Yes, it is a new year and quite frankly I don't have that feeling of hope like I usually do. Not because of my life but the way the world is right now. I can't remember ever having such a gloomy feeling about where we were headed. I hope I am wrong--I hope this economy turns around. I hope the new year brings us joy and peace. But you can't help but feel an eerie gloom..like something truly horrible is going to happen. It's like standing on that edge...I truly hope I am wrong. I have been trying to ignore it and take up the Secret way of thinking. Positive brings Positive.
So.....have you made any new year's resolutions? My biggest ones are ones that haunt me year after year. Those biggies that you just don't seem to be able to tackle. Organization--yes, I hope to truly get my life organized and I am determined...working towards it now for two weeks...nt making a big dent yet but hoping! lol We are talking a house where everything is in its place....all my work is neatly organized and I am on to of everything. As for work, work more efficiently and take on the expansion I was hoping to take on. I feel really good about work... Family-my kids, spend more time with them. Play with them..something I haven't been able to do all year....sadly, I am always working. And then there is the diet, exercise blah blah blah...
And as far as my secret life..... focus more on me. The last two weeks, I have been browsing Ashley and found three great guys. But I realize my heart is not in it. Right now, I kind of want just Mr. Porsche. I guess I keep looking for a substitute for MM to balance me. I find that when there are two main frogs in my life...then I don't feel lonely and stupidly as it sounds, but the truth, I don't worry about falling in love. Did I say that? I did. I am in love with the person that Mr. Porsche is. I am in love with who he is and how he makes me feel so protected. And yes, I have recently said love ya. And he said it back in another conversation. I am not in love with him in the way that I would want us to be husband and wife. We would kill each other and my life is not conducive with his. But I am in love with us. The man who supports me.
So right now, The Greek God is getting on my nerves. He's anal and thinks too much, analyzes everything, every word, every action.....it's a little annoying. The security guy..not sure we are a match....I like him though....and who else was there? Hmm....the doctor.....he's not into me but I start to feel this flirtiness between us and I back off and quickly switch to work. He is now a client, I can't go there...
So what are your resolutions for the year? The 5 year plan....seemed so long ago and now it seems to be right around the corner. Yes, if things continue on this road...I may be single soon. I crave my independence and yet I fear it. Tried to get the hubby out of the bedroom , he refuses. It's going to get uglier.....so stay tuned for the war of the roses....lol
So.....all I wish for my readers....is HAPPINESS, HEALTH, PROSPERITY and ORGASMS topped with a year of amazing sex and sprinkled with some lust, passion, desire and some anal as the top cherry....yes, the 2009 Sundae would be complete
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Unfaithful....with Richard Gere...WOOOOOO!!
For years. I wanted to see the movie Unfaithful. Problem is that it is not a movie you want to rent from the video store. It's like one of those books about having an affair or getting a divorce...not really recommended reading to have lying around the house. Definite RED FLAGS, if you know wat I mean. It had been On Demand for a little bit but then it came off when I went to watch it. It wasn't meant to be. Last night, it was meant to be!!
I was putting my child to sleep and browsing the channels and I saw the credits to a movie with Richard Gere.....I caught it from the first second. Now they probably cut out all the good parts but the main story was there. And let's just say, I do not recommend it on my top ten list of movies for people wandering...lol I obviously related 100% to the female character...actually, I felt like it was me...the way she lived the two lives. Scary!!
So frog updates? I am so addicted....lol but not feeling sexy and feeling fat and ugly these days is putting a damper on my style. Let's see, there are three right now that are true potential frogs...one looks like a Greek God. I actually told him that I wasn't interested right now, was in the middle of something but that I liked him and maybe in the future. Well, we have been emailing back and forth for three days. So we will call him Mr. Greek.
Another has the most amazing and caring writing style...he draws me in. A gentleman, no pressure, understanding...the type you need to watch out for...your guard comes down and then poof!!
And finally the Security Guy..we have great convos, not sure I am sexually attracted to him but we will see.
A guy wrote me yesterday, he writes on and on about how he was a model for 12 years blah, blah, blah...so I expected a good looking guy. I thought men age well.....well, he didn't. I don't need a model (nor do I want one) but this guy....didn't even have a few looks...I mean he had that hair flip thing going on....very heavy. My advice to him...don't bring that up....woman expect average at least at that point...lol
So I decided to do something I never do. Go back and read my blog. As you know its my diary..you all are my inner minds....know me better than anyone in my real world. Know what's going on deep inside of my heart and mind. I decided I need to review the year. Look at what this year brought and how I can improve for the new year. I feel this one is going to be a big one, I don't know why. Big for change and hopefully good change. It went so fast, and I changed so much this year.
Well enjoy your week...enjoy the day......with all that is going on in this world....let's all survive the turmoil and try to smile. Remember..the cup needs to always be half full....lol
I was putting my child to sleep and browsing the channels and I saw the credits to a movie with Richard Gere.....I caught it from the first second. Now they probably cut out all the good parts but the main story was there. And let's just say, I do not recommend it on my top ten list of movies for people wandering...lol I obviously related 100% to the female character...actually, I felt like it was me...the way she lived the two lives. Scary!!
So frog updates? I am so addicted....lol but not feeling sexy and feeling fat and ugly these days is putting a damper on my style. Let's see, there are three right now that are true potential frogs...one looks like a Greek God. I actually told him that I wasn't interested right now, was in the middle of something but that I liked him and maybe in the future. Well, we have been emailing back and forth for three days. So we will call him Mr. Greek.
Another has the most amazing and caring writing style...he draws me in. A gentleman, no pressure, understanding...the type you need to watch out for...your guard comes down and then poof!!
And finally the Security Guy..we have great convos, not sure I am sexually attracted to him but we will see.
A guy wrote me yesterday, he writes on and on about how he was a model for 12 years blah, blah, blah...so I expected a good looking guy. I thought men age well.....well, he didn't. I don't need a model (nor do I want one) but this guy....didn't even have a few looks...I mean he had that hair flip thing going on....very heavy. My advice to him...don't bring that up....woman expect average at least at that point...lol
So I decided to do something I never do. Go back and read my blog. As you know its my diary..you all are my inner minds....know me better than anyone in my real world. Know what's going on deep inside of my heart and mind. I decided I need to review the year. Look at what this year brought and how I can improve for the new year. I feel this one is going to be a big one, I don't know why. Big for change and hopefully good change. It went so fast, and I changed so much this year.
Well enjoy your week...enjoy the day......with all that is going on in this world....let's all survive the turmoil and try to smile. Remember..the cup needs to always be half full....lol
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Meeting Mr Porsche
Yes, we met and it was amazing. Different this time though and i don't mean different bad....different good. He loved his presents and he gave me the prize in a cracker jack box as my gift...lol He's too funny. I told him I didn't want money..I knew him, he throws me money...not the point at all...I wanted him to pick out my present. Well he told me he would fix me and pick out a big straw hat with a big flower on it and make me wear it...wise ass. Yes, on the ice we were fighting...he kept throwing money in my car, I kept running back and throwing it in his car...lucky neither of us slipped on our asses...
In bed, it was less dominance and submission this time. It was calm, it was caring, it was reallly sexual. No wild positions, no wild domineering games...it was sweet and sensual and loving. He would look in my eyes and then kiss me..we screwed for a long time.....I gave him the blow job of his life! Sucking, licking and deep throating. Its funny how you get to know what does it for a man.. I have it down pat with him....he loves his cock sucked and the tip slurped....he loves when I go all the way down.....deep...he loves when I rub his balls and then I rub his prostate.....and then when I lick that area....right between the anal area and the balls...it drives him wild....yes, I can feel as his body tightens and he begins to pulsate...I can feel the pressure building...I can feel his body about to explode....he laughs after, its wild that he looses such control. He's not used to it.
