what did you want to meet for? work or play? whtever you want, its your time. Hmmm...lets see...I will take play.


When I got there, he was in a towel. He worked this weekend on something ridiculous. Well its not ridiculous but realistically its house stuff that unless you are a contractor, you pay someone to do. Heavy manual labor but he was determined. It is a personal thing not that he couldn't afford to hire someone. So his entire body was aching.

Come over here and cuddle with me, he said. WHAT, I don't feel like cuddling today!! I said. He started to crack up and pulled me on the bed. Here's the thing about Mr. Porsche that I love. He knows I am a PITA and accepts my ball busting ways. Others, get mad at me or get really annoyed. He finds my rebellion funny and he lets me have my dig and just laughs. Why?! Because he knows me. He knows that I am truly a mush. He knows that I am just protecting my heart with some little PITA TALK. I laid down and kissed and cuddled him. then massaged him from head to toe. His head, his neck, down his back, his ass, his legs, his feet and his hands. Poor thing, he was so tense. Yes, I did go back and massage his balls as well.

Get undressed, I need to feel your tits on me. And the good little slut that I am, I got undressed. I laid on him when suddenly, he came back to life. I want to make you cum...so I was on my knees, kind of lying across him when he starts to finger me using this little rubber finger. Our toy bag has exploded. In fact, the prostate massager is our second one and it is dead. I am writing to the company and I will post it here. Mr. Porsche said, you wouldn't write. I said watch me. I mean it, the damn thing is expensive and it should break after one use. He doesn't have a prostate of steel (which i will point out to the company when I write).

Anyway, I have to say. Mr. Porsche has gotten amazing at finding my gspot. I mean we are talking amazing. He played with my clit and used my juices to make it so smooth...then he goes in and he finds my gspot and I can't explain but I moan and have an out of body experience and I cum like crazy. I remember panting, I remember thinking there was other men in the room watching and POOF...my body went into orgasmic mode. WOOOWW!! Amazing how I went through 39 years of life and never had an orgasm. I have made up for it now!!

We cuddled, we talked. He was under so much stress that he really didn't think he could get it up. Well, well....we are talking to me. I was determined to put this mouth to good use and so I did. working his cock, I was certainly able to get him hard. He has the girth baby...the true girth..he loves to hear me gag. I did a few times. I got out the non vibrating prostate massager (still his favorite toy) and I worked it good. You see, I have my own power now. I know exactly where is prostate is...I know exactly what to do to get him off. And so he came like crazy. He says its a different kind of cum, wild....like he peaks and its almost like he is afraid it is going to hurt and then there is total ecstasy. Not sure exactly since its different for me but I love getting him to that point where its out of body experience.

We lied there after, I took my nails and tickled his body. We talked about everything and nothing. It was fabulous. I love days like that. So what he wants to do is get me in a threesome. Hmmm....maybe I should find a girl and we can go from Mr. Porsche directly to Mr. Astronaut the same day. Kill two birds with one stone. But more interestingly, he wants to pierce my nipples. I mean get it done professionally. Ever been with a girl or know a girl with pierced nipples. This is really turning him on and he is serious. I am not so sure about it. I mean these are my nipples and they happen to be a part of my body I like. Gotta think about this.

we left and things felt right. Things felt like they used to.....back on track!

A Sexually Exciting Day

Today was a crazy day but boy did I have fun. It started off with rendezvous with a man that I met on Ashley Madison. We had been talking for about a week. He was funny, nice and had this boyish look to him. While I know I should be looking for a single man...I couldn't help but meet him. He looks like his pix. He's cute, he's sweet and he enjoys me. He actually says I am a breath of fresh air, filled with energy and funny stories. He looks at me when I am talking (which seems way too much) and he has this little grin on his face. I am like his entertainment committee. We met for an iced tea and then we went to another restaurant for lunch. we spent three hours together. The meeting ended with a sweet kiss and a lot of tongue.

