Tonight I went out on business. We ended up in the new "IN" place to be for dinner. At 9 PM, it turned into the biggest pick up place you've ever seen for people 40+. And I have to tell you depressing is an understatement. These women were botoxed to the max...we are talking plastic surgery, botox and more. I have never seen such fakeness. It was kind of disturbing actually.....no wrinkles yet their arms and necks showed signs of severe aging. Even their wrinklefree faces were weird looking. The place is in a very rich side of town. All these women are loaded yet they looked so worn.
Aggressive was an understatement. They were like barracudas. Actually, they tried to pick up two men at our table. At the bar, the scene was even worse. Now I remember why I never wanted to be single. And quite frankly, I never want to be in that scene even when I am single.
A text came in.....it was Mr. Cable Guy...I was slightly wasted......he knew where I was. "Can you make it across the street?" Of course, I said. There he was....in the motel across the street waiting for me. He had gotten us a room. Now, he knew I wasn't going to sleep with him but we couldn't be like little kids just hanging out and fooling around in the car. So, he got a room for two hours. We kissed, we played and all he wanted to do was put his hard cock in between my breasts. He said he is infatuated with my breasts. So big, so round...so inviting!! hehehe
We played a little (my, my...second day in a row, my pants didn't come off..) and then as my tits were wrapped around his cock....he came...really hard. Wow, he said....that was fast....I can't believe that snuck up on me like that. I giggled.
We talked and then we turned on the tv and started watching Fatal Attraction. Hmm...I said. Probably not a movie we should be watching...how ironic that it was on. Quite honestly, it all feels like a dream right now. I am off to bed.....ciao!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Sexual Satisfaction With No Sex!
Mr. Electric is quite the character. He's got his issues but he has a heart of gold. A tough guy who has the warmest of hearts. Rough on the outside but a mush inside. He got a room today at a hotel. He refuses to get the by the hour places. He picks this really nice hotel that is probably super expensive but he says your worth it doll!
I felt like crap this morning.....got my period and I have a little cold. I called him and asked if he wanted to cancel. Absolutely not, we both need to relax. But we can't really fool around....I don't care, I want to just hold you.
I was leaving and some major thing happened that I had to take care of. I had to delay our meeting....I was bummed big time. I reallly was looking forward to it. Hustled to take care of what I had to take are of rushed over there. I didn't realize how much I was looking forward to today until it was delayed.
I got there and I knocked on the door and when he opened it, I handed him this big chocolate heart lollipop.....Will you be my Valentine? He smiled ear to ear....and blushed.
I walked in and threw my stuff down and threw myself on the bed....aaaaahhhh!!!! relaxation....he was in his shorts and he ripped them off.....I started to giggle. we just lied there...I was fully clothed, he was totally naked.....he just held me so tight and I hugged him back. A connection.....a bonding.....two people with problems, two friends just making each other feel good. That is what we are about. For me, it is really two friends making each other feel better. Sexually, we aren't a match really. He reminds me of the guys I knew when I was younger. I can't explain it. It's strange. It's not about sex at all.
We kissed, we played,we giggled. We held each other tight...we massaged each other. I never took my pants off (my shirt yes, but not my pants). For him, I wanted to make him feel good. He was making me feel like a million dollars. He looks me in my eyes and pushes back my hair as he holds me and says...you have the most beautiful face....I love looking at you....when you are relaxed, you have a glimmer in your eye that is priceless. I wish you knew just how beautiful you are.
We have had this discussion before. He is stunning. He has a chiseled face....someone I would have died for when I was younger. He too, does not know he is handsome. We both giggle. We think we may be good looking because so many people tell us....but we don't feel it. Yes, we are two sad souls.
I wanted to make him feel special. He doesn't expect anything from me...its as if he is afraid to touch me at times. Always being a gentleman. I surprise him and start kissing my way down his chest, I can hear a slight moan come out of his mouth as I am working my way down. And his cock starts to move in anticipation.....yes, I wrap my lips around his cock and he lets out a big sigh.....now I start working my mouth....listening for his likes. I am amazed how each man likes something different. He loved when I gently played with his balls and I sucked the head of his cock. He also moaned when I went down and did circles with my tongue while he was in my mouth.....he was panting....I was giggling to myself......now he took out the oil and I gave him a handjob.....he was panting away...it was funny in a way. I was half paying attention to the handjob, half listening to him panting and thinking on how nice this was right now.
I am a stressball (as you know). He is an amazing massager. Okay lady, he looks at me. Roll over and relax.....he pulls out the oil and for one hour, he massaged me.....my neck,my back, my shoulders......all the way down to the nipples in my ass, then he massaged my feet. He has amazingly strong hands.....workers hands, they turn me on. And he knows exactly how to find those areas of stress. You can hear me moaning, you can hear my back crack.....he is amazed that I can even walk with such knots in my back. One hour of heaven. Everytime I told him, you are being so good to me, let me rub your back. No, he said. You need this and you deserve this, just relax.
And when he was done, I haven't felt so good in so long. I felt like he freed me, I felt lighter. I curled up into his arms and he just held me tight. I felt safe, I felt protected...I felt like the world was leaving me alone at least for those few hours.
I hated leaving. I couldn't have stayed with him another 3 hours and honestly, wished I could have stayed through the night. But reality was calling and I had to return. And as I was driving home, relaxed, listening to the radio....my body felt amazing (I have to go for massages more often).....a text comes over....Mr. Cable....oh shit, I forgot, I told him we might meet. No tonight I wrote back, tomorrow? Perfect he said. Geez, I am liking these secret lover rendezvous' just a little too much.
I felt like crap this morning.....got my period and I have a little cold. I called him and asked if he wanted to cancel. Absolutely not, we both need to relax. But we can't really fool around....I don't care, I want to just hold you.
I was leaving and some major thing happened that I had to take care of. I had to delay our meeting....I was bummed big time. I reallly was looking forward to it. Hustled to take care of what I had to take are of rushed over there. I didn't realize how much I was looking forward to today until it was delayed.
I got there and I knocked on the door and when he opened it, I handed him this big chocolate heart lollipop.....Will you be my Valentine? He smiled ear to ear....and blushed.
I walked in and threw my stuff down and threw myself on the bed....aaaaahhhh!!!! relaxation....he was in his shorts and he ripped them off.....I started to giggle. we just lied there...I was fully clothed, he was totally naked.....he just held me so tight and I hugged him back. A connection.....a bonding.....two people with problems, two friends just making each other feel good. That is what we are about. For me, it is really two friends making each other feel better. Sexually, we aren't a match really. He reminds me of the guys I knew when I was younger. I can't explain it. It's strange. It's not about sex at all.
We kissed, we played,we giggled. We held each other tight...we massaged each other. I never took my pants off (my shirt yes, but not my pants). For him, I wanted to make him feel good. He was making me feel like a million dollars. He looks me in my eyes and pushes back my hair as he holds me and says...you have the most beautiful face....I love looking at you....when you are relaxed, you have a glimmer in your eye that is priceless. I wish you knew just how beautiful you are.
We have had this discussion before. He is stunning. He has a chiseled face....someone I would have died for when I was younger. He too, does not know he is handsome. We both giggle. We think we may be good looking because so many people tell us....but we don't feel it. Yes, we are two sad souls.
I wanted to make him feel special. He doesn't expect anything from me...its as if he is afraid to touch me at times. Always being a gentleman. I surprise him and start kissing my way down his chest, I can hear a slight moan come out of his mouth as I am working my way down. And his cock starts to move in anticipation.....yes, I wrap my lips around his cock and he lets out a big sigh.....now I start working my mouth....listening for his likes. I am amazed how each man likes something different. He loved when I gently played with his balls and I sucked the head of his cock. He also moaned when I went down and did circles with my tongue while he was in my mouth.....he was panting....I was giggling to myself......now he took out the oil and I gave him a handjob.....he was panting away...it was funny in a way. I was half paying attention to the handjob, half listening to him panting and thinking on how nice this was right now.
I am a stressball (as you know). He is an amazing massager. Okay lady, he looks at me. Roll over and relax.....he pulls out the oil and for one hour, he massaged me.....my neck,my back, my shoulders......all the way down to the nipples in my ass, then he massaged my feet. He has amazingly strong hands.....workers hands, they turn me on. And he knows exactly how to find those areas of stress. You can hear me moaning, you can hear my back crack.....he is amazed that I can even walk with such knots in my back. One hour of heaven. Everytime I told him, you are being so good to me, let me rub your back. No, he said. You need this and you deserve this, just relax.
And when he was done, I haven't felt so good in so long. I felt like he freed me, I felt lighter. I curled up into his arms and he just held me tight. I felt safe, I felt protected...I felt like the world was leaving me alone at least for those few hours.
I hated leaving. I couldn't have stayed with him another 3 hours and honestly, wished I could have stayed through the night. But reality was calling and I had to return. And as I was driving home, relaxed, listening to the radio....my body felt amazing (I have to go for massages more often).....a text comes over....Mr. Cable....oh shit, I forgot, I told him we might meet. No tonight I wrote back, tomorrow? Perfect he said. Geez, I am liking these secret lover rendezvous' just a little too much.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Ashley Madison Thank You
As I am working, I realized that since I had hidden my name on Ashley Madison, my email has been so quiet. I miss looking at pictures, reading profiles, requesting pictures and flirting with men. I shut my profile off a few weeks ago. Reality is, I have been juggling a few frogs and well, I didn't have time for more. But I miss flirting with new men.
I am compelled to turn my Ashley account back on BUT then I will be tempted. Tempted to meet more hot men. Tempted to start flirting again. And, right now, I have more than I can handle.
Mr Porsche has kept me happy. Mr. Electric (who I am meeting tomorrow) has also kept me content and then there is Mr. Cable (who we are meeting for a little connection on Thursday). I think that should keep me happy for awhile.......lol
Actually, my mailbox was fill today on my phone. I had to clear out some old messages from some frogs because there were 17 messages and my mailbox keeps getting filled up. I know, I know the one thing I tell everyone is to erase the evidence. But I can't. Certain frogs I keep their voices on my phone messages but today some had to go. It was hard to decide which I would erase forever. My first meeting......#1...was still on there. Memories of my first kiss came flooding back. And then, others had to go. However, I can't erase a few. They make me smile when I hear them......can you guess whose? Soulmate Chris, Tadpole, Mr. Prize..all stayed and made me giggle. And then there were the ones then when I heard their voices--my heart skipped a beat--- Mr. Government, Mystery Man and DigEm.
And DigEm's just made me smile and feel so warm and fuzzy......"hey Sweet Thang!" "I wish I could CUM right next to you my Pea" and other funny messages that I kept.....and then the good by message. It just reminds me how we had to part and how happy I am that he is okay and his marriage back on track. I have never felt such loss yet such happiness for someone.
So Ashley Madison, one day, I am going to have to add up actually how many men I have met online because of your website. Frogs have come and frogs have gone....but now the big question. Let's say that I get a divorce....will my dance card be just as full? Will I be able to find as many sexy single men as I have found married men?
Quite frankly, I don't even know if I would want a single man. I think my thinking has turned into a man's attitude. Love the connection, the intimacy but defintely don't want the commitment.
I am compelled to turn my Ashley account back on BUT then I will be tempted. Tempted to meet more hot men. Tempted to start flirting again. And, right now, I have more than I can handle.
Mr Porsche has kept me happy. Mr. Electric (who I am meeting tomorrow) has also kept me content and then there is Mr. Cable (who we are meeting for a little connection on Thursday). I think that should keep me happy for awhile.......lol
Actually, my mailbox was fill today on my phone. I had to clear out some old messages from some frogs because there were 17 messages and my mailbox keeps getting filled up. I know, I know the one thing I tell everyone is to erase the evidence. But I can't. Certain frogs I keep their voices on my phone messages but today some had to go. It was hard to decide which I would erase forever. My first meeting......#1...was still on there. Memories of my first kiss came flooding back. And then, others had to go. However, I can't erase a few. They make me smile when I hear them......can you guess whose? Soulmate Chris, Tadpole, Mr. Prize..all stayed and made me giggle. And then there were the ones then when I heard their voices--my heart skipped a beat--- Mr. Government, Mystery Man and DigEm.