I did buy anal beads. However, he actually put it in my pussy and what a weird feelin that was. It felt like a gyno instrument at first...wasn't sure I liked it. but then when it went up and it managed to hit a spot inside that was obviously my gpsot....I began to orgasm like wild...definitely interesting......I think I liked it...oh I loved the orgasm and my body's reaction.
And then, we laid there. And we held each other and hugged each other and talked and giggled. Today, he didn't rush...he knew it was important for me to feel he was there with me. And he was. Oh there was one power struggle....I slapped his ass for something and he grabbed my nipple in his mouth and sucked and bit. Then I manuveured my way to reach his cock.....aahh..the struggle began....who was going to give in first...this lasted a while...both of us laughing and giggling....its nice to be with a friend. It's nice to be with a lover.
And I wrote him a card...knowing he had to throw it out but I wrote it anyway. and basically I said Thank you. Thank you for being there for me, for caring about me, for allowing me to be me. thanks for all those orgasms but even more.....thanks for being such a wonderful lover and truly my best friend. He took the card...he needs to throw it out but he did take it I think to read again.
So he yelled at me for buying all those things but I told him that all the stuff had his name on it so I had to buy it (I got it all engraved so he wouldnt; make me return it). I said How many people have your name...I had to buy it...I love to entertain him.
He;s truly special to me. and right now, I have no desire to go back on Ashley right now. For the first time in my life, I am not craving that newness, that flirtiness, that excitement. Oh, I will go back. Just right now, the kids, my career and Mr. Porsche are keeping me busy.
In bed, it was less dominance and submission this time. It was calm, it was caring, it was reallly sexual. No wild positions, no wild domineering games...it was sweet and sensual and loving. He would look in my eyes and then kiss me..we screwed for a long time.....I gave him the blow job of his life! Sucking, licking and deep throating. Its funny how you get to know what does it for a man.. I have it down pat with him....he loves his cock sucked and the tip slurped....he loves when I go all the way down.....deep...he loves when I rub his balls and then I rub his prostate.....and then when I lick that area....right between the anal area and the balls...it drives him wild....yes, I can feel as his body tightens and he begins to pulsate...I can feel the pressure building...I can feel his body about to explode....he laughs after, its wild that he looses such control. He's not used to it.
I did buy anal beads. However, he actually put it in my pussy and what a weird feelin that was. It felt like a gyno instrument at first...wasn't sure I liked it. but then when it went up and it managed to hit a spot inside that was obviously my gpsot....I began to orgasm like wild...definitely interesting......I think I liked it...oh I loved the orgasm and my body's reaction.
And then, we laid there. And we held each other and hugged each other and talked and giggled. Today, he didn't rush...he knew it was important for me to feel he was there with me. And he was. Oh there was one power struggle....I slapped his ass for something and he grabbed my nipple in his mouth and sucked and bit. Then I manuveured my way to reach his cock.....aahh..the struggle began....who was going to give in first...this lasted a while...both of us laughing and giggling....its nice to be with a friend. It's nice to be with a lover.
And I wrote him a card...knowing he had to throw it out but I wrote it anyway. and basically I said Thank you. Thank you for being there for me, for caring about me, for allowing me to be me. thanks for all those orgasms but even more.....thanks for being such a wonderful lover and truly my best friend. He took the card...he needs to throw it out but he did take it I think to read again.
So he yelled at me for buying all those things but I told him that all the stuff had his name on it so I had to buy it (I got it all engraved so he wouldnt; make me return it). I said How many people have your name...I had to buy it...I love to entertain him.
He;s truly special to me. and right now, I have no desire to go back on Ashley right now. For the first time in my life, I am not craving that newness, that flirtiness, that excitement. Oh, I will go back. Just right now, the kids, my career and Mr. Porsche are keeping me busy.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
It's Time for Those BIG CANDY CANES
So I was looking through some of my old files and I found my Christmas stuff from last year.....most people open up their box of old cherished family heirlooms...I have a file with hot xmas pix.....this one happens to be my favorite..mmmm...reminds me how much I love to suck a hard cock!!!
So the holiday season is here. Kind of a mellow one I think. Going through the motions......I can't explain it. I am happy but just so busy I guess. The hustle and bustle the next day of getting everything together. I don't know..so much pressure to get everything done (and all the presents given out for business). I am way behind.
Today I went to the mall where Mystery Man and I screwed in the fitting room. I giggled...ironically the bracelet that I bought that day, I lost. It came off my hand at the mall. So weird...I figured it was gone forever. I happened to go back to one store I was in and asked the woman did you find a heart bracelet? It was the store I bought Mr. Porsche's gift in. And she said Yes and she gave it back to me. How bizarre is that? What do you think that means? It fell off in the mall I screwed MM in......in the store I just bought Porsche a present AND I got it back....WOOOOOOOO...gotta mean something.
So I am a little upset with Mr. Porsche. We are meeting tomorrow and he said...you know that was your present right? Well he told me it was my present and it was a good present but I was kind of hoping he would pick something out for me. I mean he's alway throwing money my way and I am not complaining. I don't care if he goes to the dollar store and buys me something. It's the act of picking something out for me. Is that wrong? I am sentimental...I like when someone thinks of me...its not monetary...its the act. Now he did give me a nice present....but I guess it was the way he put it. He didn't want the pressure of having to get to the store and get me something else. I don't know. He didn't mean it like it sounded. I told him to go to the dollar store and pick something out that I don't want any money or anything big..just for him to pick something out. Am I wrong?
I went back and forth on what to get him. And then I mellowed because I realized his birthday is a few weeks away. So I want to do something for that too. I decided to go sentimental yet practical because you can't buy something personal. He made major changes with his company. Like he is starting over kind of. He is out in the field more and in contact with customers more. So...I got him a leather padfolio engraved with his name and company name and a pen with his name and a business card holder with his name (I made up his cards for him so it kind of fit) and I am going to write a mushy note....which I know he is going to have to tear up. But basically saying that when he uses the padfolio or gives out a business card..I want him to know that I am there for him....always supporting him. Oh, and of course I got him a new cock ring and prostate massager..lol
Such practical gifts...don't ya think!!!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
WHY?!?!?
This is just a rant....one of those things in life I just don't get. A woman today had her 18th child and a 70 year old woman gave birth to a baby (the highlights on the Yahoo news). And, a very close friend of mine (she's like my daughter/sister)....two weeks away from delivering, she lost the baby.
Now here is a woman who could handle a child with a disability. She has a heart of gold. She is truly an angel. When you are talking about an amazing person, it is her. She gives her life to taking care of children with disabilities. And today, there was probably only one thing she couldn't handle...it would be losing her child. No heartbeat.
I am sad. I am crying. I am trying to figure out why God does what he does. Some people would make good moms, she would be an amazing mom. I really don't even know what to say. One of those things in my life that I just don't understand....like a cruel joke. 2 weeks away from birth, you think you are there and poof....life is taken away.
I'm sorry...I had to get that off my chest. I am sitting here trying to work and my head is just filled and my heart is just so sad. I always feel bettter when I blog....
xoxo
Now here is a woman who could handle a child with a disability. She has a heart of gold. She is truly an angel. When you are talking about an amazing person, it is her. She gives her life to taking care of children with disabilities. And today, there was probably only one thing she couldn't handle...it would be losing her child. No heartbeat.
