Married and having an affair? I never thought I would be someone to cheat but at 40, I found my marriage was on life support. I needed to fill a void, I needed to find the REAL ME! So I turned to the online married services-Ashley Madison Agency and Philanders in search of my married prince charming. Secret Lovers Lane is my journal of my experience and the path to finding me amongst all the frogs I meet!
Monday, December 21, 2009
What A Hot Hose He Had
The fireman picked me up at 7:00PM. I jumped in his car. I hate the first second. Neither one of you knows what to say or think...OMG, does he like me? OMG are we into eachother? I have to say, I was pleasantly surprised. While he looked a tinge older than his pix...not much really...he looked hot like his pix. I was very happy and was hoping so was he. We went off to a nice restaurant where we shared appetizers, had drinks and even shared our meal. We had lobster and steak and scallops, shrimp and clams. We talked, we laughed and he did magic tricks. Very cool, he made the salt shaker disappear. He made a coin change....it was fun. We talked joking, we talked serious...it was a nice night. And the drinks, we kept drinking and drinking. I have decided I can't drink like that on first dates (you will see why!) But I wasn't tipsy but feeling very nice. The french fries came and there was one that was over 9 inches long. I am bigger than that he said and I started laughing. I actually snapped a pix of the fry which I will have to post tomorrow.
After dinner, we went to the bar for a drink and we sat and talked some more. He finally reached over and kissed me. Okay, he was into me. I thought he was, I mean he invited me to his getaway house for one unspecified weekend but if he didn't like me, he didn't have to invite me. As we were sitting at the bar, I realized this was the same restaurant that wacko pulled out his cock at the bar. He started to tell me how I would be very impressed with his. I giggled and said, oh no..are you going to whip it out?! I would never, he said. I would just show pictures. We both laughed. He went on and on how magnificent it was....I was laughing hysterical. I reminded him that he shouldn't praise it so much, I might see it one day and call his bluff.
One more drink, and I actually was seeing a picture of his cock on his camera. Well I have to say, first, that he is built unbelievably. We are talking he has the broadest shoulders and strongest legs. He has one hell of a body. And his cock, I thought you couldn't build up muscle in your cock but this guys cock is something I have never seen before. Most guys cocks have girth but they are wide with thickness. This guy's cock reminded me of a budweiser bottle. It looked really round and as thick as a bottle. Wow, this wasd unique. And in length, it seemed long. His cock looked like it worked out!! lol
After kissing at the bar, we decided to go to a local arcade place. In front of the place, he leaned over in the car and kissed me. It got really hot and intense. The passion was flowing and I could feel myself getting super wet as I could also feel that he was getting super hard. At one point, II knew we had to get out of that car because we were attacking each other.
Playing the games, he was shocked when I beat him at a skeeball. Eventually he figured out that the scores were accumulating but I denied it. It was too funny how he couldn't believe I would win something. Air hockey, he kicked my butt. I was pretty good at deal or no deal and wheel of fortune. We drank some more and we played the games and it was really a lot of fun.
At one point, we sat down at the bar and drank. The conversation ended up getting serious. As a fireman, he is faced with some serious things and well, one event actually has left him with some serious lung issues. He also told me that they found spots on his kidneys which he isn't checking into. That made me sad. I could tell that his eyes were getting a little watery. How this conversation came to be? We were talking about life. How you gotta live one day at a time. How you should just go for it and not think about tomorrow because there might not be a tomorrow. Do today and live it like it were your last day. (Okay, so now you must be seeing the frame of mind that was developing....drinks, hot man, live today....need I say more!)
We actually played in the arcade until one in the morning. We handed in our tickets and I got...a stuffed frog!!!! Yes, for my bed and I must confess, a Scooby Doo. Scooby Doo always makes me happy but then of course I had a fleeting moment of thinking of Mystery Man (which passed now that I know he is fucking around). With stuffed animals in hand, we went to the car and headed to my house.
Talking and laughing the whole way home. We got to my block and we stopped at the corner so I could kiss him goodnight. Well, that was some hell of a kisss....it was intense and hot and I didn't want to stop. Strong, his body so hard against me....I didn't want to sit there just in case my neighbors would see so we went to the schoolyard and parked.