And DigEm's just made me smile and feel so warm and fuzzy......"hey Sweet Thang!" "I wish I could CUM right next to you my Pea" and other funny messages that I kept.....and then the good by message. It just reminds me how we had to part and how happy I am that he is okay and his marriage back on track. I have never felt such loss yet such happiness for someone.
So Ashley Madison, one day, I am going to have to add up actually how many men I have met online because of your website. Frogs have come and frogs have gone....but now the big question. Let's say that I get a divorce....will my dance card be just as full? Will I be able to find as many sexy single men as I have found married men?
Quite frankly, I don't even know if I would want a single man. I think my thinking has turned into a man's attitude. Love the connection, the intimacy but defintely don't want the commitment.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Sexual Rendezvous filled With Euphoria
I had gotten an advertisement from Fredericks of Hollywood. Hmmmm.....I love their stuff. I was browsing before I started to work. What will I buy for a special Valentine's day treat.....what would Mr. Porsche like to see me in.....I am not sure with him. Not sure if he likes the sexy, seductive and classy look or the total slut look. Suddenly I got a text.
"Today". was all that the text said.
"Do you want me?" Teasingly I sent back....
I knew what Mr. Porsche was saying...we had been trying to get together for two weeks. We were shooting for Tuesday or Wednesday. How perfect if it could be today. I needed a sex lunch. I needed to escape to another world soooooo badly. Today was the first time that I was feeling horny in a long time.
After much deciding, I chose a thong underwear with a black garter belt....crap, I put a run in my stockings....this stinks......"I gotta stop for stockings". Forget it...just meet me. Well I was a little annoyed. Feeling unattractive and fat these days, the garter belt hid my pouch alittle....now no garter belt, I felt yucky..."I'm wearing my grandma underwear" I told him a little annoyed. "that's fine" he said. Okay I didn't wear my grandma underwear but I did slip into more comfortable undies (black hiphuggers)
Driving there I was so excited to escape. I call him (of course, I know I am annoying him...as he tries to take care of last minute business) but I love to start being flirty and having fun before. He must have been horny, he was there before me. I'll skip the part on how I forgot the room number he told me and I knocked on the wrong door and had to call him to find him... (yes, another I Love Lucy Episode) .lol
Today, I brought a blindfold for him. I wanted him to experience the loss of one sense and heighten the others. Let's just say, Mr. Porsche had other plans for the day.
He took off the mask (pacifying me for a few seconds with it on) and then went and got something... the next thing I knew, I was the one with my hands in Japanese ropes. As you pull them,they get tighter around my wrists. Suddenly the mask was on me and I was lying there naked with my hands tied behind my back and blindfolded.
My nipples love to be played with.....they like it a little rough play too....and Mr. Porsche knows it. Something was wrapped or clipped around my nipple...I couldn't see but I could feel it....mmm.....the loss of being able to touch and see was quite erotic.
He was in control, there was not denying it but it certainly was a matter of trust. Yes, I trusted him....with him sucking and biting my nipples causing me to moan with a mixture of a tinge of pain and sexual desire....it was hot...
And my clit, he worked his way to my clit......the sensation of oil pouring on it and then soft, hard, fast, slow....my body was dying to cum. And then, his cock...I could feel his cock at my lips and his hands now pushing the back of my head. "deeper. Deeper." "You love being submissive,don't you?" he said..."Yes"....in a whisper I said. You love being my slut? "Yes," as I can hear myself whispering and moaning.....
"Should I ask the guy whose outside to come in and watch you play?" mmmm......the thought was hot, erotic and tempting.....but I couldn't say the yes....that was crossing a line I have thought about crossing but don't know if I will ever allow myself to do.
Suddenly, I could feel his cock entering me....how wild that it was, yet so strange not being able to move my hands or see....it felt amazing....he tried to fuck my in the ass...but I couldn't relax enough. That alone was a trust issue and being blindfolded and tied up....and anal sex...I couldn't relax.."fuck my thumb"......and so he put his finger there and I moved my hips slowly allowing his thumb to finger fuck me....I was so close to orgasming....so close....and then....the ropes felt so tight...and I started to have a hard time with the control thing.... give me a second, one second....but he took off the rope and the blindfold. He wanted me to feel secure..."just tell me if it gets to be too much".
We lied down and he held me. I was fine. I actually liked it a lot. In my life I am so much in control and then when I was out of control and then almost orgasming (which is totally out of control).....it was taking me to a place I had never been. Unchartered territory....definitely hot...but I wasn't ready for it today....
When he took off the handcuffs, he loves to watch me masturbate.....as I sucked on him, he watched as I played with myself......I never realized as I was getting closer and closer to cumming that I suck faster and faster...lol You know how I say I can cum once and then I have to stop...can't have that multiple....well today, I let myself go....I let myself have that second rush and it was pulsating and what a euphoria.....
More cuddling...Mr. Porshe knows I need that little snuggles in between....it was his turn now. Oh, I am a giver. I started the day sucking on his cock and now well, I was going to finish it off that way as well. Except I wanted more....I wanted to take him someplace that he rarily goes. You know they say the prostate gland will give a guy an orgasm like he's never had if it is rubbed and massaged.... And so, I was determined to help him get there......carefully I inserted one finger into his ass...pressing against his wall, massaging that inner area....I could feel him pulsating....come on baby, cum for me....that's it baby....as he was rubbing his cock that certain rhythm and I was playing with his balls and my finger massaging his prostate gland....his body pulsating and he let out some moans. Cum went shooting all over his chest......lots and lots of cum. He was surprised....actually, I think he was having a hard time dealing with that not in control feeling he's so used to having. This was hot,this was different! I got so much pleasure taking him to a place he's rarily been......I felt content!
We talked a little. He wants to hypnotize me. He's into that. Maybe next time. I think he was still uneasy about how amazing he felt getting so much pleasure. We will see....I hope he can deal and not weird out about it. We will see.
We snuggled, showered, kissed and left. I felt content. Inner peace, I love that feeling. Tonight I will sleep like a baby. And its funny.....a hot sex session somehow gives me the patients and tolerance of a saint. The inner peace feels so good...I ignored the insanity around me tonight....sweet wet dreams!!
"Today". was all that the text said.
"Do you want me?" Teasingly I sent back....
I knew what Mr. Porsche was saying...we had been trying to get together for two weeks. We were shooting for Tuesday or Wednesday. How perfect if it could be today. I needed a sex lunch. I needed to escape to another world soooooo badly. Today was the first time that I was feeling horny in a long time.
After much deciding, I chose a thong underwear with a black garter belt....crap, I put a run in my stockings....this stinks......"I gotta stop for stockings". Forget it...just meet me. Well I was a little annoyed. Feeling unattractive and fat these days, the garter belt hid my pouch alittle....now no garter belt, I felt yucky..."I'm wearing my grandma underwear" I told him a little annoyed. "that's fine" he said. Okay I didn't wear my grandma underwear but I did slip into more comfortable undies (black hiphuggers)
Driving there I was so excited to escape. I call him (of course, I know I am annoying him...as he tries to take care of last minute business) but I love to start being flirty and having fun before. He must have been horny, he was there before me. I'll skip the part on how I forgot the room number he told me and I knocked on the wrong door and had to call him to find him... (yes, another I Love Lucy Episode) .lol
Today, I brought a blindfold for him. I wanted him to experience the loss of one sense and heighten the others. Let's just say, Mr. Porsche had other plans for the day.
He took off the mask (pacifying me for a few seconds with it on) and then went and got something... the next thing I knew, I was the one with my hands in Japanese ropes. As you pull them,they get tighter around my wrists. Suddenly the mask was on me and I was lying there naked with my hands tied behind my back and blindfolded.
My nipples love to be played with.....they like it a little rough play too....and Mr. Porsche knows it. Something was wrapped or clipped around my nipple...I couldn't see but I could feel it....mmm.....the loss of being able to touch and see was quite erotic.
He was in control, there was not denying it but it certainly was a matter of trust. Yes, I trusted him....with him sucking and biting my nipples causing me to moan with a mixture of a tinge of pain and sexual desire....it was hot...
And my clit, he worked his way to my clit......the sensation of oil pouring on it and then soft, hard, fast, slow....my body was dying to cum. And then, his cock...I could feel his cock at my lips and his hands now pushing the back of my head. "deeper. Deeper." "You love being submissive,don't you?" he said..."Yes"....in a whisper I said. You love being my slut? "Yes," as I can hear myself whispering and moaning.....
"Should I ask the guy whose outside to come in and watch you play?" mmmm......the thought was hot, erotic and tempting.....but I couldn't say the yes....that was crossing a line I have thought about crossing but don't know if I will ever allow myself to do.
Suddenly, I could feel his cock entering me....how wild that it was, yet so strange not being able to move my hands or see....it felt amazing....he tried to fuck my in the ass...but I couldn't relax enough. That alone was a trust issue and being blindfolded and tied up....and anal sex...I couldn't relax.."fuck my thumb"......and so he put his finger there and I moved my hips slowly allowing his thumb to finger fuck me....I was so close to orgasming....so close....and then....the ropes felt so tight...and I started to have a hard time with the control thing.... give me a second, one second....but he took off the rope and the blindfold. He wanted me to feel secure..."just tell me if it gets to be too much".
We lied down and he held me. I was fine. I actually liked it a lot. In my life I am so much in control and then when I was out of control and then almost orgasming (which is totally out of control).....it was taking me to a place I had never been. Unchartered territory....definitely hot...but I wasn't ready for it today....
When he took off the handcuffs, he loves to watch me masturbate.....as I sucked on him, he watched as I played with myself......I never realized as I was getting closer and closer to cumming that I suck faster and faster...lol You know how I say I can cum once and then I have to stop...can't have that multiple....well today, I let myself go....I let myself have that second rush and it was pulsating and what a euphoria.....
More cuddling...Mr. Porshe knows I need that little snuggles in between....it was his turn now. Oh, I am a giver. I started the day sucking on his cock and now well, I was going to finish it off that way as well. Except I wanted more....I wanted to take him someplace that he rarily goes. You know they say the prostate gland will give a guy an orgasm like he's never had if it is rubbed and massaged.... And so, I was determined to help him get there......carefully I inserted one finger into his ass...pressing against his wall, massaging that inner area....I could feel him pulsating....come on baby, cum for me....that's it baby....as he was rubbing his cock that certain rhythm and I was playing with his balls and my finger massaging his prostate gland....his body pulsating and he let out some moans. Cum went shooting all over his chest......lots and lots of cum. He was surprised....actually, I think he was having a hard time dealing with that not in control feeling he's so used to having. This was hot,this was different! I got so much pleasure taking him to a place he's rarily been......I felt content!
We talked a little. He wants to hypnotize me. He's into that. Maybe next time. I think he was still uneasy about how amazing he felt getting so much pleasure. We will see....I hope he can deal and not weird out about it. We will see.
We snuggled, showered, kissed and left. I felt content. Inner peace, I love that feeling. Tonight I will sleep like a baby. And its funny.....a hot sex session somehow gives me the patients and tolerance of a saint. The inner peace feels so good...I ignored the insanity around me tonight....sweet wet dreams!!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Sexual Dreams That Speak To Me!
