Some Phone Sex with my newest Ashley Madison Find

What an insane weekend. My computer totally crashed and the backup files were corrupt for many months. I have been up for 36 hours now trying to return my desktop. However, I went deep into my files and found so many frog pictures. Hot naked chests, big cocks, sexy faces....of course the faces I remember but I can't put all the cocks with the faces.....its like a puzzle...some hot looking cocks I just am not sure where they came from but they are still floating on my computer.

Which led me back to Ashley Madison for a couple of hours tonight. Mmmmm......I love flirting. Nothing like some innocent exchange of flirtation to get your blood boiling and your thoughts of another extramarital affair not too far on the horizon. I've been talking a lot to the Other State Guy, don't have a name for him yet. Not sure what I would name him. Into financials but based upon his location I think I am going to call him Mr. Heir. Why you may ask? He comes from one of the richest areas on the coast. He's an Heir that has a little bit of an air about him. Not sure what I am feeling about that. I like the real men. Someone in between where he has either a brain or street smarts about him. Don't get me wrong, he's down to earth but when you come from old money, there is an air about you.

However, I do know that his sexy voice is irrisistable (reminds me of Digem)
....mmmm.....hearing his voice makes me just want to cum. And I took the opportunity again today to have him call me and walk me through a masturbation session.....nothing like closing your eyes and listening to a hot man's voice telling you how to do circles on your clit...an then asking you to feel if you are wet...which if you weren't makes you instantly wet. Now use your wetness to lube up your clit to do those circles....mmmmm.......now imagine me teasing you...just putting my head at the tip of your pussy, about to go in, just going in to spread you and then pulling out....do you want me to go back in? Oh the visual is hot!! I LOOOOVVEEEE IT!!! With a few little teases, I can feel myself getting soaked and my muscles begin to pulsate.....ohhhhhh here comes that rush I love so much.....and with the tightening and the pulsations, the orgasm cums and I can hear myself moan.... oh he is pleased with himself (as so he should be)...working me up like that, with just his voice. Oh he did send me some pix of his cock.....very nice head. You know how I love that mushroom head. Perfection!! Cocks are so hot..each one so different, no two ever the same YET each one has its own sex appeal....and boy does my mouth water at the thought of wrapping my lips around one of them.

Okay, now I have to go back on Ashley again. I am determined to find a frog that has it all...the brains, handsome, quick witted, sexy, sexual, sensual.....oh....sometimes it feels like a needle inside a haystack but I am determined. Actually, I laugh.....it has to be Spring Fever. My two girlfriends who are on there are also in heat. Determined to find the right man. As you know, one is testing them all, the other has given herself a deadline....May 1st she wants a lover to go through the summer. Hmmm, I have no goal mentally but physically my body and lips are craving something.....and it ain't White Castle but it is meat!!

AND--I did add some of my favorite blogs that I stop by, I have been very lax with that....I am going to keep updating it for now on so keep checking it out!

The Eagles Lyin Eyes

Tonight as I sit here with a glass of wine, the Eagles Lyin Eyes comes on the radio. I can't help but feel a connection with that song. Yes, that's every girls dream.....white picket fence, a couple of kids, a dog, a loving marriage, and a decent life. How sad when the love is no longer in the marriage. How sad when you can't communicate with your spouse...

Tonight,I am at peace. I'm sure the wine is helping. Writing this blog has been a huge benefit for me emotionally. In some ways, it has been my savior. You all have been there with me on this rollercoaster of life. The emails that you've sent to make me smile when I am down....and I love when I can help you as well.

The internet amazes me. The way you can get to know someone who is so many miles away. Now I am not just talking about the phone and cybersex (come on, I am philosophical tonight). I am talking about some of the friends I have made as well. Yes, I have non sexual friends that I have made here.....in fact, many of you have never crossed the line and I guess you read my blog to see what its like from a female perspective.

I look back to the two years and I am amazed at how far I have come. In some ways, I have grown tremendously as a person. I am much more confidant with my sexuality, much more independent and even happier. When I entered this blog....scarily to say...I was desperate. There was no light at the end of the tunnel.

Where am I headed? I am not exactly sure. I had hoped at this point there would have been a happy ending to this blog. But that's okay...ironically because of this blog and my friends I've met---I have learned that I may never meet Mr. Married Prince Charming AND that is okay. I am actually okay with that and am discovering myself as an independent woman. I think each frog has added to the mix and has taught me something else. And each friend has been supportive and helped me leap over those hurdles.....

As for Mr. Long Distance Lover. Only time can tell where that will go. But right now, we are fulfilling a loneliness that existed in both our hearts. And that is making me happy....

Sorry guys, no sex tonight. The wine and a trashy love novel has made me more serene!!
XOXO