Well, when we got to the parking lot, I don't even remember starting to kiss but it started to get super hot. And I felt myself getting super horny....and his cock was super hard and I had to see it up close. So as his hands massaged my breasts and he squeezed my nipple, I removed his cock from his pants. AllI could say is WOW. that baby was round like a beer bottle. He was super endowed, I have never seen anything quite like it...my hand didn't fit around it...I stroked up and down and he moaned with each stroke. And I could feel myself getting wetter and wetter and pulsating more and more. Oh my, this was getting way too heated but I couldn't stop. The more I touched his cock, the more I wanted it deep inside of me.
I pulled him over to my seat and we lowered the chair. His hot body was lying over me, his shirt was off now and I could hardly contain myself. Dear God, this man was built with a six pack and more. My pants were opened and his were too...thankfully we had nothing or we would have fucked right there. But he touched me and he could feel the wetness which made him moan even loader....I was still stroking his cock when he moved it up to my mouth...I hesitated but then I couldn't resist....he kept leaning above me and moving his cock in and out of my mouth. My pants were all the way down now...and I just had to rub my clit for one second, the idea of the car passing, us in the open, his hard cock and body, his cock in my mouth.....and then he said..oh man, I can't hold it, I am going to cum... so cum I said.... and at the same time, we both climaxed and he shot his load all over me hair and face....he quickly grabbed his shirt to wipe me off..I giggled. I can't remember the last time I came so quickly and got so damn wet like that with little help.
He drove me home and kissed me good night. I don't remember much about getting into the house. And I felt great. I sent him a text the next morning, he answered and said he had a fun time too. And then I didn't hear from him or did he say we will have to do this again. It just laid there and I realized what a mistake I made. I should have refrained but I didn't. It just felt right. Of course, my friends all yelled at me and that made it worse. Today, I couldn't take it anymore, I called and apologized for drinking and what happened.
He called back a 1/2 hour later....Hey baby, who are you apologizing to? I thought we were going with the live and let live attitude? I know, but I felt like it wasn't appropriate. Oh come on, stop it. He wasn't feeling well, had been at the doctors. I'll call on him to check on him tomorrow. I guess I like more definite plans after. Like, hopefully we can get together again soon?!?
On another note, Mr. Porsche called on Friday night, two times. I think he knew, I always answer my phone. He called on Saturday to check on me. And my buddy, Mr. Security, called today. He is going through a tough divorce and he needed to talk. I love that we are friends. The movie Hangover is coming to Movie On Demand next week and we have made a date to watch that together at my house. I don't know when but hopefully soon. Things are okay with us and I like it. With Mr. Security, I think its not the right time for us but for some reason, I think we will be together again in the future. Only time will tell.....
There are others, Divorce Attorney wanted to come over, Mr. Astronaut/the Cop and I are fighting over a threesome. I am perfect except for that is his words. Grrrr....after I told him about my date, he ran onto Ashley Madison and has been on there for two days now consistently. He's trying to find that perfect woman. I keep annoying him by writing, you will never find anyone like me..your loss baby. It's pissing him off...lol
Friday, December 18, 2009
A Fireman, A Dream Bed and A Pond Of Frogs
As for the other men...interesting point. Truth is Mr. Porsche makes me very happy. I have been really happy with him and we have been having some great sex sessions. I also have been so busy that I haven't even been able to keep up on telling you all our encounters (one I still didnt tell you). As for the other men, there are many BUT none that has really made an impression. When online, I am finding that the beginning is exactly the same for each one so until one stands out from the pack...its almost not worth writing about them.
Mr. Security is back in the picture. We discussed our awkward rendezvous and he admitted that he felt guilt for the first time with this new girlfriend he has. Interesting...ok, I said. We don't have to ever have sex again. Wait, wait, I didn't say ever. No, I said. I insist, let's wait and just be buddies. And of course, once I said that, he has been calling everyday! Actually, we are trying to get together to hang one night and watch tv in my new theater room.
Today is a VERY BIG DAY FOR ME!!! My Four Poster Bed Is Being Delivered!!!!!!!!! And so are the seats to my theater room....OOOOOOOOOOOO....husband out and I am improving the area. I can't wait for my bed. I am almost tempted to cancel my date tonight so I can enjoy my new bed sooner!!!!! lol For all of you who have been around awhile, you know I have dreamed about a four poster bed for five years now. I didn't get it because first I couldn't afford it then I didn't want to share it with the hubby and I feared losing it if I got divorced. So today, is a big moment for me! The bed represents my independence as well as my sexual freedom......