I woke up this morning.....giggling. Yes, I had a hysterical dream this morning. Actually, it was with Mr. Porshe..it was so real. We were in an apartment, we were on the couch and he was fucking me from behind.....suddenly my husband was coming in and we ran to a bedroom in the back that had a back door. But Mr. Porsche did not run out....he continued to fuck me there..."you didn't orgasm, you have to finish"...and as I was trying to pull away I realized I was caught and I just remained. My husband walked in and I guess I orgasmed...I got up and we were busted but I looked at him and said "ok, you knew it was over for a long time. so now you know, let's just get the divorce over with. Let's be friends and move on". And then my girlfriends came in and we started drinking and we had a divorce party.
I woke up like, what a wacky dream. IT was my friends from childhood, some I haven't seen in years. It was wild. I do remember how relieved I was in the dream that I finally told him. What a way to start a day....
Mr. Electric and I have been kind of strained a little. Understandably, he had to go to a mediator yesterday with his wife. I have been supportive, yet giving him room. Today as I was driving home,I was thinking how amazing it would be to have another session like we had. I don't know if it would ever happen again. He seemed a little off after......oh well, I thought back of just how wonderful it was. One of those great memories.....
Ironically, Mr. Electric called me today. We talked and then I hesitated but I said told him that I was thinking about how nice it would have been to have another day like we had. His voice changed....do you feel that way? Yeah, that was hot what do you mean? He then said..."I swear, I went for a massage today and it felt good, I was relaxed but I was thinking about how great I felt when we were together. I wasn't sure you were into it again?"
Hmmmmm....so it hit me. Have I been that hard to read lately? So in conclusion, I think that it is me. I am so stressed that my usual open self is not shining through. I am obviously so pre-occupied that my sexual messages are being misconstrued. I am feeling fat and ugly and stressed. Not sexy at all. Guess it is coming across.... Excitingly, we made plans for Wednesday. We both were like two little kids....it was nice.
An hour later, I got a text. I was surprised...since Mystery Man and DigEm are gone...my text doesn't go off. DigEm and I used to text all the time. Mystery Man and I a couple of times a week. It's been real quiet. So, I looked at the phone and to my pleasant surprise it was Mr.Porsche. He never texts, rarily emails. I opened it up and it was just XOXOXO.. it made me smile.
frog.
Mr. Porsche is into hypnotism. Freaks me out a little. But he wants to hypnotize me the next time we meet. Hmmm....I don't know. The thought of losing a little control is scary. I am still debating on that. Have you ever been hypnotized?
So I have two definite meetings this week. I can't wait to escape....I need to get my mind off of life........
And Hale,you sweet thing,I read your note. But its best to stay away from that frog...at least for right now. I need to be more secure when and if I approach him. There is hopefully lots of time for the Mega Frog.
Sweet Wet Dreams.....another night of toys.....sigh....
I woke up like, what a wacky dream. IT was my friends from childhood, some I haven't seen in years. It was wild. I do remember how relieved I was in the dream that I finally told him. What a way to start a day....
Mr. Electric and I have been kind of strained a little. Understandably, he had to go to a mediator yesterday with his wife. I have been supportive, yet giving him room. Today as I was driving home,I was thinking how amazing it would be to have another session like we had. I don't know if it would ever happen again. He seemed a little off after......oh well, I thought back of just how wonderful it was. One of those great memories.....
Ironically, Mr. Electric called me today. We talked and then I hesitated but I said told him that I was thinking about how nice it would have been to have another day like we had. His voice changed....do you feel that way? Yeah, that was hot what do you mean? He then said..."I swear, I went for a massage today and it felt good, I was relaxed but I was thinking about how great I felt when we were together. I wasn't sure you were into it again?"
Hmmmmm....so it hit me. Have I been that hard to read lately? So in conclusion, I think that it is me. I am so stressed that my usual open self is not shining through. I am obviously so pre-occupied that my sexual messages are being misconstrued. I am feeling fat and ugly and stressed. Not sexy at all. Guess it is coming across.... Excitingly, we made plans for Wednesday. We both were like two little kids....it was nice.
An hour later, I got a text. I was surprised...since Mystery Man and DigEm are gone...my text doesn't go off. DigEm and I used to text all the time. Mystery Man and I a couple of times a week. It's been real quiet. So, I looked at the phone and to my pleasant surprise it was Mr.Porsche. He never texts, rarily emails. I opened it up and it was just XOXOXO.. it made me smile.
frog.
Mr. Porsche is into hypnotism. Freaks me out a little. But he wants to hypnotize me the next time we meet. Hmmm....I don't know. The thought of losing a little control is scary. I am still debating on that. Have you ever been hypnotized?
So I have two definite meetings this week. I can't wait to escape....I need to get my mind off of life........
And Hale,you sweet thing,I read your note. But its best to stay away from that frog...at least for right now. I need to be more secure when and if I approach him. There is hopefully lots of time for the Mega Frog.
Sweet Wet Dreams.....another night of toys.....sigh....
Friday, January 25, 2008
Eye Candy Break On A Really Rough Day
Some days you sit back and wonder what is life all about. At times like this, I realize that life is do damn short. How every second should be precious because the next second may not be there. For most of us, we live life as if there will be a tomorrow. As I guess we should, but at moments like this the reality that life as you know it can be cut short in a millisecond. Poof! Gone forever....
The surgery went well...thank you all who prayed and sent emails. I really appreciate it. There is a little complications but they say that it is normal the first few days. Watching my father choke was not normal for me. Seeing him without his teeth (he never allowed that) and seeing him so weak in the bed....as I helped him up to cough and walk.....made me realize how fragile life is. A little skinny man..who I joked with Mr. Porshe..I think my boobs weigh more than my father....lol
Is your life set up a certain way....a puzzle perhaps where everything has its pieces? Everyone you meet in a day, are they there for a reason you do not know? Ironically, my work in the medical field all came together this day. Without going into detail...let's just say all my favorite doctors that I work with, are the ones that my father needed. When there was a problem, they all came together in seconds.....to solve it. All the pieces fell into place. As if I had an angel up above working on my side. I am so grateful to them. They went beyond the call of their jobs for me. And I will never forget it.
So....I am drained. However, I do have a funny story...I am standing in the doorway of my dad's room talking with the surgeon. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a guy. He was stunning. Not even realizing it, I took a second look....and ironically he did too...we both smiled. Who was that?!? I needed to know. But how would I find out? I caught his eye again....oh my....this was the first feeling of sexual desire I have had in days. I admit it (not proud of myself) I tricked a nurse into telling me who he was....he looks familiar...that doctor? he looks soooo familiar. Do you mean the gorgeous one or the other one she said? Was one of them really good looking? I didn't notice (hehehehe) And she told me their names (I knew the other doctor so it was easy to figure out who he was). I didn't know the name but I came home and looked him up.
And my sad conclusion....forget it. He's out of my league. He is one of the most powerful doctors in the area. I mean big time title too. And I am sure a ladies man. He has to be....I mean he did take my breath away for a second. So I will chalk it up to an Eye Candy break on a really rough day...let's just say, that man will be in my head tonight as I.....well, release some tension!
The surgery went well...thank you all who prayed and sent emails. I really appreciate it. There is a little complications but they say that it is normal the first few days. Watching my father choke was not normal for me. Seeing him without his teeth (he never allowed that) and seeing him so weak in the bed....as I helped him up to cough and walk.....made me realize how fragile life is. A little skinny man..who I joked with Mr. Porshe..I think my boobs weigh more than my father....lol
Is your life set up a certain way....a puzzle perhaps where everything has its pieces? Everyone you meet in a day, are they there for a reason you do not know? Ironically, my work in the medical field all came together this day. Without going into detail...let's just say all my favorite doctors that I work with, are the ones that my father needed. When there was a problem, they all came together in seconds.....to solve it. All the pieces fell into place. As if I had an angel up above working on my side. I am so grateful to them. They went beyond the call of their jobs for me. And I will never forget it.
So....I am drained. However, I do have a funny story...I am standing in the doorway of my dad's room talking with the surgeon. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a guy. He was stunning. Not even realizing it, I took a second look....and ironically he did too...we both smiled. Who was that?!? I needed to know. But how would I find out? I caught his eye again....oh my....this was the first feeling of sexual desire I have had in days. I admit it (not proud of myself) I tricked a nurse into telling me who he was....he looks familiar...that doctor? he looks soooo familiar. Do you mean the gorgeous one or the other one she said? Was one of them really good looking? I didn't notice (hehehehe) And she told me their names (I knew the other doctor so it was easy to figure out who he was). I didn't know the name but I came home and looked him up.
And my sad conclusion....forget it. He's out of my league. He is one of the most powerful doctors in the area. I mean big time title too. And I am sure a ladies man. He has to be....I mean he did take my breath away for a second. So I will chalk it up to an Eye Candy break on a really rough day...let's just say, that man will be in my head tonight as I.....well, release some tension!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Life Is So Fragile
Everyday we are faced with ups and downs in life. But then you are faced with a fear. A fear of losing someone forever. I have been lucky. My parents have been relatively well with no major illnesses. Well they are getting older and tomorrow my dad is going in for an operation that is pretty serious. If all goes well, he should be fine. BUT.....today, it hit me like a ton of bricks.
You know that cute little old couple that lives a simple life? That cuts coupons and runs for the supermarket sales? That couple that never think of being separated they are as if they are one. Relying on each other for everything. They have a marriage that I wish I had. And then my mom says to me...I can't live without him and quite frankly, I don't think she can.
Simplicity has its drawbacks as well. You see, I take care of them in a way. When ever their is a ruffle in their simple life, I come in and take care of it....keeping their simple life in place. Like today, he needed pre-surgical clearance, his physician had problems obtaining the testing results (over 2hours trying). My dad called me panicked. Yes, I name dropped, made some calls and had the results in 10 minutes. I am a control freak, I know that.....so its times like this when I know I have no control that are the hardest for me.
Tonight's post has no sexual tone to it...I guess it is about balance. About growing old and being that little happy couple. One day, I hope to have such simplicity and enjoy cutting coupons. But for now, I pray that my parents life will keep that same simple life they have enjoyed for over 45 years together.
You know that cute little old couple that lives a simple life? That cuts coupons and runs for the supermarket sales? That couple that never think of being separated they are as if they are one. Relying on each other for everything. They have a marriage that I wish I had. And then my mom says to me...I can't live without him and quite frankly, I don't think she can.
Simplicity has its drawbacks as well. You see, I take care of them in a way. When ever their is a ruffle in their simple life, I come in and take care of it....keeping their simple life in place. Like today, he needed pre-surgical clearance, his physician had problems obtaining the testing results (over 2hours trying). My dad called me panicked. Yes, I name dropped, made some calls and had the results in 10 minutes. I am a control freak, I know that.....so its times like this when I know I have no control that are the hardest for me.
Tonight's post has no sexual tone to it...I guess it is about balance. About growing old and being that little happy couple. One day, I hope to have such simplicity and enjoy cutting coupons. But for now, I pray that my parents life will keep that same simple life they have enjoyed for over 45 years together.
Mr. Springer and I do Business
As you may recall, Mr. Springer and I had a quick but most memorable run. He was the first man to eat me out and actually make my entire body quiver and my legs shake for hours later. What a phenomenal feeling.
Our relationship had taken a turn one day. Both of us in similiar fields and we found our conversations moving from "I am so damn horny, come over" to work related things. As strange as it may sound, we were getting satisfaction (and even more satisfaction) in picking each others brains from a business standpoint. Hence, the sexual part of our relationship disappeared and we became each others confidant, mentor....idea man.
A few months ago, Mr. Springer resurfaced. He landed this phenomenal job and he deserved it. He's quite business saavy. He IM'd me....I need you. I trust you to make this happen for us, its a huge job but I know you can do it. And so, we starting working together mainly by email but we meet every once in awhile in person.
The first meeting face to face was a little awkward but we worked around it. A room full over people....it was a little easier. Now, the awkwardness is totally gone. I see him in a totally different light and forget about our run other connection.