I liked him. Not sure where this is going. It wasn't the animal magnitism. It was kind of an attraction but I am not sure how I feel about him. Oh don't get me wrong, I do like him. He had a great kiss and great tongue and would be fun in bed I think. He wrote me later tonight...how he was so excited to meet me and that he felt such an attraction towards me. He said he was so into me and couldn't stop thinking about me all night (a smile came to my face and then a giggle...if he only knew what I was doing while he was thinking about me!)

My night tonight was bizarre but so much fun. Now follow this....I was determined to go out. I met my girlfriend and her boyfriend for a drink at this regular place they go. I asked Mr. Cableman to join us. He was hesitant because he wasn't feeling so great so he said he would let me know, probably come. So I went to the bar to see my friend and when I got there--she was talking to this really cute guy. And I said to myself..now there is a friend. She honed in on a guy she thought I would like and saved him for me. When I went over and said hello...she introduced us. I really like him. I was very attracted to him, I don't know what it was. He used to live next door to her boyfriend and she found out she went to camp with him. He was actually there to meet a girl that he met at a bar. He had been a little wasted and couldn't remember what she looked like but he was meeting her there for some drinks. Oh well, I thought. THEN I find out my girlfriend has told another friend of ours about this guy 6 months ago and she invited our other friend down to meet him. So, he's waiting for a date to come and my friend even called down our other friend to try and hook them up...so I was last on the list. Oh well...

Picture this....my girlfriend who I love dearly is a loud one....so she screams to her boyfriend that this guy is really pissed because his date is late and how rude she is. As she says that, there is a girl standing next to him and it is her. OKAY....they are off to a good start. Now, let's just say when he met her, he had to be drunk. She had that look like she got hit by a mack truck. He kept turning around to talk to us, she was getting annoyed (which I don't blame her actually). Our other friend walks in and they introduce him to her. And then he is talking to all of us. I back off but then we started to talk about how everyone is separated by six. And I guess he asked the girl and she had never heard of that or believed it and then he asked us and I said I sooo believe that. And he high fived me....

Then my girlfriend is trying to get him out of the dinner with the girl but she starts saying how you should go out for drinks only on a first date because you might not like each other and dinner would be too much. Which then obligated him to take her to dinner because it was ackward. So now he goes to the dinner area, our other friend thinks he's cute too but she says he thinks he likes me, I wouldn't have mind going out with him but this is all too weird. He goes to dinner, my friends are about to leave, I am trying to fix my friend up with cableman and then he says he isn't coming. Our friend leaves the back way cableman was teasing and comes in the front door and my friend and her boyfriend are leaving. They say hello to him they leave and Mr Cableman sits down and has a drink with me.

As we are having a drink, the new cute guy comes back and now he sees me with cableman. I introduce them and he talks a second and tells me to have my friends boyfriend call me. How he wished he could have hung out with us more. Now I feel like I might have blown it if he thinks cableman is my date so when his date got up to go to the bathroom, I went over to talk to him. He told me he was recently separated, ME TOO! And we chatted for a few minutes. I left before the date got back and went bavk to cableman. cableman and I then go to dinner together at another restaurant. And I was home by 11.

So, I have to say it was a crazy day. In between talking to a few frogs....but now this guy keeps popping into my head. I liked him. Actually, as I am sitting here I realized that he had a Mystery Man type of look and he also seemed fun. So it was not a surprise that i was attracted to him. So now after a crazy night which is really hard to explain the whole logistics of what went down I am thinking about this guy. Now he might like my friend. Truth is, that is fine. We are very different personalities. Both blonde, similiar looks except she dresses more prim and proper. I, on the other hand, was wearing this really hot shirt tonight that my cleavage showed just enough in this little circle. I love those circles that your cleavage shows through. I am much louder and more about having fun. She is sweet and reserve.

It doesn't matter what happens, it was hysterical any which way it goes. I was afraid it was going to be a sucky night....but I really had a lot of fun. Okay off to bed...big gardening day tomorrow!!