I am sad. I am crying. I am trying to figure out why God does what he does. Some people would make good moms, she would be an amazing mom. I really don't even know what to say. One of those things in my life that I just don't understand....like a cruel joke. 2 weeks away from birth, you think you are there and poof....life is taken away.
I'm sorry...I had to get that off my chest. I am sitting here trying to work and my head is just filled and my heart is just so sad. I always feel bettter when I blog....
xoxo
Burning Both Ends of The Candle
So I have been working, shopping and working some more and what do I have to show for it--I got sick!! I haven't been sick like this in awhile. Aches, ,pains, chills and a stuffy head...the old, I just want to crawl in bed. Ironically, I am still horny through this because it has been so long. Mr. Porsche has been so busy working and now, I don't want to get him sick so we are staying away from each other for a few days...pout...pout..pout.
When I first started on Ashley...faces and pix would match up...lately that is not the case....this new guy sent me a few new pix and he looks different in each. No, he doesn't have my heart racing but we will have to see what develops. Not putting too many eggs in that basket....its quiet in Cheri land...work, work and more work makes me a dull girl....pout
So I am still racking my brains out on what to get Mr Porsche for the holidays. He won't tell me or even hint what I should get. I got two little gag type gifts.....and then there is this new gadget I got. It's a Livescribe Smartpen. I am trying to incorporate it into my work and i am not sure if it will help him. Great gift for school and college kids (wish i had one growing up) and I am thinking I can use it in meetings. Like getting information from clients or sales quotes...taking notes....anyway anyone using it with success?
And then of course there is the prostate massager which I am going to pick up this weekend. Any other ideas?!
So I was going to sleep last night...and I am missing Mystery Man. I have to change my music on my myspace. It's songs that we used to screw too...hot, intense...funny how those same songs would make me smile and get so happy and horny. Now, they bring back flashbacks and I miss him terribly. But not enough to contact him. I feel he has to contact me and he won't swallow his pride in fear of rejection. Anyway, you know how I give frogs names. Well I realized that Mystery Man alias is to protect his alias....The man is doubly protected. He gave me a fake name and I gave him a fake name on top of his fake name.....lol Yes, with all the stress, its bizarre moments like that that helped me fall asleep last night.
So any good gifts out there for lovers this year? Still in search.....I hope you are all surviving t his economy. Life is a little stranger this year...I hope all my readers are doing well and surviving these rough time....hey, your my family, I worry about you!! xoxoxoxoox
When I first started on Ashley...faces and pix would match up...lately that is not the case....this new guy sent me a few new pix and he looks different in each. No, he doesn't have my heart racing but we will have to see what develops. Not putting too many eggs in that basket....its quiet in Cheri land...work, work and more work makes me a dull girl....pout
So I am still racking my brains out on what to get Mr Porsche for the holidays. He won't tell me or even hint what I should get. I got two little gag type gifts.....and then there is this new gadget I got. It's a Livescribe Smartpen. I am trying to incorporate it into my work and i am not sure if it will help him. Great gift for school and college kids (wish i had one growing up) and I am thinking I can use it in meetings. Like getting information from clients or sales quotes...taking notes....anyway anyone using it with success?
And then of course there is the prostate massager which I am going to pick up this weekend. Any other ideas?!
So I was going to sleep last night...and I am missing Mystery Man. I have to change my music on my myspace. It's songs that we used to screw too...hot, intense...funny how those same songs would make me smile and get so happy and horny. Now, they bring back flashbacks and I miss him terribly. But not enough to contact him. I feel he has to contact me and he won't swallow his pride in fear of rejection. Anyway, you know how I give frogs names. Well I realized that Mystery Man alias is to protect his alias....The man is doubly protected. He gave me a fake name and I gave him a fake name on top of his fake name.....lol Yes, with all the stress, its bizarre moments like that that helped me fall asleep last night.
So any good gifts out there for lovers this year? Still in search.....I hope you are all surviving t his economy. Life is a little stranger this year...I hope all my readers are doing well and surviving these rough time....hey, your my family, I worry about you!! xoxoxoxoox
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Ashley Madison's Hot New Ads
Been trying not to collect any new frogs but after seeing these ads.....geez....you have to wanna screw. So hot.....such a reminder of how hot an affair is. My body is yearning for the newness again. MY mind misses Mystery Man...yes, this is the hot sex we had. Considering everything, I have been pretty good I think about not sending emails...but the new year is coming...and I feel the desire to wish him a hapy new year.
So curiously, which one of these ads makes you the hottest......have her scream out your fake name..how funny..and how many times did I do that? Geez....and how funny that I screamed out a fake name when having sex with Mr. Porsche..double dysfunction!! Sigh, off to Ashley,I have to do it.......I am addickted!
So curiously, which one of these ads makes you the hottest......have her scream out your fake name..how funny..and how many times did I do that? Geez....and how funny that I screamed out a fake name when having sex with Mr. Porsche..double dysfunction!! Sigh, off to Ashley,I have to do it.......I am addickted!
The Worker
Mr. Porsche sent the worker here and he is a nice guy. He does have a slight disability but he is a loyal wrorker. Another example of the mush and kind hearted man that Mr. Porsche is...but this guy works hard for him. In conversation, he was telling me that he doesn't know how to change his alarm clock since daylight savngs so he has been getting up an hour earlier each day. So, I gave him my clock. It has a special memory where it figures out the real time and I set the alarms for him. Now he will be able to sleep that extra hour.
Of course my son wanted to know what happened to his clock....lol I have another one somewhere in this house. Wehn I told Mr. Porsche he just said "so is that why he was late today'. I started dying (he was joking).
ight
I wanted to mush him to death today..I wanted to lavish him with affection BUT he was in a bad mood. It all started out because he sent a gift to a client who died a year ago. His son took over the place but we addressed it to the dead father. We made a mistake..he said...I checked my notes (he made the mistake) but thankfully, I was able to grab the item off the truck and re-address it. I knew he wasn't in a good mood when I suggested that it might be a late condolensce basket if we couldn't stop it. He chuckled very little..but come on..that was funny...
Work is insane right now. Burning the candle at both ends. Even my mother, who rarily notices said that I had an overworked and sadness in my eyes. Funny, I was in a decent frame of mind at the time but I realized she was probably right.
But as I always say...Tomorrow is ANoTHER DAY!!! Woo Hoooo!!!!!!!
Sweet Wet Dreams...
Of course my son wanted to know what happened to his clock....lol I have another one somewhere in this house. Wehn I told Mr. Porsche he just said "so is that why he was late today'. I started dying (he was joking).
ight
I wanted to mush him to death today..I wanted to lavish him with affection BUT he was in a bad mood. It all started out because he sent a gift to a client who died a year ago. His son took over the place but we addressed it to the dead father. We made a mistake..he said...I checked my notes (he made the mistake) but thankfully, I was able to grab the item off the truck and re-address it. I knew he wasn't in a good mood when I suggested that it might be a late condolensce basket if we couldn't stop it. He chuckled very little..but come on..that was funny...
Work is insane right now. Burning the candle at both ends. Even my mother, who rarily notices said that I had an overworked and sadness in my eyes. Funny, I was in a decent frame of mind at the time but I realized she was probably right.
But as I always say...Tomorrow is ANoTHER DAY!!! Woo Hoooo!!!!!!!
Sweet Wet Dreams...