Spending a day in a group meeting this week, we were brainstorming and working on a big project.....I hadn't even thought about us together. Standing by the coffee machine, someone said something in the group about affairs and we were both standing there getting coffee....our eyes met. I blushed and so did he. Our eyes met and I winked at him. We both laughed. Yes, for one second we both had that flashback of his bedroom....me being the real estate woman roleplaying....yes, we were back in his bedroom for one brief second. Back to work...I said with a smile. And we both shook our heads and returned as if we had that moment of reflection and it was hot and just enough for us to continue on.
I am really grateful to him. He didn't have to call me for this. Most frogs would have been nervous even though I was qualified. Funny, he's building a team and building a killer company from scratch....he's really smart, surrounding himself with winners. I feel honored he thought of me as such a key player in his group.
Funny, looking at him now. There is not one bit of sexual attraction. Funny how time can change things....
Our relationship had taken a turn one day. Both of us in similiar fields and we found our conversations moving from "I am so damn horny, come over" to work related things. As strange as it may sound, we were getting satisfaction (and even more satisfaction) in picking each others brains from a business standpoint. Hence, the sexual part of our relationship disappeared and we became each others confidant, mentor....idea man.
A few months ago, Mr. Springer resurfaced. He landed this phenomenal job and he deserved it. He's quite business saavy. He IM'd me....I need you. I trust you to make this happen for us, its a huge job but I know you can do it. And so, we starting working together mainly by email but we meet every once in awhile in person.
The first meeting face to face was a little awkward but we worked around it. A room full over people....it was a little easier. Now, the awkwardness is totally gone. I see him in a totally different light and forget about our run other connection.
Spending a day in a group meeting this week, we were brainstorming and working on a big project.....I hadn't even thought about us together. Standing by the coffee machine, someone said something in the group about affairs and we were both standing there getting coffee....our eyes met. I blushed and so did he. Our eyes met and I winked at him. We both laughed. Yes, for one second we both had that flashback of his bedroom....me being the real estate woman roleplaying....yes, we were back in his bedroom for one brief second. Back to work...I said with a smile. And we both shook our heads and returned as if we had that moment of reflection and it was hot and just enough for us to continue on.
I am really grateful to him. He didn't have to call me for this. Most frogs would have been nervous even though I was qualified. Funny, he's building a team and building a killer company from scratch....he's really smart, surrounding himself with winners. I feel honored he thought of me as such a key player in his group.
Funny, looking at him now. There is not one bit of sexual attraction. Funny how time can change things....
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Survival Of the Present
Yes, I am in an asexual mode these past few days. Feeling fat,feeling ugly and lots of anxiety. Working my butt off and still not able to make ends meet. I have sooo many opportunities,so many project ideas that I know that can rack in the bucks. However, I am in survival mode. I am taking work that I can't ask for what I should be because quite frankly, I need every penny. I can feel the anger piling up.
Last night I had a conference call from some big time company in my industry. They are working on a project and needed my approval to use something from one of my clients. After talking with the VPs at the company....they offered me an opportunity because quite frankly I am more knowledgable about this specialty. Now, if I was secure, I would have made a consulting deal AND has them push my services. But in fear of losing the deal, I will be working with the HOPE of getting some clients. Quite frankly, if I had the time, I really don't even need them. I have my own resources to do what they are doing AND I could blow them out of the water because I offer so much more (and 1/3 of the price). However because of my present financial situation.....I need to pay the monthly bills.
It hurts so much that the taste of success is right there for me....the opportunity is dangling in front of me...but I can't invest in my future because I am trying to survive the present. Hence, the anger towards my husband....if he had a job I wouldn't have to be working like this.....life sucks.
And sexually......my sex drive has been squashed. Its not that I can't be with anyone right now, I find myself not wanting to be with anyone right now. Oh yeah, there is Electric Guy and Mr. Porsche who have been super supportive of me. They have been supportive and quite frankly if I asked for three hours for them to just hold me, they would. The others--I basically have put on a back burner for a little bit.
I do have a funny story to tell you about Mr.Springer....hehehe. Remember him? I am working for him on a job right now and spent the day with him yesterday. It was funny....will write more later...need to just take a breath of fresh air.
Last night I had a conference call from some big time company in my industry. They are working on a project and needed my approval to use something from one of my clients. After talking with the VPs at the company....they offered me an opportunity because quite frankly I am more knowledgable about this specialty. Now, if I was secure, I would have made a consulting deal AND has them push my services. But in fear of losing the deal, I will be working with the HOPE of getting some clients. Quite frankly, if I had the time, I really don't even need them. I have my own resources to do what they are doing AND I could blow them out of the water because I offer so much more (and 1/3 of the price). However because of my present financial situation.....I need to pay the monthly bills.
It hurts so much that the taste of success is right there for me....the opportunity is dangling in front of me...but I can't invest in my future because I am trying to survive the present. Hence, the anger towards my husband....if he had a job I wouldn't have to be working like this.....life sucks.
And sexually......my sex drive has been squashed. Its not that I can't be with anyone right now, I find myself not wanting to be with anyone right now. Oh yeah, there is Electric Guy and Mr. Porsche who have been super supportive of me. They have been supportive and quite frankly if I asked for three hours for them to just hold me, they would. The others--I basically have put on a back burner for a little bit.
I do have a funny story to tell you about Mr.Springer....hehehe. Remember him? I am working for him on a job right now and spent the day with him yesterday. It was funny....will write more later...need to just take a breath of fresh air.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
The Green Bay Packers Lose & I win some Oral Sex
HeHeHe! I never loved football before. In fact, I dated a guy who was a gambler so I know all about the spreads. Yeah, that was years ago. Cable Guy and I began talking again about a week ago. I had been made at his abrupt IM remarks. He swore that he didn't mean anything by them, he apologized and said "Gotta tell ya, I was bummed that you broke up with me"! he.he.he
So tonight I emailed him. So, Giants or Packers? He said he was routing for the Packers. Years ago the Packers won me a lot of money in an office pool. I was the only one who stood by them the whole year and well, I ended up winning the pool. But I am a Giants fan these days (although I rarily watch the game).
Care to wager? I asked him
"Yup, I'll take the Packers....7 spread".
'7 1/2 and you have a deal". And the winner?
"The winner gives oral".
"Okay you are on".
So, throughtout the game we went back and forth. Oh yes, I told him....my clit is already celebrating.....Hi Mr. Elmo was another response. And when it was tied....oh, some 69? Oh wait, I hav 7 1/2 points!
So as you can guess...I won! The banter back and forth was hot! I called it a suckers bet-- literally. He loved that..
So he owes me oral. I told him multiple, multiple orgasns....he agreed. Lucky for him, I have an oral fixation and am a giver. Now this should be fun.
I emailed him when it was over. I'm sorry sorry, you must have lost a lot of money tonight on the game. His response....don't worry about the money baby,I just want to know when you are going to collect.....lol
Flirting is soooo much fun! Thanks Giants for winning!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
How could I have come so far?
Poem
by Thomas McGrath
How could I have come so far?
(And always on such dark trails?)
I must have traveled by the light
Shining from the faces of all those I have loved.
J just sent me this poem. And that is the truth. The Shining faces of all my blog friends, my frogs and my really close friends....is what keeps me striving forward.
I am a smart, independent and a pretty good businesswoman. I have some amazing business ideas that I know can make me money...but they take time and right now I am forced to not look at putting time into future projects that will make money but projects that will put food on the table immediately. Am I angry? Yeah, resentful and angry that I can do it but there is limited time in each day.
Okay, Cinderella has to put her cleaning gloves on and start cleaning this house. On the top of the list, is a cleaning lady...lmao...I think what kills me now is in my 40's and I was better off in my 20's financially. This is pathetic...its time to start shaking things up....
Pour that love this way....I really need that light to shine bright for me!!
xoxo
by Thomas McGrath
How could I have come so far?
(And always on such dark trails?)
I must have traveled by the light
Shining from the faces of all those I have loved.
J just sent me this poem. And that is the truth. The Shining faces of all my blog friends, my frogs and my really close friends....is what keeps me striving forward.
I am a smart, independent and a pretty good businesswoman. I have some amazing business ideas that I know can make me money...but they take time and right now I am forced to not look at putting time into future projects that will make money but projects that will put food on the table immediately. Am I angry? Yeah, resentful and angry that I can do it but there is limited time in each day.
Okay, Cinderella has to put her cleaning gloves on and start cleaning this house. On the top of the list, is a cleaning lady...lmao...I think what kills me now is in my 40's and I was better off in my 20's financially. This is pathetic...its time to start shaking things up....
Pour that love this way....I really need that light to shine bright for me!!
xoxo
Friday, January 18, 2008
Gotta Bitch
Oh today was a winner. Surprisingly I am not in a horrible mood as I should be....
Worked like a dog....client after client trying to complete lose ends on projects....I actually got a lot done. On the phone negotiating, working with other clients, emailing and closing deals...it was one of those wild days. Two projects,I needed to hit the road to complete. Headed to the farthest part of my territory (been wanting to do this for weeks)...finally got there....YEAH! Went to get my work that I needed out of the car....hmmm...it wasn't there?!? Oh, my husband took it out. Idiot! So uncaring, it was this tiny box, never in a million years would I expect that he would take it out of my car. What an ass.
My phone is now running low (from all my yacking)....go for my car phone charger....its gone....crap, an important call was coming in and my phone was dying. I still had three hours left on the road. Wouldn't you know it....DEAD. I knew he had that too.......RAGE.....ANGER...He is my downfall in life.
Go home, I was suppose to go out with my girlfriends tonight. Oh let's see, he made other plans and took the car. I got a babysitter but as I was getting ready to get in the shower...NO HOT WATER! We ran out of oil. The man has very few responsibilities here....maybe I am old fashioned but I always thought a man should provide for their family. Shelter, food, water, clothes...you know the basics at least. Not this guy.
Let's see....he took my phone charger (well I needed it--HELLO...I bought it). He moved my work and he just decided I wasn't going out. Now I couldn't leave the kids knowing there was no heat.
So now do you wonder why I want to divorce the man? The fighting went crazy...he hasn't given me a penny towards the mortgage. When I asked him tonight, he said..I am using the money to buy a car charger and fix my car. well he better be planning to live in that car because I am beyond happy right now....
Phew....the strength builds....the fear cowers. I am getting so close. And you know what? The next man I find will be a really lucky guy. Because I will expect so little from him. I will expect his caring, his caressing and his understanding. If he helps me with the slightest thing to make my day easier...to me, it would be like gold.
Oh wait,here's the kicker. I went to the doctor yesterday. Having those female problems again. I was nervous....my period didn't come (yes, I did 2 pregnancy tests and they were negative). So, the doctor said...."its all the stress,its catching up wth you. you need to relax. you need to try and slow down." Yes, I had told this to my husband. His response, I don't cause you stress.....I think he's truly fucked in the head....lmao
The doctor prescribed a little happy pill for me to take the edge off the anxiety. Funny, it just makes me exhausted and want to sleep.
Okay, I feel better...thanks for listening....
Next week will hopefully be action packed....Mr.Porshe and I are meeting, so is Mr. Electric and I,
I need some sexual relief.....
Worked like a dog....client after client trying to complete lose ends on projects....I actually got a lot done. On the phone negotiating, working with other clients, emailing and closing deals...it was one of those wild days. Two projects,I needed to hit the road to complete. Headed to the farthest part of my territory (been wanting to do this for weeks)...finally got there....YEAH! Went to get my work that I needed out of the car....hmmm...it wasn't there?!? Oh, my husband took it out. Idiot! So uncaring, it was this tiny box, never in a million years would I expect that he would take it out of my car. What an ass.
My phone is now running low (from all my yacking)....go for my car phone charger....its gone....crap, an important call was coming in and my phone was dying. I still had three hours left on the road. Wouldn't you know it....DEAD. I knew he had that too.......RAGE.....ANGER...He is my downfall in life.