Tonight I have a date with a fireman. He's sweet, a little too corny with the jokes and he is built like a brickhouse...lol His voice (a little blue collarish and a little too talkative) does not match his looks. His looks, if he does look like this, boy oh boy, I will be a happy woman. He is taking me for a lobster dinner (he recommended it) and then we are going to a local amusement place to play games, bowl, air hockey....yes, that was my choice. What was sweet was he said that even if we saw each other and we sexually didn't hit it off, he didn't care because I am someone he knows he is really going to enjoy being with. Isn't that nice?
Another cop has surfaced into my life. I admit it, I have been reeling him in on Ashley Madison. One drunk night I ended up sexting with him and sent him a pix of my pussy. I have been snapping pix of my pussy way too much lately. Even sent one to the surgeon of the past who has been IMing me again. Well now he is interested....lol I have such a thing for cops. And then there is the old cop who I can't get out of my head. the undercover one who wants the threesome.....we get so close to meeting and each time he starts with the threesome thing again. Grrrr....today I told him..well you hold out for that threesome, and tonight, I will fuck the fireman and tonorrow night a lawyer and you will still be using your hand!
The others I have been talking to? Honestly, I guess there are four or five more. But they haven't even made it to the gate yet.
On the homefront, the kid is running me into the ground. At 16, he is brutal and when he reminds me of his father, I could puke. The ex stayed away for a week and honestly it was nice and quiet. He came in last night, started raiding my refrigerator, fighting with my son, yelling at me....I started yelling....get out, get out....I can't take it. Truth is, he has the kids this weekend and I need a break from my son. He hasn't slept there yet, hopefully this weekend he will. I have had enough, he's wild and overwhelming....aaahhh, I may not even get out of my princess bed tomorrow or Sunday.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Leaps and Bounds Above The Others, Yet Sexually Not Enough For ME?!?!?..
My neighbors husband just passed away a few months ago. I went over last night for coffee with a couple of neighbors. Woman chatting! It was then that I realized that my life is so wild compared to all of them. Oh, each woman admitted to an affair. But as I was sitting there, the question was more, so which affair do I admit to? It was also at that point that i realized that even though these woman had affairs, they were truly vanilla. They didn't use the affair as an experimental ground. The didn't have the wild stories of toys and handcuffs and millions of positions. At the quietest point of my life (now!) I am still having sexual encounters and seeing more men than they did in a lifetime.
One of the girl's is online as well. She is attractive but I see her as very prudish I guess. Is it my sexual appetite that draws men to me? I think a lot has to do with my blog actually. I have learned how to be open, express my wants and desires and not give a crap about what is prim and proper I guess. This one woman says she has a date or two a month. That she has seen one man a few times but she isn't flooded with dates. Not being conceited or a pompous ass, I truly didn't understand that. My reality is, I could have 5 dates in a week if I wanted to with good looking guys. At this point, I am blowing them off because i am too busy. She was shocked by this and I was shocked by her experience (or lack of). Ironically, I still don't know what I want. I yearn for that closeness to someone yet fear that I will find someone really special.
Gotta update ya on Mr. Porsche.....the sex has been fabulous. Even he has been saying that we have hit new levels. And I have a date this weekend with a very built, hot fireman. I really hope he is as good looking as his pictures. there is a blue collar smartness to him yet you can see he is rough around the edges. He's funny, he's nice and we have good conversation but as usual, I feel there is something missing. However, he is worth the meeting because what is missing may just be my white collar stick up my ass or it may be that he is a comedian a lot of the time but he's a little funny. I love the quick witted, smart humor more than a one man comedy routine. I guess Friday night, I will find out.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Taking Mr. Porsche to the Place that I considered to be MY PLACE with Mystery Man was a big step for me. Granted, I know that Mystery Man has probably been there a million times with other woman but for me--it was our place. I was nervous that the flashbacks would be overwhelming. I was nervous that I would even see his car there and freak out...I was also nervous that Mr. Porsche was going to ask me about the motel and if I had ever been there before. I don't lie....I may not always go into detail on things and even avoid things at time but if he came straight out and asked..I would have had to admit it. Well luckily for me, he didn't ask. I did make a snide comment, did you tell them you knew me? you would have gotten a discount..and I laughed. He just grabbed me and said Oh for some reason, I think I would have! And that was the end of that. Whew....