Friday, December 12, 2008
The Doctor and Mr. Porsche
The doctor called me. We talked and quite frankly, I agreed to work for him. He claims that he is not sure he is ready to jump into an affair. He is nervous. My answer to him was "look darling, if we are going to work with each other, we need to be honest here. You are full of shit because you were back on Ashley last night and if you were that spooked, you would have never gone back on. Second, the chemistry wasn't there. I'm not your type that is fine, you seemed a little awkward to I went to discussing work. It's fine...but don't hand me bullshit." He continued to swear up and down that Ashley was addicting (which we all know it is) and that he just has the urge to check his mail. That it really wasn't me.....
Oh please......he's is very cute but quite frankly I would be way too self conscious. And it works out better for me anyway. I need the money. My girlfriend was howling....so, you either fuck them and do work for free or you do work for them. Its as if you win each time.....but you are reverse of a call girl. They only pay ya if they DON'T Fuck ya.........we were howling. Yes, good friends, a best friend is a life saver....
And now.....I have to tell you. I am on that rollercoaster again. Except Mr. Porsche doesn't realize how special he is. He did something for me today, that I can't even put into words. People rarily do things for me. I am usually the giver. And he always does something that WOWs me. Today was the same thing. I drove all the way to his office in tons of traffic. I needed to pick up supplies for a project I was doing this weekend. I dreaded it because it is manual labor and I hate doing this. Anyway, this is his business so I took him up on the supplies. As one of his men were packing up what I needed, he asked him. Are you working tomorrow? The guy said no. He said would you like to work...he said yes. He said...okay, go to Cheri's house tomorrow and do what needs to be done! Merry Christmas..he said to me.
Upstairs in his office I looked at him and said Thank you.....and he laughed, oh you will pay me back...tough guy....lol Now remember, he's worried that there are cameras in areas of his office.....so I promised to be good. And I was....but I sat in a massage chair he has in his office and I asked him to help me turn it on. He came over and grabbed my face and stuck his tongue deep down my throat and walked away. I giggled...... its still not working.....he came back and I grabbed his cock and pulled him closer to me.......deep kisses....mmmmm......I could feel his cock getting harder....he pulled away.......
what is wrong with this chair!!!?? I said loud.......and he came over and this time I got up and backed him up against the wall and he couldn't get away......he was like...stop, they are going to come in....but I felt his cock saying more.......and so we kissed....underneath the picture that I made for him last year for his birthday which he has hanging in his office. Remember, the one of my body parts hidden in the rocks......mmmmm......
So driving home, I realized I have an amazing lover...who cares about me and is so damn special. I couldn't' ask for more. Someone who wants to make me happy. Someone who gives and does not take. Actually I can't think of anyone else in my life who is a giver...I am so happy and lucky to have him.
So any suggestions for a gift for him? I have been racking my brains out and now even more than ever I want to get him something special. I ordered one thing...that is kind of a novelty item and now I want to get him something special. Help!
Oh please......he's is very cute but quite frankly I would be way too self conscious. And it works out better for me anyway. I need the money. My girlfriend was howling....so, you either fuck them and do work for free or you do work for them. Its as if you win each time.....but you are reverse of a call girl. They only pay ya if they DON'T Fuck ya.........we were howling. Yes, good friends, a best friend is a life saver....
And now.....I have to tell you. I am on that rollercoaster again. Except Mr. Porsche doesn't realize how special he is. He did something for me today, that I can't even put into words. People rarily do things for me. I am usually the giver. And he always does something that WOWs me. Today was the same thing. I drove all the way to his office in tons of traffic. I needed to pick up supplies for a project I was doing this weekend. I dreaded it because it is manual labor and I hate doing this. Anyway, this is his business so I took him up on the supplies. As one of his men were packing up what I needed, he asked him. Are you working tomorrow? The guy said no. He said would you like to work...he said yes. He said...okay, go to Cheri's house tomorrow and do what needs to be done! Merry Christmas..he said to me.
Upstairs in his office I looked at him and said Thank you.....and he laughed, oh you will pay me back...tough guy....lol Now remember, he's worried that there are cameras in areas of his office.....so I promised to be good. And I was....but I sat in a massage chair he has in his office and I asked him to help me turn it on. He came over and grabbed my face and stuck his tongue deep down my throat and walked away. I giggled...... its still not working.....he came back and I grabbed his cock and pulled him closer to me.......deep kisses....mmmmm......I could feel his cock getting harder....he pulled away.......
what is wrong with this chair!!!?? I said loud.......and he came over and this time I got up and backed him up against the wall and he couldn't get away......he was like...stop, they are going to come in....but I felt his cock saying more.......and so we kissed....underneath the picture that I made for him last year for his birthday which he has hanging in his office. Remember, the one of my body parts hidden in the rocks......mmmmm......
So driving home, I realized I have an amazing lover...who cares about me and is so damn special. I couldn't' ask for more. Someone who wants to make me happy. Someone who gives and does not take. Actually I can't think of anyone else in my life who is a giver...I am so happy and lucky to have him.
So any suggestions for a gift for him? I have been racking my brains out and now even more than ever I want to get him something special. I ordered one thing...that is kind of a novelty item and now I want to get him something special. Help!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Met The Doctors
Today, I wished never ever existed. I feel like a failure. A total failure. closest I have ever come in life to taking off or even contemplating leaving this earth to lessen the pain. Two issues with the children, one that my husband made me look like white trash and then my son...failing every subject. I am lossed....angered......hatred......I wish I could not work so much....I feel like a failure at home. A horrible mother. My heart is aching right now....the tears flowing. I try...I truly try....its just too much to do it all.
Met the doctor today for a 1/2 hour. I was rejected. He's a handsome man and quite frankly thin as a rail. Sexy, but I am not his type. I could tell. We started talking business....a pure sign that there was no attraction. so instead of a sexual partner.....I got a new client. How fucking funny. Ashley has actually given me more business clients, its a riot. I am doing or have done business for more guys on Ashley...little did I know that would also be a business site for me (well if I were a prostitute or escort, it would make sense.....lol)
So......I am sad. I am goin to my bath, a little mommy's helper.....and some strength. Feeling like a failure hurts so much when you strive for perfection.
Met the doctor today for a 1/2 hour. I was rejected. He's a handsome man and quite frankly thin as a rail. Sexy, but I am not his type. I could tell. We started talking business....a pure sign that there was no attraction. so instead of a sexual partner.....I got a new client. How fucking funny. Ashley has actually given me more business clients, its a riot. I am doing or have done business for more guys on Ashley...little did I know that would also be a business site for me (well if I were a prostitute or escort, it would make sense.....lol)
So......I am sad. I am goin to my bath, a little mommy's helper.....and some strength. Feeling like a failure hurts so much when you strive for perfection.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Please Don't Talk, It's Ruining My Fantasy
For someone I have never met before, this guy from Ashley Madison is certainly teaching me a lot. First, he taught me what it feels like to not get a response on Ashley. I see how sucky it is to be a man. And then today, he taught me my next lesson. I finally got to see what it is like when a guy sees this hot chick and then she opens her mouth and there is nothing inside. You just don't want her to talk....it ruins the fantasy.
Well that's what happened with that dude. His mouth opened and we were on different levels...oh man, you are so fuckin butiful...wow, cool...baby caul me.
Yeah, my moment was ruined.
The not bald guy text me back. Who knows...he was the cocky one.