Go home, I was suppose to go out with my girlfriends tonight. Oh let's see, he made other plans and took the car. I got a babysitter but as I was getting ready to get in the shower...NO HOT WATER! We ran out of oil. The man has very few responsibilities here....maybe I am old fashioned but I always thought a man should provide for their family. Shelter, food, water, clothes...you know the basics at least. Not this guy.
Let's see....he took my phone charger (well I needed it--HELLO...I bought it). He moved my work and he just decided I wasn't going out. Now I couldn't leave the kids knowing there was no heat.
So now do you wonder why I want to divorce the man? The fighting went crazy...he hasn't given me a penny towards the mortgage. When I asked him tonight, he said..I am using the money to buy a car charger and fix my car. well he better be planning to live in that car because I am beyond happy right now....
Phew....the strength builds....the fear cowers. I am getting so close. And you know what? The next man I find will be a really lucky guy. Because I will expect so little from him. I will expect his caring, his caressing and his understanding. If he helps me with the slightest thing to make my day easier...to me, it would be like gold.
Oh wait,here's the kicker. I went to the doctor yesterday. Having those female problems again. I was nervous....my period didn't come (yes, I did 2 pregnancy tests and they were negative). So, the doctor said...."its all the stress,its catching up wth you. you need to relax. you need to try and slow down." Yes, I had told this to my husband. His response, I don't cause you stress.....I think he's truly fucked in the head....lmao
The doctor prescribed a little happy pill for me to take the edge off the anxiety. Funny, it just makes me exhausted and want to sleep.
Okay, I feel better...thanks for listening....
Next week will hopefully be action packed....Mr.Porshe and I are meeting, so is Mr. Electric and I,
I need some sexual relief.....
Thursday, January 17, 2008
A Thirst For Life?
A reader (I will call him J) sent me a sweet note saying that he was readiny my past blog entries and how nice it was to see a woman who has such a thirst for life.
What a great way to describe how I feel. I have always called it determination, passion, desire...but a thirst for life totally hits it on the mark. I do totally crave life.
As I have told you...my life has never been simple. Both on the highs and the lows. I can honestly say I never take the middle of the road. I have always gone after things with full determination to succeed. Hence, the rewards have been amazing and I can say that I have made a difference and experienced some major feathers in my cap! On the lows, they are real bummers. Things that no matter how hard I would try to change...it is only God who can make these changes or some major science discoveries to cure certain diseases and disorders (speaking about my children here). I realize that it is their security, their necessities that keep me grounded and playing it safe especially related to my career.
So....yes, I love to enjoy life. I love to experiment, I love to live! I love to try new things. Isn't that what life should be about?
The Frogs
Cable Guy apologized for his IM but swears that he didn't mean it to sound abrupt. He said he was bummed that I stopped communicating (and that the lunch was fun..that I was blowing it out of proportion....he doesn't care if I want a divorce or not).
Electric Guy- his wife is selling the house and asked him for a divorce. He is devastated. I guess she was waiting for a buyer in order to drop the bombshell and she did. He's miserable. I feel bad for him. Last night, I tried to help him find a place to rent on the internet. He needs a friend now....and that's what I intend to be for him. He also did something so sweet. My plumbing in the house has issues. The sink, the dishwasher...my ice maker. He's coming over to look at it. He insisted...said that he fixes a lot of things and that he can't stand the thought of me spending so much money if he could fix it. Just the offer was so damn sweet...
Mr.Porshe- he's swamped with work. We talk but he hasn't mentioned when he can get away. Oh,the relationship is fine. Our talks are great and what's nice is that we don't just talk the cock sucking talk. We respect each other as people and professionals too. Our friend who introduced us was cracking up that we talk so much. Honestly, there are times we just talk about the news, work advice..its no always sexual. He sees the guy who parties hard (because they get together after work). I see a combination. I get to see many facets of his friend (including this sweet side that he laughs everytime I mention).
Met the guy who called himself an asshole for lunch yesterday. Purely platonic and I made that clear from the beginning. His record is fuck and run. One timers. Not my thing...but we will be friends.
Been thinking about four frogs from the past a lot lately. I miss the friendships a lot. We all know DigEm is one (a side note to DigEm if you are reading this--Kisses, Hugs and Happines--I miss you baby and only have great memories of our friendship. Heard manamana the other day....my heart smiled!)
What a great way to describe how I feel. I have always called it determination, passion, desire...but a thirst for life totally hits it on the mark. I do totally crave life.
As I have told you...my life has never been simple. Both on the highs and the lows. I can honestly say I never take the middle of the road. I have always gone after things with full determination to succeed. Hence, the rewards have been amazing and I can say that I have made a difference and experienced some major feathers in my cap! On the lows, they are real bummers. Things that no matter how hard I would try to change...it is only God who can make these changes or some major science discoveries to cure certain diseases and disorders (speaking about my children here). I realize that it is their security, their necessities that keep me grounded and playing it safe especially related to my career.
So....yes, I love to enjoy life. I love to experiment, I love to live! I love to try new things. Isn't that what life should be about?
The Frogs
Cable Guy apologized for his IM but swears that he didn't mean it to sound abrupt. He said he was bummed that I stopped communicating (and that the lunch was fun..that I was blowing it out of proportion....he doesn't care if I want a divorce or not).
Electric Guy- his wife is selling the house and asked him for a divorce. He is devastated. I guess she was waiting for a buyer in order to drop the bombshell and she did. He's miserable. I feel bad for him. Last night, I tried to help him find a place to rent on the internet. He needs a friend now....and that's what I intend to be for him. He also did something so sweet. My plumbing in the house has issues. The sink, the dishwasher...my ice maker. He's coming over to look at it. He insisted...said that he fixes a lot of things and that he can't stand the thought of me spending so much money if he could fix it. Just the offer was so damn sweet...
Mr.Porshe- he's swamped with work. We talk but he hasn't mentioned when he can get away. Oh,the relationship is fine. Our talks are great and what's nice is that we don't just talk the cock sucking talk. We respect each other as people and professionals too. Our friend who introduced us was cracking up that we talk so much. Honestly, there are times we just talk about the news, work advice..its no always sexual. He sees the guy who parties hard (because they get together after work). I see a combination. I get to see many facets of his friend (including this sweet side that he laughs everytime I mention).
Met the guy who called himself an asshole for lunch yesterday. Purely platonic and I made that clear from the beginning. His record is fuck and run. One timers. Not my thing...but we will be friends.
Been thinking about four frogs from the past a lot lately. I miss the friendships a lot. We all know DigEm is one (a side note to DigEm if you are reading this--Kisses, Hugs and Happines--I miss you baby and only have great memories of our friendship. Heard manamana the other day....my heart smiled!)
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Viagra's names
This came from my good blogger friend Percy....it made me giggle so I wanted to share it--
In Pharmacology, all drugs have two names, a trade name and generic
name. For example, the trade name of Tylenol also has a generic name
of Acetaminophen. Aleve is also called Naproxen. Amoxil is also called
Amoxicillin and Advil is also called Ibuprofen.
The FDA has been looking for a generic name for Viagra. After careful
consideration by a team of government experts, it recently announced
that it has settled on the generic name of Mycoxafloppin.
Also considered were Mycoxafailin, Mydixadrupin, Mydixarizin, Dixafix,
and of course, Ibepokin.
Pfizer Corp announced today that Viagra will soon be available in
liquid form, and will be marketed by Pepsi Cola as a power beverage
suitable for use as a mixer. It will now be possible for a man to
literally pour himself a stiff one. Obviously we can no longer call
this a soft drink, and it gives new meaning to the names of
'cocktails', 'highballs' and just a good old-fashioned 'stiff drink'.
Pepsi will market the new concoction by the name of:
MOUNT &DO.
Thought for the day: There is more money being spent on breast
implants and Viagra today than on Alzheimer's research. This means
that by 2040, there should be a large elderly population with perky
boobs and huge erections and absolutely no recollection of what to do
with them
If you don't send this to five old friends right away there will be
five fewer people laughing in the world.
In Pharmacology, all drugs have two names, a trade name and generic
name. For example, the trade name of Tylenol also has a generic name
of Acetaminophen. Aleve is also called Naproxen. Amoxil is also called
Amoxicillin and Advil is also called Ibuprofen.
The FDA has been looking for a generic name for Viagra. After careful
consideration by a team of government experts, it recently announced
that it has settled on the generic name of Mycoxafloppin.
Also considered were Mycoxafailin, Mydixadrupin, Mydixarizin, Dixafix,
and of course, Ibepokin.
Pfizer Corp announced today that Viagra will soon be available in
liquid form, and will be marketed by Pepsi Cola as a power beverage
suitable for use as a mixer. It will now be possible for a man to
literally pour himself a stiff one. Obviously we can no longer call
this a soft drink, and it gives new meaning to the names of
'cocktails', 'highballs' and just a good old-fashioned 'stiff drink'.
Pepsi will market the new concoction by the name of:
MOUNT &DO.
Thought for the day: There is more money being spent on breast
implants and Viagra today than on Alzheimer's research. This means
that by 2040, there should be a large elderly population with perky
boobs and huge erections and absolutely no recollection of what to do
with them
If you don't send this to five old friends right away there will be
five fewer people laughing in the world.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
It's A Dream
Music has such a profound effect on me...it sets off memories in my head, sets my mood.
This Neil Young Song was the one that Mr. Electric and I connected on one day during an email. So sad, it's about all those Dreams and Hopes you had...and how they fade and soon they have no place to stay in your head and they are totally gone.
Kind of fit with our NEED.....fit with our sadness of our life....and quite frankly, when this song came on....the sensuality between us was soooo intense....that aura of escape totally overcame us.....its nice when I hear it,how the feelings came rushing back and I got a warm, fulfilling feeling inside....
Have you ever heard this one? Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol. Was just on the radio....this one reminds me of Mystery Man..me lying in his arms and us looking deeply into each others eyes. I started singing the chorus to him...he reached over and stroked my head, held me a little tighter and kissed me...such a fine memory. Sadly, while its a great memory, it makes me miss what we had. Well here it is.....
This Neil Young Song was the one that Mr. Electric and I connected on one day during an email. So sad, it's about all those Dreams and Hopes you had...and how they fade and soon they have no place to stay in your head and they are totally gone.
Kind of fit with our NEED.....fit with our sadness of our life....and quite frankly, when this song came on....the sensuality between us was soooo intense....that aura of escape totally overcame us.....its nice when I hear it,how the feelings came rushing back and I got a warm, fulfilling feeling inside....
Have you ever heard this one? Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol. Was just on the radio....this one reminds me of Mystery Man..me lying in his arms and us looking deeply into each others eyes. I started singing the chorus to him...he reached over and stroked my head, held me a little tighter and kissed me...such a fine memory. Sadly, while its a great memory, it makes me miss what we had. Well here it is.....
Friday, January 11, 2008
Over 200,000 Hits...Wow, time flies
WOW!! My Blog hit over 200,000 hits yesterday!! That's a lot of visitors....Thank you all for your support, caring and love!! Because of all of you, you've truly helped me grow into the person I am today!!
Here's a party to the Frogs!!
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
A Sensual Escape
What an amazing day. I got up early (6AM) and began to work so that by 3PM, I could finish up for the day. Mr. Electric was upset. His wife was going after him....she declared she wanted a divorce and not go for help. He was pretty upset. Not because he was so in love with her, but because of the kids. He had been married before and left when the kids were small. He never wanted to go through it again. And here he was.....in the same boat.
We both needed an escape. I could feel the pressure of my life mounting too. Honestly, all this pressure is getting to me and taking its toll on my body. My monthly has not come. I've taken three pregnancy tests, its not that. The doctor wants me to come in just to check it out but he thinks it is the stress. Its amazing, the hubby doesnt see (nor care) what he is doing to me. I am suffocating....his reaction..I need $200. Nice...