So my conclusion is this place has magic walls. Location. Location. Location. And this location is smoking! the walls are acoustically padded with this special material to absorb sound (and it looks so slutty like carpeting on the walls). There are mirrors everywhere, over the bed with neon lights, on the ceiling, a full mirror on the two walls......even a shelf which is actually perfect height to use to bend over or put your leg up on for deeper penetration. the television has three porno channels....and wouldn't you know it, the one on was the S&M channel. Dominance and Submission, Mr. Porsche was into it.
His cock was super hard. Reality is when that cock is hard...it is huge. The S&M channel was heating us up even more....he brought our toys and boy oh boy....those eggs were vibrating inside of me. There was no slow in our approach...it was hot, it was ravaging, it was goal oriented. Yes, the goal was that we both would cum!!
He squeezed my nipples till I screamed....he slapped my ass as I begged for more...I could hear myself screaming but it was an out of body experience...he thrusted and thrusted until my back arched and I came sooo hard. I could feel myself dripping as my body collapsed on the bed. But he wasn't done with me....he flipped me over and put the vibrator on my clit. He knows that my clit is so sensitive, my nipples were pointy and I needed a break but he wouldn't until I came again....
And then we collapsed on the bed.....and he held me in the neon lights as we watched the girls on tv eating each other out. Yes, this place is magic. the room certainly adds to the experience. His cock was still hard and ready to go. I wrapped my lips around him and sucked as I played with his balls. One finger massaging his prostate...he was about to cum....oh yes, he was right there.
So this magic motel is no longer exclusive......I love that place...definitely adds to sex being hotter. Although I do confess, MM and I had done it in another hotel and it was dripping too.
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Tie Me Up Baby!!
Thanks!!!! xoxoxo
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Mr. Hunk Is Over The Top
Tiger Woods Report On Someone Rushed To Hospital
So the report of over 10+ women that he has had affairs with, Tiger baby, you were just damn stupid. Stupid in his selection and the numbers. A waitress from Perkins?!?! A porn star? And he allowed someone to take pix of him on their cell phone. Rumor has it the girl is talking to PlayGirl now. There are fires popping up all over the place. I cannot believe he had such a God complex here. How did he not think that these waitresses wouldn't want to cash in?
Gotta say....he should have gone to Ashley Madison, he should have found one girl to bang that was married or in a position where she needed an affair to be quiet too. As for his wife, at this point, whether she loves him or not, I can't see how she could stay with him. 1-3 woman of respectable backgrounds....she would have survived. But from the list now and the woman he chose....the embarrassment alone is too much to endure.
I always said, I didn't care so much if my husband found out as much as I did if my kids found out. His kids are young but this is something he won't be able to erase out of history. Wow, transgressions....I think he needs a few more sssssssssss on that. For his sake and his families...I hope it dies down and no one was hospitalized...sadly, I think this is just the beginning for him.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
The Deadly Muffin
Like a little kid, I ran to the door and dragged him in by the hand. I gave him a big kiss and hug..Don't move, don't move....I ran upstairs and threw a bra on and brushed my teeth. I ran down and gave him another big hug...and grabbed his hand. He handed me the muffin and I looked into his eyes and said Thank you...but those eyes, those eyes captivate me and he knows it. Suddenly our lips met...and we stood in my livingroom kissing....what seemed like a half hour that you could feel the attraction and chemistry between us.
I quickly grabbed his hand...let me give you a tour of my disaster. And I showed him around the house. As we stopped in each room (except for the kids rooms) we began to kiss. I could feel his hands on me....oh he was so damn hot.
we went to my new theatre room that I just put in..which is waiting for the furniture. Our big joke is that is where I am putting the pole for my pole dancing. And then we returned to my bedroom...Yes, he was the first man in my bed. Actually I just pushed him on it and like a little kid I said....Wooo Hoooo a man is in my new bed. As I was jumping around, he pulled me down and so we began to kiss some more. Its a strange thing. we are friends but the attraction is there. slowly I worked my way to his pants..oh that wasnt his phone in his pocket. It was his nice hard cock. Come look at my new toy drawer. And I opened up a drawer that I now have made into a toy drawer. Yes, there is vibrators, ropes, lubricants, gels, massagers...so many toys. He was laughing so hard. And I grabbed my bunny to play with and threw him back on the bed.