And then there is the new doctor. Okay, here's a new one. Guess what? His name is not what he told me....its his middle name. Sound familiar?!?!? I had a flashback of MM. Difference is that he confessed early on....even before we met. He started with...I have to be honest here with you...and my stomach dropped. I figured he was dissing me...instead he confessed. Now let's not give him the award of honor JUST yet, although he does get brownie points. You see, he confessed because he wants my business expertise. Hence, in order to do that, I need his credit card to get his sites, hence they have to be registered in his name, hence....the fake name is his middle name. So I guess he tossed and turned with that one...however, I already knew his work number, where he worked, his cell phone, his site etc. etc. So it was going to come out...better off confessing to me. But I laughed...shook my head and cracked up. I know thats the case with the surgeon too. It's his middle name. Now the big question...does he like me for me or what I can do for his business. I should have waited before discussing business. Oh well...
And as for Mr. Porsche...I am sooooo sad. I had this great plan. He was going out with his friends, I was going out with mine...we would meet and have a sleep over. As I was going to call him, our mutual friend told me that he cancelled. Sigh...I called him upset. He has a couply thing to do at home. Even more upset...I wanted to spend the night with him. He read my mind..it would have been a great Christmas present. Damn, I am sooooo bummed. Ok, back to work...quick update...
And to the newbies...welcome and I am glad you gentleman enjoyed my blog. Such sweet notes, I love notes and comments......and CB...just swamped...sorry...
xoxox
Well that's what happened with that dude. His mouth opened and we were on different levels...oh man, you are so fuckin butiful...wow, cool...baby caul me.
Yeah, my moment was ruined.
The not bald guy text me back. Who knows...he was the cocky one.
And then there is the new doctor. Okay, here's a new one. Guess what? His name is not what he told me....its his middle name. Sound familiar?!?!? I had a flashback of MM. Difference is that he confessed early on....even before we met. He started with...I have to be honest here with you...and my stomach dropped. I figured he was dissing me...instead he confessed. Now let's not give him the award of honor JUST yet, although he does get brownie points. You see, he confessed because he wants my business expertise. Hence, in order to do that, I need his credit card to get his sites, hence they have to be registered in his name, hence....the fake name is his middle name. So I guess he tossed and turned with that one...however, I already knew his work number, where he worked, his cell phone, his site etc. etc. So it was going to come out...better off confessing to me. But I laughed...shook my head and cracked up. I know thats the case with the surgeon too. It's his middle name. Now the big question...does he like me for me or what I can do for his business. I should have waited before discussing business. Oh well...
And as for Mr. Porsche...I am sooooo sad. I had this great plan. He was going out with his friends, I was going out with mine...we would meet and have a sleep over. As I was going to call him, our mutual friend told me that he cancelled. Sigh...I called him upset. He has a couply thing to do at home. Even more upset...I wanted to spend the night with him. He read my mind..it would have been a great Christmas present. Damn, I am sooooo bummed. Ok, back to work...quick update...
And to the newbies...welcome and I am glad you gentleman enjoyed my blog. Such sweet notes, I love notes and comments......and CB...just swamped...sorry...
xoxox
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Being Taken Advantage Of AND NEW FROGS!!!
Well, I can't stand being taken advantage of and right now one of my bosses is really pushing my buttons. I am suppose to work 6 hours a week for him, I work about 30....Friday, I was taking a few hours off and he called me in. Gave me a shitload of work...and then emailed me tonight if it was done. And then after I emailed him that I was doing it later, he wanted to go over something else. Now I do work on the weekend but its to catchup..
Anyway, I don't realize how many men I talk to...I love talking to people, I love talking to men...I love that connection. so starved at home for affection...I crave it from the outside world. I get a high from it. Interesting, I have three real contenders right now......yes, three new frogs. Actually there were 6 frogs but three were not for me. I have three that have true potential.
Well the doctor. Things were hot and heavy last week. Funny how you can feel that a weekend can cool things down when there is not contact. Let's call him Mr. Emergency. Then there is a new guy.....not sure. To me he seems very full of himself. And anyone who would say Bang Her from behind...when we don't know each other. I don't know. Admits to used to being a playa. However when I talked to him about the mental connection and tell me about you...he came up with his lack of tolerance with stupidity and in the next breath he said he has the patience to teach someone until they get it. Sounds a little like horse shit because what happens when someone doesn't get it (and they are stupid? lol) I am being sarcastic but if someone doesn't get it--either you have the patience to try and teach them OR you declare them stupid. I don't know. We will see.
And then.........there was a guy on Ashley who I thought was really cute. He looked like Mystery Man a little bit.....but actually even better looking. I sent him a note awhile back (and I got no response). He looked at my email and ignored me. WOW! First time...and then I said, so this is what a guy feels when you don't answer. It sucks!!!!! The difference (for the women's defense) is that we receive many emails a day and hundreds when you are a newbie.
Anyway, I was thinking of him yesterday and was like...wow, he really never responded. Sudden'y, yesterday, he responded...out of nowhere. I think it threw him because I have the same name as his wife and I guess he was surprised he got someone approaching him. Not sure, I didn't ask....anyway,.....YEAH!! He's not much with the emails but I am going to call him.
So tomorrow, three new frogs on the To Call list!! Woo Hoo!! And then there is Mr. Porsche. I miss him over the weekends. Actually, Friday night we are both going out with friends not far from each other. He doesn't know that I know he is. Anyway, I am thinking of asking him to sleep out for the night. I have a feeling he's going to say he can't. I am going to be disappointed but I would love it. I have my alibi...I hope he can. How amazing to spend the night together...in his arms, a pillow fight, playin all night....
Mmmm........too much fun!!
Anyway, I don't realize how many men I talk to...I love talking to people, I love talking to men...I love that connection. so starved at home for affection...I crave it from the outside world. I get a high from it. Interesting, I have three real contenders right now......yes, three new frogs. Actually there were 6 frogs but three were not for me. I have three that have true potential.
Well the doctor. Things were hot and heavy last week. Funny how you can feel that a weekend can cool things down when there is not contact. Let's call him Mr. Emergency. Then there is a new guy.....not sure. To me he seems very full of himself. And anyone who would say Bang Her from behind...when we don't know each other. I don't know. Admits to used to being a playa. However when I talked to him about the mental connection and tell me about you...he came up with his lack of tolerance with stupidity and in the next breath he said he has the patience to teach someone until they get it. Sounds a little like horse shit because what happens when someone doesn't get it (and they are stupid? lol) I am being sarcastic but if someone doesn't get it--either you have the patience to try and teach them OR you declare them stupid. I don't know. We will see.
And then.........there was a guy on Ashley who I thought was really cute. He looked like Mystery Man a little bit.....but actually even better looking. I sent him a note awhile back (and I got no response). He looked at my email and ignored me. WOW! First time...and then I said, so this is what a guy feels when you don't answer. It sucks!!!!! The difference (for the women's defense) is that we receive many emails a day and hundreds when you are a newbie.
Anyway, I was thinking of him yesterday and was like...wow, he really never responded. Sudden'y, yesterday, he responded...out of nowhere. I think it threw him because I have the same name as his wife and I guess he was surprised he got someone approaching him. Not sure, I didn't ask....anyway,.....YEAH!! He's not much with the emails but I am going to call him.
So tomorrow, three new frogs on the To Call list!! Woo Hoo!! And then there is Mr. Porsche. I miss him over the weekends. Actually, Friday night we are both going out with friends not far from each other. He doesn't know that I know he is. Anyway, I am thinking of asking him to sleep out for the night. I have a feeling he's going to say he can't. I am going to be disappointed but I would love it. I have my alibi...I hope he can. How amazing to spend the night together...in his arms, a pillow fight, playin all night....
Mmmm........too much fun!!