Anyway, Mr. Electric got a room at a hotel. He's so sweet...he made sure it was really a nice room that we could relax and hang. He made sure it had internet access so I could work. I was running late, relax, he said...when ever you get here.
I got there and the room was cold. I had a really bad migraine and all I wanted to do was lie down on the bed. I came in, in my suit, kissed him hello and plopped down on the bed. He did the same and we stared at the ceiling. LIFE SUCKS...and we both started to giggle.
And now, it was amazing....you see, for the next three hours...we literally laid there in each others arms.....holding each other, caressing each other and kissing for three hours.....it was so sensual...slowly we lost clothes and eventually we lied there totally naked and entwined. I was playing with his cock...he was sensually rubbing me and he gave me the most amazing massage. His hands are amazing. My headache disappeared. He said he couldn't believe the knots in my back and shoulders. But we cuddled and listened to music and talked and kissed and sensually touched each other. Wow!!
Did we have sex? Yes we did. But honestly....those damn rubbers..they seem to kill a guy's hard on. We did have sex but that was the least impressive of the whole day. I dont mean that in a bad way but we both agreed. We are touch deprived. That feeling of holding someone in your arms, sensually touching them, kissing, spooning....giggling....neither one of us had that in a long time. IT wasn't the sex we needed...it was the emotionally connection and desire and touch that we so badly needed.
I had to do a parent teachers conference for one of my kids. So I left...but I was coming back. I had until 11PM. I was afraid he was going to freak. I mean, he had never crossed that cheating line. This was the first time for him. When I came back, he opened the door and gave me the biggest kiss...Thank you! was all he said. IT was so damn sweet.
The good thing about being friends....there's more to the togetherness. We decided to go out and grab a bite to eat. We went to this restaurant that is sooooo goood. It was next door. The portions are for twenty people...the food was great. There is a guy who goes around singing Italian songs....he was serenading us. We laughed so hard and ate like pigs. Sharing the dishes and just having fun. Playing a little dangerous, we sat together and he put his arm around the back of my chair.
He admited to me, he's afraid of hurting me. That its the last thing he wants to do. That he has no plans on it....that I am the best thing to come in his life in a long time, but he worries that he will do something that will bring me more stress.
Okay, truth is, he doesn't know my whole track record. How do you explain to a guy that you are now turning into a guy. That I think about just the moment we are together. That I realize this is not a long term commitment....that I have been through it and I protect myself pretty good. Truth is, if I never see him again, I have that great memory. I am okay with it....truly am. He's someone I can't get too involved with,hes got a lot on his plate and I would be fine just having what we had.
Spoke to him today. He's a little different. I giggled. He's keeping his distance today. Usually he smothers me and drives me a little nuts...today I heard from him twice...and he didnt come online. That's okay, we both need our space. Only thing, he has my favorite sunglasses.
Well I am happy and content right now. Sad about my marriage....its so sucky. But feeling fulfilled today.
We both needed an escape. I could feel the pressure of my life mounting too. Honestly, all this pressure is getting to me and taking its toll on my body. My monthly has not come. I've taken three pregnancy tests, its not that. The doctor wants me to come in just to check it out but he thinks it is the stress. Its amazing, the hubby doesnt see (nor care) what he is doing to me. I am suffocating....his reaction..I need $200. Nice...
Anyway, Mr. Electric got a room at a hotel. He's so sweet...he made sure it was really a nice room that we could relax and hang. He made sure it had internet access so I could work. I was running late, relax, he said...when ever you get here.
I got there and the room was cold. I had a really bad migraine and all I wanted to do was lie down on the bed. I came in, in my suit, kissed him hello and plopped down on the bed. He did the same and we stared at the ceiling. LIFE SUCKS...and we both started to giggle.
And now, it was amazing....you see, for the next three hours...we literally laid there in each others arms.....holding each other, caressing each other and kissing for three hours.....it was so sensual...slowly we lost clothes and eventually we lied there totally naked and entwined. I was playing with his cock...he was sensually rubbing me and he gave me the most amazing massage. His hands are amazing. My headache disappeared. He said he couldn't believe the knots in my back and shoulders. But we cuddled and listened to music and talked and kissed and sensually touched each other. Wow!!
Did we have sex? Yes we did. But honestly....those damn rubbers..they seem to kill a guy's hard on. We did have sex but that was the least impressive of the whole day. I dont mean that in a bad way but we both agreed. We are touch deprived. That feeling of holding someone in your arms, sensually touching them, kissing, spooning....giggling....neither one of us had that in a long time. IT wasn't the sex we needed...it was the emotionally connection and desire and touch that we so badly needed.
I had to do a parent teachers conference for one of my kids. So I left...but I was coming back. I had until 11PM. I was afraid he was going to freak. I mean, he had never crossed that cheating line. This was the first time for him. When I came back, he opened the door and gave me the biggest kiss...Thank you! was all he said. IT was so damn sweet.
The good thing about being friends....there's more to the togetherness. We decided to go out and grab a bite to eat. We went to this restaurant that is sooooo goood. It was next door. The portions are for twenty people...the food was great. There is a guy who goes around singing Italian songs....he was serenading us. We laughed so hard and ate like pigs. Sharing the dishes and just having fun. Playing a little dangerous, we sat together and he put his arm around the back of my chair.
He admited to me, he's afraid of hurting me. That its the last thing he wants to do. That he has no plans on it....that I am the best thing to come in his life in a long time, but he worries that he will do something that will bring me more stress.
Okay, truth is, he doesn't know my whole track record. How do you explain to a guy that you are now turning into a guy. That I think about just the moment we are together. That I realize this is not a long term commitment....that I have been through it and I protect myself pretty good. Truth is, if I never see him again, I have that great memory. I am okay with it....truly am. He's someone I can't get too involved with,hes got a lot on his plate and I would be fine just having what we had.
Spoke to him today. He's a little different. I giggled. He's keeping his distance today. Usually he smothers me and drives me a little nuts...today I heard from him twice...and he didnt come online. That's okay, we both need our space. Only thing, he has my favorite sunglasses.
Well I am happy and content right now. Sad about my marriage....its so sucky. But feeling fulfilled today.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Submission 101-- A Birthday To Remember
Today was wild. I know I had a great sex session when I need to come home and crawl into bed...the stress is gone, my body is content and my mind is at peace.
My presents were a huge success. He loved the picture and all the little things I got him. I even bought a picnic lunch..however,we never got to the lunch and just went to the dessert.
Today, I entered new ground...oh yes, it was quite a day. For his birthday, part of his present was me! Yes, he had some sexual leadway today and he gladly took it. Let's just say, he loves to take control.....and today he definitely did. We kissed intensely for a little bit and I began to undress him....ripping off his clothes and going down on his cock. Oh, YUM!! Yes, I missed his cock. It's been almost 2 months and I wanted it bad. I licked and sucked and put his cock ring on...lubbing him up and slipping the three different cock rings on. Snuggled between his legs,he was playing with my hair. Now, he gently twisted two curls and used my hair as a rein. Controlling how far down I went on his cock.....very ingenious. Up and down....up and down....he was able to get me to deep throat him. I was taken back for a minute, but relaxed and went with it. It was hot but I tried not to gag.....
quickly he flipped me over and before I knew it, with one hand, he had my wrists in a tight lock. I mean his one had got my hands in such a way that I couldn't move them at all....now he sucked my nipples....biting them and finger fucking me like mad. Slightly painful but sexually exciting..a countdown...."cum when I countdown to 1".....9, 8., 7,6, oh man, 5, 4, 3, 2, ONE!!!! And focusing on his voice, as he reached so deep inside of me....I came. My body pulsating and my head in the clouds...I can hear myself moaning.....let it go baby, cum again.....I let it go and could feel a second rush of orgasm....with my clit swollen and aching, my nipples sore...and my mind in some other orgasmic place.
Kissing and talking a little bit, but now it was time to fuck me...fuck me hard from behind...it felt so damn good. We all know how I love a hard cock from behind. And this one certainly fulfilled the desires I was feeling.
And now for the experimental.....the anal! I gave my first rim job today and my finger as well around his hole. Most guys don't like when I go around the hole, he loved it. A new arena for me.....it was as if I was somewhere else....."want me to fuck you in the ass?" "Yes" I could hear myself panting as he was fingering me. "tell me" "Fuck my ass!" And then he lubed up and we began anal sex....I am tight down there....very tight and couldn't relax.....so he used his thumb...you fuck my thumb! And I did, going back and forth at my own pace so I could relax...I
could feel a super strange aura as he whispered dirty talk in my ear and his switched his thumb wiith his cock....slow and steady...until the euphoria was something I had never felt before....'Call me master".....And I couldn't. That is the most submissive of all things for me.....I couldn't go there....but as it heightened and my body and mind was in some far off land....the words escaped my lips once......I barily remember saying it, I think it was as I was cumming but boy does he remember that I said it.
Yes, for him,he loves me in a submissive role. I think he enjoys it more because I have such a hard time going there. Sometimes he can get me there, other times I can't. I guess its a challenge in a way for him. I am so used to being in control to let go is so hard. And he is so funny, he lets me have the control that I need too. but as he puts it, he does control the control and I know it. It's funny, he has a smirk on his face as I am taking control. I giggle...
We laid in each others arms...the cell phones ringing off the hook. We did take a break to answer some business calls. And then we went back to fucking. 3 hours go so fast when you are having fun. I gave him a full body massage....which he loved and then we cuddled. The real world outside the door so desperately trying to break in....
I gave him a birthday eclair.....a big channel changer (huge--he loved it)...the picture (which he loved and spent 15 minutes looking for my pictures), lotto tickets, some candles that smell like roasted chestnuts as we fuck in his office next time and see the city skyline from his office window.
Oh my, I forgot. I also at one point covered him in whipped cream and licked it off. I also covered him in the Hershey chocolate shell...which by the way does not get hard as a shell on the cock. What a disappointment. the cock is too hot and it stays as syrup.....and I almost forgot...
my last present was me sucking on his cock until he came. He wanted to cum in my mouth AND so he did....I sucked him until he came and made sure I swallowed every last bit!
So, we showered and kissed and laughed and then we both parted. He called me as I was driving home, thanks for making my birthday so special! I'm glad he thought that. I even did the Marilyn Monroe version of Happy Birthday hehehe.
So I am soooo content. I love when my mind is blank like this....floating on a cloud.
AAahhhh relaxation...now the big question,do I meet Electric Man tomorrow?
My presents were a huge success. He loved the picture and all the little things I got him. I even bought a picnic lunch..however,we never got to the lunch and just went to the dessert.
Today, I entered new ground...oh yes, it was quite a day. For his birthday, part of his present was me! Yes, he had some sexual leadway today and he gladly took it. Let's just say, he loves to take control.....and today he definitely did. We kissed intensely for a little bit and I began to undress him....ripping off his clothes and going down on his cock. Oh, YUM!! Yes, I missed his cock. It's been almost 2 months and I wanted it bad. I licked and sucked and put his cock ring on...lubbing him up and slipping the three different cock rings on. Snuggled between his legs,he was playing with my hair. Now, he gently twisted two curls and used my hair as a rein. Controlling how far down I went on his cock.....very ingenious. Up and down....up and down....he was able to get me to deep throat him. I was taken back for a minute, but relaxed and went with it. It was hot but I tried not to gag.....
quickly he flipped me over and before I knew it, with one hand, he had my wrists in a tight lock. I mean his one had got my hands in such a way that I couldn't move them at all....now he sucked my nipples....biting them and finger fucking me like mad. Slightly painful but sexually exciting..a countdown...."cum when I countdown to 1".....9, 8., 7,6, oh man, 5, 4, 3, 2, ONE!!!! And focusing on his voice, as he reached so deep inside of me....I came. My body pulsating and my head in the clouds...I can hear myself moaning.....let it go baby, cum again.....I let it go and could feel a second rush of orgasm....with my clit swollen and aching, my nipples sore...and my mind in some other orgasmic place.