I worked my way down to his cock and I got on my knees. Sucked him and licked him as he moaned. You give the best blow jobs...mmmmm, words I love to hear. I didn't want to do him...but it was getting warmer and hotter and damn... So you know when you know you shouldn't be doing something and then you manage to justify it in your head? Well after an hour, I needed to have him inside of me....but this is where it started to get weird....I had to go to pee, he had to look for a rubber and he was really nervous and I was really nervous and quite frankly the whole mood was lost and as he put on the condom so was his hard on.
so now I took it as if it was me....maybe it was. He said he was nervous and here we were with his limp dick. Fuck!! I should have never agreed..I didn't feel it was right. the lights shining in my bedroom, my new bed didn't come so bending over was uncomfortable...crap. So I looked at him and took the condom off and said Don't be nervous it is me...and I began to suck on him again which made him come back. We did fuck but it wasn't like we have in the past. It was uncomfortable now...I was very self conscious...it was not great. He came or so he said he did..I should have checked the condom but I didn't.
He kissed me good by, he left. I called him and said don't weird out on me. and he said he wouldn't. but he was suppose to come over on Friday and he didn't. and our conversations have been far and few between. So my bed wasn't exactly christened the way I wanted it to be. And now, I ended up crying. Out of all the new guys, I cared about him the most. I like him as a person, as a friend and lover. Actually if I had to choose, I would choose his friendship over sex. He makes me laugh like no one else.
Kind of said about this...what a damn deadly muffin! Oh Ironically the ex called during and wanted to come over to work on the computer. Good thing I screamed at him the night before about popping over like he had been doing. Phew....I had left the door open while we were screwing...lol
Friday, December 04, 2009
Ya Think I Should Be Banging Him?

at was the best sex we ever had. My mattress was on the floor afterwards, having fallen off the frame from the passionate and hot sex we had.Thursday, December 03, 2009
Things Have Been Wild
After realizing that Mystery Man is out on the prowl again, I feel like a fool for even worrying about him and honestly, I wasn't moving on. I was afraid he was reading my blog and I would risk getting him back. So after beating myself up, annoyed at him beyond belief....I said fuck it!
So....I have been going wild. I have been busy.....I haven't been on Ashley Madison in awhile because quite frankly I am already talking to too many men. Updates, I am so far behind. Let's say wild sex with Mr. Porsche on Friday...yes, we made up. He realized he was an ass on Wednesday and he was amazing on Friday. It was WOW!! Details to come. We went to the motel I have only gone to with Mystery Man. My favorite place, it was our place, but now it was time for me to introduce it to Mr. Porsche...oh it was hot!!!
And then Mr. Security...well lets just say he just showed up at my door and let's just say my bed has been christened! no longer a virgin bed....
And then there are the newbies.....Mr. Landscaper, Mr. Darkside, Sugar Daddy and then the new hunk. We are talking muscles on top of muscles on top of muscles. I told him I wasn't feeling so great about myself. That he should come back into my life at another date. Interesting how that just made him want me more. The more I turn him away, the more he wants me.
so things are great. A little bummed about Mr. Security--I will go into details. Let's just say that my neighbor was sitting here and three men called and she was dying. We were like little girls...damn girl, you are having fun. I guess I am but quite honestly, the one I want to hang with hasn't come around. I guess I am searching for that feeling I had when I was in balance with MM and Mr. Porsche. Man, that feeling was amazing.
Tiger Woods- Is it really our business?!?!
Now he should have been smarter, don't ya think? Ashley Madison dear man. You should have chosen a married woman who would not want to rock his world. Not single woman who are looking for the public eye (and money). Ironically, this whole thing came to a head (hehe) because he cheated on the girl he was cheating on and she found out.
Well Tiger Woods, extramarital affairs always come out. However, I gotta say, I am shocked and kind of repulsed on how it is on every news channel with commentators debating it. Like it is a war, a missing child, a serial murderer. Please, the man had a few extramarital affairs. Quite honestly, it is between him and his wife. My opinion, most people like Tiger Woods, so leave the guy alone. It's sad and I am sure overwhelming. Think about it, if a regular person gets busted, their life turns becomes a whirlwind. I can't imagine having the world talking about it.
and then there is Mr. Porsche's take on it. He is saying how Tiger getting caught is bad for the entire male race of adulterers. Wives all across America are checking their husband's phones to see the numbers that they have callen. I mean, if clean cut Tiger Woods is having an affair, what about my husband. Yes, woman are bringing it up at the dinner table and in the bedroom. A perfect way to see your husband's reaction. A perfect way to see if he has a guilt attack or begins to shake.
So my take on it. Leave Tiger Woods alone. Give him and his wife a little room. And to everyone else who is cheating, remember, I always say....erase those text messages, emails and phone logs!!!!