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Eat A Frog A Day---A Movie
In my REAL WORLD, when I see a frog, it gives me an inner giggle. Other people look at that ugly creature and are probably repulsed. However, for me- a frog symbolizes my Other World. The world of total satisfaction and escape. So when I see a frog, I giggle and it reminds me of my Other World that brings me so much joy. The bad girl in me, the hidden girl....the girl who names her frogs from the pond!!
So what is my point? I adore this company....Simple Truths. if you ever need to get motivated for anything....these are the books and videos that can do it for you. At times, I wake up and need some energy, inspiration or the strength for a successful day and these videos and books give them to me. In addition, it's a great gift for employees, great motivational videos if you are in management or you are in sales. Anyway, take a look at their site and you will love it.
And now my frog point....they just came out with a new video. It's excellent and truly motivational BUT for me it had a double meaning. Oh yes, I try to Eat A Frog A Day......the sexual undertone was so hysterical for me. Now no one else but us would get this. But all I could think about was my goal to give a blow job to one frog a day....
So when you watch this video....first watch it the way I watched it....Then, take the time to watch it for real (I dare you to be able to watch it the second time and not imagine me with one of my frogs).
Here is the Eat That Frog! Link: If it doesn't work go to link below and choose motivational movies and the first one is the Frog!
Here is the actual company's link....it really is great stuff....take the time to watch their videos, you will love them (The Service one with the paperbag and 212 degrees are two of my favorites).
Simple Truths
I can't figure out how to get it to pop into a new window...so once you press the button, you are off to Motivational World....Ciao Baby!!
So what is my point? I adore this company....Simple Truths. if you ever need to get motivated for anything....these are the books and videos that can do it for you. At times, I wake up and need some energy, inspiration or the strength for a successful day and these videos and books give them to me. In addition, it's a great gift for employees, great motivational videos if you are in management or you are in sales. Anyway, take a look at their site and you will love it.
And now my frog point....they just came out with a new video. It's excellent and truly motivational BUT for me it had a double meaning. Oh yes, I try to Eat A Frog A Day......the sexual undertone was so hysterical for me. Now no one else but us would get this. But all I could think about was my goal to give a blow job to one frog a day....
So when you watch this video....first watch it the way I watched it....Then, take the time to watch it for real (I dare you to be able to watch it the second time and not imagine me with one of my frogs).
Here is the Eat That Frog! Link: If it doesn't work go to link below and choose motivational movies and the first one is the Frog!
Here is the actual company's link....it really is great stuff....take the time to watch their videos, you will love them (The Service one with the paperbag and 212 degrees are two of my favorites).
Simple Truths
I can't figure out how to get it to pop into a new window...so once you press the button, you are off to Motivational World....Ciao Baby!!
Friday, December 05, 2008
Men, Men and more Men
I have to tell ya, I am glad this week is over. It was insane. I am mentally wiped.
No doubt, its so much easier to be a woman than a man on those sites. I am not bragging but I have more men then I know what to do with. If Mr Porsche had more time, he would be my only. But he doesn't. And quite frankly I love the flirting.
The new guy (who is in my profession) is amazing. We get along great BUT I told you he is into petite and well that is not me. As an emotional eater, I gained 10 lbs. the last few month which I am determined to get off starting tomorrow. Yes, its time to concentrate again on me and my weight and exercise. I sit at my computer and work and my metabolism is zero.
Anyway, we chatted a million times today back and forth by text. He's witty, smart and fun. Tonight I told him...I enjoy you so much but its not going to work. I am not petite. He seems to think he doesn't care about that now. He says our chemistry is unbelievable. And it is, but I need a man who cares about the whole package.
There is another guy.....but he's so young. 34...and he is rough around the edges. Actually I would have probably liked him but the other professional guy has been sweeping me off my feet. Then there is the bald guy. Who isn't bald but his profile said that so I wrote back that I wasn't interested in a < 5 foot bald guy (he didn't fill in those answers and thats what came up). He wrote me back....I'm 6 feet and have all my hair---see....and he sent a pix. He's cute.
So there are a bunch of frogs. Lots of entertaining. But I am still not totally happy. I feel an uneasiness around me. I can't explain it. Worry, concern, anxiousness....I am okay but afraid of what is around the corner for some reason.
I cannot believe MM did not email me in a month. I refuse to email him and it is over but I do miss our times together. They were so damn hot.
And Mr. Porsche. Never in my life has someone watched out for me, like he does. I feel a protective invisible blanket when I think about him. My heart feels settled and balanced, my soul smiles. Its the little things, like him sending me info about someone lookng for writers (which I hate to write but he knows I blog so he thought I might like to make money doing that. Honestly, blogging is different. I just hired someone to write stuff for me last week!!lol)
He got me a connection for another job. He is always looking out for me. Ironically this new guy also has a sucky website. I sent him pointers today on what he has to do to spiff it up and how to increase his business. funny how something that is so natural to me is not to someone else. We all have our talents, I guess.
Okay, off to bath land. I am dead but I could use an unwinder right now. Some nipple playing, some jets to arouse me.....and some candles and music to soothe me.
Sweet dreams!!
No doubt, its so much easier to be a woman than a man on those sites. I am not bragging but I have more men then I know what to do with. If Mr Porsche had more time, he would be my only. But he doesn't. And quite frankly I love the flirting.
The new guy (who is in my profession) is amazing. We get along great BUT I told you he is into petite and well that is not me. As an emotional eater, I gained 10 lbs. the last few month which I am determined to get off starting tomorrow. Yes, its time to concentrate again on me and my weight and exercise. I sit at my computer and work and my metabolism is zero.
Anyway, we chatted a million times today back and forth by text. He's witty, smart and fun. Tonight I told him...I enjoy you so much but its not going to work. I am not petite. He seems to think he doesn't care about that now. He says our chemistry is unbelievable. And it is, but I need a man who cares about the whole package.
There is another guy.....but he's so young. 34...and he is rough around the edges. Actually I would have probably liked him but the other professional guy has been sweeping me off my feet. Then there is the bald guy. Who isn't bald but his profile said that so I wrote back that I wasn't interested in a < 5 foot bald guy (he didn't fill in those answers and thats what came up). He wrote me back....I'm 6 feet and have all my hair---see....and he sent a pix. He's cute.
So there are a bunch of frogs. Lots of entertaining. But I am still not totally happy. I feel an uneasiness around me. I can't explain it. Worry, concern, anxiousness....I am okay but afraid of what is around the corner for some reason.
I cannot believe MM did not email me in a month. I refuse to email him and it is over but I do miss our times together. They were so damn hot.
And Mr. Porsche. Never in my life has someone watched out for me, like he does. I feel a protective invisible blanket when I think about him. My heart feels settled and balanced, my soul smiles. Its the little things, like him sending me info about someone lookng for writers (which I hate to write but he knows I blog so he thought I might like to make money doing that. Honestly, blogging is different. I just hired someone to write stuff for me last week!!lol)
He got me a connection for another job. He is always looking out for me. Ironically this new guy also has a sucky website. I sent him pointers today on what he has to do to spiff it up and how to increase his business. funny how something that is so natural to me is not to someone else. We all have our talents, I guess.
Okay, off to bath land. I am dead but I could use an unwinder right now. Some nipple playing, some jets to arouse me.....and some candles and music to soothe me.
Sweet dreams!!
A Crazy Day In Cheri World
First, I met Mr. Porsche. I had stayed up the night before to work through the night so I could play with him. He had cancelled. I was so upset with myself. Exhausted, annoyed at me that I stayed up to work so damn hard for nothing....I just cried. He has time for the organizer but not me. On the phone I got quiet, not a good sign for me. If I am screaming, I have to get it off my chest and then I am fine. If I am quiet, I am deeply hurt and that usually stays. A rare moment btw, I am never quiet.