Kissing and talking a little bit, but now it was time to fuck me...fuck me hard from behind...it felt so damn good. We all know how I love a hard cock from behind. And this one certainly fulfilled the desires I was feeling.
And now for the experimental.....the anal! I gave my first rim job today and my finger as well around his hole. Most guys don't like when I go around the hole, he loved it. A new arena for me.....it was as if I was somewhere else....."want me to fuck you in the ass?" "Yes" I could hear myself panting as he was fingering me. "tell me" "Fuck my ass!" And then he lubed up and we began anal sex....I am tight down there....very tight and couldn't relax.....so he used his thumb...you fuck my thumb! And I did, going back and forth at my own pace so I could relax...I
could feel a super strange aura as he whispered dirty talk in my ear and his switched his thumb wiith his cock....slow and steady...until the euphoria was something I had never felt before....'Call me master".....And I couldn't. That is the most submissive of all things for me.....I couldn't go there....but as it heightened and my body and mind was in some far off land....the words escaped my lips once......I barily remember saying it, I think it was as I was cumming but boy does he remember that I said it.
Yes, for him,he loves me in a submissive role. I think he enjoys it more because I have such a hard time going there. Sometimes he can get me there, other times I can't. I guess its a challenge in a way for him. I am so used to being in control to let go is so hard. And he is so funny, he lets me have the control that I need too. but as he puts it, he does control the control and I know it. It's funny, he has a smirk on his face as I am taking control. I giggle...
We laid in each others arms...the cell phones ringing off the hook. We did take a break to answer some business calls. And then we went back to fucking. 3 hours go so fast when you are having fun. I gave him a full body massage....which he loved and then we cuddled. The real world outside the door so desperately trying to break in....
I gave him a birthday eclair.....a big channel changer (huge--he loved it)...the picture (which he loved and spent 15 minutes looking for my pictures), lotto tickets, some candles that smell like roasted chestnuts as we fuck in his office next time and see the city skyline from his office window.
Oh my, I forgot. I also at one point covered him in whipped cream and licked it off. I also covered him in the Hershey chocolate shell...which by the way does not get hard as a shell on the cock. What a disappointment. the cock is too hot and it stays as syrup.....and I almost forgot...
my last present was me sucking on his cock until he came. He wanted to cum in my mouth AND so he did....I sucked him until he came and made sure I swallowed every last bit!
So, we showered and kissed and laughed and then we both parted. He called me as I was driving home, thanks for making my birthday so special! I'm glad he thought that. I even did the Marilyn Monroe version of Happy Birthday hehehe.
So I am soooo content. I love when my mind is blank like this....floating on a cloud.
AAahhhh relaxation...now the big question,do I meet Electric Man tomorrow?
Monday, January 07, 2008
Busy With The Frogs!
I love a night before a frog meeting. Such anticipation, such excitement. I remember when Mystery Man and I would meet...he would play the Ketchup song...Anticipation! okay, gotta forget him.
Well, I am meeting Mr. Porsche tomorrow!! I can't wait. He said he can't wait to be with me. Been dreaming about it for weeks. Three hours is not going to be enough. Between sex, talking, birthday celebration.....not enough time at all.......
What do you want for your birthday, I asked. A big kiss from you! Don't spend a dime on me. He's so sweet. I hope he's not disappointed. So, I have so much to do tomorrow before we meet and also work. So, I did the pix in the frame...it looks great...I wrapped it for him too. Lied to hubby, said it was for a client.... Then I got lust lottery coupons....a spin the sexual wheel....along with scented candles for his office and a huge remote control for his huge tv he has in the office.
Going to stop tomorrow for whipped cream and chocolate shell.....you put it on and it hardens... yes,his cock will be a chocolate bar! And of course, the cock ring..can't forget to stop for that.
Wearing my basic lingerie...he doesn't seem to get off that much on it so....I will just wear a red bra and crotchless underwear. We already decided that we will spend 1/2 the time as my makeup for him not seeing me for so long (that's where I get to orgasm tons!!) and then we celebrate his birthday (where he gets his cock sucked for as long as he wants!!) Woo Hoo!!! It should be fun!!
So that's my day for tomorrow...
Wednesday, I am suppose to see Electric Guy...he wants to take me to a hotel so we can have quiet time. And then a fancy hotel for a drink with the Real Estate guy on thursday. Oh he thinks he is going to fill me up with shots and take me upstairs....
I spoke with Mr. Prize tonight and for the first time he saw me on Cam. Even though I looked like shit, he was so complimentary....I liked talking to him face to face it was fun. I am not a good cammer. I guess you are suppose to be seductive....I am a ham. I make faces, throw kisses, dance...giggle.....I don't do the body part thing at all...lmao.... The fact that Mr Prize said I looked beautiful made me happy.
He was concerned about my stalker. Seems a special friend of his found a guy online and he was really, really rough with her. Asshole. That really scares me. I guess I am naive when it comes to things like that. I am too trusting. I have been lucky. I have only met really nice guys. I mean that. Everyone has truly been a gentleman. A guy who is just in the same boat and place in their life. It's scary to think that some guy would rough up a girl and bruise her. I am really sick about it. So ladies, always be careful. I have a little trick. When I am meeting a guy, I leave his name, telephone number and email address in this pitcher near my sink. My girlfriends know exactly where it is. I also tell them where I am going and call before I get there and an hour later. Always go to a public place until I get to know the guy and feel comfortable. I guess I try to take precautions but you never know.
Okay, gotta go get some sleep..I plan on fucking like crazy tomorrow!!
Sweet Wet Dreams!!
Well, I am meeting Mr. Porsche tomorrow!! I can't wait. He said he can't wait to be with me. Been dreaming about it for weeks. Three hours is not going to be enough. Between sex, talking, birthday celebration.....not enough time at all.......
What do you want for your birthday, I asked. A big kiss from you! Don't spend a dime on me. He's so sweet. I hope he's not disappointed. So, I have so much to do tomorrow before we meet and also work. So, I did the pix in the frame...it looks great...I wrapped it for him too. Lied to hubby, said it was for a client.... Then I got lust lottery coupons....a spin the sexual wheel....along with scented candles for his office and a huge remote control for his huge tv he has in the office.
Going to stop tomorrow for whipped cream and chocolate shell.....you put it on and it hardens... yes,his cock will be a chocolate bar! And of course, the cock ring..can't forget to stop for that.
Wearing my basic lingerie...he doesn't seem to get off that much on it so....I will just wear a red bra and crotchless underwear. We already decided that we will spend 1/2 the time as my makeup for him not seeing me for so long (that's where I get to orgasm tons!!) and then we celebrate his birthday (where he gets his cock sucked for as long as he wants!!) Woo Hoo!!! It should be fun!!
So that's my day for tomorrow...
Wednesday, I am suppose to see Electric Guy...he wants to take me to a hotel so we can have quiet time. And then a fancy hotel for a drink with the Real Estate guy on thursday. Oh he thinks he is going to fill me up with shots and take me upstairs....
I spoke with Mr. Prize tonight and for the first time he saw me on Cam. Even though I looked like shit, he was so complimentary....I liked talking to him face to face it was fun. I am not a good cammer. I guess you are suppose to be seductive....I am a ham. I make faces, throw kisses, dance...giggle.....I don't do the body part thing at all...lmao.... The fact that Mr Prize said I looked beautiful made me happy.
He was concerned about my stalker. Seems a special friend of his found a guy online and he was really, really rough with her. Asshole. That really scares me. I guess I am naive when it comes to things like that. I am too trusting. I have been lucky. I have only met really nice guys. I mean that. Everyone has truly been a gentleman. A guy who is just in the same boat and place in their life. It's scary to think that some guy would rough up a girl and bruise her. I am really sick about it. So ladies, always be careful. I have a little trick. When I am meeting a guy, I leave his name, telephone number and email address in this pitcher near my sink. My girlfriends know exactly where it is. I also tell them where I am going and call before I get there and an hour later. Always go to a public place until I get to know the guy and feel comfortable. I guess I try to take precautions but you never know.
Okay, gotta go get some sleep..I plan on fucking like crazy tomorrow!!
Sweet Wet Dreams!!
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Married or a Felon? Are the Interchangable?
So maybe this just hit me wrong BUT look at the third line on the bottom.....
"We screen for marrieds and felons"
Woooooo...... sounds like being married is a criminal offense!! lmao
Another reason why Ashley Madison is such a better choice. No explaining why you are there, no need to say you are married or try and hide it. It's right in the open. I am here--I want to DATE (or fuck) and I am married!!
I forgot to tell you about the MYSPACE Guy! Remember that gorgeous, single guy who turned out not to be his picture. Well, he was kind of stalking me. He was begging me to talk to him. Sending IMs, emails and messages on my MySpace. I finally decided I had to talk to him or he might do something rash. Like figure out where I live and show up at my door. So, I explained to him that I didn't want to be talk with him . That I felt weird and freaked that he lied. He got mad, then he begged, then he seemed to accept that I didn't want to talk to him. He kept saying we are so perfect for each other, you want me! I want you....we are perfect. OOOOOOOO!!!!! A little scary there.
So, he left me alone all day today. Maybe he got the message. Electric Guy said that if he didn't leave me alone he was going to make a call before it got out of hand. He knew someone who was high up in the fireman units....I don't want that. Hopefully he got the message.
So have I become callous? I think I have a little. Not sure if that is good or bad. I remember when I first came online and started chatting with men. I felt like it was so real. Now, I feel like most of them will come and go and then there will be another to replace them. Of course, there are at least a handful that dont fit into that category. Those that I have loved and lost and will be a part of my memory forever. Some were lovers, some were soul mates, some were just friends but they will be in my heart and memories forever. What I call the rocking chair memory...yup, when I am 90 and sitting in the old age home by the water, I will be able to think about and wonder about that person and even giggle a little.
Where's Cheri?
You know the Where's Waldo? Well this is where's Cheri?
It's hard to see because its so small....and I confess that I touched up three pix so that you couldn't really see my face.....but this is the pix I am giving to him. 16 x 20 frame for his office.
Each rock pertaining to our affair....an aspect and hidden within the picture is:
--my lips
--my cleavage
--my nipple --my clit -- 4 pictures of my face and I think thats it!
Can you find Cheri? lol Unfortunately, I had to smudge my picture a little more for my blog so its a little difficult. But they are all there.....xoxoxo So is this too corny?!
A Special Birthday, A Special Sexual Gift?
Wow...all day I have been thinking about all your comments. My blog is free therapy! But seriously, the one thing that keeps coming to my head is what Her Secret Said....."the fear will cower to the strength". So profound and so true. Exactly what I am feeling. The fear comes from the responsibility of the children. If I had no children, I would have been out of this marriage a long time ago. It's the fear that I will have problems providing for them, meeting their needs, protecting them. Thanks for those words of wisdom. Everyday, I can feel the fear cowering a little more....and the strength building, I am just not there just yet I guess.
Moving on....its Mr.Porsche's birthday. As you can recall, Mystery Man's birthday was a disaster. So I am skeptical here. What do I do for Mr. Porsche's birthday? Monetarily I can't afford to buy him something extravagant...I am at a loss. I want it to be special. I am limited in what I can buy him. I mean he can't take it home. When I ask him...he says "YOU! That's what I want. 3 hours with you!" He's already getting that....birthday or not. So what do I do?
He always tells me that the foundation is the TRUST. I believe that. You trust someone and an affair is hotter than anything. Allowing the person to take you to places you've never been. So?! On that note....I was thinking...a picture for his office. I found one that was a rock in the water and it said TRUST. That's inconspicious....its got deep meaning for us....but no one who would walk in. Seems okay, but not enough. So, I got a stock photo with lots of rocks. I am putting words that relate to us on the rocks. TRUST, PASSION, IMAGINATION, COMPASSION, DESIRE, FUN, FRIENDSHIP, LOVE, RESPECT..... can you think of other words? HELP! I need more words.....and I am hiding pix of myself and my body parts within the picture. What do you think?! We are very open with each other...I think he will like it but I am nervous.
We are meeting on Tuesday. I was going to buy whipped cream, chocolate syrup, a cock ring, and wrap it up along with a red bow for me!
Any more suggestions? What would you like? What would you do for a lover?
Moving on....its Mr.Porsche's birthday. As you can recall, Mystery Man's birthday was a disaster. So I am skeptical here. What do I do for Mr. Porsche's birthday? Monetarily I can't afford to buy him something extravagant...I am at a loss. I want it to be special. I am limited in what I can buy him. I mean he can't take it home. When I ask him...he says "YOU! That's what I want. 3 hours with you!" He's already getting that....birthday or not. So what do I do?
He always tells me that the foundation is the TRUST. I believe that. You trust someone and an affair is hotter than anything. Allowing the person to take you to places you've never been. So?! On that note....I was thinking...a picture for his office. I found one that was a rock in the water and it said TRUST. That's inconspicious....its got deep meaning for us....but no one who would walk in. Seems okay, but not enough. So, I got a stock photo with lots of rocks. I am putting words that relate to us on the rocks. TRUST, PASSION, IMAGINATION, COMPASSION, DESIRE, FUN, FRIENDSHIP, LOVE, RESPECT..... can you think of other words? HELP! I need more words.....and I am hiding pix of myself and my body parts within the picture. What do you think?! We are very open with each other...I think he will like it but I am nervous.We are meeting on Tuesday. I was going to buy whipped cream, chocolate syrup, a cock ring, and wrap it up along with a red bow for me!
Any more suggestions? What would you like? What would you do for a lover?
Friday, January 04, 2008
So Many Frogs and No Married Prince Charming
Yes, I know I shouldn't have contacted Mystery Man. It absolutely opened up those old feelings and set me back a little. But some fine old feelings stirred inside of me. And the good news, I turned those sexual frustrations into a trip to the gym. I joined a gym where it is not a social environment. Granted, one of these fancy gyms here I might meet a hot man BUT I really want to work out. So, I joined this local gym where t-shirts, sweats and ponytails are the way to go.
Of course, yesterday there was this guy in there that was so hot. I mean his body was perfection....a triangle, the muscles bulging. I couldn't figure out how old he was....but I was drooling over his body. As I worked out, I watched him lifting the weights....my oh my, that body was fine. However, he is a stuck up ass. Oh, he came into the area I was working out in and I ignored him. we caught each others eyes a few times. As we were leaving (okay, I timed it nicely)...I held the door for him. Thanks...but a stone face--now he couldn't even look me in the eyes. I giggled and ran to my car (yes he watched me)...
Mr. Porshe is busy with vacation. We haven't seen each other in weeks. We talk daily but he knows I am getting annoyed.
Electric Guy...I met him for lunch the other day. He IMs me daily, calls. Problem is that he is a little messed up. I told you he had that drug problem. Now his marriage is really in bad shape and he has a temper (but doesn't hit his wife). A loose cannon a little bit...very compulsive. funny as hell, fun but I could see it being a problem. So I have been trying to just be friends. We met for lunch and sadly I am so damn turned on by him. He's extremely good looking. A gentleman....at one point, I moved to his side of the booth. He massaged my shoulders....what great hands..I was like jello. We went out to the car...we were talking then he reached over grabbed my face and kissed me. I'm sorry, those lips have been so inviting,I couldn't resist...he wanted to meet today...I am going to meet for coffee. I told him I am not ready for a hotel.
Cable Guy--well I let him go. Too much of a partier for me. I have to fit in between his wife/family (that I understand) and then comes his best friend and his party friends and his football friends...let's see..I fit in waaaayy at the bottom. Not for me.
One last potential.Found some really rich guy online. He has potential. Same boat as Navigator. Pompous, cocky and rich. Not sure what I am going to do with that one. We are meeting next week for a drink at this fancy hotel...it might be nice to be spoiled a little,although thats not what usually does it for me.
So....once again. I am not content. I can have a pond full of frogs and I still can't find that contentment I had with DigEm and Mystery Man. Geez...I mean right now I am juggling 5 men I think. Sleeping with only one. But five and I am not content. I know the reality....I know what I have to do. I need to get to a lawyer. I'm petrified. Scared to death to do it alone. But as my friends point out, I am already doing it alone. My best friend said today...you are the strongest woman I know. You have more on your plate than anyone I know. But if anyone can make that move...its you.
I need the strength. The guts.
Of course, yesterday there was this guy in there that was so hot. I mean his body was perfection....a triangle, the muscles bulging. I couldn't figure out how old he was....but I was drooling over his body. As I worked out, I watched him lifting the weights....my oh my, that body was fine. However, he is a stuck up ass. Oh, he came into the area I was working out in and I ignored him. we caught each others eyes a few times. As we were leaving (okay, I timed it nicely)...I held the door for him. Thanks...but a stone face--now he couldn't even look me in the eyes. I giggled and ran to my car (yes he watched me)...
Mr. Porshe is busy with vacation. We haven't seen each other in weeks. We talk daily but he knows I am getting annoyed.
Electric Guy...I met him for lunch the other day. He IMs me daily, calls. Problem is that he is a little messed up. I told you he had that drug problem. Now his marriage is really in bad shape and he has a temper (but doesn't hit his wife). A loose cannon a little bit...very compulsive. funny as hell, fun but I could see it being a problem. So I have been trying to just be friends. We met for lunch and sadly I am so damn turned on by him. He's extremely good looking. A gentleman....at one point, I moved to his side of the booth. He massaged my shoulders....what great hands..I was like jello. We went out to the car...we were talking then he reached over grabbed my face and kissed me. I'm sorry, those lips have been so inviting,I couldn't resist...he wanted to meet today...I am going to meet for coffee. I told him I am not ready for a hotel.
Cable Guy--well I let him go. Too much of a partier for me. I have to fit in between his wife/family (that I understand) and then comes his best friend and his party friends and his football friends...let's see..I fit in waaaayy at the bottom. Not for me.
One last potential.Found some really rich guy online. He has potential. Same boat as Navigator. Pompous, cocky and rich. Not sure what I am going to do with that one. We are meeting next week for a drink at this fancy hotel...it might be nice to be spoiled a little,although thats not what usually does it for me.
So....once again. I am not content. I can have a pond full of frogs and I still can't find that contentment I had with DigEm and Mystery Man. Geez...I mean right now I am juggling 5 men I think. Sleeping with only one. But five and I am not content. I know the reality....I know what I have to do. I need to get to a lawyer. I'm petrified. Scared to death to do it alone. But as my friends point out, I am already doing it alone. My best friend said today...you are the strongest woman I know. You have more on your plate than anyone I know. But if anyone can make that move...its you.
I need the strength. The guts.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Couldn't Resist-Mystery Man Re-Surfaces
Yes,the New Year....I am a sucker for the New Year. I sent a note to Mystery Man...
"Wishing you a Happy, Health & Prosperous New Year. I took all the pins out of the voodoo doll so you should be feeling better!"
An hour later I got a response.....
"Same to you. My erogenous zones are feeling much better now...thank you"
I should have let it be, the door was open,I should have walked away..but I couldn't...
"Oh, busted. You know those hard ons you get out of no where?? That's me satisfying my sexual desires. You know how I have an oral fixation...."
I know, I know.....I should have left him alone. Maybe he won't answer...it would be better for me. But I have to confess.....just getting his email made me all wet. I could feel the desire inside of me. I could feel my body yearning for his touch. I could feel my clit desiring him. Visions of me leaning over the bed while he fucked me from behind.....I couldnt help it....
It all seems like a dream now. So far away, so long ago.....
I need that passion again. I know I need to stay away from him....but I can't help but think how hard we would fuck. Like never before....anger/hatred can make sex so much hotter!
"Wishing you a Happy, Health & Prosperous New Year. I took all the pins out of the voodoo doll so you should be feeling better!"
An hour later I got a response.....
"Same to you. My erogenous zones are feeling much better now...thank you"
I should have let it be, the door was open,I should have walked away..but I couldn't...
"Oh, busted. You know those hard ons you get out of no where?? That's me satisfying my sexual desires. You know how I have an oral fixation...."
I know, I know.....I should have left him alone. Maybe he won't answer...it would be better for me. But I have to confess.....just getting his email made me all wet. I could feel the desire inside of me. I could feel my body yearning for his touch. I could feel my clit desiring him. Visions of me leaning over the bed while he fucked me from behind.....I couldnt help it....
It all seems like a dream now. So far away, so long ago.....
I need that passion again. I know I need to stay away from him....but I can't help but think how hard we would fuck. Like never before....anger/hatred can make sex so much hotter!
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Never Good By but Until Next Time.....
Yes, I broke the rules. I sent DigEm a Happy New Year! I couldn't resist....but of course, he knew I have to follow my heart. I have enclosed the email he sent back.
After I received this email.....I had to call...I had to tell him how happy I was for him. And I am. With all my heart,I hope it works for him and his wife. I hope he finds the happiness that he so deserves. Of course, I wish that we could talk, I wish that I could find someone like him...lmao...is he the only gem out there and he belongs to someone else? sigh...just my luck. Well I hope she knows how lucky she is and appreciates him and loves him. I waited till he was at lunch to call. It would hurt too much to talk to him. It's not the talking that hurts...its when we have to say good by....I hate good bys.... If I had one wish....it would be that I could find a man just like my DigEm....
DigEm's Email:
"You rule-breaker! Ever since you broke my "don't call during a certain time" rule when we first met, I knew that you followed your heart, not rules. Anyway, I'm glad you did because I wanted to wish you the same. I REALLY, REALLY hope things get MUCH better for you in 08. Family, love, money. I hope it finally all comes together for you. You deserve it!!!
Wifey and I are doing great. It's as good as it was when we first met 20 years ago. It's like the layers of ice that have built up over the years have melted away. I wish that for you. Maybe not with hubby - it's probably too late for that. But, I wish you find that special someone to connect with and kick hubby out the door!
OK, back to radio silence now. But, PLEASE know that I think of you and read your blog and care about you and worry about you and I hate not being able to talk to you. Just think of me as sort of an angel (yes, I stole that from you!), watching and caring.
Cheri, I wish you the absolute BEST, with all my heart.
Never good-bye, but until next time.....
After I received this email.....I had to call...I had to tell him how happy I was for him. And I am. With all my heart,I hope it works for him and his wife. I hope he finds the happiness that he so deserves. Of course, I wish that we could talk, I wish that I could find someone like him...lmao...is he the only gem out there and he belongs to someone else? sigh...just my luck. Well I hope she knows how lucky she is and appreciates him and loves him. I waited till he was at lunch to call. It would hurt too much to talk to him. It's not the talking that hurts...its when we have to say good by....I hate good bys.... If I had one wish....it would be that I could find a man just like my DigEm....
DigEm's Email:
"You rule-breaker! Ever since you broke my "don't call during a certain time" rule when we first met, I knew that you followed your heart, not rules. Anyway, I'm glad you did because I wanted to wish you the same. I REALLY, REALLY hope things get MUCH better for you in 08. Family, love, money. I hope it finally all comes together for you. You deserve it!!!
Wifey and I are doing great. It's as good as it was when we first met 20 years ago. It's like the layers of ice that have built up over the years have melted away. I wish that for you. Maybe not with hubby - it's probably too late for that. But, I wish you find that special someone to connect with and kick hubby out the door!
OK, back to radio silence now. But, PLEASE know that I think of you and read your blog and care about you and worry about you and I hate not being able to talk to you. Just think of me as sort of an angel (yes, I stole that from you!), watching and caring.
Cheri, I wish you the absolute BEST, with all my heart.
Never good-bye, but until next time.....
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