Yesterday, we finally did meet. It was a brief meeting but it was fun. I talked to him about caring about him, he said he never wanted to hurt me....EVER. Ironically, I was trying to be understanding and say things like I know you don't have a lot of time for me but I need to feel like I am not a chore. I don't want him to end it, so I am trying hard to be understanding. All of a sudden he looks at me and blurts out "Are you dumping me?" WHAT..I said. And started dying because the speech was suppose to be so he didn't dump me. We both laughed and started to screw wildly,,,,
I wore a red corset, red fishnet stockings, these hot high heeled red boots and long black gloves...he devoured me...... it was so much fun...he leaned me over the bed and fucked me from behind, thrusting hard and I needed that soooo badly....I could here me screaming harder, more, don't stop......playin with my nipples....one finger in my butt and him thrusting, I was in heaven!! Woo Hoo!! Major orgasm flowing.
Surprisingly, I was able to get him to cum too. He's so stressed and he was even surprised that he was able to. Especially everytime the phone rang, he would shrivel and we would have to start again.....but it was great....too fast and it felt like a dream!
We kissed and kissed and kissed. I love kissing. I love when kisses have such passion....such desire. Such caring. Nothing speaks, I care about you....like a kiss....sucking a tongue....nibbling at it for fun....and frantically kissing like you have never and will never kiss again. HOT!!
So that was an excerpt from my day. Of course we played with my favorite vibrator. Amazing how he loves to watch me masturbate.....it's such a turn on for him and he thinks I look gorgeous. Very nice...
When he came, it went into my hair and he was aiming for my mouth too...it was great....and fun. Only thing, I called to an emergency meeting after....a little self conscious at the meeting feeling like I smelled from sex and I had cum in my hair. Glad there was no black light on me...lol
I have more to report.....I went crazy on Plenty and can't even keep track now...one has my attention, big time. But last night, he said something that I told him, I don't think so. I'll report later ! Ciao...gotta work!
Yesterday, we finally did meet. It was a brief meeting but it was fun. I talked to him about caring about him, he said he never wanted to hurt me....EVER. Ironically, I was trying to be understanding and say things like I know you don't have a lot of time for me but I need to feel like I am not a chore. I don't want him to end it, so I am trying hard to be understanding. All of a sudden he looks at me and blurts out "Are you dumping me?" WHAT..I said. And started dying because the speech was suppose to be so he didn't dump me. We both laughed and started to screw wildly,,,,
I wore a red corset, red fishnet stockings, these hot high heeled red boots and long black gloves...he devoured me...... it was so much fun...he leaned me over the bed and fucked me from behind, thrusting hard and I needed that soooo badly....I could here me screaming harder, more, don't stop......playin with my nipples....one finger in my butt and him thrusting, I was in heaven!! Woo Hoo!! Major orgasm flowing.
Surprisingly, I was able to get him to cum too. He's so stressed and he was even surprised that he was able to. Especially everytime the phone rang, he would shrivel and we would have to start again.....but it was great....too fast and it felt like a dream!
We kissed and kissed and kissed. I love kissing. I love when kisses have such passion....such desire. Such caring. Nothing speaks, I care about you....like a kiss....sucking a tongue....nibbling at it for fun....and frantically kissing like you have never and will never kiss again. HOT!!
So that was an excerpt from my day. Of course we played with my favorite vibrator. Amazing how he loves to watch me masturbate.....it's such a turn on for him and he thinks I look gorgeous. Very nice...
When he came, it went into my hair and he was aiming for my mouth too...it was great....and fun. Only thing, I called to an emergency meeting after....a little self conscious at the meeting feeling like I smelled from sex and I had cum in my hair. Glad there was no black light on me...lol
I have more to report.....I went crazy on Plenty and can't even keep track now...one has my attention, big time. But last night, he said something that I told him, I don't think so. I'll report later ! Ciao...gotta work!
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
What attracts me to a man on Ashley Madison
Percy asked and now you got me wondering myself. What exactly attracts me to a man on Ashley? So here's what I think.
First, I don't really do too many searches. A woman has the luxury of having a mailbox with men in it already and when you are on Ashley, there are no pix to browse. Definitely have a light, humorous, sincere profile where you write something more than the check marks. Discuss the void you want to fill, talk about an escape for a few hours....don't get heavy and obnoxious or bitter. Those notes I just click off. Don't give a list of demands of what you want in a woman or especially what you don't want. Unless you are saying you want someone with a pretty smile that makes your heart smile....then that is okay but saying I don't want someone who.....and who.....and who... nag, nag, nag!!
Of course, a personal note is going to get her attention faster. Very light hearted with a little humor in it...something original if you can afford the credits. If you can't, spend it on the ones that really peak your interest and send winks to others. If you have a good profile, they may wink back.
Definitely not sleazy name. I ignore those men thinking they are trash immediately.
And then tred lightly. Be available but not smothering. It's so easy to get caught up in it.
The man who has my interest right now is someone new. He's mysterious, funny, a little unreachable...keeps me laughing. Anyone I love talking to and makes me laugh...is certainly a turn on.
And then there is the sexiness. I realize now, it's not the ones who attack me with what they want to do to me...but the ones that dance with me. Tease me with sexual undertones, let me take a little of the lead. The get my guard down and I find myself sucked in.
I still find Ashley Madison to be the best quality pick up place. If I was a guy, I would go with their new Affair guarantee. Hey, you get your money back if you don't get laid! Check it out on the link I provided. Somewhere on the site they introduced a new Affair Guarantee Program.
Then of course there is Plenty of Fish which I have been browsing on and got my latest pick. A mixed crowd of everything. Kind of like the Craigslist personals in a way I guess. The problem with this, is that there are primarily single people on there (more than Ashley) and they show their pix. Men on that site have more of an upper hand it seems but only because they show their pictures. It seems that no picture, no action. For women of course, there are some men you cannot contact because they require photos (usually the hotties) and the single men have mixed reviews about married women on the site (as I am sure the feeling is even stronger for single women)....you feel a little taboo. For the most part, I have found a few but not of the same calibur as the men on Ashley.
The latest did come from POF. He's funny, he's smart and from what I can see, he is cute. However, he'a deceptive. And we all know how I feel about that. He hasnt had an affair yet and I was able to pull info out of him (he lied about eveything on his profile). However, I was able to warm up to him and get the truth. We've been texting all day today.
Funny story, I asked him what he did and he said he was a consultant in the same field as me. He didn't expect me to say me too! That's what I do....he almost died because he is actually a doctor. How do I find these doctors?! Right now we are toying with each other.....a little fun humor back and forth....but I don't know if I am going to meet him. Truth is, he is looking for a Barbie Doll....and that is not me. The body is not what he wants....so I am thinking about not meeting him.
As for Mr. Porsche...we are finally meeting tomorrow....I can't wait....yahooooo!! Working late tonight so I can take off the 3 hours..........so I hope that answers the questions.
As for Anonymous....to me a Boy Toy is anyone who is 10 years younger than me. Especially these 10 years. Think about it.....how different are you at 40 than at 30? It's worlds away. I think its even greater a distance than 50 and 40. Life experience.....
First, I don't really do too many searches. A woman has the luxury of having a mailbox with men in it already and when you are on Ashley, there are no pix to browse. Definitely have a light, humorous, sincere profile where you write something more than the check marks. Discuss the void you want to fill, talk about an escape for a few hours....don't get heavy and obnoxious or bitter. Those notes I just click off. Don't give a list of demands of what you want in a woman or especially what you don't want. Unless you are saying you want someone with a pretty smile that makes your heart smile....then that is okay but saying I don't want someone who.....and who.....and who... nag, nag, nag!!
Of course, a personal note is going to get her attention faster. Very light hearted with a little humor in it...something original if you can afford the credits. If you can't, spend it on the ones that really peak your interest and send winks to others. If you have a good profile, they may wink back.
Definitely not sleazy name. I ignore those men thinking they are trash immediately.
And then tred lightly. Be available but not smothering. It's so easy to get caught up in it.
The man who has my interest right now is someone new. He's mysterious, funny, a little unreachable...keeps me laughing. Anyone I love talking to and makes me laugh...is certainly a turn on.
And then there is the sexiness. I realize now, it's not the ones who attack me with what they want to do to me...but the ones that dance with me. Tease me with sexual undertones, let me take a little of the lead. The get my guard down and I find myself sucked in.
I still find Ashley Madison to be the best quality pick up place. If I was a guy, I would go with their new Affair guarantee. Hey, you get your money back if you don't get laid! Check it out on the link I provided. Somewhere on the site they introduced a new Affair Guarantee Program.
Then of course there is Plenty of Fish which I have been browsing on and got my latest pick. A mixed crowd of everything. Kind of like the Craigslist personals in a way I guess. The problem with this, is that there are primarily single people on there (more than Ashley) and they show their pix. Men on that site have more of an upper hand it seems but only because they show their pictures. It seems that no picture, no action. For women of course, there are some men you cannot contact because they require photos (usually the hotties) and the single men have mixed reviews about married women on the site (as I am sure the feeling is even stronger for single women)....you feel a little taboo. For the most part, I have found a few but not of the same calibur as the men on Ashley.
The latest did come from POF. He's funny, he's smart and from what I can see, he is cute. However, he'a deceptive. And we all know how I feel about that. He hasnt had an affair yet and I was able to pull info out of him (he lied about eveything on his profile). However, I was able to warm up to him and get the truth. We've been texting all day today.
Funny story, I asked him what he did and he said he was a consultant in the same field as me. He didn't expect me to say me too! That's what I do....he almost died because he is actually a doctor. How do I find these doctors?! Right now we are toying with each other.....a little fun humor back and forth....but I don't know if I am going to meet him. Truth is, he is looking for a Barbie Doll....and that is not me. The body is not what he wants....so I am thinking about not meeting him.
As for Mr. Porsche...we are finally meeting tomorrow....I can't wait....yahooooo!! Working late tonight so I can take off the 3 hours..........so I hope that answers the questions.
As for Anonymous....to me a Boy Toy is anyone who is 10 years younger than me. Especially these 10 years. Think about it.....how different are you at 40 than at 30? It's worlds away. I think its even greater a distance than 50 and 40. Life experience.....
Monday, December 01, 2008
Finding A Man To Play With On Ashley Madison
I don't know if its because I am married or if its because I give good chat. But I have absolutely no problem finding men online. My girlfriends laugh. A little loneliness, I go online and can walk away within an hour with three or more men.....narrowed down from 12 selections. My girlfriend who is single is amazed at what she calls my male magnet talents. LOL
Actually, I think its because I am married. I am independent and I am not desperate. I am honest, upfront and very sexually open. I have not seen Mr. Porsche in about a month. It's way too long. With MM gone, I am feeling the emptiness. I need another man. I need some attention....I need some newness. I am missing those butterflies big time. That heart flutter when you feel some chemistry with someone.
So, I did some damage last night. Went on the search for some new frogs. I like to call it window shopping.Actually got rid of Mr. MBA and Mr. New Government....they were making me feel guilty when I would go searching online. I need no guilt...I need no stifling....I need some room....some freedom...oh no, I feel a sexual desire to fulfill and these men were not doing it. I sweetly told them I needed some room right now. It's the truth....I am not ready for the relationship they were looking for.
So, I threw all the frogs out of the pond (except for Porsche) and began my fishing expedition again. For a woman its scary. You can get a whole pond filled within an hour. The flirting was giving me a high. It was like a drug fulfilling my needs, my desires, it was like an energy boost.
Well the frogs are just tadpoles now. But I decided to choose some variety. Problem is, you lose track of when you collect so many frogs in one night. I had a frog textng me all day and I wasn't even sure who it was....had to go back to my email and try to find him. He's a boy toy....34...same profession as me. then there was another boy toy....36...and finally another one 39. One married one 50....government worker (actually he absolutely knows Mr. Government , they work in the same department but I wouldn't tell him who it was)....oh my. then there was the football lover.
So there is some variety in the pond right now. So far, they are good looking, funny and seem sweet and sexy. It's as if when I feel that emptiness....I need the flirting to fill some of that emptiness...
It's so different for a woman. Even though I am insecure....I have never been turned away on my looks. Last night I was called...gorgeous, beautiful, a hottie and WOW....I guess sometimes you need that little ego stroking.
Well Mr. Porsche...today, I told him. I need to see him.. I want his cock..I need it deep inside of me...I miss him. And then he sent me this email...I told him I needed a little mush. Watch it and I think you will enjoy it. He had me rolling....the guy is so funny. Going to see him this week. I need to feel his body close to mine.
Okay off to bed....gotta big day tomorrow.....work is insane..
Sweet dreams...
Actually, I think its because I am married. I am independent and I am not desperate. I am honest, upfront and very sexually open. I have not seen Mr. Porsche in about a month. It's way too long. With MM gone, I am feeling the emptiness. I need another man. I need some attention....I need some newness. I am missing those butterflies big time. That heart flutter when you feel some chemistry with someone.
So, I did some damage last night. Went on the search for some new frogs. I like to call it window shopping.Actually got rid of Mr. MBA and Mr. New Government....they were making me feel guilty when I would go searching online. I need no guilt...I need no stifling....I need some room....some freedom...oh no, I feel a sexual desire to fulfill and these men were not doing it. I sweetly told them I needed some room right now. It's the truth....I am not ready for the relationship they were looking for.
So, I threw all the frogs out of the pond (except for Porsche) and began my fishing expedition again. For a woman its scary. You can get a whole pond filled within an hour. The flirting was giving me a high. It was like a drug fulfilling my needs, my desires, it was like an energy boost.
Well the frogs are just tadpoles now. But I decided to choose some variety. Problem is, you lose track of when you collect so many frogs in one night. I had a frog textng me all day and I wasn't even sure who it was....had to go back to my email and try to find him. He's a boy toy....34...same profession as me. then there was another boy toy....36...and finally another one 39. One married one 50....government worker (actually he absolutely knows Mr. Government , they work in the same department but I wouldn't tell him who it was)....oh my. then there was the football lover.
So there is some variety in the pond right now. So far, they are good looking, funny and seem sweet and sexy. It's as if when I feel that emptiness....I need the flirting to fill some of that emptiness...
It's so different for a woman. Even though I am insecure....I have never been turned away on my looks. Last night I was called...gorgeous, beautiful, a hottie and WOW....I guess sometimes you need that little ego stroking.
Well Mr. Porsche...today, I told him. I need to see him.. I want his cock..I need it deep inside of me...I miss him. And then he sent me this email...I told him I needed a little mush. Watch it and I think you will enjoy it. He had me rolling....the guy is so funny. Going to see him this week. I need to feel his body close to mine.
Okay off to bed....gotta big day tomorrow.....work is insane..
Sweet dreams...
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